::Saving the Best for Last::
Himura Kawaii
Chapter Two
*** Disclaimers apply... Blah blah.. RK's not mine.. Hail the Great Watsuki- sama... The song 'Save the Best for Last' is by Vanessa Williams. I don't own anything! I'm now a college stud, but still poor!!..... Don't sue me! ^_^
Sometimes the snow comes down in june
sometimes the sun goes 'round the moon
I see the passion in your eyes
sometimes It's all a big surprise
I silently thank God as I walk through the halls of this sophisticated university. The test had been fairly easy and I managed to answer all of the questions. I was perfectly happy, walking along, not caring at all.
Then I saw him. His head was down, his beautiful hair falling onto the pull of gravity. His beautiful body was silhouetted beneath the blue cotton shirt he was wearing. I held my breath. I didn't dare call his name, for I knew what was going to happen next. I had to duck somewhere fast.
So much for carelessness, I thought. But before I could run to the nearest classroom, he has already spotted me and was now rushing towards me with glee and what was it? A bit of hope?
I felt powerful at that moment. To see someone run to you with so much anticipation and so much relief was a sight to behold. Especially if the one running to you is the only person you'd give everything to in a blink of an eye.
But I was going to avoid you, wasn't I? I have to be cold. I have to be distant. I have to-
"Hey, Kaoru. I'm so glad I saw you!" You tell me while you wrap an arm around me and carry my stuff.
Of course in any other case, I would've thought a whole lot about this gesture, but then you've treated me this way since I don't know when. And I'm also just your best friend. No malice, remember?
"Oh, hey, Kenshin, what's up?" I say this a coldly as humanly possible. Okay, maybe as humanly possible when you're dealing with the love of your life.
But I can't.
You lunge into a half-hour monologue about her. Again. You didn't even notice the feigned concern in my voice. You didn't even feel the coldness of my response. All that was important to you was to get her back, and nothing else.
God, it could rain fireballs and everything could explode and still you'd talk about her. Or maybe you'd be by her side by that time, forgetting all about little ol' me. How convenient.
I don't listen to your blabber. I tune myself out. I make my heart go as hard as I could.
But it won't.
Somehow, you managed to feel my indifference. "Is something the matter with you?" You ask.
Are you really concerned, or are you just pretending to be concerned?
I shrug. "Maybe a drinking session could cheer you up." You say helpfully. "Your exams are over, aren't they? Join me in drowning the sorrows of the world!"
Wow, we're supposed to drink again and get inebriated again and get a huge hangover the next day? But in spite of myself, I agree. How long have we been doing this? I guess I could do it one last time, for friendship's sake.
Yeah, right. Who am I kidding?
We go to your house, into your room I know so well- those posters of your favorite rock bands.. The humongous bean bag I considered my own (because I'm the only one who occupies it), your big messy bed, with the sheets tangled up and the comforter strewn aside, the picture of her on your bedside table. God, the familiarity is so suffocating. We drink, talk about everything, and anything. I could tell you everything, and I have. You know all my secrets, except I haven't told you the fact that I love you and, well, that I'm really not having a good time feeling this thing.
In fact, loving alone isn't so hot.
Some great number of beers later, I find myself splattered in your bed, definitely drunk. Definitely drunk is a bad thing. I have never been drunk in my whole life. You were always the one who got tipsy easily. I start to fear I may say something I might regret later on, but I couldn't do anything about it.
I felt woozy and everything is hazy. The next thing I know, we were giggling like idiots, lying on top of each other. I could feel your steady breathing, the rhythmic beating of your heart and the warmth of your soft skin.
I have never been this close before.
Suddenly you kissed me.
Everything is black and white at the same time.
*** I woke up with a killer hangover. Bright sunshine filled the room and blinded me. I must've forgotten to pull the blinds in my window.
Wait-
I'm not in my room. I look down to find my lavender star-printed comforter was replace by a blue and gold comforter. "Where am I?" I mutter to myself. I winced in pain as a stinging pain throbbed in my temples. It must be the start of a killer headache.
