The Way I Feel
Disclaimer: I do not own Escaflowne or anything from it. This idea is mine, however.
Today was the wake. The wake for the Dragonslayers. I stared in the mirror, looking at my own face. My skin was still pale, except for the dark scar that went down my cheek. The scar from him. Van. Van . . .the reason the Dragonslayers are dead. I pulled myself away from the mirror, making sure I was not crying and my eyes fell upon a rose. It was blood colored, like the Dragonslayers eyes. There was a sharp knock on the door.
"Who is there?" I asked and Folken walked in.
"Are you ready?" He asked me.
I just nodded.
Folken walked back out into the hallway, and I followed him down there, breathing hard, because I remembered I might see that girl again. Her name was Kanna. She claimed to know Dallet. . .
I walked into the place in the Vione where the wake was being held. Everyone was standing straight, like statues, with no emotions on there faces. It made me mad, mostly at myself, because I was as bad as them. I didn't show any emotion either.
"If you'll excuse me." Folken said and went over to speak to some general.
I slunk over to the over side of the room, leaning back against the wall. This was a bad idea. People talked stiffly, not really knowing how to act. I was just like them. I wanted to fade away. I closed my eyes for a second, when a felt a tapping on my shoulder. I looked up and saw Kanna, her grief filled eyes trying not to cry.
"Sir Dilandau. . ." She replied, nodding her head.
I looked away, "What?" I asked.
Kanna sighed, "It's a lovely wake."
"No it isn't," I spat, "The people here were forced to come here, not because they wanted too."
Kanna fell silent and when I looked over she was staring at the floor.
"So I lied." She muttered.
I stood up straighter and looked at her oddly, "What makes it bad?"
"The fact that they were forced to come here. . .the fact that half of them didn't even know them. No one really cares and they don't even show any emotions. This wake doesn't even seem human." She whispered.
She was right. This wake wasn't human. No one was showing sorrow, for being afraid it would seem weak. Kanna looked at me.
"You don't show any emotions either."
I looked away, and did not speak, leaving her behind as I walked to Folken.
"I'm leaving." I hissed into his ear.
"What?" Folken hissed back.
"Leave me alone."
I marched on, back to my quarters.
"Sir Dilandau!" I heard Kanna call me as I walked down a lone hallway.
I stopped, "What?"
"Why did you leave?"
"It was un human, that wake." I snapped to her.
Kanna walked next to me, "Why don't you show your emotions?! Why don't you cry for them?!"
"Because crying is for the weak!" I screamed at her and Kanna fell silent.
"No it isn't." She whispered.
"It is. I won't cry." I muttered.
Kanna was silent for a while and then spoke.
"You are one odd human."
When I looked up she was smiling at me.
"What?" I grumbled.
Kanna took my hand and looked at me, "Dilandau," She muttered, "Can we meet tonight, under the south balcony?"
I stuttered and finally agreed.
Kanna nodded, "I want to see you there."
Then she smiled and left me alone.
I returned to my room and laid on my bed, listening to the soft rain patter against the roof.
Kanna. . .
I shut my eyes and lay against my pillow, breathing softly.
There was no way to describe how I was feeling.
None at all.
TBC
Yes, this chapter was quite short and might have felt rushed. Anyway, leave a review, thanks!
Disclaimer: I do not own Escaflowne or anything from it. This idea is mine, however.
Today was the wake. The wake for the Dragonslayers. I stared in the mirror, looking at my own face. My skin was still pale, except for the dark scar that went down my cheek. The scar from him. Van. Van . . .the reason the Dragonslayers are dead. I pulled myself away from the mirror, making sure I was not crying and my eyes fell upon a rose. It was blood colored, like the Dragonslayers eyes. There was a sharp knock on the door.
"Who is there?" I asked and Folken walked in.
"Are you ready?" He asked me.
I just nodded.
Folken walked back out into the hallway, and I followed him down there, breathing hard, because I remembered I might see that girl again. Her name was Kanna. She claimed to know Dallet. . .
I walked into the place in the Vione where the wake was being held. Everyone was standing straight, like statues, with no emotions on there faces. It made me mad, mostly at myself, because I was as bad as them. I didn't show any emotion either.
"If you'll excuse me." Folken said and went over to speak to some general.
I slunk over to the over side of the room, leaning back against the wall. This was a bad idea. People talked stiffly, not really knowing how to act. I was just like them. I wanted to fade away. I closed my eyes for a second, when a felt a tapping on my shoulder. I looked up and saw Kanna, her grief filled eyes trying not to cry.
"Sir Dilandau. . ." She replied, nodding her head.
I looked away, "What?" I asked.
Kanna sighed, "It's a lovely wake."
"No it isn't," I spat, "The people here were forced to come here, not because they wanted too."
Kanna fell silent and when I looked over she was staring at the floor.
"So I lied." She muttered.
I stood up straighter and looked at her oddly, "What makes it bad?"
"The fact that they were forced to come here. . .the fact that half of them didn't even know them. No one really cares and they don't even show any emotions. This wake doesn't even seem human." She whispered.
She was right. This wake wasn't human. No one was showing sorrow, for being afraid it would seem weak. Kanna looked at me.
"You don't show any emotions either."
I looked away, and did not speak, leaving her behind as I walked to Folken.
"I'm leaving." I hissed into his ear.
"What?" Folken hissed back.
"Leave me alone."
I marched on, back to my quarters.
"Sir Dilandau!" I heard Kanna call me as I walked down a lone hallway.
I stopped, "What?"
"Why did you leave?"
"It was un human, that wake." I snapped to her.
Kanna walked next to me, "Why don't you show your emotions?! Why don't you cry for them?!"
"Because crying is for the weak!" I screamed at her and Kanna fell silent.
"No it isn't." She whispered.
"It is. I won't cry." I muttered.
Kanna was silent for a while and then spoke.
"You are one odd human."
When I looked up she was smiling at me.
"What?" I grumbled.
Kanna took my hand and looked at me, "Dilandau," She muttered, "Can we meet tonight, under the south balcony?"
I stuttered and finally agreed.
Kanna nodded, "I want to see you there."
Then she smiled and left me alone.
I returned to my room and laid on my bed, listening to the soft rain patter against the roof.
Kanna. . .
I shut my eyes and lay against my pillow, breathing softly.
There was no way to describe how I was feeling.
None at all.
TBC
Yes, this chapter was quite short and might have felt rushed. Anyway, leave a review, thanks!