"Pretend"
By: Brown-Eyes
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters, GL does!
Summary: Padme reflects on how she didn't allow herself to 'see' that Anakin was slipping away. Kinda A/A fic.can you believe it? Please don't be angry my Obidala readers! Please R&R!
Notes: My lovely Obidala readers please don't feel betrayed. I wrote this in the pure hell of writers block. I still am a true Obidala shipper! I promise I will have a great chapter of "Tales of The Brokenhearted" up soon!
For JediGaladriel and ami-padme. Their brilliant piece of fiction "The Ascension of the Queen" helped inspire this fic.
Please if you can go check it out: http://boards.theforce.net/message.asp?topic=6528225
Anyways on to the story!
*~*~*~*~*
I wanted to pretend Ani.
Pretend that I didn't see what you were becoming...
Pretend that I couldn't see what you became.
Why did I allow myself to pretend my love? It's simple really. Because I didn't allow myself to see what was that you were slipping away from me. I thought that if I turned my eyes away from the darkness that was engulfing you then it wouldn't be real. If you can't see it than it's only make- believe, right Ani?
But it wasn't make-believe.
It was very real.
Even as you sparkling blue eyes began to become dull and lifeless with fury...I still prefer the fairy tale to reality. In the fairy tale I still had my gallant Jedi Knight instead of a man who lived in the world of shadows.
I embraced my blissful illusions because then I could still love you and be free from the horrific truth.
Then all in an instant the illusion shattered into a million glittering pieces. You shattered as well Ani. And all that was left among our broken perfection was the truth. The truth was the creature you had become right in front of my blind eyes.
And so when I finally began to see I was powerless.
You shunned me and denounced our love.
You weren't mine anymore...you were Palpatine's puppet.
So now I live my life in a whirl of fear. A child without a father grows in my womb. We are alone all because I was afraid of the truth.
All because I wanted to pretend.
*~*~*~*~*
Aw! Poor Padme.if only she had allowed herself to see!
Hope you guys enjoyed it!
Brown-Eyes
Ps: I have two questions that need to be answered. First how do you save to html? Secondly what's a Mary-Sue? People keep talking about that type of fan fiction on theforce.net and it really confuses me.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters, GL does!
Summary: Padme reflects on how she didn't allow herself to 'see' that Anakin was slipping away. Kinda A/A fic.can you believe it? Please don't be angry my Obidala readers! Please R&R!
Notes: My lovely Obidala readers please don't feel betrayed. I wrote this in the pure hell of writers block. I still am a true Obidala shipper! I promise I will have a great chapter of "Tales of The Brokenhearted" up soon!
For JediGaladriel and ami-padme. Their brilliant piece of fiction "The Ascension of the Queen" helped inspire this fic.
Please if you can go check it out: http://boards.theforce.net/message.asp?topic=6528225
Anyways on to the story!
*~*~*~*~*
I wanted to pretend Ani.
Pretend that I didn't see what you were becoming...
Pretend that I couldn't see what you became.
Why did I allow myself to pretend my love? It's simple really. Because I didn't allow myself to see what was that you were slipping away from me. I thought that if I turned my eyes away from the darkness that was engulfing you then it wouldn't be real. If you can't see it than it's only make- believe, right Ani?
But it wasn't make-believe.
It was very real.
Even as you sparkling blue eyes began to become dull and lifeless with fury...I still prefer the fairy tale to reality. In the fairy tale I still had my gallant Jedi Knight instead of a man who lived in the world of shadows.
I embraced my blissful illusions because then I could still love you and be free from the horrific truth.
Then all in an instant the illusion shattered into a million glittering pieces. You shattered as well Ani. And all that was left among our broken perfection was the truth. The truth was the creature you had become right in front of my blind eyes.
And so when I finally began to see I was powerless.
You shunned me and denounced our love.
You weren't mine anymore...you were Palpatine's puppet.
So now I live my life in a whirl of fear. A child without a father grows in my womb. We are alone all because I was afraid of the truth.
All because I wanted to pretend.
*~*~*~*~*
Aw! Poor Padme.if only she had allowed herself to see!
Hope you guys enjoyed it!
Brown-Eyes
Ps: I have two questions that need to be answered. First how do you save to html? Secondly what's a Mary-Sue? People keep talking about that type of fan fiction on theforce.net and it really confuses me.