Why am I in your room?! Why am I under your blankets?
Suddenly I remembered last night. I look at my right to see you sprawled beside me; you were lying on your chest, your smooth back peering out of the cloth.
"Shit!" I don't remember anything after the kiss. It was all hazy. But I was definitely sure something had happened. Something that shouldn't have happened!
I panic and wake you up. You turned around and cracked an eye open. "Nani..?" You ran a hand through your hair; you must be having a headache too.
"Kenshin wake up." I say, almost panicky. "Wake up." I sit up, pulling the blanket to my chest, suddenly feeling ashamed of myself.
You sit up, too, rubbing the sleepiness out of your eyes. I swear, if this hadn't been a mistake, I would've loved waking up with you every single day of my entire life.
"What is it, Kaoru?" You ask, "Why are you here?"
I wanted to slap you right then and there. How dare you ask me such a thing, when it's your doing as much as mine? But I keep my mouth shut. If you're smart enough to get a 4.0 GPA, you sure as hell are smart enough to figure this one out.
"OHMIGOD." You let out a shout. You rub your eyes as if to clear your vision.
Wow. You catch up easily.
"What did we do?" I ask you, knowing full well what the answer was.
"Kaoru, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to take advantage of you. Man, this is all my fault!" You hold my hands as if to tell me that everything will be okay, that nothing bad is going to happen. "I was so drunk and I, please forgive me!"
I remember why I fell in love with you.
You didn't say, 'It's all your fault.' Or 'I was drunk, you took advantage.'
Instead you took all the blame, even begging me for forgiveness. I'm stunned. But you still think all this is a mistake. I don't know whether to cry or to smile. Still, I persevere.
"What are we going to do?" I find myself asking you.
I know it is even stupid to ask. Of course things weren't going to go the way I want it to. Of course I wanted you to say that you wanted this all along. There's still that tiny glimmer of hope in me, that maybe you weren't really drunk at all last night.
Maybe this was how it was supposed to be.
You.
Me.
You and me.
"I don't know." "Do you regret what happened? " I ask simply.
I believe I am now becoming notorious for hurting myself with asking questions I know the answers to.
You pause and stop rubbing your temples. You open your mouth and close it again.
I'm back to square one. Wasn't it just the other night I promised to stay away from you?
What irony.. I'm now in your bed.
And what's even funnier is that this thing about you and me won't have a happy ending.
I cover your blanket around my body, suddenly feeling more naked than I could be. I stand up and paste a brave smile on my face.
How many more times can I endure this?
"It's okay, Kenshin. It was a mistake." I quickly dress up with you watching me like a stunned boy.
"I have to go now. I'm late for class."
And I leave.
I leave before you could say anything.
Before you could see me cry.
Before it's too late to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart.
At least in a moment of my life, we were one.
At least..
Just once.
'cause there was a time when all I did was wish
you'd tell me this was love
It's not the way I hoped or how I planned
but some how it's enough
Vanessa Williams
Save The Best For Last
***
Man! It was short and a bit uneventful.. But the thing is.. something happened!! And it's the first time something happened like this in my fics!! I didn't include the whole thing.. Cuz, well, I'm no expert on THAT thing.. So forgive me for the jump in the scenes. ^_^
Sorry I haven't been updating a lot... finals week are coming. and man, it's gonna be hell! ^_^ plus I'm really not psyched to write something sooooo sad.. Becuz life is good for me right now. ^_______^ hope you guys are having the time of your lives!!
Well, I'll be definitely writing more this sem break. That is, if we don't transfer to another house. Gee.. So many hindrances!!
Yeah, I guess you could say I write from personal experiences.. But NOTHING like this!! Hehehe. I just have an over-active imagination.. ^_^
I honestly don't know what will happen next, but as many of you had predicted, yeah, there'll be a happy ending.. But as to the happenings in between.. Well, I *haven't* really thought about that yet.. Teehee.. Any suggestions?
