Chapter Seventeen: Cries
'I am such a moron, how could I have let this happen? He hates me…Van really hates me…' Hitomi kept on thinking during dinner that night with Allen.
"So the coach was like…" However Allen, completely unaware of the things going on in Hitomi's mind, was enjoying himself. He kept on talking none-stop about basketball and all the attention he was getting from the games. It didn't once occur to him that Hitomi wasn't listening.
Determined not to ruin her night out with her boyfriend, Hitomi plastered a weak smile on her face and tried to pay attention.
After what seemed like forever, Allen finally noticed the distant look in her eyes. " 'Tomi? Are you even listening to me?"
'He hates me…Van really-'
"eeeaaarrttthhh ttooo hhhiiitttooommiii…"
'-hates me…'
"Hitomi!" he yelled.
The sudden impact made Hitomi jump up from her seat. "What? Huh? Oh Allen!"
"You were expecting someone else?"
"No," Hitomi answered quickly. "God, I'm sorry. I'm really out of it tonight."
"Do you want me to take you home?"
"No, I don't want to ruin our date."
"Well you're kinda late for that." Allen answered.
"Oh! I'm sorry! I didn't mean to be such a drag. I'm just-"
"Hitomi, it's fine! Incase you didn't realize, that was my poor attempt for a joke."
"Oh…I'm sorry…" Hitomi answered miserably.
Seeing that people were starting to stair, Allen stood up and said, "here, get your coat and I'll take you home. You look like you need some rest."
***
The ride home was completely silent, except for the few times that Allen tried unsuccessfully to start a conversation. When the pulled up in front of Hitomi's house, he unbuckled his seatbelt and leaned towards Hitomi for a goodnight kiss. Sensing his movement, she opened the door and got out of the car.
"Thanks for dinner Allen. I'm really sorry but I got to go. Bye."
Allen watched her jog up the lawn and entered the house. He places his hands on the steering wheel and let out a deep sigh, "okay, now that was a wasted night." 'But it's not over is it?' a voice in his head said, 'it's only 9 and there's always Meredith.' He smiled at the idea but decided against it. "'Tomi's already extremely upset about something, I shouldn't do anything that might make her feel worst." 'When did you start sacrificing everything for just one girl?' the voice objected. "Man, what is this? I'm arguing with myself about going over to Meredith house? I'm must be going crazy!" After shaking his head in disbelief, Allen restarted his car and drove down the street towards Meredith's place.
***
Hitomi slowly closed the front door, hoping not to get any attention.
"Hitomi is that you?" a voice came from the living room.
"Yes mom, I'm home," Hitomi said hoping that she didn't sound as bad as she felt.
"Do you want some dinner?"
"No, I already ate."
"You sure? I made lasagna." her mom pressed.
Hitomi heard footsteps coming her ways. 'damn, I can't let her catch me looking like this. If she does, then it's going to be let's-get-to-know- Hitomi's-social-life."
"I'm really fine mom, just got lots of home work. I better go get started on them." Hitomi ran up the stairs before her mom could see her.
***
Sitting in the loneliness of her room, Hitomi's mind started to play recaps from her argument with Van. "You must be some freaking robot if you didn't feel anything..." The scenes felt like something out of a horrifying movie. It just kept replaying and replaying, not wanting to stop.
"Damnit Hitomi! Stop lying!" Finally, unable to take it anymore, Hitomi broke down in tears.
"I'm sorry Van, I didn't mean for it to happen this way," she sobbed. 'What did you mean? What did you want to happen?' a voice said in her head, like a ghost that came back to haunt her.
"I don't know…"she cried. 'He hates you Hitomi, he never wants to see you again,' the voice continued.
"Stop it!" she yelled desperately, shaking her head, trying to get the voices to stop. (A/N: you know when she has those visions and she wants to get them out of her head, that's how she looks like) 'He hates you…'
"NO!!!"
"Hitomi?" a knock came from the door. "Hitomi darling are u in there?"
"Van doesn't hate me…he can't hate me…" she cried.
