(So sorry it took so long for me to update this. Standard
disclaimers: Same as all the rest of the chapters)
I sit nervously at my desk waiting for harm to finish up his paper work. He is already behind, and when I saw Tiner head into his office with a mountain of paper work, I knew he wasn't going to be able to make it. I sighed and put my head in my hands. Why were these things always happening to me? Minutes latter Harm tapped lightly on my door and came in. But before he could say a word I cut him off.
"I know, I know. How about tonight at my place? I'll order us some pizza."
"That's great, say about 1900?"
"I'll see you then."
After he left, I let out a long sigh; I didn't know I was holding in. Since when did Harm make me turn in to a giddy sixteen year old? Probably since I figured out that I was in love with him.
Hours latter and about six cups of coffee, I finally rose from my desk and shoved some papers into my brief case. This could wait for the weekend, but my talk with Harm I knew, couldn't.
It was nineteen 0 five before Harm showed up, looking handsome in a tight black tee shirt, and loose fitting jeans. It took me a moment to get myself together and take the pizza box from his hands.
"You okay Mac?"
"Why do you ask?"
"You just seem kinda quiet tonight."
"I told you I needed to talk."
"So let's talk."
"Not yet, I'm starved."
Harm laughed, "Food before anything else, right Mac?"
"Not before some things," I mumbled.
"What?"
"Nothing, let's just eat."
Twenty minutes latter, the pizza was long gone, and Harm and I were sitting in a comfortable silence when I decided this was time.
"Harm?"
"Yeah, Mac?"
"I need you to do something for me."
"Anything Mac, you know that."
"I need you to listen to me." Getting a confused look from him, I went on. "I need you to listen to me and not say anything until I'm done. Can you do that for me?"
"Sure Mac."
I took a deep breath, and clenched my hands in my lap. It was now or never.
"Harm, when I was told that you had died-I died right there. I don't know why it took me so long to say what I have wanted to tell you, but you made it clear that you weren't ready to let go."
Harm opened his mouth, but closed it again, and sat back in the chair.
"After Mic left me, I don't know why it was you I came to. You-you always were there for me, even when I didn't want you to be. That's when I knew I was in love with you. Not for your boyish charm or your cocky take no prisoners attitude, but for who you are. You are everything to me, even when you hurt me."
I stopped, and tried to define the look on his face. He said nothing as I paused to take a breath. It took me twenty two more minutes to finish my little speech; I held my breath as I waited for him to say something.
(A/N: I know I didn't write out her whole speech, but after hearing it so many times, I find it boring to have to rewrite what everyone already knows.)
He said nothing, but knelt down in front of me and stroked the side of my face.
"Sarah don't think for one minute that my feelings don't match your. During the last few days, being dead, made me do a lot of thinking. If I really did die, there would be so many things left unsaid-so many things I would never get to do. On the ferry Mac, the things I couldn't let go of-Mac everyone I ever let get to close to me-my dad, Diane, Jordan, Renee, my friends- I let them get to close to me, and they end up dieing or hurting me. I don't-didn't want to let anyone in, because I didn't want to get hurt that way again. I built up those walls so thick over the past few years-that no matter how much I wanted to let you in, I just couldn't risk getting hurt liked that again. But after awhile, I figured out that just having you at a friend, wasn't enough. I'm sorry it just took me this long to tell you how much I loved you. How much I have always loved you."
"Oh Harm," I said just before our lips met. It wasn't a fireworks kind of kiss, but a soft tender one, that was a silent promise of things to come. And tonight, that was all I needed.
The End
(Please tell me what you think. Again, I'm so sorry it took me this long to update. I don't plan on doing a sequel, but I might be persuaded to do otherwise.)
I sit nervously at my desk waiting for harm to finish up his paper work. He is already behind, and when I saw Tiner head into his office with a mountain of paper work, I knew he wasn't going to be able to make it. I sighed and put my head in my hands. Why were these things always happening to me? Minutes latter Harm tapped lightly on my door and came in. But before he could say a word I cut him off.
"I know, I know. How about tonight at my place? I'll order us some pizza."
"That's great, say about 1900?"
"I'll see you then."
After he left, I let out a long sigh; I didn't know I was holding in. Since when did Harm make me turn in to a giddy sixteen year old? Probably since I figured out that I was in love with him.
Hours latter and about six cups of coffee, I finally rose from my desk and shoved some papers into my brief case. This could wait for the weekend, but my talk with Harm I knew, couldn't.
It was nineteen 0 five before Harm showed up, looking handsome in a tight black tee shirt, and loose fitting jeans. It took me a moment to get myself together and take the pizza box from his hands.
"You okay Mac?"
"Why do you ask?"
"You just seem kinda quiet tonight."
"I told you I needed to talk."
"So let's talk."
"Not yet, I'm starved."
Harm laughed, "Food before anything else, right Mac?"
"Not before some things," I mumbled.
"What?"
"Nothing, let's just eat."
Twenty minutes latter, the pizza was long gone, and Harm and I were sitting in a comfortable silence when I decided this was time.
"Harm?"
"Yeah, Mac?"
"I need you to do something for me."
"Anything Mac, you know that."
"I need you to listen to me." Getting a confused look from him, I went on. "I need you to listen to me and not say anything until I'm done. Can you do that for me?"
"Sure Mac."
I took a deep breath, and clenched my hands in my lap. It was now or never.
"Harm, when I was told that you had died-I died right there. I don't know why it took me so long to say what I have wanted to tell you, but you made it clear that you weren't ready to let go."
Harm opened his mouth, but closed it again, and sat back in the chair.
"After Mic left me, I don't know why it was you I came to. You-you always were there for me, even when I didn't want you to be. That's when I knew I was in love with you. Not for your boyish charm or your cocky take no prisoners attitude, but for who you are. You are everything to me, even when you hurt me."
I stopped, and tried to define the look on his face. He said nothing as I paused to take a breath. It took me twenty two more minutes to finish my little speech; I held my breath as I waited for him to say something.
(A/N: I know I didn't write out her whole speech, but after hearing it so many times, I find it boring to have to rewrite what everyone already knows.)
He said nothing, but knelt down in front of me and stroked the side of my face.
"Sarah don't think for one minute that my feelings don't match your. During the last few days, being dead, made me do a lot of thinking. If I really did die, there would be so many things left unsaid-so many things I would never get to do. On the ferry Mac, the things I couldn't let go of-Mac everyone I ever let get to close to me-my dad, Diane, Jordan, Renee, my friends- I let them get to close to me, and they end up dieing or hurting me. I don't-didn't want to let anyone in, because I didn't want to get hurt that way again. I built up those walls so thick over the past few years-that no matter how much I wanted to let you in, I just couldn't risk getting hurt liked that again. But after awhile, I figured out that just having you at a friend, wasn't enough. I'm sorry it just took me this long to tell you how much I loved you. How much I have always loved you."
"Oh Harm," I said just before our lips met. It wasn't a fireworks kind of kiss, but a soft tender one, that was a silent promise of things to come. And tonight, that was all I needed.
The End
(Please tell me what you think. Again, I'm so sorry it took me this long to update. I don't plan on doing a sequel, but I might be persuaded to do otherwise.)