Chapter 8- The dream
After a half hour I decided to go visit Jamie's father. On the way there I did all I could to try and not think about what happened. When I finally got to the old house where Jamie and I practiced lines, memories started flashing in my head. I was almost about to cry until the door opened.
" Landon, its good to see you gain. Come in." It was the reverend; he still looked the same when I saw him before. He led me to the couch and sat across me. I saw Jamie and my wedding picture on the mantel, which again almost brought tears to my eyes.
" So, Landon how's school?"
" Its good. I was having problems but a friend helped me. What about you sir?" I said wanting to turn my thought a way from Rachel.
" Great. But I'm getting older I can see it in my hair." He said with that nice warm smile.
" Your not old sir."
" Oh well, no matter how much you deny it I am Landon. Anyways how's it going Landon besides school?"
I looked down deciding whether or not I should tell him about Rachel. I needed to talk to someone, I knew that. So I went out and told him everything. Before I knew it, it was dinnertime.
Jamie's dad didn't say anything for a while. We sat in silence for a while at the dinner table. It was like he was in deep thought.
Finally he said, " Landon I believe its time for you to move on. Jamie would want you to, your mother and I want you to. I learned to accept Jamie's death, but I don't believe you have. I know you must feel guilty, like your cheating on Jamie. Yet, I know Jamie wants you to go for it. It seems to me that this Rachel girl changed you like Jamie did. Still what Rachel said to you is true. A relationship must be equal. It wouldn't be fair to her if your heart doesn't rightfully belong to her. Its time to let go of Jamie and to move on.
Like that he turned the conversation to a different subject. I decided to stay the night in Jamie's room. I took a little time replaying the memories of Jamie. I knew what the reverend said was right, but I don't know if I can let go.
I went out to the balcony where Jamie and I danced. I sat down and looked at the stars.
" You know Landon, what my father said was right. You have to move on."
I looked at my right and there sitting next to me was Jamie. She was in the gown she wore for the play and she was glowing.
" I must be dreaming," I said in bewilderment.
" Maybe you are maybe your not. But either way we need to talk. Landon, go to Rachel she's good for you. Learn to let me go once and for all. But once you do love her the same as you love me."
" But-"
" Landon our love can never be replaced. Our love it's so different and wonderful. No one can have what we have. But it hurts me to see you blocking yourself from someone you love. I know you'll never stop loving me and never forget me. But its time to move on." She said all that in a soft and gentle voice with a smile.
" And you know, Rachel's right. I am so proud of you with all my heart. And I will never stop loving you."
I then realize I was crying. I then said slowly, "I miss you so much. I'm afraid I might lose or forget how you look."
" Landon that can never happen. I know you; you'll fight to keep these memories. You have pictures too, nothing can erase our memories together." She leaned forward and wiped a way one of my tears. She then kissed me on the cheek and then the lips.
" I have to go now."
" Wait, before you do what about one last dance?" I said standing up.
" Okay, just one dance", she said with a smile.
She got up and we both dance. She started to sing the song she sang at the play. I closed my eyes and let it all sink in. Once Jamie sang the last note she whispered in my ear, " Goodbye Landon. I'll always love you."
I felt wind passing by me. I then opened my eyes and she was gone. I stepped back in the room and got changed and went under the covers and slept. I dreamn't the same dream. The one with the nurses pushing me to answer who will I save, Rachel or Jamie. But this time I wasn't confuse, I knew whom to save.
I turned to the doctor on my right, " You I want you to bring Jamie into Rachel's room. Now! Now!"
The doctor pushed Jamie out of her room and into Rachel's room. They were by each other side saying, ' Help me Landon.'
I grabbed both of their hands and said, " I love you to both, and nothing is going to happen. I'm not losing both of you. I love you two in the same yet different way."
Jamie smiled and looked me in the eyes and said, " Well then."
Then Rachel said with a small smile, " You found the answer to your problems."
