Author's notes: sorry about taking so long to post this. Believe me it isn't my fault. I caught a cold and wasn't alowed on the internet and then I was grounded so yeah. I'm really sorry! But I have decided that I'm going to rewrite this story before I work on my sequel, if I decide to have a sequel. I've even consitered if I wanted to turn a couple of the chapters into songfics. But I finally decided that I was going to have the whole thing be a songfic. You'll have to wait to find out!
The confusion of love
by *angel!* a.k.a. angel of darkness
Chapter 13
Lina suddenly felt herself being pushed up against someone. "Relena." she whispered. Relena in turn just ignored her, not ready to talk. "Relena." she stated louder. "Relena!" she yelled angrily. "I need to talk to you Damn it!"
"I thought you said that princesses couldn't cuss." Relena replied, her voice dripping in sarcasm.
"I'm not the princess here. I don't have little rules I have to follow."
"Are you calling my rules little?" Relena asked annoyed at having to have this conversation.
"Nope just your rules."
Relena smiled a little at that. "I'm sorry." she stated finally.
"It's okay. I should be the one apologizing." Lina contridicted.
"No. It's my fault. Me and my hopeless love issues." Relena became sad
"You don't have love issues you just are a little challenged in love." Lina stated showing a smile of reassurance.
"It's the same thing isn't it?" Relena asked staring out the window.
"No it isn't. I'll tell you what. How about we visit Heero and you can try to work these things out?"
"Really?" Relena squeaked. "That would be great! But are you sure you wouldn't mind?"
"As you're friend I would be delighted to. Plus the kingdom would love to see you married." she winked knowingly at her friend.
"Me and Heero are not getting married!" she said blushing.
Lina laughed. "hey!" she yelled after she got hit in the head with the pillow.
"Served you right."
"That's it!" she threw a pillow back. She stopped once Relena started to cough.
"You okay?" she asked concerned.
"Maybe we should have taken the limo." Relena stated.
"You stay here. I'm going to go buy some medicine, okay?" she watched Relena nod. "Call the front desk if you need anything!" she yelled as she closed the door.
"We're out of Aspirin." Trowa yelled from the bathroom.
"Isn't there some in the bathroom under the counter?!" Quatra yelled back.
"I checked there!" he yelled at his friend.
"I'm be there in a minute!" Quatra shouted walking towards the bathroom. He didn't want to disturb the neighbors even though they lived a long way away.
Quatra stared suprize at the mess all over the floor. "Are you sure there isn't an Aspirin under that mess?" he joked.
Trowa didn't share in the humor. "Nope." he stated looking under the counter again to see if by chance he missed it.
"I'll go get Wufei to buy some okay?" Quatra stated after taking one more look at the floor. 'No way I'm looking under that.' He returned after awhile. "You're head bothering you?" he asked, asking the obvious as Trowa continuously rubbed his head to try the relieve the pain.
"You are sure obverant today."
"Is it serious?" Quatra asked hoping his friend was okay.
"Serious enough for an aspirin. Probably this whole Heero thing."
"This must mean you don't think much." he joked.
"Hey!" He threw a bottle of cough medicine at Quatra, which Quatra eazily caught.
"You sure it isn't serious?" he put the bottle down.
"Quatra." he warned. "I have a headache. I'm not gonna die."
"If you say so." he smiled at his friend who smiled back. He suddenly felt a weird feeling toward Trowa. 'What the hell am I feeling?!' he asked himself he angrily.
"I feel like I'm going around in circles." Lina stated concerned. "Maybe I should ask for directions. Hey you!" she yelled at Wufei.
Wufei turned around. "Yes?" he asked not sure if he was getting yelled at. He looked around to see no one else was around.
"I feel stupid for asking this but, I'm a tourist and one of my friends I was staying at kinda got sick so I was going to buy some medicine but I kinda got lost. Can you tell me where the nearest pharmacy is?" she looked into his eyes, her eyes almost pleading with him.
