Authors notes: sorry about taking so long on this chapter I really am. I
actually knew how I wanted this one to go for a while and didn't write it
because I was trying to move my site to like it's 6th place to try to find
a good place to host it. Sorry!
The Confusion of Love
by *angel!* a.k.a. angel of darkness
Chapter 11
"So where exactually are we going?" Quatra asked Wufei as he rured to catch up to his friend.
"Not sure. Just walking I guess." he replied looking behind him. "Trowa ya wanna walk any faster?" he called
"No, not really." Trowa replied "I'm happy walking as slow as I am right now."
"I think we should slow down." Quatra stated looking at Wufei "Do you mind?"
"Why would I mind? I don't even know where we're going in the first place." Wufei stated slowing down. "Now, if you both don't mind. I would like to ask you guys a couple of question."
"You want to know about Mako, huh?" Trowa asked. "I guess it's all right if we tell him."
"You guys act like this is some 'big' secret that we have to hide from everyone."
"It's not really." Quatra admitted.
"The how come you didn't want me to go tell Heero? He would have helped you all out a lot."Wufei commented.
Trowa sighed. "It's not like we were being stubborn or anything. I guess in a way we were being stubborn. All we wanted to find out is what happened to Heero in his past. He's been hiding something from us, and all we what to know is what so we can help him out, and all we know is that this Mako person has something to do with it."
"I get it. So that's all you guys know? With you guyes computer skills, I say you both are deeply screwed."
"Hey!" Quatra yelled back. "That was up called for!"
"I don't think he ment it like that, did you Wufei?" Trowa asked trying not to further compicate anything.
"Trowa's right." Wufei stated.
"Thank you." he interupted smilling. "It's great to know that I'm appreciated."
"Anyway, all I was saying was that you two are lost with what computer skills you both have. I was just stating a fact."
"A very big fact." Quatra repeated agreeliy as he sighed. 'Maybe I should have been paying attention in basic camp.'
"Right. But in my mind if anyone's screwed it's Dou." Wufei stated sighing. "Poor guy."
"Why?"Quatra asked confused. "I know that they, Hilde and Dou, are having problems."
Wufei suddenly cut off his friend. "It's more that just problems. Hilde wants them to take a break from each other."
"What?" Quatra almost yelled is disbolife. "Those two have been together almost as long as we have know Dou, that's like 4 years right? To think that even after that long they still had probems. It makes you wonder, what if that failed what else might?"
"Dou still loves her, and I'm pretty sure she loves him back. Hilde's probley afraid of something and is afraid to talk to Dou about it, so she asked him if they could take a break. That way, she's still Dou's girlfriend and is able to think this thing out."
"Makes since." Trowa nodded agrieingly. "But why know? It's strange."
"Everything is strange." Quatra commented as Wufei nodded.
"Amen to that."
Makoto contined to walk into what looked like a park to her. She wasn't sure where she was or how she was gonna get home, but then again she flat out didn't give a damn. She saw a what looked like a small fountain, and splashed some cold water onto her face, hoping to get rid of some of the signs of tears on her face. Noticing that it didn't help, she got up and walked through the park trying to get her thoughts together.
'Kinal hates he now, and I don't blame her.' she stated to herself. 'Who wouldn't? If I were her I would have been mad at me a long time ago. Maybe this isn't about Kinal maybe this is about Heero, having to suddenly face talking about him along time ago.' She thought that ara in her life was over, a portion of her life she didn't want to face again. 'But what if I have to see him again?' she asked herself 'What if he's different? What if.' she suddenly stopped when she dumped into someone falling on the ground. "I'm sorry. It's all my fault." she stated as she got up. "Quatra?" she asked suprized. "I didn't mean to run into you."
"It's okay, Mako." he answered. "It's really my fault." Quatra felt like jumping as he counted his lucky stars. He didn't notice her tear cover face.
"Mako what's wrong?" Trowa suddenly asked stepping forward. "You look like you were just crying.
Wufei looked at the whole scene in amazment. Maybe deciding to stay back and wait to be introduced was the right thing, it was obvious they all need.
Quata suddenly looked at her and cussed himself out on his stupidness. He was only think about seeing her again, and obviously didn't notice the pain in her eyes. "Mako?" he asked "You know you can tell us."
"No I can't." she softly whispered. "You guys are happy now. I can't tell you because I don't want to ruin whatever thing you were happy about."
"We were happy to see you, Mako." Quatra tried to convise her. 'she's being stubbron.'
"If just seeing someone you know makes you happy Quatra," she started. "I can just imagine what could make you sad, no Quatra. You're to naive to understand."
'How come everyone things I'm native?' he asked silently. 'I am not native!' "You don't understand Mako. We have been trying to find you again ever since we met you." he suddenly stopped after recieving a look from Trowa.
"Why would you try to find me Quatra?" she asked confused. "What's so special about me?"
"Because you changed Heero forever." Quatra knew he should shut up, but couldn't because he was getting fed up with Mako being stubborn.
