Never Alone
By Takako
Takki's notes: Sorry it took so freakin' long! I am quite busy. But for some reason I'm not really satisfied about this chapter. I can't write!! Maybe I have a writer's block or something like that. Sorry for all those awful English grammar and use of words. Please forgive me. Lemme thanks the reviewers first:
Keisan: Oh I kept my characters in character? I really never realized that, I was going to say that Ruki is kinda but OOC, well I think she kinda is OOC in this fic, but oh well, I hate fish as well, but I have them everyday. How sad. But I love the sashimi salmon and grilled eel from Japan ONLY. That's like the only kinda fish I like.
Digi-kitty: OMG you dedicated the chapter to me!! Thankies!! And you actually read the lyrics.
Takari-san: I reviewed!! And me love it!! Sorry I didn't really reply your email, I was kinda busy. Thanks for reviewing.
Moon*Blossom: Thanks for reviewing and sorry if I made you wait so long for the next chapter.
krN*KyutEe: Oh well yeah I was mad too (I got flamed~!!) Oh well but who cares. Thanks for supporting me and I'm really sorry if I made you wait so long. Me haven't seen the Frontiers so I guess I still dunno which couples me support, but Koizumi does look pretty good! Reminds me of Mimato! Yes I support Mimato.
michelle: Sorry if you're a Ryo/Ruki supporter. It's a Jenruki fic here and Ryo is not going to be in my story (I think.), well I did mention that he went to America. Don't ask me why tho. No offense but I prefer Jenruki more than Ryoki.
meskup: Thanks for supporting all the way! Here's the chapter!
Disclaimer: I want Jenrya, I want Jenrya!!!!! Too bad I don't own Digimon or else he'll be mine!!!!! I don't own the song Never Ever by Ayumi Hamasaki.
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Chapter 3
Never Ever
The atmosphere was still very tense as the two exit the restaurant. Ruki insisted to pay, but was stopped by Jenrya.
"Ruki?" he turned to the girl who was right beside him. "Are you OK?"
"Yeah." Ruki groaned. 'This is stupid.'
"Ruki?" Jenrya paused.
"What?" Ruki said, rather annoyed. She hated the fact that she always didn't know what he was up to. 'Now what does he want to do now?'
"Are you . you. um. like not busy tonight?" he asked.
"I'm free tonight." She glared at him. "What do you want now Lee?"
"Can I take you somewhere?" Jenrya said.
"Where?" Ruki looked at Jenrya, puzzled.
"You'll see." Jenrya replied with a smile.
---
"The beach?" Ruki shrieked, "What about this beach?"
Jenrya rolled his eyes. "Where did you expect me to take you to?"
"Shut up." Was the response.
The two stroll along the beach, listening to the sound of the waves crashing on the shore. 'This is so soap opera.' Ruki made a mental note to be aware of the blue haired boy. 'Don't let him come too close, physically and mentally.'
"Why don't you let Takato call you Ruki?" Jenrya asked suddenly, interrupting her thoughts.
"Because.OK, this is disgusting. He said he dreamt about me once. Imagine when you first met someone, then they go like hey hi you know I dreamt about you before. It's disgusting!" Ruki said as she sat down on the beach.
Jenrya laughed while sitting down next to Ruki. "Why do you let me call you Ruki then?"
"Because you paid for dinner." She answered sarcastically.
"Really?" Jenrya said laughing again.
"Stop laughing." Ruki snarled, "There's nothing to laugh about."
"Why?" Jenrya raised his eyebrows. "Life is full of happiness and wonderful memories. There're lots of things to laugh about and to be happy about."
"You have no right to lecture me about how life rocks." She snapped coldly at him. "I hate my life and there's nothing to be happy about, get it?"
"Come here." Jenrya said as he pulled Ruki up, running towards the water.
"Jenrya what the hell?!" Ruki screamed at the boy who was pulling her. "What the hell is wrong with you?"
Jenrya stopped when the water reached his knees. "I'm not going to throw you into the water."
"Then what do you want to do?" she said, looking down at her dress, which was soaked with salty water, which remind her how awful it would smell-the mixture of salt and plastic smell.
"I used to come here when I'm sad or angry, I kick the waves to let out my anger, and I shout out loud." Jenrya said looking up at the pitch-black sky with dreamy eyes.
"You do that?" Ruki stared at him, rolling her eyes. "People will surely send you to the mental hospital."
"Too bad but it works." Jenrya retorted and splashed some water on Ruki.
"Hey!" Ruki yelled at him angrily, "I'm going to get you!"
The two 'adults' splash and kicked in the water like little kids. At first Ruki thought it was lame and stupid, but for some unknown reason, slowly she followed Jenrya and soon without noticing herself turning into a 5 year old, screaming and laughing.
"I hate fish!" Jenrya said as he kicked the waves.
Ruki giggled. "Why?"
"Because they smell." And they both laugh out loud. Jenrya noticed his always-cold friend was laughing uncontrollably. "Hey you're laughing."