"Sure. Go 3 blocks that way." he pointed north. "And turn left at the stop light. The store is about 1 block left."
"Thank you." Lina stated as she started north. She felt like she was being followed and turned around to see Wufei behind her.
"You don't have to show me the way." Lina stated a hint of fear in her voice, sure he looked decent enough, but she had never seen a stalker before and was beginning to wonder if he was one.
"I'm not. I just so happen to be off buying some Aspirin for one of my roommates." Wufei asked a little angry. 'Like she really has to know where the hell I'm going!? Really!'
"Oh." she sighed. "Okay. At first I thought you where a stalker or something."
Wufei didn't say anything but it was obvious that he was annoyed at her. 'Stupid Onna.' he muttered after awhile.
Lina heard him and pretended not to know. 'How would you feel if someone was following you around in a strange place really. He's just a jerk.' she shook her head.
Wufei knew that he had heard him when she continued to walk after the turn. He debated over weither or not to tell her. "Where do you think you aren't going?!" he yelled after her.
"I already told you! To the pharmacy even though it's no business of yours!" she yelled angrily.
"Have a nice time!" he yelled sarcastically. "Expessiouly since you missed your turn!"
Lina suddenly realized that she had and a small blush formed on her cheeks. 'Bastard.' she thought walking back to Wufei. "Are you happy now?!" she yelled at him in his face.
"What did I do? Did you want me to not tell you, that you were going the wrong way?!" he yelled back.
"The only reason that I missed the turn was because you had to go call me a stupid Onna!"
"That's nice, blaming other people for your mistakes!" he knew he should stop but he just couldn't.
"I do not blame other people when it isn't there fault! It was you're fault!" she yelled back.
"You are the most annoying person I ever met! And if you will excuse me I'm going to go buy some Aspirin for my friend and then take some for myself because of the headache you gave me!" he walked off. Lina walked behind him not saying a word. He opened the door to the shop and purposely slammed it in her face.
"Bastard." she stated opening the door and letting herself in.
"Is this it?" the clerk asked politely.
Wufei glared at her. "Nope I have an invisible bottle here to." he stated not meaning to be mean to her.
"Be nice to the poor lady." Lina stated from behind him.
"Who gave you the right to tell me what to do?" he asked rudely.
"I'm only trying to save her from you."
"Are you saying that people need to be saved from me?"
"That'll be 4.33." interrupted the clerk on purpose trying to prevent them from getting worse.
Wufei fished a credit card out of his wallet. "Can you sign her Mr. Wufei Chan?" she asked handing him a piece of paper.
He quickly signed and gave in back to her and picked up the bag.
"Next please."
'Wufei interesting.' she mentally saved that name "That's Me." she stated putting the bottle of medicine on the belt.
"Here you go." Wufei stated as he threw the bottle at Trowa. "And just so you know that is the last time I am ever going to the store!"
"Was it really that bad?" Quatra asked.
Wufei looked flabbergasted. "Of course I was bad!"
"What was so bad?" Dou asked sleepily as he yawned.
"Wufei picking up a bottle of Aspirin." Quatra mentally shock his head at the thought of his friend not getting up until after 3 p.m. because of Hilde. He mentally promised Dou he would fix whatever had happened to them.
Dou looked confused. "What's so bad about having to go to the store?"
"There was the most annoying and aggravating woman there. She asked me how to get to the pharmacy and I told her and started walking the same direction and then she accused me of being a stalker! She even yelled at me after I told she had missed her turn! Stupid Onna!"
"The bottle's open." Trowa commented.
"Of course the bottle is open! The stupid Onna gave me a headache and I had to take one! Now if you will all excuse me I'm going downstairs to take a walk!"
"I'm going to go eat breakfast." Dou stated.
"It's after 3. Don't you mean Lunch?" Trowa asked hinting that he didn't approve of his friend's sleeping habits.
"It's all the same to me. It's all food." and with that he felt.