After a half hour I decided to go visit Jamie's father. On the way there I did all I could to try and not think about what happened. When I finally got to the old house where Jamie and I practiced lines, memories started flashing in my head. I was almost about to cry until the door opened.
" Landon, its good to see you gain. Come in." It was the reverend; he still looked the same when I saw him before. He led me to the couch and sat across me. I saw Jamie and my wedding picture on the mantel, which again almost brought tears to my eyes.
" So, Landon how's school?"
" Its good. I was having problems but a friend helped me. What about you sir?" I said wanting to turn my thought a way from Rachel.
" Great. But I'm getting older I can see it in my hair." He said with that nice warm smile.
" Your not old sir."
" Oh well, no matter how much you deny it I am Landon. Anyways how's it going Landon besides school?"
I looked down deciding whether or not I should tell him about Rachel. I needed to talk to someone, I knew that. So I went out and told him everything. Before I knew it, it was dinnertime.
Jamie's dad didn't say anything for a while. We sat in silence for a while at the dinner table. It was like he was in deep thought.
Finally he said, " Landon I believe its time for you to move on. Jamie would want you to, your mother and I want you to. I learned to accept Jamie's death, but I don't believe you have. I know you must feel guilty, like your cheating on Jamie. Yet, I know Jamie wants you to go for it. It seems to me that this Rachel girl changed you like Jamie did. Still what Rachel said to you is true. A relationship must be equal. It wouldn't be fair to her if your heart doesn't rightfully belong to her. Its time to let go of Jamie and to move on.
Like that he turned the conversation to a different subject. I decided to stay the night in Jamie's room. I took a little time replaying the memories of Jamie. I knew what the reverend said was right, but I don't know if I can let go.
I went out to the balcony where Jamie and I danced. I sat down and looked at the stars.
" You know Landon, what my father said was right. You have to move on."
I looked at my right and there sitting next to me was Jamie. She was in the gown she wore for the play and she was glowing.
" I must be dreaming," I said in bewilderment.
" Maybe you are maybe your not. But either way we need to talk. Landon, go to Rachel she's good for you. Learn to let me go once and for all. But once you do love her the same as you love me."
" But-"
" Landon our love can never be replaced. Our love it's so different and wonderful. No one can have what we have. But it hurts me to see you blocking yourself from someone you love. I know you'll never stop loving me and never forget me. But its time to move on." She said all that in a soft and gentle voice with a smile.
" And you know, Rachel's right. I am so proud of you with all my heart. And I will never stop loving you."
I then realize I was crying. I then said slowly, "I miss you so much. I'm afraid I might lose or forget how you look."
" Landon that can never happen. I know you; you'll fight to keep these memories. You have pictures too, nothing can erase our memories together." She leaned forward and wiped a way one of my tears. She then kissed me on the cheek and then the lips.
" I have to go now."
" Wait, before you do what about one last dance?" I said standing up.
" Okay, just one dance", she said with a smile.
She got up and we both dance. She started to sing the song she sang at the play. I closed my eyes and let it all sink in. Once Jamie sang the last note she whispered in my ear, " Goodbye Landon. I'll always love you."
I felt wind passing by me. I then opened my eyes and she was gone. I stepped back in the room and got changed and went under the covers and slept. I dreamn't the same dream. The one with the nurses pushing me to answer who will I save, Rachel or Jamie. But this time I wasn't confuse, I knew whom to save.
I turned to the doctor on my right, " You I want you to bring Jamie into Rachel's room. Now! Now!"
The doctor pushed Jamie out of her room and into Rachel's room. They were by each other side saying, ' Help me Landon.'
I grabbed both of their hands and said, " I love you to both, and nothing is going to happen. I'm not losing both of you. I love you two in the same yet different way."
Jamie smiled and looked me in the eyes and said, " Well then."
Then Rachel said with a small smile, " You found the answer to your problems."