Turn My Back On You
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Spoilers: Crush
I looked back at him and saw in his eyes all that I had been missing in my seemingly perfect life. The rain fell gracefully down his face, droplets clinging to his lashes and I felt the heavy weight of desolation bear upon my heart because I was trapped with the quarterback. I yearned for Clark like I had never yearned for anything in my life but to him I could not go. I realized that for everything that Whitney was to me, Clark was more, much more. Sadly, I knew that I would never have another chance to be with Clark. That one thought caused my heart the greatest pain even the death of my parents paled in comparison. I looked into those eyes. I looked deeply into his eyes and saw everything that I wanted and all that I needed. I also saw the death of our brief affair, in his shimmering emerald eyes, because now I was chained to the side of Whitney. I had to turn my back on Clark and the love that shined so very brightly from his beautiful eyes. The rain hid my sorrowful tears but it could not disguise my grief at the loss that I had just sustained at Whitney's hands. Because he wasn't that strong, he needed me but he wasn't at all what I needed and I ached to tell him. Never would he be mine. The dream would not become my reality.