Ruki stopped at once. She wasn't suppose to show any emotions, and now she's laughing. 'How can I be so stupid?'
"Why?" she glared at Jenrya with hatred, "Why does it always have to be you?"
"What why me?" Jenrya asked, confused. "What's wrong with you? You were perfectly happy seconds ago."
Ruki turned around and began to walk back to the shore. "I'm leaving."
It was Jenrya's turn to ask why this time. "Why?" he said, causing Ruki to stop, her back facing her. "What is wrong to let out yourself? It's not like people will think that you're a loser when you laugh. Why do you always hide yourself?"
"That, is none of your business." Ruki replied dryly, her back still facing him.
"You enjoyed it. I can tell you want someone to care about you, you want someone to understand you, but the other half of you, is not letting your toughness and pride go. I'm trying to understand you. Don't you understand?"
Ruki wished she could evaporate and turn into a cloud, then rain down somewhere where Jenrya will never be able to find her again. He was reading her like a book, but she wouldn't give up. She turned around and looked at him grimly. "I don't need your help. Go away."
"Ruki, don't force your-"
"GO AWAY!" she yelled angrily as she ran as fast as she could from Jenrya.
Slowly, Jenrya walked back on the beach wretched as he sat down. He couldn't understand. Why does Ruki have to hide everything? What was she afraid of? 'Why do I have to fall for Ruki Makino? Why her? Why does it have to be her?' He could still remember how lonely she looked when she told him to go away. It hurt Jenrya so much. 'How can a guy stand his girl in his dreams all alone and miserable? Oh god great now I've gotten myself into all this trouble. No matter what I am going to save her from all this torture of sorrow and loneliness.'
---
Ruki didn't know why. There was one tiny second that she did consider to go back to him and cry, letting out all the feelings. But she just couldn't. Her pride was too strong. But she did really enjoy his company, and she also did enjoy the kicking waves session. 'No I couldn't fall for him. He's going to hurt me. He's going to laugh at me like there's no tomorrow. He'll think that I'm a loser.' Ruki accidentally rolled over the remote control of her hi-fi. Never ever.
Itsuka ha umareru mae kara kitto
Sometimes, surely before I was born
Kawaranai mono sagashitsudzukete ha
I was searching for something unchanging
Mitsukete ushinatte toki ni
I'd find it, and lose it, and sometimes
Hito wo kizu tsuketa yoru mo atta
There were nights where I hurt people
Moshimo tatta hitotsu dake negai ga kanau nara
If just one of your wishes could come true
Moshimo tatta hitotsu dake negai ga kanau nara
If just one of your wishes could come true
Kimi ha nani wo inoru
What would you wish for?
Kono sora ni kimi ha nani wo inoru
What would you wish for, here, under this sky?
Tsuyoku hoshi garu kimochi no soba de
Despite my strong desire
Dokoka akirame oboehajimete ha
I started giving up
Mitsukete tebanashite toki ni
I'd find it, realease it, and sometimes
Jibun wo kizu tsuketa yoru mo atta
There were nights when I hurt myself
Moshimo kimi ni sashidaseru mono ga aru to sureba
If there were something I could give you
Moshimo kimi ni sashidaseru mono ga aru to sureba
If there were something I could give to you
Kawaranu tashika na omoi
It would be my unchanging, certain thoughts
Honno sukoshi demo waratte kureru nara
If you'll laugh for me, even just a little
Mada koko ni ikiru imi mo aru yo ne
Then there's still a reason for me to live here
Honno sukoshi demo motomete kureru nara
If you'll search for me, even just a little
Mada koko ni ikiru koto yurusareru kana
Then maybe my living here will be forgiven
Moshimo tatta hitotsu dake negai ga kanau nara
If just one of your wishes could come true
Moshimo tatta hitotsu dake negai ga kanau nara
If just one of your wishes could come true
Kimi ha nani wo inoru
What would you wish for?
Moshimo kimi ni sashidaseru mono ga aru to sureba
If there were something I could give to you
Moshimo kimi ni sashidaseru mono ga aru to sureba
If there were something I could give to you
Kawaranu tashika na omoi
It would be my unchanging, certain thoughts.
Sou kawaranu tashika na omoi
Yes my unchanging certain thoughts
Nee koko ni
Right here
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Takki's notes: Oh I hate this chapter. It doesn't really make sense and I dunno how to describe the whole scene out. Pisses me off so much. Oh well please do review and tell me how it sucks. I don't care.
Also, I was bored and I started this Jenruki community on MSN. Anyone interested have a look or join if you want to. I have no idea what it is there for.
http://groups.msn.com/JenrukiForever/
That's all. I have no idea when the next chapter will come out. OK I promise in a month. School's gonna start again!!
Anyone wants to be notified when I update, email or review.
Email: takki_no_hikari@hotmail.com
Takako
By Takako
Takki's notes: Sorry it took so freakin' long! I am quite busy. But for some reason I'm not really satisfied about this chapter. I can't write!! Maybe I have a writer's block or something like that. Sorry for all those awful English grammar and use of words. Please forgive me. Lemme thanks the reviewers first:
Keisan: Oh I kept my characters in character? I really never realized that, I was going to say that Ruki is kinda but OOC, well I think she kinda is OOC in this fic, but oh well, I hate fish as well, but I have them everyday. How sad. But I love the sashimi salmon and grilled eel from Japan ONLY. That's like the only kinda fish I like.