Thanks minna for reading and reviewing!!! Love y'all!! (
Himura Kawaii
Chapter Two
*** Disclaimers apply... Blah blah.. RK's not mine.. Hail the Great Watsuki- sama... The song 'Save the Best for Last' is by Vanessa Williams. I don't own anything! I'm now a college stud, but still poor!!..... Don't sue me! ^_^
Sometimes the snow comes down in june
sometimes the sun goes 'round the moon
I see the passion in your eyes
sometimes It's all a big surprise
I silently thank God as I walk through the halls of this sophisticated university. The test had been fairly easy and I managed to answer all of the questions. I was perfectly happy, walking along, not caring at all.
Then I saw him. His head was down, his beautiful hair falling onto the pull of gravity. His beautiful body was silhouetted beneath the blue cotton shirt he was wearing. I held my breath. I didn't dare call his name, for I knew what was going to happen next. I had to duck somewhere fast.
So much for carelessness, I thought. But before I could run to the nearest classroom, he has already spotted me and was now rushing towards me with glee and what was it? A bit of hope?
I felt powerful at that moment. To see someone run to you with so much anticipation and so much relief was a sight to behold. Especially if the one running to you is the only person you'd give everything to in a blink of an eye.
But I was going to avoid you, wasn't I? I have to be cold. I have to be distant. I have to-
"Hey, Kaoru. I'm so glad I saw you!" You tell me while you wrap an arm around me and carry my stuff.
Of course in any other case, I would've thought a whole lot about this gesture, but then you've treated me this way since I don't know when. And I'm also just your best friend. No malice, remember?
"Oh, hey, Kenshin, what's up?" I say this a coldly as humanly possible. Okay, maybe as humanly possible when you're dealing with the love of your life.
But I can't.
You lunge into a half-hour monologue about her. Again. You didn't even notice the feigned concern in my voice. You didn't even feel the coldness of my response. All that was important to you was to get her back, and nothing else.
God, it could rain fireballs and everything could explode and still you'd talk about her. Or maybe you'd be by her side by that time, forgetting all about little ol' me. How convenient.
I don't listen to your blabber. I tune myself out. I make my heart go as hard as I could.
But it won't.
Somehow, you managed to feel my indifference. "Is something the matter with you?" You ask.
Are you really concerned, or are you just pretending to be concerned?
I shrug. "Maybe a drinking session could cheer you up." You say helpfully. "Your exams are over, aren't they? Join me in drowning the sorrows of the world!"
Wow, we're supposed to drink again and get inebriated again and get a huge hangover the next day? But in spite of myself, I agree. How long have we been doing this? I guess I could do it one last time, for friendship's sake.
Yeah, right. Who am I kidding?
We go to your house, into your room I know so well- those posters of your favorite rock bands.. The humongous bean bag I considered my own (because I'm the only one who occupies it), your big messy bed, with the sheets tangled up and the comforter strewn aside, the picture of her on your bedside table. God, the familiarity is so suffocating. We drink, talk about everything, and anything. I could tell you everything, and I have. You know all my secrets, except I haven't told you the fact that I love you and, well, that I'm really not having a good time feeling this thing.
In fact, loving alone isn't so hot.
Some great number of beers later, I find myself splattered in your bed, definitely drunk. Definitely drunk is a bad thing. I have never been drunk in my whole life. You were always the one who got tipsy easily. I start to fear I may say something I might regret later on, but I couldn't do anything about it.
I felt woozy and everything is hazy. The next thing I know, we were giggling like idiots, lying on top of each other. I could feel your steady breathing, the rhythmic beating of your heart and the warmth of your soft skin.
I have never been this close before.
Suddenly you kissed me.
Everything is black and white at the same time.
*** I woke up with a killer hangover. Bright sunshine filled the room and blinded me. I must've forgotten to pull the blinds in my window.
Wait-
I'm not in my room. I look down to find my lavender star-printed comforter was replace by a blue and gold comforter. "Where am I?" I mutter to myself. I winced in pain as a stinging pain throbbed in my temples. It must be the start of a killer headache.
