The Confusion of Love
by *angel!* a.k.a. angel of darkness
Chapter 9
"Ya sure that you know what you're doing?" Quarta asked as he nervously looked over Trowa's shoulder.
"Not really, but we can wing it right?" Trowa stated laughing. "Now back up a little I can't breath."
"Yeah sure." he chimed in backing up. "Sorry."
"I'm too, I've just never done this before. Dou and Heero are the hackers in the bunch of us remember."
"Yeah, but we can't let Heero in on this and Dou is mad at us so this is hopeless." Quatra stated falling into a chair.
"To bad she wasn't in the phonebook huh?"
"Yeah. It's almost like Heero's cursed or something."
"No one is cursed okay, Quatra." Trowa added clicking another button. "No not that button!" He yelled as the computer shut down. "Gotta restart it now."
"What were you saying about no one being cursed?" Quatra teased. "I seem to have forgotten."
"Shut up Quatra." Trowa said playfully pushing Quatra to the floor.
"Hey!" he yelled getting up.
"What?" Trowa answered innocently.
Quatra sighed.
*Flashback*
The God of Death dragged himself out of bed and into the kitchen. "Great." he muttered to himself as he looked at the clock. "It's 3p.m. No way would I hear the end of it, if anyone found out. Excesiouly Quatra." he stated to himself. "Might as well get something to eat." he said to himself as he reached for the peanut butter, even though he could cook, something that he never admitted to anyone before. As he grabbed to knife and caught his reflection in the glare of the knife. 'I look horrible. Hilde would have a fit if she ever found out I was looking like this... What am I doing thinking about Hilde we broke up remember?' The lonely pilot sighed depressed.
"What's up Dou?" Wufei stated patting Dou on his back. 'You don't look so good.' he thought as he saw Dou's face.
"Nothing and I mean nothing." Dou said as he slumped down in a chair.
"Come on, something has to be up...Like you and Hilde. I swear you guys..." He suddenly and abruptly stopped once he saw Dou's face worsen even more. 'Damn. Obviously not the right thing to say.' "What happened?"
"So what if I forgot the tickets? No big deal. Or at least I didn't think it was a big deal. Until Hilde started yelling."
"Tickets!" the Chinese boy yelled in disbelief. "You looking like crap has to do with you forgetting tickets?! You forget a lot of stuff and I still care about you."
"Thanks for reminding me. But, that's not all. I used to believe that even though we were not exactly the same we were close enough to make it work right? But I was obviously wrong."
"You guys have been together for over 2 years... almost 2 years." Wufei did some quick math as Dou nodded. "So if you guys really had big differences don't you think you guys would have noticed it a little sooner?"
"People do get divorces remember?" Dou questioned trying to prove his point.
"I don't believe in divorces." Wufei stated. "I think people need to work out their problems. So what if people get into hard times? I guess when you live and work in such close areas it's easy to snap at people that you're close to. It's also easy to say things that you don't mean. People see divorces as an easy was out. But people are weak when they do that. They're not strong enough to see there are other options."
"Don't lecture me. If I wanted a lecture I would have gone to Trowa okay?" Dou snapped. Wufei remanded quiet and acted like he was about to leave but didn't. "I'm sorry." Dou added after a while. "I guess I'm not ready to realize you're right."
"It's okay. I have snapped at people a lot of times. You're going through a rough time. And I hate to be lectured as much as you do. But I'm only trying to help."
"But what you said about it being easy to snap at people and not meaning it. I snapped at Quatra earlier. When I came home after mine and Hilde's fight. Sure some of our fights have been big. But this one by far takes to cake. She made me stop the car so she could jump out! That's bigger than just alittle fight."
'Poor guy.' Wufei thought sadly. He hated seeing his friend like that. "You need to talk to Quatra and Hilde. You guys need to work out whatever problems you two are having. It's not healthy for you to act like this. Dragging yourself out of bed at 3p.m."
"How did you know I?"