"I've decided on 2 life goals. One, to put Heero back together with Mako and two to put Hilde and Dou back together." Quatra stated after awhile.
"You shouldn't mess with powers you can't understand."
"What about you?" Quatra asked.
"I'm smart enough to understand it."
"Hey!"
Relena was almost asleep in her bed when she heard a loud banging of the door. "Lina is that you?" she called.
"How much do you weigh?" was her answer.
"What?" Relena asked confused.
"How much do you weigh?" she repeated. "I need to know how much to give you." she said annoyed.
"123." she called back. "Did something happen?" she asked after Lina handed her the medicine. 'Lina isn't usually this angry.'
"Some stupid bastard at the store. But don't worry about it." she offered a small smile. "I'm going to go take a shower okay?" Relena nodded and she walked off.
'Must have been some big bastard.' Relena thought as she laid back down and closed her eyes falling asleep.
Across the city someone else was getting ready for bed. 'It's for the best.' she kept reminding herself once her mind trailed back to her ex-boyfriend. She wanted to reach for the phone and call Dou and tell him that she was sorry and that she didn't mean what she said but deep down she knew she did.
Her old friend told her that Dou would never make a good husband and that she would have to follow him around like his mother and not his wife to make sure he didn't do anything wrong.
He friend had offered 2 options. Mold Dou into the perfect guy, which Hilde found impossible. Dou was already the perfect guy to her if she believed in such a thing. Dou was unique and she didn't want to change him. The other choice was to dump Dou and find some new who would serve as a better husband. Her friend warned her that if she didn't that she would never be truly happy.
Hilde had always wanted to have kids and to marry someone who could take care of her. Ashley warned her that Dou couldn't even takes care of himself then he couldn't take care of her or their kids.
Hilde slowly reached for the phone and dialed.
"Hello." a voice answered.
"You said that the only way to be truly happy was to dump Dou. But now I feel worse." she didn't bother to say who she was, not that she needed to Ashley knew who she was.
"Getting over a breakup is always hard. But you have to be strong. Soon this time will pass and you will meet someone that you truly belong to."
"What if I truly belonged to Dou?" she asked.
Hilde could hear her friend sigh in annoyment. "You don't belong to him Hilde. You deserve better than him. You deserve someone who can take care of you."
"I guess you are right." Hilde agreed.
"Oh course I'm right. I know these things Hilde. I've been in enough relationships to know this." She was right of course. Ashley had dated more guys than Hilde could remember and dumped them when she said she knew they were not the one. Ashley loved to give out advice to other people about love. It made her feel important, like being rich wasn't enough. She also loved to flirt. She said she could learn a lot about a guy by flirting with him. Hilde would rather have a conversation that didn't involve batting her eyelashes and winking but Hilde listened to Ashley who was a seasoned vet and she was just a rookie.
"But what am I suppose to do about this feeling I have?"
"Ignore it. It's like a child holding a temper tantrum. It only wants attention and if you give it any it wins. Find something else to do with your life. Sign up for a yoga class, take up a sport, do anything that takes your mind off of him. And most of all, you need to start dating more. After all how can you find your soul-mate if you don't look for him yourself?"
Hilde bit her tongue. She wanted to ask about how she accidently met Dou but she knew that Ashley would have something to say about that to. "I've got to get to bed." she stated after a while.
"Bye." Ashley stated cheerfully happy to get the conversation over with
"Bye." And with that she hung the phone up.
Heero continued to install some new device for his Gundam although his mind wasn't on his work. He stole another glance at the clock. 11:34. in less that 30 minutes the anniversary of his breakup with Mako. When he started basic training he couldn't just quit and run back to her could he? Running back would make him a coward and he had promised her father he would do it. He planned returning to see her after it was over and he tried calling and leaving a message but she never called back or wrote. Like she didn't care about him anymore.
"I'm sorry for everything, Mako." he stated even though she wasn't there. "I'll make it up to you somehow." Heero didn't know how but he would. He promised to find Mako and make everything better.
