A/N: This poem is from Soujiro's POV on what he was feeling when he just starts going berserk during his battle with Kenshin just before Kenshin fights Shishio. Spoiler warning!! (kinda) Okay, if people actually like the poem, I might write a sequel on how he felt after Kenshin left and he decided to go find his own truth…
Broken
By _tenken_no_soujiro_
And that was it. All it took was that simple realization…
Killing people really wasn't…
Killing people wasn't…
Something I wanted to do…
I had a smile, out there in the rain.
But though not visible…
I was crying too.
And then I broke.
Literally.
I could feel something rushing to the surface…
Something I had bottled up long, long ago,
And I did the only thing I could think to do…
I screamed.
Jamming the blade of my sword into the ground I screamed more.
I screamed until a burning sensation filled my lungs,
And I had to breathe.
I grabbed a firm grip onto the closest thing,
That I could reach…
And that was my own hair.
But anything was welcome,
Any feeling,
Other than this…
This …explosion from within.
Do you know what it feels like to explode,
Mister Himura?
It hurts.
Gods it hurts.
Like nothing I had ever felt…
All those long nights
When they would beat me…
When my family used to beat me…
It never felt like this…
No matter how hard they hit me,
No matter how hard they scratched and burned and bruised me,
They never got inside.
They never hurt me like this…
But you did.
With your pestering
And your annoying logic…
You attacked me through my heart.
Staggering, I continued
Screaming.
Until I couldn't any longer
And I fell to my knees.
There was a burning sensation
Somewhere deep in my soul…
And I felt something that I hadn't thought I could feel…
Hatred.
Deep, fiery, hatred.
Because of you.
You had done this to me…
You had woken something inside…
You had broken me.
I smashed my forehead against the floor,
Trying desperately to convert the pain some…
To stop the agony that was ripping at my soul,
To stop these …emotions… from taking over.
And then I stopped
And looked up.
You were scared.
I could see it in your eyes,
The way you trembled slightly,
The way your grip faltered on that cursed Reverse Blade Sword…
Because you knew
That you had broken me.
You knew
That you caused all of this pain…
And now inside I don't feel empty…
I feel angry,
And hurt
And scared…
…And broken.
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