"Let's just say that I didn't see you wake up when everyone else did. So I waited for you to wake up. Finally I took a quick walk at 2:30 or so. When I left you weren't wake but when I cam back you were."
"Did anyone else notice that I didn't wake up till 3?" Dou questioned.
"Nope. Heero, well Heero is Heero. We woke up early and went somewhere like normal. Trowa and Quarta went off to do something, not sure what didn't ask."
"Okay."
"Dou get yourself washed up. And remember what we talked about." Dou nodded "Good Now go and call Hilde."
*End of Flashback*
'Maybe Wufei was right.' he told himself as he reached over for the phone. He quickly dialed.
"Hello." Hilde answered as she picked the phone up.
"Hi this is Dou."
"You know I have caller id remember." Hilde answered sighing. 'Do you remember anything Dou?'
"Oh...Yeah...Sorry." He added cursing at himself. He should have remembered that because him and Hilde have this discussion when Hilde decided to get Caller Id because she was afraid who would call.
"Listen, why exactly did you call? I have to get to work." Hilde asked impatiently.
Dou stole a look at the clock. 'Crap.' He should have remembered to check to clock first. "Yeah listen, about last night."
"Last night pretty much speaks for itself. I don't want to get into another fight." and she didn't. The only reason she made Dou stop the car was to get away from the fight.
Dou twirled his fingers in the cord nervously. "I called because I think..."
But Hilde had already thought about what she needed. "I gotta go now. But there is something that I need to talk to you about. I think that we need a break."
"A break?" Dou asked confused. "Like a vacation or something?"
"No, Dou I think that we need a break from each other."
"Why?" Dou yelled nervously. Suddenly he was mad.
'Stop it Dou. Don't make this hard.' she instructed silently. "I just need a break okay?" she tried harder.
"Hilde, I know that I'm not the most responsible person in the world. I also know that I'm not as serious as you want me to be. But for you I'm willing to change." he begged with her
"No, Dou. Don't change. That's why I loved you." The line suddenly went dead.
by *angel!* a.k.a. angel of darkness
Chapter 9
"Ya sure that you know what you're doing?" Quarta asked as he nervously looked over Trowa's shoulder.
"Not really, but we can wing it right?" Trowa stated laughing. "Now back up a little I can't breath."
"Yeah sure." he chimed in backing up. "Sorry."
"I'm too, I've just never done this before. Dou and Heero are the hackers in the bunch of us remember."
"Yeah, but we can't let Heero in on this and Dou is mad at us so this is hopeless." Quatra stated falling into a chair.
"To bad she wasn't in the phonebook huh?"
"Yeah. It's almost like Heero's cursed or something."
"No one is cursed okay, Quatra." Trowa added clicking another button. "No not that button!" He yelled as the computer shut down. "Gotta restart it now."
"What were you saying about no one being cursed?" Quatra teased. "I seem to have forgotten."
"Shut up Quatra." Trowa said playfully pushing Quatra to the floor.
"Hey!" he yelled getting up.
"What?" Trowa answered innocently.
Quatra sighed.
*Flashback*
The God of Death dragged himself out of bed and into the kitchen. "Great." he muttered to himself as he looked at the clock. "It's 3p.m. No way would I hear the end of it, if anyone found out. Excesiouly Quatra." he stated to himself. "Might as well get something to eat." he said to himself as he reached for the peanut butter, even though he could cook, something that he never admitted to anyone before. As he grabbed to knife and caught his reflection in the glare of the knife. 'I look horrible. Hilde would have a fit if she ever found out I was looking like this... What am I doing thinking about Hilde we broke up remember?' The lonely pilot sighed depressed.
"What's up Dou?" Wufei stated patting Dou on his back. 'You don't look so good.' he thought as he saw Dou's face.
"Nothing and I mean nothing." Dou said as he slumped down in a chair.
"Come on, something has to be up...Like you and Hilde. I swear you guys..." He suddenly and abruptly stopped once he saw Dou's face worsen even more. 'Damn. Obviously not the right thing to say.' "What happened?"
