Authors notes: is Merren Wufei's old fiancée? I remember reading that
somewhere in a story and I'm unsure it's actually true. If I stole it from
anyone, Sorry!
Ages:
Kinal...................................18
Lina....................................19
Relena.................................19
Mako..................................20
Hilde...................................21
Heero.................................22
Quatra.................................23
Wufei..................................24
Trowa.................................25
Mr. Shultie..........................35
Mr. Jones............................86
If they look a little wierd remember one thing, It's my story!
The Confusion of Love
By *angel!* a.k.a. angel of darkness
Chapter 10
"So how did it like go?" Wufei asked as he slowly opened Dou's door. He found Dou lying on the bed, having not moved since Hilde hanged up on her. "Oh, sorry. Didn't know you were still on the phone."
"I hate you. Did you know that?" Dou stated angrily as he threw the phone at him.
"What? Didn't I tell you to call Hilde? So what went wrong?" Wufei asked confused as he took a seat on the bed after he placed the phone back on the stand.
"She... wanted...she wanted to break up." Dou said a tear falling down his face.
"What?! How did that happen?!"
"She didn't exactly say she wanted to break up. She said that she wanted to take a break... but isn't that the same thing? How many people do you know that actually get out of the bad part of the relationship?" Dou asked hopelessly
"So you guys can be the first ones who do." Wufei offered. 'Gosh that was corny.'
"Don't preach to me."
"I'm not trying to. I'm just new at this. I've never really comforted anyone before. " Wufei admitted. "When Merren died I cried. I felt so hopeless; I blamed myself I thought it was my fault. Merren died from a weak heart. I thought it was my entire fault, and I finally decided after a lot of grieving that she was weak... and crying was weak and women were weak in general. All because Merren died. And it's a just a cover... and i wake up every morning thinking about her and what happened and when women remind me of her I suddenly say that they are weak because I'm afraid to say the truth. Do you what to end up like that?"
Dou breathed deeply. "No, I don't. But what can I do? Hilde wants her space and I have to respect that. She's going through something and she needs time to think about it."
"No, she doesn't. I disagree. She probely has something that she needs to talk to you about, but is afraid to because of something."
"Are you saying she's scared of me!?" Dou yelled angrily. "How could Hilde be scared of me?!"
"Okay, I'm scared of people sometimes. Mainly women, I 'm afraid that if I ever get close to one again then she'll die or something will happen to her and I'll never see her again, I want to get on with my life. But it's like something's blocking me out of this nightmare. Sometimes I do think it's a nightmare, and some day I'll wake up from it. Until I do, I've decided to get on with my life, and I think you should to."
"But you said..."
"I said you need to get on with your life until Hilde works out whatever she needs to work out. You can't just lie around waiting for her to come back, you need to help recover to. If she sees you strong she'll be strong. If only Merren was around now and she could work out whatever she needs to work out."
"Merren is dead. What does she need to work out?"
"Merren and I had a fight before she died. We both said some things we didn't mean to say. We both had tempers. Merren died a couple of days later, before I could realize what she really meant to me."
"I had no idea." Dou breathed "and to think, I would have been a lot nicer to you if I knew."
"Everyone has a sob story, Dou." and with that Wufei exited to room
'I guess he is right.' Dou thought as he fell back unto his bed. 'I do need to be strong.' and with that he got up and took a shower.
Meanwhile with Quatra and Trowa. "I can not believe you have such weak computer skills!" Quatra shouted in anger. "How long have we been here?!"
"Quatra..." was all Trowa said.
"I guess you're right." he stated after awhile. "I'm sorry."
"It's okay."
"No it's not." Quatra added sighing, "I just took all of my anger out on you. About Heero and Mako about Dou totally yelling at me. How all of a sudden our lives have changed all because of this war. And a million things more. How could everything go so wrong so fast?"
"I'm not sure Quatra. " came a reply from behind them.