Why am I in your room?! Why am I under your blankets?
Suddenly I remembered last night. I look at my right to see you sprawled beside me; you were lying on your chest, your smooth back peering out of the cloth.
"Shit!" I don't remember anything after the kiss. It was all hazy. But I was definitely sure something had happened. Something that shouldn't have happened!
I panic and wake you up. You turned around and cracked an eye open. "Nani..?" You ran a hand through your hair; you must be having a headache too.
"Kenshin wake up." I say, almost panicky. "Wake up." I sit up, pulling the blanket to my chest, suddenly feeling ashamed of myself.
You sit up, too, rubbing the sleepiness out of your eyes. I swear, if this hadn't been a mistake, I would've loved waking up with you every single day of my entire life.
"What is it, Kaoru?" You ask, "Why are you here?"
I wanted to slap you right then and there. How dare you ask me such a thing, when it's your doing as much as mine? But I keep my mouth shut. If you're smart enough to get a 4.0 GPA, you sure as hell are smart enough to figure this one out.
"OHMIGOD." You let out a shout. You rub your eyes as if to clear your vision.
Wow. You catch up easily.
"What did we do?" I ask you, knowing full well what the answer was.
"Kaoru, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to take advantage of you. Man, this is all my fault!" You hold my hands as if to tell me that everything will be okay, that nothing bad is going to happen. "I was so drunk and I, please forgive me!"
I remember why I fell in love with you.
You didn't say, 'It's all your fault.' Or 'I was drunk, you took advantage.'
Instead you took all the blame, even begging me for forgiveness. I'm stunned. But you still think all this is a mistake. I don't know whether to cry or to smile. Still, I persevere.
"What are we going to do?" I find myself asking you.
I know it is even stupid to ask. Of course things weren't going to go the way I want it to. Of course I wanted you to say that you wanted this all along. There's still that tiny glimmer of hope in me, that maybe you weren't really drunk at all last night.
Maybe this was how it was supposed to be.
You.
Me.
You and me.
"I don't know." "Do you regret what happened? " I ask simply.
I believe I am now becoming notorious for hurting myself with asking questions I know the answers to.
You pause and stop rubbing your temples. You open your mouth and close it again.
I'm back to square one. Wasn't it just the other night I promised to stay away from you?
What irony.. I'm now in your bed.
And what's even funnier is that this thing about you and me won't have a happy ending.
I cover your blanket around my body, suddenly feeling more naked than I could be. I stand up and paste a brave smile on my face.
How many more times can I endure this?
"It's okay, Kenshin. It was a mistake." I quickly dress up with you watching me like a stunned boy.
"I have to go now. I'm late for class."
And I leave.
I leave before you could say anything.
Before you could see me cry.
Before it's too late to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart.
At least in a moment of my life, we were one.
At least..
Just once.
'cause there was a time when all I did was wish
you'd tell me this was love
It's not the way I hoped or how I planned
but some how it's enough
Vanessa Williams
Save The Best For Last
***
Man! It was short and a bit uneventful.. But the thing is.. something happened!! And it's the first time something happened like this in my fics!! I didn't include the whole thing.. Cuz, well, I'm no expert on THAT thing.. So forgive me for the jump in the scenes. ^_^
Sorry I haven't been updating a lot... finals week are coming. and man, it's gonna be hell! ^_^ plus I'm really not psyched to write something sooooo sad.. Becuz life is good for me right now. ^_______^ hope you guys are having the time of your lives!!
Well, I'll be definitely writing more this sem break. That is, if we don't transfer to another house. Gee.. So many hindrances!!
Yeah, I guess you could say I write from personal experiences.. But NOTHING like this!! Hehehe. I just have an over-active imagination.. ^_^
I honestly don't know what will happen next, but as many of you had predicted, yeah, there'll be a happy ending.. But as to the happenings in between.. Well, I *haven't* really thought about that yet.. Teehee.. Any suggestions?
Thanks minna for reading and reviewing!!! Love y'all!! (