"I never wanted him to change!" she yelled unexpectinly as Trowa and Quatra stepped back. "I loved how he was! But my dad didn't aprove of him so he changed to get my dad's approval! Then I never saw him again! So don't you ever say I changed him Quatra! Ever!" she suddenly stopped biting her lip trying unsuceesfully to fight back tears. Realizing she couldn't she truned around and started to walk off.
"What are you waiting for?" Trowa stated his voice full of anger at the stupidity of his friend. "Go after her."
Quatra nodded as he ran in the direction Mako left in.
Quatra looked suddenly catching a glimpse of the only person who could fix Heero's life. "This is all my fault." he stated to softly as if she was a scared little girl he was afraid to scare off. "Shouldn't have pushed."
"People always push Quatra. It's not big deal." she answered as she grabbed her knees tighter.
"Mako." the blonde haired gundam pilot stated regretfully. "I never met to hurt to." he appoligized as he walked closer to her.
"It's not your fault. I shouldn't have yelled. I'm just upset. My best friend is mad at me, and nothings going right." she sobbed.
"Mako." he offered softly opening his arms as she cried into his shirt. He knew that no matter what he said, he couldn't prevent her saddness so he didn't say anything. His shirt was all that he could offer and it was all that he did.
"What's taking them both so long?"Wufei asked impassently. He hated to imet it but he was starting to get curious about this whole thing.
"How am I suppose to know?"Trowa asked back.
"Do you think he lost her?" Wufei asked looking in the direction they both went.
"Maybe I guess, but if he did he's gonna be dead when he comes back. To think I thought it would make Dou feel better. That's the only reason that I didn't say anything. I thought you guys would introduce me when the time came and you both remembered me."
"We didn't quite forget you." Trowa lied.
"Yeah you did. You guys started your 'whole little happy-then-turned- non-happy-get-toghether' with out me."
"First of all, you where there, you saw what happened. Second Dou would be happy to see his friend happy, but I don't think that it'll do anything other than that to him."
"If Dou saw his friend get back together with his true love then don't you think that would make him feel better about him and Hilde."
"What makes you say Heero and Mako even ever dated?" Trowa questioned.
"Hello!" Wufei stated annoyed at his friend. "Doesn't it scream 'We used to be together and aren't any more!?'"
"I guess."
"You guess?! Did you fall in the shower today?"
"Maybe. Only Mako and Heero know the truth."
"I guess." Wufei added not wanting the fight to go on any longer.
Quatra's gaze looked away from the Mako and up into the night sky. But even that didn't seem to help. "Do you want to go back?" Quatra asked the girl in his arms.
"Sure." she stated
Wufei looked at the whole scene in amazment. Maybe deciding to stay back and wait to be introduced was the right thing, it was obvious they all need
The Confusion of Love
by *angel!* a.k.a. angel of darkness
Chapter 11
"So where exactually are we going?" Quatra asked Wufei as he rured to catch up to his friend.
"Not sure. Just walking I guess." he replied looking behind him. "Trowa ya wanna walk any faster?" he called
"No, not really." Trowa replied "I'm happy walking as slow as I am right now."
"I think we should slow down." Quatra stated looking at Wufei "Do you mind?"
"Why would I mind? I don't even know where we're going in the first place." Wufei stated slowing down. "Now, if you both don't mind. I would like to ask you guys a couple of question."
"You want to know about Mako, huh?" Trowa asked. "I guess it's all right if we tell him."
"You guys act like this is some 'big' secret that we have to hide from everyone."
"It's not really." Quatra admitted.
"The how come you didn't want me to go tell Heero? He would have helped you all out a lot."Wufei commented.
Trowa sighed. "It's not like we were being stubborn or anything. I guess in a way we were being stubborn. All we wanted to find out is what happened to Heero in his past. He's been hiding something from us, and all we what to know is what so we can help him out, and all we know is that this Mako person has something to do with it."
"I get it. So that's all you guys know? With you guyes computer skills, I say you both are deeply screwed."
"Hey!" Quatra yelled back. "That was up called for!"
"I don't think he ment it like that, did you Wufei?" Trowa asked trying not to further compicate anything.
"Trowa's right." Wufei stated.
"Thank you." he interupted smilling. "It's great to know that I'm appreciated."
"Anyway, all I was saying was that you two are lost with what computer skills you both have. I was just stating a fact."
"A very big fact." Quatra repeated agreeliy as he sighed. 'Maybe I should have been paying attention in basic camp.'
"Right. But in my mind if anyone's screwed it's Dou." Wufei stated sighing. "Poor guy."
"Why?"Quatra asked confused. "I know that they, Hilde and Dou, are having problems."
Wufei suddenly cut off his friend. "It's more that just problems. Hilde wants them to take a break from each other."
"What?" Quatra almost yelled is disbolife. "Those two have been together almost as long as we have know Dou, that's like 4 years right? To think that even after that long they still had probems. It makes you wonder, what if that failed what else might?"
"Dou still loves her, and I'm pretty sure she loves him back. Hilde's probley afraid of something and is afraid to talk to Dou about it, so she asked him if they could take a break. That way, she's still Dou's girlfriend and is able to think this thing out."