"So what if I forgot the tickets? No big deal. Or at least I didn't think it was a big deal. Until Hilde started yelling."
"Tickets!" the Chinese boy yelled in disbelief. "You looking like crap has to do with you forgetting tickets?! You forget a lot of stuff and I still care about you."
"Thanks for reminding me. But, that's not all. I used to believe that even though we were not exactly the same we were close enough to make it work right? But I was obviously wrong."
"You guys have been together for over 2 years... almost 2 years." Wufei did some quick math as Dou nodded. "So if you guys really had big differences don't you think you guys would have noticed it a little sooner?"
"People do get divorces remember?" Dou questioned trying to prove his point.
"I don't believe in divorces." Wufei stated. "I think people need to work out their problems. So what if people get into hard times? I guess when you live and work in such close areas it's easy to snap at people that you're close to. It's also easy to say things that you don't mean. People see divorces as an easy was out. But people are weak when they do that. They're not strong enough to see there are other options."
"Don't lecture me. If I wanted a lecture I would have gone to Trowa okay?" Dou snapped. Wufei remanded quiet and acted like he was about to leave but didn't. "I'm sorry." Dou added after a while. "I guess I'm not ready to realize you're right."
"It's okay. I have snapped at people a lot of times. You're going through a rough time. And I hate to be lectured as much as you do. But I'm only trying to help."
"But what you said about it being easy to snap at people and not meaning it. I snapped at Quatra earlier. When I came home after mine and Hilde's fight. Sure some of our fights have been big. But this one by far takes to cake. She made me stop the car so she could jump out! That's bigger than just alittle fight."
'Poor guy.' Wufei thought sadly. He hated seeing his friend like that. "You need to talk to Quatra and Hilde. You guys need to work out whatever problems you two are having. It's not healthy for you to act like this. Dragging yourself out of bed at 3p.m."
"How did you know I?"
"Let's just say that I didn't see you wake up when everyone else did. So I waited for you to wake up. Finally I took a quick walk at 2:30 or so. When I left you weren't wake but when I cam back you were."
"Did anyone else notice that I didn't wake up till 3?" Dou questioned.
"Nope. Heero, well Heero is Heero. We woke up early and went somewhere like normal. Trowa and Quarta went off to do something, not sure what didn't ask."
"Okay."
"Dou get yourself washed up. And remember what we talked about." Dou nodded "Good Now go and call Hilde."
*End of Flashback*
'Maybe Wufei was right.' he told himself as he reached over for the phone. He quickly dialed.
"Hello." Hilde answered as she picked the phone up.
"Hi this is Dou."
"You know I have caller id remember." Hilde answered sighing. 'Do you remember anything Dou?'
"Oh...Yeah...Sorry." He added cursing at himself. He should have remembered that because him and Hilde have this discussion when Hilde decided to get Caller Id because she was afraid who would call.
"Listen, why exactly did you call? I have to get to work." Hilde asked impatiently.
Dou stole a look at the clock. 'Crap.' He should have remembered to check to clock first. "Yeah listen, about last night."
"Last night pretty much speaks for itself. I don't want to get into another fight." and she didn't. The only reason she made Dou stop the car was to get away from the fight.
Dou twirled his fingers in the cord nervously. "I called because I think..."
But Hilde had already thought about what she needed. "I gotta go now. But there is something that I need to talk to you about. I think that we need a break."
"A break?" Dou asked confused. "Like a vacation or something?"
"No, Dou I think that we need a break from each other."
"Why?" Dou yelled nervously. Suddenly he was mad.
'Stop it Dou. Don't make this hard.' she instructed silently. "I just need a break okay?" she tried harder.
"Hilde, I know that I'm not the most responsible person in the world. I also know that I'm not as serious as you want me to be. But for you I'm willing to change." he begged with her
"No, Dou. Don't change. That's why I loved you." The line suddenly went dead.