Meanwhile Mako was lieing in an open field and was staring up at the stars.
*Flashback*
"Where exactually are we going?" Mako asked as Heero pushed her in one direction.
"Keep you're blindfold on. You'll see soon enough." he stated as he gently guided her down a hill.
"You know being patient isn't one of my strong suits." she commented trying to see through her blindfold.
"Patience is a virtune." he stated reciting a clinic.
"I have my own version to that remember? Patience is a virtune but waiting sucks." Heero laughed at her joke. "Are you laughing at me?"
"No, but no peaking. But I'll let you guess. What do you feel?"
Mako snorted. "You know I hate these kind of puzzles. I feel the wind. So that means we're out side right?"
"Right. Any other things."
"I feel you're arm but I doubt that's gonna help me any."
Heero laughed. "No it will not. You can take your blind fold off now."
Mako did so and gasped when she saw the picnic basket on top of a blanket. "We're going to take a picnic in the park after dark? My father is going to kill me if he finds out."
"Who ever said he has to find out." he whispered into her ear. Mako blushed. He sat down on the blanket and patted a place beside him telling her to sit down to which she did. "You said you wanted to learn more about the stars and I managed to pay attention for a couple of classes to learn some."
Mako looked at him confused and then laid her head down on his shoulder. Imagine a guy who liked to sleep through most of his classes payed attention to her.
"That one's named Pisces." Heero commented pointing up into the sky. "Now you try one." he offered.
Mako took the book from him and looked up, "Is that one the big dipper?" she pointed.
"Nope. It's Cancer."
"I told you I'm not good at these." she pretended to pout.
"Poor baby." he whispered as he leaned in a lightly kissed her.
*end of flashback*
"That was our first kiss." she stated sighing. "But it's most likely useless now. I can't hang onto a kiss because I want to. It just doesn't work like that. Kinal is right. Maybe I do need to forget about Heero."
"No you don't." a voice behind her spoke up.
Mako turned around in suprize. "Kinal." she whispered shocked.
"I'm sorry about yelling at you. I only became annoyed when you didn't want to talk about Heero. But now I realize that sometimes people aren't ready to talk about things in there past and you have to wait until they are ready.
"Kinal. I know that I need to tell you."
She only shoke her head. "You don't need to tell me anything. You're my friend and I trust you."
"I trust you to. That's why we need to talk about it." Mako interupted.
"Only if you want to talk about it. I don't need to know right now and only when you are ready. Now lets get you home, It's almost midnight."
Mako nodded as her and Kinal started toward her apartment.
'Why did I let him bother me?' she asked herself confused as she threw her clothes off and climbed into the shower.
She wasn't angry as angry as she used to be. Right now she was just confused. She, as Relena's personal servant and friend, traveled everywhere she went. She went around the world and still she felt the same around everyone of those bastards.
Men are just jackasses, she reminded herself. 'At least I'll never have to see that bastard again.' she reminded herself. 'What was his name?' she asked. 'Ah yes, Wufei.'
'Wufei.' she repeated as she reached for the soap. 'That name seems so familar.' She shook her hand as if shaking of the thought. 'He's just one more bastard in the world. Like another one of those jackasses. At least I don't ever have to see him again.'
Lina reached over and turned the water off. She climbed out and grabbed a towel and after wrapping it around herself looking into the fogged up mirror.
"That's like my future and my life." she reminded herself ruefully, her voice full of bitterness. "All fogged up, never a perfect moment only fake made up pretend moments and then suddenly it hits me like how a mirror shows how bad you look on a bad day. Except all of my days are bad days, make that bad years."
Unknown to her Relena was leaning her ear against the door. 'She never told me.' she thought saidfully. 'I guess I always jus guessed she had a great life. I'm sorry about not asking about anything, Lina.' she thought to the absent friend. 'I promise to ask next time. I promise.' she repeated to herself before climbing back into bed and taking one more look at the bathroom door completely forgeting about her drink of water.
