Disclaimer: Same as all the past chapters

Author's Note: thanks for all the reviews. This chapter will have very limited carby, if you could even all it carby, it more like…well you'll see. Again a bit of season 8 spoilers, I don't know if they have been shown overseas yet.

"John, I hate to be the bearer of bad news." Dr. Coburn began "But Susan had a blood clot from in her lung. We think it was a reaction to the pain medication that we put in her. We've been working on her for the past forty-five minutes, but her body couldn't take the stress of it all, and she just shut down. I'm so sorry John."

"She, she what?"

"Do you need me to call anyone?"

John's mind raced. Susan was dead. His lovely, perfect wife died, and in the same way Lucy did. He hated the whole world now. No, he hated himself, for leaving Susan when she needed him.

"John?"

"Umm… yeah. Abby…."

"Ok, I'll get her."

John laid Arianne down in her bassinet, all snuggled in a soft pink blanket. Carter thought that Susan and his little miracle, took her mommy's place in the world. She was totally oblivious to the fact that she was going to be raised by just a father, and perhaps a stepmother, but she would never know the love that only Susan Carter could provide. It was the love that had saved him in more ways than one.

Slowly walking back to the wall, Carter began to cry. He allowed himself to sink down the wall, and rest on his heals. The thought this was ironic, because when Susan came back to County, that was how she first saw him. It seemed to him that his life was becoming one ironic incident after another. One cruel joke that never ended.

*****DOWN IN THE ER*****

"Abby! I need to find Abby." Dr. Coburn said to desk clerk

"Why is it an emergency?"

"Yes it is!"

"Dr. Kovac? Do you know where Abby is?" the desk clerk asked the handsome doctor who was walking past them

"Yeah, exam three. Is there something wrong?" he asked in his wonderfully think accent

"Yes, please get her."

Luka ran off to go and get Abby.  Within seconds he returned with her.

"Abby, John asked for you."

"What's wrong?"

"Susan didn't make it."

Luka just bowed his head, and murmured something in Croatian

"She died?"

Dr. Coburn just shook her head.

"Chuny can you come with me?" Abby asked

"Yeah, what's up?"

"I'll explain on the way up to OB."

The trio of women ran up four flights of steps, since the elevators where acting up. Abby told Chuny the bad news, and in response she said that she would be with the baby while Abby was with recently widowed Carter. The walk seemed to go on forever, mainly because when they reached their destination, two lives would be forever altered.

When the got into the nursery, they saw John leaning on the wall and his heels, head in his knees, crying. Chuny and Abby thanked Dr. Coburn and the made their way over to their friend. Abby got down on her knees right next to her former lover, and gently pulled him close to her. He cried on her shoulder, and they stayed like until Carter couldn't cry anymore. The whole time Abby said nothing, she just rocked him and told him that everything would work out.

During this time Chuny took Arianne out of her bassinet and held her.

"Hello, you sweet thing."

Baby Arianne just cooed back but Chuny could have sworn that the newborn smiled at her. The nurse then made her way over to a vacant rocker and just held the baby, comforting Arianne and her own way.

"If you ever need someone, I'll be there for you." Chuny vowed "Anything ever. You have my word."