"Hitomi, open the door!!!"
Hitomi didn't respond, she only continued to cry and tremble.
"Hitomi clam down, we can work this out. Just let me in. please open the door." Her mom said trying not to panic.
The crying and shouting seemed to stop for a moment, and then all Mrs. Kanzaki heard was "I really messed up mom and now he hates me…"
***
"Son? Are you okay? You didn't eat much during dinner."
"I wasn't hungry," Van answered, with his earphones still on his head. All Van wanted was a few moments of silence out on the balcony. With nothing but the moon and stars to keep him company. He needed to clear his head.
"Oh…how was school?"
"Peachy,"
"excuse me?" M. Fanel asked confused.
"It was fine" Van said annoyed.
"So you're fitting in nicely?"
"Yeah."
"You like this school."
"Love it."
"I'm glad to hear that, are the kids nice?"
"Yeah…They sure know how to show they care," and Van didn't say anything after that. Seeing that his son wasn't in the mood for a conversation, Mr. Fanel decided to leave.
***
Ring…Ring…
"Hello?"
"Hi, um…is this Folken?"
"Yeah," the voice answered unenthusiastically.
"Hi, it's Merle," Merle said shyly, "You know the girl from the library? I'm calling to apo-"
Click!
"Hello? Folken?" After waiting a while, secretly hoping that he didn't actually hang up, Merle gave up. Frustrated, she hung up the phone and picked up a magazine.
"I guess I'll just have to apologize in person. Damn, this is going to be harder than I thought."
***Yay! Finally done. ^_^ People seemed to like the chapters to be dramatic so I added another one. Hehe, I guess I exaggerated Hitomi freaking out but Hitomi just isn't Hitomi without her going all psycho and crazy. I've read on my reviews that some of you can't read some chapters, if you want, write ur email and the chapter that you can't read on the review. I'll be happy to send them to you my email. Well, hoped you liked it! R&R!!! buh bye, Bishouji88 oh ya! Almost forgot, I started a new fic! lol go check it out!***
'I am such a moron, how could I have let this happen? He hates me…Van really hates me…' Hitomi kept on thinking during dinner that night with Allen.
"So the coach was like…" However Allen, completely unaware of the things going on in Hitomi's mind, was enjoying himself. He kept on talking none-stop about basketball and all the attention he was getting from the games. It didn't once occur to him that Hitomi wasn't listening.
Determined not to ruin her night out with her boyfriend, Hitomi plastered a weak smile on her face and tried to pay attention.
After what seemed like forever, Allen finally noticed the distant look in her eyes. " 'Tomi? Are you even listening to me?"
'He hates me…Van really-'
"eeeaaarrttthhh ttooo hhhiiitttooommiii…"
'-hates me…'
"Hitomi!" he yelled.
The sudden impact made Hitomi jump up from her seat. "What? Huh? Oh Allen!"
"You were expecting someone else?"
"No," Hitomi answered quickly. "God, I'm sorry. I'm really out of it tonight."
"Do you want me to take you home?"
"No, I don't want to ruin our date."
"Well you're kinda late for that." Allen answered.
"Oh! I'm sorry! I didn't mean to be such a drag. I'm just-"
"Hitomi, it's fine! Incase you didn't realize, that was my poor attempt for a joke."
"Oh…I'm sorry…" Hitomi answered miserably.
Seeing that people were starting to stair, Allen stood up and said, "here, get your coat and I'll take you home. You look like you need some rest."
***
The ride home was completely silent, except for the few times that Allen tried unsuccessfully to start a conversation. When the pulled up in front of Hitomi's house, he unbuckled his seatbelt and leaned towards Hitomi for a goodnight kiss. Sensing his movement, she opened the door and got out of the car.
"Thanks for dinner Allen. I'm really sorry but I got to go. Bye."