"Hi Wufei." Quatra greeted friendly. "What brings you here?"
"I live here remember?" he watched Quatra relax. "Anyway, just thought I would see what you guys are up to, ya know."
"Oh sure. It's kinda confusing so here goes." Trowa stated as he turned around ignoring the computer.
"Oh you turn around for him but not me?" Quatra teased. "How come? Is he special or something?"
"Nope, just I don't trust you telling him." he laughed
"Are you saying that I am incapable of telling someone something without getting them confused? As well as not being able to find someone that's not listed in the phone book?"
"Calm down." Trowa stated continuing to laugh. "What? It's funny." he replied once Quatra gave him a dirty look.
"If you're looking for someone maybe you should ask Heero."
"We are NOT asking Heero for help no matter how hopeless this gets."
"Are you being stubborn?" Wufei asked. "Because if you are I can just ask him to do it right now."
"You better not or I'll kill you!"
"Why are you guys so desperate to find someone?" Wufei asked after a while. "I mean it looks like you two have been down here for some time now." he watched their heads nod. "Why is this person so important to both of you?"
"Well, to tell you the truth, she isn't just some person, she's from Heero's past or something. We don't know much, all we know is that she dramatically changed Heero's life and we want to find out what really happened so we help Heero feel better."
"Okay, well if it's that important..." Wufei started as he pushed Trowa out of the way. "Let me have a try." He suddenly started pushing buttons and the screen went dead.
"What did you do?!" Quatra yelled. "We worked on that for four hours!"
"Don't you know when to give up?" Wufei asked sighing.
"And do what?! Let Heero go on with his life were he pretends like nothings wrong?! I'm sorry I can't do that. "
"I never said that you had to forget about it. Maybe you guys need to get away for a little bit and think about stuff. Maybe you're overlooking some little thing that could turn this thing around.
"I guess you are right in some weird way."
"Are you saying that I'm weird?" Wufei answered raising his eyebrow.
"Nope."
She slowly dragged herself out of bed. Last night was murder. 'How come Dou doesn't understand?' she asked herself as she stepped into the shower. For some reason the shower comforted her the water running down her body, as if it clung to her softly trying to comfort her.
She knew that it wasn't gonna be easy but she had to get on with her life. 'Dou and I are not meant to be.' she reminded herself. 'We have nothing in common and Dou and I are not in no way a good long term investment, we fight to much. You know the only reason that I got out of the car was to prevent myself from saying anything I didn't mean. 'she stated again as I Dou could really hear her.
Hidle sighed in frustration.
Kinal looked around impatiently Mako was suppose to be here by now. She suddenly caught a view of her friend. "Mako!" she yelled annoyed "Where have you been? I've been waiting ya know?"
"Sorry, Kinal. I just had to help Mr. Shultie clean up." The true matter was that she was stalling hoping that by some long shot Kinal would forget and just go home. Looks like she wasn't right.
"Well you're here now and that's all the matters. So as you were saying earlier, you were explaining this Heero guy to me right?" she watched Mako nod. "So aren't you gonna continue?"
"Kinal, it's not something that I want to relive okay? I was the worst time in my life and I don't want to."
"Fine." Kinal sighed obvious annoyed at the fact that her friend wasn't willing to talk about something from her past. "Ya know I thought that you were my friend and that you were willing to talk to me about anything! But no. I told you about all of my secrets didn't I? About all of my old boyfriends why can't you?"
"You don't understand me Kinal. I went through something's that I would rater not mention. I told you I was an orphan right? Did you ever think to ask how?"
"No... I wouldn't do that to you. It's something that doesn't need to be said."
"Exactly. Some other things I went through don't need to be said. Like Heero."
"Heero is just some old boyfriend that you had and aren't able to let go of. I'm right aren't I? I thought you were stronger than that Mako. I thought you would be able to let go of someone after the relationship ended."
