Chapter 3 - Where she was.
This chapter is happening at the same time that John is wondering where she was. I am not sure was Richards's occupation is but I took a guess.
3:00 p.m. Abby is taking a walk.
He has to know. If I'm gonna have this baby he needs to know or I'll feel guilty towards him for the rest of my life. I know I've upset John but he'll understand when I explain things to him. Right now though, Richard is my priority. God, I never thought I'd say that: Richard, my priority? Yeah right. It was usually my priority to avoid him but now I couldn't.
If I don't get this off my chest I'm going to go mad. That sounds selfish. This isn't about me, well technically it's about me but really it's about Richard and his right to know about my abortion. I hope he still works here. If not I'm stuffed.
Abby had entered a strange, yet very familiar hospital. She used to come here when she was meeting him from work. The reception was quiet.
"Hi, I'm looking for Dr. Richard Lockhart. Is he here?" She asked twiddling with the buttons of her jacket sleeve.
"Yes he is. I'll just get him, Who will I say is calling?" The young girl asked with a strange grin spread right across her face. Abby knew that grin, she had seen all too often at county to dismiss it. The receptionist was being nosey, not helpful.
"Tell him his ex-wife is here." The nosey nurse left satisfied. No doubt the whole of the staff would by days end but Abby didn't care; she didn't have to work here, he did. Big deal.
"Abby. This is a shock. What're you doing here?" He was trying to be nice, she had to give him that but he was still a schmuck.
"I need to talk to you!" She beamed at the nurse who was now back at her desk pretending to be doing her work so she could eaves drop on the conversation. "Alone!" She added very cheekily.
"I'm off in like 10 minutes. You can wait here if you like."
"Ok. 10 minutes. But don't go sneaking through any back doors though. This is important." She liked to be in control and in order for her to do so she had to stay calm. He went back to work.
Abby took a seat on the rather comfortable chairs.
Ok. I'm here. All I have to do is tell him, wait for his response and go. I'm ok about telling him I just want it to be over. Abit like closure. Yeah, closure that's what it is. After 4 years I need closure? Yeah right Abby, Good one! Oh here he is. Quicker than I thought. All the back exits must be closed.
I'll tell him then go.
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"So, here we are in my car at 5 in the evening, you could cut the atmosphere with a knife. What's going on?" He questioned.
"When did you become a newsreader?" She asked cockily.
"Excuse me" he replied rather dumbfounded.
"....So here we are in my car at 5 in the evening." She mimicked.
"Did you come here to make fun of me or to tell me something?"
Abby spilt everything out; the abortion, why she finished with Luka (even though that had nothing to do with it) and John. The only thing she didn't tell him was about her new pregnancy.
"Abby, why the hell are you telling me all this for?" She couldn't tell whether he was angry or not.
"Because I'm pregnant. I needed you to know about your child so I could figure out what to do now."
"You're pregnant? What do you mean you're pregnant?" It was more of a statement than a question.
"I mean I'm having a child. I'm having John's baby Richard."
All of a sudden the car stopped. They where at a school entrance: Not a good place to park under the circumstances.
"You're pregnant with John's child, yet you felt the need to get rid of mines. Are you insane? Why? Why John and not me? I mean, I know we weren't good for each other but why take it out on a baby."
"Richard I didn't do it out of spite or hatred. I never loved you enough to have your child. Could you seriously imagine us a parents evening together? He chuckled. "No, I didn't think so. You have Alexis now. You're happy, I'm happy. I just needed you to know about the...well I needed you to know."
There I said it. He isn't saying anything. What do I do? So much for my 'Tell him and leave' theory.
They sat there in silence for about an hour. He broke it.
"I'm happy for you." Richard turned around to look at Abby.
"Pardon?" She said confused.
"I'm happy for you and John. Congratulations."
"You're happy? What about the...?"
"That's in the past Abby. You're right, we would have been hopeless together. It would have been wrong to try and fix are marriage with a baby. I'm glad you told me, better late than never I suppose."
"I'm sorry I made your life hell." Abby said sincerely
"We were both pretty good at that. C'mon, I'll take you home."
He drove me to my front door. I look up at the window. Mom is standing there with the phone in her hand, probably John. Oh God, John! I totally forgot he's supposed to be having dinner tonight. What have I done? He is probably annoyed with me for my reaction. Oh crap.
There you go, another chapter up and running. I'm not getting alot of feedback so I don't know whether or not I'm doing OK. R/R and I'll keep going.
