Chapter 4
To Love or not to Love
A/N: I'm sooooooooo sorry it took so long to update!! I've been busy with book reports, essays, and all this work!! I know this Chapter kind of sucks but I just felt like updating it so here goes! For all of you who reviewed, I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!
Jamie took a deep breath and hovered his hand over the phone.
He decided that it was worth a shot to call Catie. True, their friendship was important to him, but could he really keep masking his feelings for her.forever?
He decided to be tactful and maybe hint first at her being jealous and then he could ease the conversation into confessing feelings for each other.
If she has any feelings she wants to confess, Jamie thought.
He lifted his shaky hand to dial Catie's number when suddenly, a loud ringing blared throughout the station.
"Come on Jamie!" Tyler yelled, " We've got a call!!."
Jamie set down the phone with a sigh of regret and headed towards the ambulance, glancing back at it sadly.
Catie paced in her room nervously, she couldn't believe she'd just spilled her guts to Val that afternoon. She was just so confused and she'd needed someone to share it with, but now she was regretting that choice.
What if Jamie finds out and decides he doesn't feel the same and it ruins everything? Catie thought, I may have just lost my best friend!!!
Groaning, she flopped on her bed and sighed.
Maybe.I should call him, Catie thought, No...I can't...
She turned on her side, remembering Jamie's happy face when he mentioned the "New Girl". Her stomach twisted and the lump in her throat returned.
He never looks at me that way, she thought sadly.
But he had, many times before. Catie had just not seen it. She had not seen the love in his eyes, and perhaps if she had, they would not be in this predicament.
She was still staring at the ceiling when a knock at her door made her turn her head to see if her mother was trying to start something.
"Hey," Jamie said as his familiar face popped up behind the door.
"Hey," Catie greeted him.
He walked towards her, sitting next to her on the bed.
"How are you feeling?" Jamie asked, feeling totally lame.
"....Ok, I guess," she murmured.
"You don't sound ok," Jamie replied.
Man, how am I going to do this.,Jamie thought, I know, I'll get on her good side, then bring it up slowly.
"Here," Jamie said, scooting closer to Catie, "I'll give you a back rub, it'll help," he offered.
He got even closer, turning Catie so that her back faced him. She sat up to make it easier.
He gently placed his hands on her back, massaging her tenderly.
"Mmmmmm..," Catie moaned happily, "You're right, that feels great," she replied.
Jamie smiled and rubbed a little more, he ran his hands up and down her shoulders, brushing the strap of her spaghetti strapped shirt off her shoulder.
Catie stiffened slightly, as a chill ran up her spine as Jamie pushed it back into its place.
He brought his lips down gently on her shoulder, caressing it so softly, it felt like a feather brushing her.
"Feel better?" Jamie replied, his voice sounding a little husky. He'd almost lost control of his emotions for a minute. He had to remind himself that Catie didn't know how he felt about her and he couldn't just let himself kiss her and hold her the way he wanted to.
He pulled away reluctantly, as Catie sighed.
"That made me feel great!" Catie smiled at him.
"Good, then it had the intended effect," Jamie smiled back for a second, letting it slowly fade from his face, "Catie..there's something I want to talk about.," he started.
Catie tucked a piece of hair behind her ear curiously, "Ok.what is it?" she asked.
"Well..."--BEEP!!! Jamie's beeper suddenly cut him off shrilly.
"Damn," Jamie swore, " It looks like I have to go.Tell you what, after the call I'll come back and I'll give you another massage and we'll talk ok?," Jamie promised, getting up.
"Another massage?" Catie asked grinning from ear to ear, " Sounds good to me!".
Jamie waved and exited the house, full of regret.
Catie watched from her window, a smile playing on her lips as she absently strummed Jamie's Song on her guitar.
Jamie stepped out of the coffee shop, carrying Catie's favorite drink in his hand, along with her favorite flower, a single red rose.
He had stopped by on the way to Catie's house from the call, feeling that if he was going to confess his feelings for Catie, he'd better do it right.
He stowed it away safely in his motorcycle and was just about ready to ride off when a voice called out to him.
"Hey! Excuse me!" a young girlish voice called, tinged with annoyance. Jamie turned to find the "New Girl" standing there.
His jaw dropped slightly, against will.
She was standing there, in a tight black dress and 3-inch killer heels.
"Hi, my cell phone battery just died and I have a major up-scale party to go to, do you think you could possibly loan me 35 cents to call my chauffeur?," she asked.