*angel!*- suprizingly this was 7 pages long. probebly because I wasn't able to get on to post this i just kept on adding to it. Most of the last couple of chapters are finished, but not getting to them, that takes time.
The confusion of love
by *angel!* a.k.a. angel of darkness
Chapter 13
Lina suddenly felt herself being pushed up against someone. "Relena." she whispered. Relena in turn just ignored her, not ready to talk. "Relena." she stated louder. "Relena!" she yelled angrily. "I need to talk to you Damn it!"
"I thought you said that princesses couldn't cuss." Relena replied, her voice dripping in sarcasm.
"I'm not the princess here. I don't have little rules I have to follow."
"Are you calling my rules little?" Relena asked annoyed at having to have this conversation.
"Nope just your rules."
Relena smiled a little at that. "I'm sorry." she stated finally.
"It's okay. I should be the one apologizing." Lina contridicted.
"No. It's my fault. Me and my hopeless love issues." Relena became sad
"You don't have love issues you just are a little challenged in love." Lina stated showing a smile of reassurance.
"It's the same thing isn't it?" Relena asked staring out the window.
"No it isn't. I'll tell you what. How about we visit Heero and you can try to work these things out?"
"Really?" Relena squeaked. "That would be great! But are you sure you wouldn't mind?"
"As you're friend I would be delighted to. Plus the kingdom would love to see you married." she winked knowingly at her friend.
"Me and Heero are not getting married!" she said blushing.
Lina laughed. "hey!" she yelled after she got hit in the head with the pillow.
"Served you right."
"That's it!" she threw a pillow back. She stopped once Relena started to cough.
"You okay?" she asked concerned.
"Maybe we should have taken the limo." Relena stated.
"You stay here. I'm going to go buy some medicine, okay?" she watched Relena nod. "Call the front desk if you need anything!" she yelled as she closed the door.
"We're out of Aspirin." Trowa yelled from the bathroom.
"Isn't there some in the bathroom under the counter?!" Quatra yelled back.
"I checked there!" he yelled at his friend.
"I'm be there in a minute!" Quatra shouted walking towards the bathroom. He didn't want to disturb the neighbors even though they lived a long way away.
Quatra stared suprize at the mess all over the floor. "Are you sure there isn't an Aspirin under that mess?" he joked.
Trowa didn't share in the humor. "Nope." he stated looking under the counter again to see if by chance he missed it.
"I'll go get Wufei to buy some okay?" Quatra stated after taking one more look at the floor. 'No way I'm looking under that.' He returned after awhile. "You're head bothering you?" he asked, asking the obvious as Trowa continuously rubbed his head to try the relieve the pain.
"You are sure obverant today."
"Is it serious?" Quatra asked hoping his friend was okay.
"Serious enough for an aspirin. Probably this whole Heero thing."
"This must mean you don't think much." he joked.
"Hey!" He threw a bottle of cough medicine at Quatra, which Quatra eazily caught.
"You sure it isn't serious?" he put the bottle down.
"Quatra." he warned. "I have a headache. I'm not gonna die."
"If you say so." he smiled at his friend who smiled back. He suddenly felt a weird feeling toward Trowa. 'What the hell am I feeling?!' he asked himself he angrily.
"I feel like I'm going around in circles." Lina stated concerned. "Maybe I should ask for directions. Hey you!" she yelled at Wufei.
Wufei turned around. "Yes?" he asked not sure if he was getting yelled at. He looked around to see no one else was around.
"I feel stupid for asking this but, I'm a tourist and one of my friends I was staying at kinda got sick so I was going to buy some medicine but I kinda got lost. Can you tell me where the nearest pharmacy is?" she looked into his eyes, her eyes almost pleading with him.
"Sure. Go 3 blocks that way." he pointed north. "And turn left at the stop light. The store is about 1 block left."
"Thank you." Lina stated as she started north. She felt like she was being followed and turned around to see Wufei behind her.
