Chapter 13- The Perfect Ending to The Perfect Life
Its now been 6 years since Rachel and I got married. We were now in our 30's and we have the most beautiful kids. Our son, Timothy, is 5 and he is the bravest in the family. Lily, our 3 year old, is the sweetest and beautiful. And our last but not least child was little Jamie. She was only 6 month old and is as quiet as anyone baby can be.
You may think its weird to name my first love to one of my children. But it isn't, in fact I want them to know, when their older, that there was another Jamie and how she taught me faith and love.
After graduation, Rachel and I work together in a hospital not that far from my hometown. But after Rachel found out she was pregnant with Timothy she stopped. She became a housewife and what a great one she became. I work to support our family but I always had time for my family.
I take the kids to church when I can, with Rachel; sometimes we go to the one near our home. But other times we go to see Reverend Sullivan who is still standing strong. Rachel teaches her thoughts on religion to the kids and I teach mine. We're not bother at all about that, we respect and even learn more about each other religions. We do teach two same things to our kids though, faith and love, something that took me a long time to learn.
We started a program a year after we had Timothy. It was where people, a child or adult, who has cancer make wish list. They list the things they want to do before they die and we try to help them with it. Rachel and I thought of this when it was the anniversary death of Jamie. Rachel also had the idea of naming another star after Jamie, we named it Angel Jamie. So when someone is losing faith they just look up and find the star and just once again remember to have faith. It would seem as if Jamie was watching down of you helping you through the hard times.
Some of you might think I married Rachel to forget about Jamie. Or some might think Rachel resembles Jamie and I married her cause I see Jamie in her. These facts are wrong, I married Rachel for her. For who she is and for her alone. I love Jamie with all my heart and more and I still do. I also love Rachel with all my heart and will always love her. I love them in both the same and yet very very different ways.
If Jamie never died and Rachel came into my life, is something hard to think about. I don't know if I could choose and I know this thought will cross your mind. I know that Jamie died for a reason and it was in God's plan. Wherever Jamie is, in heaven or another life, I know she's happy and safe. How? I don't know, I have a feeling, a strong one.
" Landon? Hey its almost midnight shouldn't you be asleep, you have a big day tomorrow." Rachel came out onto the balcony in her pyjamas and came to sit of the arm of the chair I was sitting on.
" I'm writing my book. It's almost done; I just have to write a sentence or two." I said with a smile looking into her eyes.
" Okay, I'll wait up with you. I'm not tired anyways."
" No, I want you to go to sleep. You had a hard day with the kids."
" Fine dad. I'll go to bed, but I won't sleep until you come in. See how I compromise?" She said with a mischievous smile on her face.
" Your very clever. Now go." I ordered pointing to the door.
" Fine, fine, fine. Good night." She gave me a kiss and was walking towards the door.
" Rachel?" I said, stopping her halfway.
" Yeah?"
" Your beautiful as always."
" Thank you." She said with a confuse look. She then turn back around and walk up to me and said, " I love you."
" I love you too." I said looking into her eyes deeply. After a minute kiss she left me alone with the dark night with only the full moon to be my light.
I returned to my book and started to end it:
Jamie can never be replace, like Rachel can't be replace. I hope now she's proud of me. I have a perfect life and even though I'm not dead, I know I will have a perfect ending to this perfect life.
After I wrote that, I realize the book I worked on after Jamie's death was finally done. I ended it with an ending I know would come true.
I stood up and walked over to the edge of the balcony. I looked up into the stars and found the Angel Jamie star. I didn't know if it was my imagination but as the wind brushed past me, I heard, " I'll always be proud of you."
I then look up at the sky where the star was located. I saw it blink like an eye winking. I smiled and then walked back in the house. Before I walked in I turn around and I looked at my wedding finger which hold two rings, ones I never took off. With a smile I whispered, " Thank you for everything Jamie, I'll always love you."
I then turn back around and went into the house and into my room. I knew Rachel wasn't asleep yet so I went under the covers and turned to her. I kissed her head and hugged her and she hugged me back. I closed my eyes and slept with Rachel and Jamie in my heart forever.