Allen watched her jog up the lawn and entered the house. He places his hands on the steering wheel and let out a deep sigh, "okay, now that was a wasted night." 'But it's not over is it?' a voice in his head said, 'it's only 9 and there's always Meredith.' He smiled at the idea but decided against it. "'Tomi's already extremely upset about something, I shouldn't do anything that might make her feel worst." 'When did you start sacrificing everything for just one girl?' the voice objected. "Man, what is this? I'm arguing with myself about going over to Meredith house? I'm must be going crazy!" After shaking his head in disbelief, Allen restarted his car and drove down the street towards Meredith's place.
***
Hitomi slowly closed the front door, hoping not to get any attention.
"Hitomi is that you?" a voice came from the living room.
"Yes mom, I'm home," Hitomi said hoping that she didn't sound as bad as she felt.
"Do you want some dinner?"
"No, I already ate."
"You sure? I made lasagna." her mom pressed.
Hitomi heard footsteps coming her ways. 'damn, I can't let her catch me looking like this. If she does, then it's going to be let's-get-to-know- Hitomi's-social-life."
"I'm really fine mom, just got lots of home work. I better go get started on them." Hitomi ran up the stairs before her mom could see her.
***
Sitting in the loneliness of her room, Hitomi's mind started to play recaps from her argument with Van. "You must be some freaking robot if you didn't feel anything..." The scenes felt like something out of a horrifying movie. It just kept replaying and replaying, not wanting to stop.
"Damnit Hitomi! Stop lying!" Finally, unable to take it anymore, Hitomi broke down in tears.
"I'm sorry Van, I didn't mean for it to happen this way," she sobbed. 'What did you mean? What did you want to happen?' a voice said in her head, like a ghost that came back to haunt her.
"I don't know…"she cried. 'He hates you Hitomi, he never wants to see you again,' the voice continued.
"Stop it!" she yelled desperately, shaking her head, trying to get the voices to stop. (A/N: you know when she has those visions and she wants to get them out of her head, that's how she looks like) 'He hates you…'
"NO!!!"
"Hitomi?" a knock came from the door. "Hitomi darling are u in there?"
"Van doesn't hate me…he can't hate me…" she cried.
"Hitomi, open the door!!!"
Hitomi didn't respond, she only continued to cry and tremble.
"Hitomi clam down, we can work this out. Just let me in. please open the door." Her mom said trying not to panic.
The crying and shouting seemed to stop for a moment, and then all Mrs. Kanzaki heard was "I really messed up mom and now he hates me…"
***
"Son? Are you okay? You didn't eat much during dinner."
"I wasn't hungry," Van answered, with his earphones still on his head. All Van wanted was a few moments of silence out on the balcony. With nothing but the moon and stars to keep him company. He needed to clear his head.
"Oh…how was school?"
"Peachy,"
"excuse me?" M. Fanel asked confused.
"It was fine" Van said annoyed.
"So you're fitting in nicely?"
"Yeah."
"You like this school."
"Love it."
"I'm glad to hear that, are the kids nice?"
"Yeah…They sure know how to show they care," and Van didn't say anything after that. Seeing that his son wasn't in the mood for a conversation, Mr. Fanel decided to leave.
***
Ring…Ring…
"Hello?"
"Hi, um…is this Folken?"
"Yeah," the voice answered unenthusiastically.
"Hi, it's Merle," Merle said shyly, "You know the girl from the library? I'm calling to apo-"
Click!
"Hello? Folken?" After waiting a while, secretly hoping that he didn't actually hang up, Merle gave up. Frustrated, she hung up the phone and picked up a magazine.
"I guess I'll just have to apologize in person. Damn, this is going to be harder than I thought."
***Yay! Finally done. ^_^ People seemed to like the chapters to be dramatic so I added another one. Hehe, I guess I exaggerated Hitomi freaking out but Hitomi just isn't Hitomi without her going all psycho and crazy. I've read on my reviews that some of you can't read some chapters, if you want, write ur email and the chapter that you can't read on the review. I'll be happy to send them to you my email. Well, hoped you liked it! R&R!!! buh bye, Bishouji88 oh ya! Almost forgot, I started a new fic! lol go check it out!***