"Um...yeah sure," Jamie replied, he began to dig around in his pocket and handed her 50 cents, in case.
"Thanks," she replied, then feeling as if she ought to say something else she added, "My name's Ashley."
"Jamie," Jamie nodded.
"Well thanks a lot Jamie," Ashley replied, "I'll repay you as soon as I can, maybe I can meet you here and buy you a cup of coffee," Ashley said, looking as if she'd just offered him the entire world.and possibly more.
"Yeah," Jamie said, stifling a smile, this girl was an airhead, but she was a really great piece of eye candy.
She turned and walked away and Jamie rode off.
Neither of them noticed a friend of Val's standing nearby.
The girl flipped out her cell phone, "Marie? Yeah, it's me, you'll never guess who's going out with that new girl Ashley, Jamie Waite!!........"
"Thanks for telling me Val," Catie said, "Don't worry I'll be fine, bye," Catie said into the phone. She put it down gingerly.
She couldn't believe what she'd just heard. Val said she'd heard it from Marie who heard it from Vanessa who had witnessed the whole thing.
Witnessed Jamie Waite agreeing to go out with Ashley Dawn, the new girl.
Catie bit her lip to keep her throat from burning. She didn't hesitate to believe it for a second.
She knew Jamie had liked Ashley, but after he had given her such a gentle massage.she'd just been hoping he might have felt something more.
Especially when she thought she felt his lips on her shoulder.
But she had been wrong.
Tears bean to form and Catie began to hate herself for letting this affect her so much.
She wished she didn't have to feel this way. So broken, so torn.
Music, she thought, Music usually helps.
She wiped away the tears and took out Making Me and her guitar.
She began playing softly and slowly getting louder until she strummed it loud and out of tune.
She gave a cry and pushed the guitar away.
Not even that helped her now.
She needed to get out of here.
Out. Free. Free from pain...
She tossed some stuff into her bag and ran from the house. Trying to leave behind the memories and feelings.
While Jamie rode just down the street from her house, ready to tell her everything she wanted so badly to hear.
A/N: That's Chapter 4 you guys!!!! I hoped you liked it and as always: REVIEW!!!! Cuz' I love it whey a do!!! (Squints at clock) I have to get to bed!! It's 12:49 AM!!!
To Love or not to Love
A/N: I'm sooooooooo sorry it took so long to update!! I've been busy with book reports, essays, and all this work!! I know this Chapter kind of sucks but I just felt like updating it so here goes! For all of you who reviewed, I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!
Jamie took a deep breath and hovered his hand over the phone.
He decided that it was worth a shot to call Catie. True, their friendship was important to him, but could he really keep masking his feelings for her.forever?
He decided to be tactful and maybe hint first at her being jealous and then he could ease the conversation into confessing feelings for each other.
If she has any feelings she wants to confess, Jamie thought.
He lifted his shaky hand to dial Catie's number when suddenly, a loud ringing blared throughout the station.
"Come on Jamie!" Tyler yelled, " We've got a call!!."
Jamie set down the phone with a sigh of regret and headed towards the ambulance, glancing back at it sadly.
Catie paced in her room nervously, she couldn't believe she'd just spilled her guts to Val that afternoon. She was just so confused and she'd needed someone to share it with, but now she was regretting that choice.
What if Jamie finds out and decides he doesn't feel the same and it ruins everything? Catie thought, I may have just lost my best friend!!!
Groaning, she flopped on her bed and sighed.
Maybe.I should call him, Catie thought, No...I can't...
She turned on her side, remembering Jamie's happy face when he mentioned the "New Girl". Her stomach twisted and the lump in her throat returned.
He never looks at me that way, she thought sadly.
But he had, many times before. Catie had just not seen it. She had not seen the love in his eyes, and perhaps if she had, they would not be in this predicament.
She was still staring at the ceiling when a knock at her door made her turn her head to see if her mother was trying to start something.
"Hey," Jamie said as his familiar face popped up behind the door.
"Hey," Catie greeted him.
He walked towards her, sitting next to her on the bed.
"How are you feeling?" Jamie asked, feeling totally lame.
"....Ok, I guess," she murmured.
"You don't sound ok," Jamie replied.
Man, how am I going to do this.,Jamie thought, I know, I'll get on her good side, then bring it up slowly.
"Here," Jamie said, scooting closer to Catie, "I'll give you a back rub, it'll help," he offered.
He got even closer, turning Catie so that her back faced him. She sat up to make it easier.
