MOVING ON
Chapter 1- The Beginning
It's been 4 years since Jamie died. I was beginning medical school, which practically took up all my time. Still at night I sometimes lay in bed crying wishing she was here with me. I miss her so, and it's hard to move on.
I sometimes feel like she's here with me. When I have time I go to church and I feel more connected to her there.
How I miss her.
I love her so much.
I still sometimes wonder.
Why is she gone?
Chapter 2- The Bugger
Medical school is hard, yet I keep studying harder wanting Jamie to be proud of me, even though she's not really here. I was in class 5 minutes early, wanting to read a little more of the bible. I just started reading it and it made me think more about God. Just then came in my worst enemy Rachel Chan. " Hey bookworm. What you reading?" She then sat next to me. " Why are you sitting there?" " What? It's a free country you know." "You just want to bug me." "Wow! You are smart aren't you? So what is that book anyways?" " The bible. Have you ever read it before?" " No I haven't. I don't go to church and I'm not Christian." " Oh, so you go to temple? Are you a Buddhist?" " Nope." "Do you have a religion at all?" "Yeah. My own religion." Before I could ask her what she means class started. After class was over, Rachel was leaving in a hurry. I ran up to her and she stopped and looked at me and said, " You know Carter it's hard to read you. I thought you hated me. Now here you are chasing after me."
I " I just wanted to ask you what do you mean by your own religion." "Lets walk and talk or we'll be late for class." After we walk in silence for a minute she finally explained to me. " Some people they don't believe in God. Some believe in goddesses or angels. Some people mix and match." " What do you mean?" " Some believe in God, goddesses, Buddha, and the Chinese angels. What do you call that? It doesn't have a name because it's not what all people believe in. I believe in God, the Chinese angels and Gods, and goddesses. That's not being a Buddhist or Christian is it? So I call it my own religion."
We were in our seats when she finished talking. Class was supposed to start in a couple of minutes. " Look I know you might disagree. Some people they get mad because they think this is wrong or something. But its true I don't believe everything the Christian teaches or what Chinese teaches. I just believe in what I want to believe."
And like that she turn to stare at the teacher that was walking in. Our conversation was over, leaving me to think.
Chapter 1- The Beginning
It's been 4 years since Jamie died. I was beginning medical school, which practically took up all my time. Still at night I sometimes lay in bed crying wishing she was here with me. I miss her so, and it's hard to move on.
I sometimes feel like she's here with me. When I have time I go to church and I feel more connected to her there.
How I miss her.
I love her so much.
I still sometimes wonder.
Why is she gone?
Chapter 2- The Bugger
Medical school is hard, yet I keep studying harder wanting Jamie to be proud of me, even though she's not really here. I was in class 5 minutes early, wanting to read a little more of the bible. I just started reading it and it made me think more about God. Just then came in my worst enemy Rachel Chan. " Hey bookworm. What you reading?" She then sat next to me. " Why are you sitting there?" " What? It's a free country you know." "You just want to bug me." "Wow! You are smart aren't you? So what is that book anyways?" " The bible. Have you ever read it before?" " No I haven't. I don't go to church and I'm not Christian." " Oh, so you go to temple? Are you a Buddhist?" " Nope." "Do you have a religion at all?" "Yeah. My own religion." Before I could ask her what she means class started. After class was over, Rachel was leaving in a hurry. I ran up to her and she stopped and looked at me and said, " You know Carter it's hard to read you. I thought you hated me. Now here you are chasing after me."
I " I just wanted to ask you what do you mean by your own religion." "Lets walk and talk or we'll be late for class." After we walk in silence for a minute she finally explained to me. " Some people they don't believe in God. Some believe in goddesses or angels. Some people mix and match." " What do you mean?" " Some believe in God, goddesses, Buddha, and the Chinese angels. What do you call that? It doesn't have a name because it's not what all people believe in. I believe in God, the Chinese angels and Gods, and goddesses. That's not being a Buddhist or Christian is it? So I call it my own religion."
We were in our seats when she finished talking. Class was supposed to start in a couple of minutes. " Look I know you might disagree. Some people they get mad because they think this is wrong or something. But its true I don't believe everything the Christian teaches or what Chinese teaches. I just believe in what I want to believe."
And like that she turn to stare at the teacher that was walking in. Our conversation was over, leaving me to think.