This chapter is happening at the same time that John is wondering where she was. I am not sure was Richards's occupation is but I took a guess.
3:00 p.m. Abby is taking a walk.
He has to know. If I'm gonna have this baby he needs to know or I'll feel guilty towards him for the rest of my life. I know I've upset John but he'll understand when I explain things to him. Right now though, Richard is my priority. God, I never thought I'd say that: Richard, my priority? Yeah right. It was usually my priority to avoid him but now I couldn't.
If I don't get this off my chest I'm going to go mad. That sounds selfish. This isn't about me, well technically it's about me but really it's about Richard and his right to know about my abortion. I hope he still works here. If not I'm stuffed.
Abby had entered a strange, yet very familiar hospital. She used to come here when she was meeting him from work. The reception was quiet.
"Hi, I'm looking for Dr. Richard Lockhart. Is he here?" She asked twiddling with the buttons of her jacket sleeve.
"Yes he is. I'll just get him, Who will I say is calling?" The young girl asked with a strange grin spread right across her face. Abby knew that grin, she had seen all too often at county to dismiss it. The receptionist was being nosey, not helpful.
"Tell him his ex-wife is here." The nosey nurse left satisfied. No doubt the whole of the staff would by days end but Abby didn't care; she didn't have to work here, he did. Big deal.
"Abby. This is a shock. What're you doing here?" He was trying to be nice, she had to give him that but he was still a schmuck.
"I need to talk to you!" She beamed at the nurse who was now back at her desk pretending to be doing her work so she could eaves drop on the conversation. "Alone!" She added very cheekily.
"I'm off in like 10 minutes. You can wait here if you like."
"Ok. 10 minutes. But don't go sneaking through any back doors though. This is important." She liked to be in control and in order for her to do so she had to stay calm. He went back to work.
Abby took a seat on the rather comfortable chairs.
Ok. I'm here. All I have to do is tell him, wait for his response and go. I'm ok about telling him I just want it to be over. Abit like closure. Yeah, closure that's what it is. After 4 years I need closure? Yeah right Abby, Good one! Oh here he is. Quicker than I thought. All the back exits must be closed.
I'll tell him then go.
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"So, here we are in my car at 5 in the evening, you could cut the atmosphere with a knife. What's going on?" He questioned.
"When did you become a newsreader?" She asked cockily.
"Excuse me" he replied rather dumbfounded.
"....So here we are in my car at 5 in the evening." She mimicked.
"Did you come here to make fun of me or to tell me something?"
Abby spilt everything out; the abortion, why she finished with Luka (even though that had nothing to do with it) and John. The only thing she didn't tell him was about her new pregnancy.
"Abby, why the hell are you telling me all this for?" She couldn't tell whether he was angry or not.
"Because I'm pregnant. I needed you to know about your child so I could figure out what to do now."
"You're pregnant? What do you mean you're pregnant?" It was more of a statement than a question.
"I mean I'm having a child. I'm having John's baby Richard."
All of a sudden the car stopped. They where at a school entrance: Not a good place to park under the circumstances.
"You're pregnant with John's child, yet you felt the need to get rid of mines. Are you insane? Why? Why John and not me? I mean, I know we weren't good for each other but why take it out on a baby."
"Richard I didn't do it out of spite or hatred. I never loved you enough to have your child. Could you seriously imagine us a parents evening together? He chuckled. "No, I didn't think so. You have Alexis now. You're happy, I'm happy. I just needed you to know about the...well I needed you to know."
There I said it. He isn't saying anything. What do I do? So much for my 'Tell him and leave' theory.
They sat there in silence for about an hour. He broke it.
"I'm happy for you." Richard turned around to look at Abby.
"Pardon?" She said confused.
"I'm happy for you and John. Congratulations."
"You're happy? What about the...?"
"That's in the past Abby. You're right, we would have been hopeless together. It would have been wrong to try and fix are marriage with a baby. I'm glad you told me, better late than never I suppose."
"I'm sorry I made your life hell." Abby said sincerely
"We were both pretty good at that. C'mon, I'll take you home."
He drove me to my front door. I look up at the window. Mom is standing there with the phone in her hand, probably John. Oh God, John! I totally forgot he's supposed to be having dinner tonight. What have I done? He is probably annoyed with me for my reaction. Oh crap.
There you go, another chapter up and running. I'm not getting alot of feedback so I don't know whether or not I'm doing OK. R/R and I'll keep going.