"You don't have to show me the way." Lina stated a hint of fear in her voice, sure he looked decent enough, but she had never seen a stalker before and was beginning to wonder if he was one.
"I'm not. I just so happen to be off buying some Aspirin for one of my roommates." Wufei asked a little angry. 'Like she really has to know where the hell I'm going!? Really!'
"Oh." she sighed. "Okay. At first I thought you where a stalker or something."
Wufei didn't say anything but it was obvious that he was annoyed at her. 'Stupid Onna.' he muttered after awhile.
Lina heard him and pretended not to know. 'How would you feel if someone was following you around in a strange place really. He's just a jerk.' she shook her head.
Wufei knew that he had heard him when she continued to walk after the turn. He debated over weither or not to tell her. "Where do you think you aren't going?!" he yelled after her.
"I already told you! To the pharmacy even though it's no business of yours!" she yelled angrily.
"Have a nice time!" he yelled sarcastically. "Expessiouly since you missed your turn!"
Lina suddenly realized that she had and a small blush formed on her cheeks. 'Bastard.' she thought walking back to Wufei. "Are you happy now?!" she yelled at him in his face.
"What did I do? Did you want me to not tell you, that you were going the wrong way?!" he yelled back.
"The only reason that I missed the turn was because you had to go call me a stupid Onna!"
"That's nice, blaming other people for your mistakes!" he knew he should stop but he just couldn't.
"I do not blame other people when it isn't there fault! It was you're fault!" she yelled back.
"You are the most annoying person I ever met! And if you will excuse me I'm going to go buy some Aspirin for my friend and then take some for myself because of the headache you gave me!" he walked off. Lina walked behind him not saying a word. He opened the door to the shop and purposely slammed it in her face.
"Bastard." she stated opening the door and letting herself in.
"Is this it?" the clerk asked politely.
Wufei glared at her. "Nope I have an invisible bottle here to." he stated not meaning to be mean to her.
"Be nice to the poor lady." Lina stated from behind him.
"Who gave you the right to tell me what to do?" he asked rudely.
"I'm only trying to save her from you."
"Are you saying that people need to be saved from me?"
"That'll be 4.33." interrupted the clerk on purpose trying to prevent them from getting worse.
Wufei fished a credit card out of his wallet. "Can you sign her Mr. Wufei Chan?" she asked handing him a piece of paper.
He quickly signed and gave in back to her and picked up the bag.
"Next please."
'Wufei interesting.' she mentally saved that name "That's Me." she stated putting the bottle of medicine on the belt.
"Here you go." Wufei stated as he threw the bottle at Trowa. "And just so you know that is the last time I am ever going to the store!"
"Was it really that bad?" Quatra asked.
Wufei looked flabbergasted. "Of course I was bad!"
"What was so bad?" Dou asked sleepily as he yawned.
"Wufei picking up a bottle of Aspirin." Quatra mentally shock his head at the thought of his friend not getting up until after 3 p.m. because of Hilde. He mentally promised Dou he would fix whatever had happened to them.
Dou looked confused. "What's so bad about having to go to the store?"
"There was the most annoying and aggravating woman there. She asked me how to get to the pharmacy and I told her and started walking the same direction and then she accused me of being a stalker! She even yelled at me after I told she had missed her turn! Stupid Onna!"
"The bottle's open." Trowa commented.
"Of course the bottle is open! The stupid Onna gave me a headache and I had to take one! Now if you will all excuse me I'm going downstairs to take a walk!"
"I'm going to go eat breakfast." Dou stated.
"It's after 3. Don't you mean Lunch?" Trowa asked hinting that he didn't approve of his friend's sleeping habits.
"It's all the same to me. It's all food." and with that he felt.
"I've decided on 2 life goals. One, to put Heero back together with Mako and two to put Hilde and Dou back together." Quatra stated after awhile.
"You shouldn't mess with powers you can't understand."
"What about you?" Quatra asked.
"I'm smart enough to understand it."
