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Chapter 6: Petunia's Resentment
And Shame
Harry couldn't believe what happened. He stopped crying, which he was embarrassed about, in amazement. "You want me to tell you about Hogwarts?" Harry asked in disbelief.
Aunt Petunia sighed. "Look, I know we haven't been very kind to you, and our behaviour has been bordering on abuse,"
"Boarding? I think it was!" Harry thought, angry.
"But there is a reason why we, well especially me has been treating you this way." Aunt Petunia sighed again. She has been keeping this secret since Lilly had got the letter about Hogwarts.
Harry looked puzzled and angry. "Well, why have you been treating me badly?"
"It's a long, long story. You see Lilly was older than I was, so she got everything first. I was always being compared to her. Whenever we were at school, it was always 'Lilly this' and 'Lilly that'. All the teachers compared us. You see that Lilly was very clever, and I was average. I always tried my hardest, but it was never enough with my parents. So as the years went by I resented her more and more; I began to wish that I were the oldest and the cleverest. Lilly was the apple in my parents' eyes, and I was always in her shadow. My parents were never interested in how I was doing. At Parents' Evenings, when they would come and see my teacher, they would always ask if there was anyway I could do the same work as Lilly did." Aunt Petunia stopped. She looked ashamed.
"I'm starting to understand." Harry commented.
"So you understand that when Lilly got her letter, I was really, really angry and resentful. I knew that my parents would expect me to be a witch, and they were extremely disappointed when I didn't get one. So now I really was in Lilly's shadow. My parents constantly boasted to their friends about Lilly being a witch, and not even once they boasted about my achievements and me. So as well as I resented Lilly, I also resented my parents to the point that where as soon as I could move out, I did. I had never spoken to them again." Petunia wiped her eyes, as she had been talking, she had started crying again.
"I understand all that, but what has that got to do with Uncle Vernon hating me and you hating me? Harry asked, confused.
"When I met Vernon, I told him all about my family and how I was treated and how they treated me and how they favoured Lilly, he started to get angry for me. We started to pretend that I did have a sister and we never communicated with my family again. SO, when you came to our house, you reminded me so much of Lilly with your emerald eye's and I started to resent you as well. Over the years, you have gotten so much more like her, that I began to resent you even more. I know it wasn't your fault but it was a symbol of how much I hated Lilly and I'm really, really very sorry. I hope you can forgive me."
Harry looked at his Aunt in amazement. He couldn't believe what he had just heard; yet he knew it was the truth. "Yes I forgive you."
Aunt Petunia burst into tears. She hugged Harry who looked very shocked. She pulled away, wiped her eyes and blew her nose on a tissue. "Now enough about be. So what is all this with someone named Ceddric? Why do you think it's your fault?"
"It's also a very long story." Harry answered. So for the next 3 hours, Harry told his Aunt all about Qudditch and how her was Seeker and the rules of the game. He told her about his friends and enemies and the teachers, and then he stopped.
"Harry I understand all this. But what is it you are trying to tell me about your 4th year that you haven't said?" Aunt Petunia asked gently.
A/N Well I hoped that you have enjoyed this chapter. What is happening with Petunia and why she hates Lilly, is my theory. It might be right or not. Please can you review this chapter and tell me what you think.