Dear Sirius
You don't show your love anymore, but I can feel that somewhere deep inside of you still love me. Some days ago I thought you still loved me but now I am not sure anymore. I see you more and more asleep on the couch and our bed we once shared is now cold. I know times are bad, but since when don't you try to live those times through with me? Why do you ignore me? So many questions I need to ask, but for this letter too many. We hardly see each other and I ponder if it because of that you stopped loving me.
I love you and I just want you to know that. I loved you since I saw you the first time on the train but of course I hadn't noticed it at first. But as I saw Padfoot standing in front of me that one full moon, you captured my heart.
What have I done wrong for not being aloud to feel your love anymore? Why do you have to break my heart now? You once said you'd promise me love forever and that you would never be able to stop loving me. Where is that promise gone? You'd kept it for so long and now you're breaking it, why?
I can still clearly see the mark on your neck remembering fondly the night when the Wolf claimed his lover as his mate. I should have known that you couldn't love me for eternity; I should have known that your promises were lies. Was our marriage also a lie? And all those words you said I ponder if you really meant them or if they were also lies.
Do you see the tears I am crying every night and do you see the pain in my face, when you're standing in front of me saying nothing at all.
I hope that I am not your burden anymore as I am going to leave now. You'll probably be happier without me by your side. But I know you won't even miss me, as your note that I have found lying on the kitchen table, said it all. I wish I could be in your arms one more time before I leave, but I know it will be impossible.
You remember the Photo Michael did? Where you, our son and me where happily all together having no problems at all? I am taking it with me, remembering the time when you still loved me. Remember if you should ever want to come back you are always welcome.
I still love you and I'll always will.
With love
Remus Lupin
Why did have to be such a coward? Not wanting to believe that you would be still here waiting for me. You had come and I had run away like a coward. I didn't want to enter this house for so long, as the fond memories of you and me together are still fresh. People told me you were the traitor love, and after our son disappeared I started to believe it. Why did I believe it? Why did I have to ruin our love because I believed a rumour? I missed you so much during the last 12 months and I now wish that I had never left you, that I had come back earlier into this house to resolve our fight with not so harsh words. I wonder where you are now love, and I hope I can find you tomorrow and talk to you.
I take the envelope one more time in my hands and I feel that there is still something inside of it. I tilt carefully the envelope and I find your ring in my hands. The ring that showed our bondage and our love is not on your hand anymore. I slowly take of mine and store them both secure away as I don't want to loose them. How I wish I could go and look for you now, but I have to check on Peter now.
You don't show your love anymore, but I can feel that somewhere deep inside of you still love me. Some days ago I thought you still loved me but now I am not sure anymore. I see you more and more asleep on the couch and our bed we once shared is now cold. I know times are bad, but since when don't you try to live those times through with me? Why do you ignore me? So many questions I need to ask, but for this letter too many. We hardly see each other and I ponder if it because of that you stopped loving me.
I love you and I just want you to know that. I loved you since I saw you the first time on the train but of course I hadn't noticed it at first. But as I saw Padfoot standing in front of me that one full moon, you captured my heart.
What have I done wrong for not being aloud to feel your love anymore? Why do you have to break my heart now? You once said you'd promise me love forever and that you would never be able to stop loving me. Where is that promise gone? You'd kept it for so long and now you're breaking it, why?
I can still clearly see the mark on your neck remembering fondly the night when the Wolf claimed his lover as his mate. I should have known that you couldn't love me for eternity; I should have known that your promises were lies. Was our marriage also a lie? And all those words you said I ponder if you really meant them or if they were also lies.
Do you see the tears I am crying every night and do you see the pain in my face, when you're standing in front of me saying nothing at all.
I hope that I am not your burden anymore as I am going to leave now. You'll probably be happier without me by your side. But I know you won't even miss me, as your note that I have found lying on the kitchen table, said it all. I wish I could be in your arms one more time before I leave, but I know it will be impossible.
You remember the Photo Michael did? Where you, our son and me where happily all together having no problems at all? I am taking it with me, remembering the time when you still loved me. Remember if you should ever want to come back you are always welcome.
I still love you and I'll always will.
With love
Remus Lupin
Why did have to be such a coward? Not wanting to believe that you would be still here waiting for me. You had come and I had run away like a coward. I didn't want to enter this house for so long, as the fond memories of you and me together are still fresh. People told me you were the traitor love, and after our son disappeared I started to believe it. Why did I believe it? Why did I have to ruin our love because I believed a rumour? I missed you so much during the last 12 months and I now wish that I had never left you, that I had come back earlier into this house to resolve our fight with not so harsh words. I wonder where you are now love, and I hope I can find you tomorrow and talk to you.
I take the envelope one more time in my hands and I feel that there is still something inside of it. I tilt carefully the envelope and I find your ring in my hands. The ring that showed our bondage and our love is not on your hand anymore. I slowly take of mine and store them both secure away as I don't want to loose them. How I wish I could go and look for you now, but I have to check on Peter now.