"You have no right to say anything about me and Heero! You don't know anything about me!"
"You were my role model Mako. I just thought you would like to know. I looked up to you because I thought that you were always the strongest person I ever met. I didn't think you would keep secrets from me, I thought we were friends."
"We are friends Kinal."
"No we aren't!" she snapped back. "You keep everything from me! How can we be friends if we don't understand anything about each other!"
"Fine!" Mako yelled back. "See if I care!" and with that she walked off.
The perfect soldier looked up from his work again. Heero sighed suddenly. 'How come this has to be so damn hard?' he asked himself and anyone listening. 'God, why do I ahve to suffer like this? How come Janurary 5 even exsists? I wish it didn't.'
'No.' he thought again. 'If Janurary 5th never exsisted I would have never met Mako and if I never met Mako I would have never become a gundam piloet. She changed me forever without her knowing, I became a gundam pilot to please her father and the exact night I was going to tell her.'he suddenly stopped. 'Her dad was in the coma.' he continued.
'Oh it's all might fault. I shouldn't have told her that night. She was sad and drepressed and she needed me to be her strenght. But I couldn't because I had to go and tell her about me being a pilot.' He cursed himself out. 'Heero you can be such a idot sometimes ya know that!' Heero sighed deeply. 'But that was all in the past right? The past wasn't important the future was.' he stated repeating some clishies he had once hear somewhere. But even those didn't seem to help.
'Mako is probebly long gone thinking about me. I mean a girl of her stature being the daughter of who her father was, has tons of guys availible. I was probely just some rebound boyfriend or something....NO!' He yelled at himself. 'Mako thought about him as more than just another boyfriend right? Right.' he tried to comfort himself. But no amount of comforting could help him to feel better.
The princess of Earth walked into the hotel loby she was staying at. "Princess you're room is ready." someone behind the desk said smiling.
"Yeah sure. Great." she answered depressed.
"Okay, have a nice stay. The emergency numbers are by the phone if you need anything. The front desk's number is 0."
She dragged herself over to the elevator loft and waited for the elevator. 'Stupid elevator.' she thought after a while. 'How come it isn't coming!?'
Unknown to her someone was entering the Hotel lobby too. "Relena? Are you okay? You don't look so good." Lina said after while noticing her friend.
"It is no consern of you'res if I look good or not got it?" Relena snapped back. "If you think acting like my friend is gonna make are arguement go away then you are very wrong!"
"Relena.." Lina tried "I just wanted to say..." she started but couldn't continue. 'Why the heck an I apoligizing?! I didn't do anything! I'm not the helpless romantic who can't get a clue when she can't get the guys she wants!'
"You wanted to say what? I don't have alot of time, so you better make this quick."
But before Lina could respond the elevator arrived and Relena got on. "Aren't you coming?" she asked annoyed at Lina not moving.
"Nope." she replied softly not willing to be alone with Relena. "No thanks."
"Your lost." she replied
She walked through the city endlessly. 'I'm sorry Kinal.' she thought silently. 'I didn't mean to yell at you.' And a tear started to drip down her face as she closed her eyes and continued walking. 'It's just that Janurary 5th is more than just another day Kinal. It's the aniversity of something rather someone very special in her life even if he is gone now.'
/That's no excuse Kinal./ she stopped herself. /I can't blame Heero for this, he's not even here. And even if he was it's no reason to yell at you Kinal./
"I think we should all take a walk and get away from this." Wufei added noticing the silent and saddening mood of the house that reflected that of the inhibitors.
"I guess you are right," Quatra added looking around. 'This isn't exactually the nicest mood I've seen everyone in.'
"Sure, I'll go grab my coat okay?" Trowa added as he left the room and returned handing Wufei and Quatra their coats.
"Thanks." Quatra stated offering a small smile the best he could do at that time.
"Yeah." Wufei added opening the door and walking out. The other two pilots soon followed him.