He gently placed his hands on her back, massaging her tenderly.
"Mmmmmm..," Catie moaned happily, "You're right, that feels great," she replied.
Jamie smiled and rubbed a little more, he ran his hands up and down her shoulders, brushing the strap of her spaghetti strapped shirt off her shoulder.
Catie stiffened slightly, as a chill ran up her spine as Jamie pushed it back into its place.
He brought his lips down gently on her shoulder, caressing it so softly, it felt like a feather brushing her.
"Feel better?" Jamie replied, his voice sounding a little husky. He'd almost lost control of his emotions for a minute. He had to remind himself that Catie didn't know how he felt about her and he couldn't just let himself kiss her and hold her the way he wanted to.
He pulled away reluctantly, as Catie sighed.
"That made me feel great!" Catie smiled at him.
"Good, then it had the intended effect," Jamie smiled back for a second, letting it slowly fade from his face, "Catie..there's something I want to talk about.," he started.
Catie tucked a piece of hair behind her ear curiously, "Ok.what is it?" she asked.
"Well..."--BEEP!!! Jamie's beeper suddenly cut him off shrilly.
"Damn," Jamie swore, " It looks like I have to go.Tell you what, after the call I'll come back and I'll give you another massage and we'll talk ok?," Jamie promised, getting up.
"Another massage?" Catie asked grinning from ear to ear, " Sounds good to me!".
Jamie waved and exited the house, full of regret.
Catie watched from her window, a smile playing on her lips as she absently strummed Jamie's Song on her guitar.
Jamie stepped out of the coffee shop, carrying Catie's favorite drink in his hand, along with her favorite flower, a single red rose.
He had stopped by on the way to Catie's house from the call, feeling that if he was going to confess his feelings for Catie, he'd better do it right.
He stowed it away safely in his motorcycle and was just about ready to ride off when a voice called out to him.
"Hey! Excuse me!" a young girlish voice called, tinged with annoyance. Jamie turned to find the "New Girl" standing there.
His jaw dropped slightly, against will.
She was standing there, in a tight black dress and 3-inch killer heels.
"Hi, my cell phone battery just died and I have a major up-scale party to go to, do you think you could possibly loan me 35 cents to call my chauffeur?," she asked.
"Um...yeah sure," Jamie replied, he began to dig around in his pocket and handed her 50 cents, in case.
"Thanks," she replied, then feeling as if she ought to say something else she added, "My name's Ashley."
"Jamie," Jamie nodded.
"Well thanks a lot Jamie," Ashley replied, "I'll repay you as soon as I can, maybe I can meet you here and buy you a cup of coffee," Ashley said, looking as if she'd just offered him the entire world.and possibly more.
"Yeah," Jamie said, stifling a smile, this girl was an airhead, but she was a really great piece of eye candy.
She turned and walked away and Jamie rode off.
Neither of them noticed a friend of Val's standing nearby.
The girl flipped out her cell phone, "Marie? Yeah, it's me, you'll never guess who's going out with that new girl Ashley, Jamie Waite!!........"
"Thanks for telling me Val," Catie said, "Don't worry I'll be fine, bye," Catie said into the phone. She put it down gingerly.
She couldn't believe what she'd just heard. Val said she'd heard it from Marie who heard it from Vanessa who had witnessed the whole thing.
Witnessed Jamie Waite agreeing to go out with Ashley Dawn, the new girl.
Catie bit her lip to keep her throat from burning. She didn't hesitate to believe it for a second.
She knew Jamie had liked Ashley, but after he had given her such a gentle massage.she'd just been hoping he might have felt something more.
Especially when she thought she felt his lips on her shoulder.
But she had been wrong.
Tears bean to form and Catie began to hate herself for letting this affect her so much.
She wished she didn't have to feel this way. So broken, so torn.
Music, she thought, Music usually helps.
She wiped away the tears and took out Making Me and her guitar.
She began playing softly and slowly getting louder until she strummed it loud and out of tune.
She gave a cry and pushed the guitar away.
Not even that helped her now.
She needed to get out of here.
Out. Free. Free from pain...
She tossed some stuff into her bag and ran from the house. Trying to leave behind the memories and feelings.
While Jamie rode just down the street from her house, ready to tell her everything she wanted so badly to hear.
A/N: That's Chapter 4 you guys!!!! I hoped you liked it and as always: REVIEW!!!! Cuz' I love it whey a do!!! (Squints at clock) I have to get to bed!! It's 12:49 AM!!!