"Hey!"
Relena was almost asleep in her bed when she heard a loud banging of the door. "Lina is that you?" she called.
"How much do you weigh?" was her answer.
"What?" Relena asked confused.
"How much do you weigh?" she repeated. "I need to know how much to give you." she said annoyed.
"123." she called back. "Did something happen?" she asked after Lina handed her the medicine. 'Lina isn't usually this angry.'
"Some stupid bastard at the store. But don't worry about it." she offered a small smile. "I'm going to go take a shower okay?" Relena nodded and she walked off.
'Must have been some big bastard.' Relena thought as she laid back down and closed her eyes falling asleep.
Across the city someone else was getting ready for bed. 'It's for the best.' she kept reminding herself once her mind trailed back to her ex-boyfriend. She wanted to reach for the phone and call Dou and tell him that she was sorry and that she didn't mean what she said but deep down she knew she did.
Her old friend told her that Dou would never make a good husband and that she would have to follow him around like his mother and not his wife to make sure he didn't do anything wrong.
He friend had offered 2 options. Mold Dou into the perfect guy, which Hilde found impossible. Dou was already the perfect guy to her if she believed in such a thing. Dou was unique and she didn't want to change him. The other choice was to dump Dou and find some new who would serve as a better husband. Her friend warned her that if she didn't that she would never be truly happy.
Hilde had always wanted to have kids and to marry someone who could take care of her. Ashley warned her that Dou couldn't even takes care of himself then he couldn't take care of her or their kids.
Hilde slowly reached for the phone and dialed.
"Hello." a voice answered.
"You said that the only way to be truly happy was to dump Dou. But now I feel worse." she didn't bother to say who she was, not that she needed to Ashley knew who she was.
"Getting over a breakup is always hard. But you have to be strong. Soon this time will pass and you will meet someone that you truly belong to."
"What if I truly belonged to Dou?" she asked.
Hilde could hear her friend sigh in annoyment. "You don't belong to him Hilde. You deserve better than him. You deserve someone who can take care of you."
"I guess you are right." Hilde agreed.
"Oh course I'm right. I know these things Hilde. I've been in enough relationships to know this." She was right of course. Ashley had dated more guys than Hilde could remember and dumped them when she said she knew they were not the one. Ashley loved to give out advice to other people about love. It made her feel important, like being rich wasn't enough. She also loved to flirt. She said she could learn a lot about a guy by flirting with him. Hilde would rather have a conversation that didn't involve batting her eyelashes and winking but Hilde listened to Ashley who was a seasoned vet and she was just a rookie.
"But what am I suppose to do about this feeling I have?"
"Ignore it. It's like a child holding a temper tantrum. It only wants attention and if you give it any it wins. Find something else to do with your life. Sign up for a yoga class, take up a sport, do anything that takes your mind off of him. And most of all, you need to start dating more. After all how can you find your soul-mate if you don't look for him yourself?"
Hilde bit her tongue. She wanted to ask about how she accidently met Dou but she knew that Ashley would have something to say about that to. "I've got to get to bed." she stated after a while.
"Bye." Ashley stated cheerfully happy to get the conversation over with
"Bye." And with that she hung the phone up.
Heero continued to install some new device for his Gundam although his mind wasn't on his work. He stole another glance at the clock. 11:34. in less that 30 minutes the anniversary of his breakup with Mako. When he started basic training he couldn't just quit and run back to her could he? Running back would make him a coward and he had promised her father he would do it. He planned returning to see her after it was over and he tried calling and leaving a message but she never called back or wrote. Like she didn't care about him anymore.
"I'm sorry for everything, Mako." he stated even though she wasn't there. "I'll make it up to you somehow." Heero didn't know how but he would. He promised to find Mako and make everything better.
Meanwhile Mako was lieing in an open field and was staring up at the stars.
*Flashback*
"Where exactually are we going?" Mako asked as Heero pushed her in one direction.