*angel!*- hey yeah I know it's short but I figured if I put it in short I could post it now and wait till I could finish it up.
Ages:
Kinal...................................18
Lina....................................19
Relena.................................19
Mako..................................20
Hilde...................................21
Heero.................................22
Quatra.................................23
Wufei..................................24
Trowa.................................25
Mr. Shultie..........................35
Mr. Jones............................86
If they look a little wierd remember one thing, It's my story!
The Confusion of Love
By *angel!* a.k.a. angel of darkness
Chapter 10
"So how did it like go?" Wufei asked as he slowly opened Dou's door. He found Dou lying on the bed, having not moved since Hilde hanged up on her. "Oh, sorry. Didn't know you were still on the phone."
"I hate you. Did you know that?" Dou stated angrily as he threw the phone at him.
"What? Didn't I tell you to call Hilde? So what went wrong?" Wufei asked confused as he took a seat on the bed after he placed the phone back on the stand.
"She... wanted...she wanted to break up." Dou said a tear falling down his face.
"What?! How did that happen?!"
"She didn't exactly say she wanted to break up. She said that she wanted to take a break... but isn't that the same thing? How many people do you know that actually get out of the bad part of the relationship?" Dou asked hopelessly
"So you guys can be the first ones who do." Wufei offered. 'Gosh that was corny.'
"Don't preach to me."
"I'm not trying to. I'm just new at this. I've never really comforted anyone before. " Wufei admitted. "When Merren died I cried. I felt so hopeless; I blamed myself I thought it was my fault. Merren died from a weak heart. I thought it was my entire fault, and I finally decided after a lot of grieving that she was weak... and crying was weak and women were weak in general. All because Merren died. And it's a just a cover... and i wake up every morning thinking about her and what happened and when women remind me of her I suddenly say that they are weak because I'm afraid to say the truth. Do you what to end up like that?"
Dou breathed deeply. "No, I don't. But what can I do? Hilde wants her space and I have to respect that. She's going through something and she needs time to think about it."
"No, she doesn't. I disagree. She probely has something that she needs to talk to you about, but is afraid to because of something."
"Are you saying she's scared of me!?" Dou yelled angrily. "How could Hilde be scared of me?!"
"Okay, I'm scared of people sometimes. Mainly women, I 'm afraid that if I ever get close to one again then she'll die or something will happen to her and I'll never see her again, I want to get on with my life. But it's like something's blocking me out of this nightmare. Sometimes I do think it's a nightmare, and some day I'll wake up from it. Until I do, I've decided to get on with my life, and I think you should to."
"But you said..."
"I said you need to get on with your life until Hilde works out whatever she needs to work out. You can't just lie around waiting for her to come back, you need to help recover to. If she sees you strong she'll be strong. If only Merren was around now and she could work out whatever she needs to work out."
"Merren is dead. What does she need to work out?"
"Merren and I had a fight before she died. We both said some things we didn't mean to say. We both had tempers. Merren died a couple of days later, before I could realize what she really meant to me."
"I had no idea." Dou breathed "and to think, I would have been a lot nicer to you if I knew."
"Everyone has a sob story, Dou." and with that Wufei exited to room
'I guess he is right.' Dou thought as he fell back unto his bed. 'I do need to be strong.' and with that he got up and took a shower.
Meanwhile with Quatra and Trowa. "I can not believe you have such weak computer skills!" Quatra shouted in anger. "How long have we been here?!"
"Quatra..." was all Trowa said.
"I guess you're right." he stated after awhile. "I'm sorry."
"It's okay."
"No it's not." Quatra added sighing, "I just took all of my anger out on you. About Heero and Mako about Dou totally yelling at me. How all of a sudden our lives have changed all because of this war. And a million things more. How could everything go so wrong so fast?"
"I'm not sure Quatra. " came a reply from behind them.
"Hi Wufei." Quatra greeted friendly. "What brings you here?"