"Makes since." Trowa nodded agrieingly. "But why know? It's strange."
"Everything is strange." Quatra commented as Wufei nodded.
"Amen to that."
Makoto contined to walk into what looked like a park to her. She wasn't sure where she was or how she was gonna get home, but then again she flat out didn't give a damn. She saw a what looked like a small fountain, and splashed some cold water onto her face, hoping to get rid of some of the signs of tears on her face. Noticing that it didn't help, she got up and walked through the park trying to get her thoughts together.
'Kinal hates he now, and I don't blame her.' she stated to herself. 'Who wouldn't? If I were her I would have been mad at me a long time ago. Maybe this isn't about Kinal maybe this is about Heero, having to suddenly face talking about him along time ago.' She thought that ara in her life was over, a portion of her life she didn't want to face again. 'But what if I have to see him again?' she asked herself 'What if he's different? What if.' she suddenly stopped when she dumped into someone falling on the ground. "I'm sorry. It's all my fault." she stated as she got up. "Quatra?" she asked suprized. "I didn't mean to run into you."
"It's okay, Mako." he answered. "It's really my fault." Quatra felt like jumping as he counted his lucky stars. He didn't notice her tear cover face.
"Mako what's wrong?" Trowa suddenly asked stepping forward. "You look like you were just crying.
Wufei looked at the whole scene in amazment. Maybe deciding to stay back and wait to be introduced was the right thing, it was obvious they all need.
Quata suddenly looked at her and cussed himself out on his stupidness. He was only think about seeing her again, and obviously didn't notice the pain in her eyes. "Mako?" he asked "You know you can tell us."
"No I can't." she softly whispered. "You guys are happy now. I can't tell you because I don't want to ruin whatever thing you were happy about."
"We were happy to see you, Mako." Quatra tried to convise her. 'she's being stubbron.'
"If just seeing someone you know makes you happy Quatra," she started. "I can just imagine what could make you sad, no Quatra. You're to naive to understand."
'How come everyone things I'm native?' he asked silently. 'I am not native!' "You don't understand Mako. We have been trying to find you again ever since we met you." he suddenly stopped after recieving a look from Trowa.
"Why would you try to find me Quatra?" she asked confused. "What's so special about me?"
"Because you changed Heero forever." Quatra knew he should shut up, but couldn't because he was getting fed up with Mako being stubborn.
"I never wanted him to change!" she yelled unexpectinly as Trowa and Quatra stepped back. "I loved how he was! But my dad didn't aprove of him so he changed to get my dad's approval! Then I never saw him again! So don't you ever say I changed him Quatra! Ever!" she suddenly stopped biting her lip trying unsuceesfully to fight back tears. Realizing she couldn't she truned around and started to walk off.
"What are you waiting for?" Trowa stated his voice full of anger at the stupidity of his friend. "Go after her."
Quatra nodded as he ran in the direction Mako left in.
Quatra looked suddenly catching a glimpse of the only person who could fix Heero's life. "This is all my fault." he stated to softly as if she was a scared little girl he was afraid to scare off. "Shouldn't have pushed."
"People always push Quatra. It's not big deal." she answered as she grabbed her knees tighter.
"Mako." the blonde haired gundam pilot stated regretfully. "I never met to hurt to." he appoligized as he walked closer to her.
"It's not your fault. I shouldn't have yelled. I'm just upset. My best friend is mad at me, and nothings going right." she sobbed.
"Mako." he offered softly opening his arms as she cried into his shirt. He knew that no matter what he said, he couldn't prevent her saddness so he didn't say anything. His shirt was all that he could offer and it was all that he did.
"What's taking them both so long?"Wufei asked impassently. He hated to imet it but he was starting to get curious about this whole thing.
"How am I suppose to know?"Trowa asked back.
"Do you think he lost her?" Wufei asked looking in the direction they both went.
"Maybe I guess, but if he did he's gonna be dead when he comes back. To think I thought it would make Dou feel better. That's the only reason that I didn't say anything. I thought you guys would introduce me when the time came and you both remembered me."
"We didn't quite forget you." Trowa lied.
"Yeah you did. You guys started your 'whole little happy-then-turned- non-happy-get-toghether' with out me."
"First of all, you where there, you saw what happened. Second Dou would be happy to see his friend happy, but I don't think that it'll do anything other than that to him."
"If Dou saw his friend get back together with his true love then don't you think that would make him feel better about him and Hilde."
"What makes you say Heero and Mako even ever dated?" Trowa questioned.
"Hello!" Wufei stated annoyed at his friend. "Doesn't it scream 'We used to be together and aren't any more!?'"
"I guess."
"You guess?! Did you fall in the shower today?"
"Maybe. Only Mako and Heero know the truth."
"I guess." Wufei added not wanting the fight to go on any longer.
Quatra's gaze looked away from the Mako and up into the night sky. But even that didn't seem to help. "Do you want to go back?" Quatra asked the girl in his arms.
"Sure." she stated
Wufei looked at the whole scene in amazment. Maybe deciding to stay back and wait to be introduced was the right thing, it was obvious they all need