"Keep you're blindfold on. You'll see soon enough." he stated as he gently guided her down a hill.
"You know being patient isn't one of my strong suits." she commented trying to see through her blindfold.
"Patience is a virtune." he stated reciting a clinic.
"I have my own version to that remember? Patience is a virtune but waiting sucks." Heero laughed at her joke. "Are you laughing at me?"
"No, but no peaking. But I'll let you guess. What do you feel?"
Mako snorted. "You know I hate these kind of puzzles. I feel the wind. So that means we're out side right?"
"Right. Any other things."
"I feel you're arm but I doubt that's gonna help me any."
Heero laughed. "No it will not. You can take your blind fold off now."
Mako did so and gasped when she saw the picnic basket on top of a blanket. "We're going to take a picnic in the park after dark? My father is going to kill me if he finds out."
"Who ever said he has to find out." he whispered into her ear. Mako blushed. He sat down on the blanket and patted a place beside him telling her to sit down to which she did. "You said you wanted to learn more about the stars and I managed to pay attention for a couple of classes to learn some."
Mako looked at him confused and then laid her head down on his shoulder. Imagine a guy who liked to sleep through most of his classes payed attention to her.
"That one's named Pisces." Heero commented pointing up into the sky. "Now you try one." he offered.
Mako took the book from him and looked up, "Is that one the big dipper?" she pointed.
"Nope. It's Cancer."
"I told you I'm not good at these." she pretended to pout.
"Poor baby." he whispered as he leaned in a lightly kissed her.
*end of flashback*
"That was our first kiss." she stated sighing. "But it's most likely useless now. I can't hang onto a kiss because I want to. It just doesn't work like that. Kinal is right. Maybe I do need to forget about Heero."
"No you don't." a voice behind her spoke up.
Mako turned around in suprize. "Kinal." she whispered shocked.
"I'm sorry about yelling at you. I only became annoyed when you didn't want to talk about Heero. But now I realize that sometimes people aren't ready to talk about things in there past and you have to wait until they are ready.
"Kinal. I know that I need to tell you."
She only shoke her head. "You don't need to tell me anything. You're my friend and I trust you."
"I trust you to. That's why we need to talk about it." Mako interupted.
"Only if you want to talk about it. I don't need to know right now and only when you are ready. Now lets get you home, It's almost midnight."
Mako nodded as her and Kinal started toward her apartment.
'Why did I let him bother me?' she asked herself confused as she threw her clothes off and climbed into the shower.
She wasn't angry as angry as she used to be. Right now she was just confused. She, as Relena's personal servant and friend, traveled everywhere she went. She went around the world and still she felt the same around everyone of those bastards.
Men are just jackasses, she reminded herself. 'At least I'll never have to see that bastard again.' she reminded herself. 'What was his name?' she asked. 'Ah yes, Wufei.'
'Wufei.' she repeated as she reached for the soap. 'That name seems so familar.' She shook her hand as if shaking of the thought. 'He's just one more bastard in the world. Like another one of those jackasses. At least I don't ever have to see him again.'
Lina reached over and turned the water off. She climbed out and grabbed a towel and after wrapping it around herself looking into the fogged up mirror.
"That's like my future and my life." she reminded herself ruefully, her voice full of bitterness. "All fogged up, never a perfect moment only fake made up pretend moments and then suddenly it hits me like how a mirror shows how bad you look on a bad day. Except all of my days are bad days, make that bad years."
Unknown to her Relena was leaning her ear against the door. 'She never told me.' she thought saidfully. 'I guess I always jus guessed she had a great life. I'm sorry about not asking about anything, Lina.' she thought to the absent friend. 'I promise to ask next time. I promise.' she repeated to herself before climbing back into bed and taking one more look at the bathroom door completely forgeting about her drink of water.
*angel!*- suprizingly this was 7 pages long. probebly because I wasn't able to get on to post this i just kept on adding to it. Most of the last couple of chapters are finished, but not getting to them, that takes time.