"I live here remember?" he watched Quatra relax. "Anyway, just thought I would see what you guys are up to, ya know."
"Oh sure. It's kinda confusing so here goes." Trowa stated as he turned around ignoring the computer.
"Oh you turn around for him but not me?" Quatra teased. "How come? Is he special or something?"
"Nope, just I don't trust you telling him." he laughed
"Are you saying that I am incapable of telling someone something without getting them confused? As well as not being able to find someone that's not listed in the phone book?"
"Calm down." Trowa stated continuing to laugh. "What? It's funny." he replied once Quatra gave him a dirty look.
"If you're looking for someone maybe you should ask Heero."
"We are NOT asking Heero for help no matter how hopeless this gets."
"Are you being stubborn?" Wufei asked. "Because if you are I can just ask him to do it right now."
"You better not or I'll kill you!"
"Why are you guys so desperate to find someone?" Wufei asked after a while. "I mean it looks like you two have been down here for some time now." he watched their heads nod. "Why is this person so important to both of you?"
"Well, to tell you the truth, she isn't just some person, she's from Heero's past or something. We don't know much, all we know is that she dramatically changed Heero's life and we want to find out what really happened so we help Heero feel better."
"Okay, well if it's that important..." Wufei started as he pushed Trowa out of the way. "Let me have a try." He suddenly started pushing buttons and the screen went dead.
"What did you do?!" Quatra yelled. "We worked on that for four hours!"
"Don't you know when to give up?" Wufei asked sighing.
"And do what?! Let Heero go on with his life were he pretends like nothings wrong?! I'm sorry I can't do that. "
"I never said that you had to forget about it. Maybe you guys need to get away for a little bit and think about stuff. Maybe you're overlooking some little thing that could turn this thing around.
"I guess you are right in some weird way."
"Are you saying that I'm weird?" Wufei answered raising his eyebrow.
"Nope."
She slowly dragged herself out of bed. Last night was murder. 'How come Dou doesn't understand?' she asked herself as she stepped into the shower. For some reason the shower comforted her the water running down her body, as if it clung to her softly trying to comfort her.
She knew that it wasn't gonna be easy but she had to get on with her life. 'Dou and I are not meant to be.' she reminded herself. 'We have nothing in common and Dou and I are not in no way a good long term investment, we fight to much. You know the only reason that I got out of the car was to prevent myself from saying anything I didn't mean. 'she stated again as I Dou could really hear her.
Hidle sighed in frustration.
Kinal looked around impatiently Mako was suppose to be here by now. She suddenly caught a view of her friend. "Mako!" she yelled annoyed "Where have you been? I've been waiting ya know?"
"Sorry, Kinal. I just had to help Mr. Shultie clean up." The true matter was that she was stalling hoping that by some long shot Kinal would forget and just go home. Looks like she wasn't right.
"Well you're here now and that's all the matters. So as you were saying earlier, you were explaining this Heero guy to me right?" she watched Mako nod. "So aren't you gonna continue?"
"Kinal, it's not something that I want to relive okay? I was the worst time in my life and I don't want to."
"Fine." Kinal sighed obvious annoyed at the fact that her friend wasn't willing to talk about something from her past. "Ya know I thought that you were my friend and that you were willing to talk to me about anything! But no. I told you about all of my secrets didn't I? About all of my old boyfriends why can't you?"
"You don't understand me Kinal. I went through something's that I would rater not mention. I told you I was an orphan right? Did you ever think to ask how?"
"No... I wouldn't do that to you. It's something that doesn't need to be said."
"Exactly. Some other things I went through don't need to be said. Like Heero."
"Heero is just some old boyfriend that you had and aren't able to let go of. I'm right aren't I? I thought you were stronger than that Mako. I thought you would be able to let go of someone after the relationship ended."
"You have no right to say anything about me and Heero! You don't know anything about me!"