The End.
Its now been 6 years since Rachel and I got married. We were now in our 30's and we have the most beautiful kids. Our son, Timothy, is 5 and he is the bravest in the family. Lily, our 3 year old, is the sweetest and beautiful. And our last but not least child was little Jamie. She was only 6 month old and is as quiet as anyone baby can be.
You may think its weird to name my first love to one of my children. But it isn't, in fact I want them to know, when their older, that there was another Jamie and how she taught me faith and love.
After graduation, Rachel and I work together in a hospital not that far from my hometown. But after Rachel found out she was pregnant with Timothy she stopped. She became a housewife and what a great one she became. I work to support our family but I always had time for my family.
I take the kids to church when I can, with Rachel; sometimes we go to the one near our home. But other times we go to see Reverend Sullivan who is still standing strong. Rachel teaches her thoughts on religion to the kids and I teach mine. We're not bother at all about that, we respect and even learn more about each other religions. We do teach two same things to our kids though, faith and love, something that took me a long time to learn.
We started a program a year after we had Timothy. It was where people, a child or adult, who has cancer make wish list. They list the things they want to do before they die and we try to help them with it. Rachel and I thought of this when it was the anniversary death of Jamie. Rachel also had the idea of naming another star after Jamie, we named it Angel Jamie. So when someone is losing faith they just look up and find the star and just once again remember to have faith. It would seem as if Jamie was watching down of you helping you through the hard times.
Some of you might think I married Rachel to forget about Jamie. Or some might think Rachel resembles Jamie and I married her cause I see Jamie in her. These facts are wrong, I married Rachel for her. For who she is and for her alone. I love Jamie with all my heart and more and I still do. I also love Rachel with all my heart and will always love her. I love them in both the same and yet very very different ways.
If Jamie never died and Rachel came into my life, is something hard to think about. I don't know if I could choose and I know this thought will cross your mind. I know that Jamie died for a reason and it was in God's plan. Wherever Jamie is, in heaven or another life, I know she's happy and safe. How? I don't know, I have a feeling, a strong one.
" Landon? Hey its almost midnight shouldn't you be asleep, you have a big day tomorrow." Rachel came out onto the balcony in her pyjamas and came to sit of the arm of the chair I was sitting on.
" I'm writing my book. It's almost done; I just have to write a sentence or two." I said with a smile looking into her eyes.
" Okay, I'll wait up with you. I'm not tired anyways."
" No, I want you to go to sleep. You had a hard day with the kids."
" Fine dad. I'll go to bed, but I won't sleep until you come in. See how I compromise?" She said with a mischievous smile on her face.
" Your very clever. Now go." I ordered pointing to the door.
" Fine, fine, fine. Good night." She gave me a kiss and was walking towards the door.
" Rachel?" I said, stopping her halfway.
" Yeah?"
" Your beautiful as always."
" Thank you." She said with a confuse look. She then turn back around and walk up to me and said, " I love you."
" I love you too." I said looking into her eyes deeply. After a minute kiss she left me alone with the dark night with only the full moon to be my light.
I returned to my book and started to end it:
Jamie can never be replace, like Rachel can't be replace. I hope now she's proud of me. I have a perfect life and even though I'm not dead, I know I will have a perfect ending to this perfect life.
After I wrote that, I realize the book I worked on after Jamie's death was finally done. I ended it with an ending I know would come true.
I stood up and walked over to the edge of the balcony. I looked up into the stars and found the Angel Jamie star. I didn't know if it was my imagination but as the wind brushed past me, I heard, " I'll always be proud of you."
I then look up at the sky where the star was located. I saw it blink like an eye winking. I smiled and then walked back in the house. Before I walked in I turn around and I looked at my wedding finger which hold two rings, ones I never took off. With a smile I whispered, " Thank you for everything Jamie, I'll always love you."
I then turn back around and went into the house and into my room. I knew Rachel wasn't asleep yet so I went under the covers and turned to her. I kissed her head and hugged her and she hugged me back. I closed my eyes and slept with Rachel and Jamie in my heart forever.
The End.