"You were my role model Mako. I just thought you would like to know. I looked up to you because I thought that you were always the strongest person I ever met. I didn't think you would keep secrets from me, I thought we were friends."
"We are friends Kinal."
"No we aren't!" she snapped back. "You keep everything from me! How can we be friends if we don't understand anything about each other!"
"Fine!" Mako yelled back. "See if I care!" and with that she walked off.
The perfect soldier looked up from his work again. Heero sighed suddenly. 'How come this has to be so damn hard?' he asked himself and anyone listening. 'God, why do I ahve to suffer like this? How come Janurary 5 even exsists? I wish it didn't.'
'No.' he thought again. 'If Janurary 5th never exsisted I would have never met Mako and if I never met Mako I would have never become a gundam piloet. She changed me forever without her knowing, I became a gundam pilot to please her father and the exact night I was going to tell her.'he suddenly stopped. 'Her dad was in the coma.' he continued.
'Oh it's all might fault. I shouldn't have told her that night. She was sad and drepressed and she needed me to be her strenght. But I couldn't because I had to go and tell her about me being a pilot.' He cursed himself out. 'Heero you can be such a idot sometimes ya know that!' Heero sighed deeply. 'But that was all in the past right? The past wasn't important the future was.' he stated repeating some clishies he had once hear somewhere. But even those didn't seem to help.
'Mako is probebly long gone thinking about me. I mean a girl of her stature being the daughter of who her father was, has tons of guys availible. I was probely just some rebound boyfriend or something....NO!' He yelled at himself. 'Mako thought about him as more than just another boyfriend right? Right.' he tried to comfort himself. But no amount of comforting could help him to feel better.
The princess of Earth walked into the hotel loby she was staying at. "Princess you're room is ready." someone behind the desk said smiling.
"Yeah sure. Great." she answered depressed.
"Okay, have a nice stay. The emergency numbers are by the phone if you need anything. The front desk's number is 0."
She dragged herself over to the elevator loft and waited for the elevator. 'Stupid elevator.' she thought after a while. 'How come it isn't coming!?'
Unknown to her someone was entering the Hotel lobby too. "Relena? Are you okay? You don't look so good." Lina said after while noticing her friend.
"It is no consern of you'res if I look good or not got it?" Relena snapped back. "If you think acting like my friend is gonna make are arguement go away then you are very wrong!"
"Relena.." Lina tried "I just wanted to say..." she started but couldn't continue. 'Why the heck an I apoligizing?! I didn't do anything! I'm not the helpless romantic who can't get a clue when she can't get the guys she wants!'
"You wanted to say what? I don't have alot of time, so you better make this quick."
But before Lina could respond the elevator arrived and Relena got on. "Aren't you coming?" she asked annoyed at Lina not moving.
"Nope." she replied softly not willing to be alone with Relena. "No thanks."
"Your lost." she replied
She walked through the city endlessly. 'I'm sorry Kinal.' she thought silently. 'I didn't mean to yell at you.' And a tear started to drip down her face as she closed her eyes and continued walking. 'It's just that Janurary 5th is more than just another day Kinal. It's the aniversity of something rather someone very special in her life even if he is gone now.'
/That's no excuse Kinal./ she stopped herself. /I can't blame Heero for this, he's not even here. And even if he was it's no reason to yell at you Kinal./
"I think we should all take a walk and get away from this." Wufei added noticing the silent and saddening mood of the house that reflected that of the inhibitors.
"I guess you are right," Quatra added looking around. 'This isn't exactually the nicest mood I've seen everyone in.'
"Sure, I'll go grab my coat okay?" Trowa added as he left the room and returned handing Wufei and Quatra their coats.
"Thanks." Quatra stated offering a small smile the best he could do at that time.
"Yeah." Wufei added opening the door and walking out. The other two pilots soon followed him.
*angel!*- hey yeah I know it's short but I figured if I put it in short I could post it now and wait till I could finish it up.