Digi-kitty: OMG you dedicated the chapter to me!! Thankies!! And you actually read the lyrics.
Takari-san: I reviewed!! And me love it!! Sorry I didn't really reply your email, I was kinda busy. Thanks for reviewing.
Moon*Blossom: Thanks for reviewing and sorry if I made you wait so long for the next chapter.
krN*KyutEe: Oh well yeah I was mad too (I got flamed~!!) Oh well but who cares. Thanks for supporting me and I'm really sorry if I made you wait so long. Me haven't seen the Frontiers so I guess I still dunno which couples me support, but Koizumi does look pretty good! Reminds me of Mimato! Yes I support Mimato.
michelle: Sorry if you're a Ryo/Ruki supporter. It's a Jenruki fic here and Ryo is not going to be in my story (I think.), well I did mention that he went to America. Don't ask me why tho. No offense but I prefer Jenruki more than Ryoki.
meskup: Thanks for supporting all the way! Here's the chapter!
Disclaimer: I want Jenrya, I want Jenrya!!!!! Too bad I don't own Digimon or else he'll be mine!!!!! I don't own the song Never Ever by Ayumi Hamasaki.
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Chapter 3
Never Ever
The atmosphere was still very tense as the two exit the restaurant. Ruki insisted to pay, but was stopped by Jenrya.
"Ruki?" he turned to the girl who was right beside him. "Are you OK?"
"Yeah." Ruki groaned. 'This is stupid.'
"Ruki?" Jenrya paused.
"What?" Ruki said, rather annoyed. She hated the fact that she always didn't know what he was up to. 'Now what does he want to do now?'
"Are you . you. um. like not busy tonight?" he asked.
"I'm free tonight." She glared at him. "What do you want now Lee?"
"Can I take you somewhere?" Jenrya said.
"Where?" Ruki looked at Jenrya, puzzled.
"You'll see." Jenrya replied with a smile.
---
"The beach?" Ruki shrieked, "What about this beach?"
Jenrya rolled his eyes. "Where did you expect me to take you to?"
"Shut up." Was the response.
The two stroll along the beach, listening to the sound of the waves crashing on the shore. 'This is so soap opera.' Ruki made a mental note to be aware of the blue haired boy. 'Don't let him come too close, physically and mentally.'
"Why don't you let Takato call you Ruki?" Jenrya asked suddenly, interrupting her thoughts.
"Because.OK, this is disgusting. He said he dreamt about me once. Imagine when you first met someone, then they go like hey hi you know I dreamt about you before. It's disgusting!" Ruki said as she sat down on the beach.
Jenrya laughed while sitting down next to Ruki. "Why do you let me call you Ruki then?"
"Because you paid for dinner." She answered sarcastically.
"Really?" Jenrya said laughing again.
"Stop laughing." Ruki snarled, "There's nothing to laugh about."
"Why?" Jenrya raised his eyebrows. "Life is full of happiness and wonderful memories. There're lots of things to laugh about and to be happy about."
"You have no right to lecture me about how life rocks." She snapped coldly at him. "I hate my life and there's nothing to be happy about, get it?"
"Come here." Jenrya said as he pulled Ruki up, running towards the water.
"Jenrya what the hell?!" Ruki screamed at the boy who was pulling her. "What the hell is wrong with you?"
Jenrya stopped when the water reached his knees. "I'm not going to throw you into the water."
"Then what do you want to do?" she said, looking down at her dress, which was soaked with salty water, which remind her how awful it would smell-the mixture of salt and plastic smell.
"I used to come here when I'm sad or angry, I kick the waves to let out my anger, and I shout out loud." Jenrya said looking up at the pitch-black sky with dreamy eyes.
"You do that?" Ruki stared at him, rolling her eyes. "People will surely send you to the mental hospital."
"Too bad but it works." Jenrya retorted and splashed some water on Ruki.
"Hey!" Ruki yelled at him angrily, "I'm going to get you!"
The two 'adults' splash and kicked in the water like little kids. At first Ruki thought it was lame and stupid, but for some unknown reason, slowly she followed Jenrya and soon without noticing herself turning into a 5 year old, screaming and laughing.
"I hate fish!" Jenrya said as he kicked the waves.
Ruki giggled. "Why?"
"Because they smell." And they both laugh out loud. Jenrya noticed his always-cold friend was laughing uncontrollably. "Hey you're laughing."
Ruki stopped at once. She wasn't suppose to show any emotions, and now she's laughing. 'How can I be so stupid?'
"Why?" she glared at Jenrya with hatred, "Why does it always have to be you?"
"What why me?" Jenrya asked, confused. "What's wrong with you? You were perfectly happy seconds ago."
Ruki turned around and began to walk back to the shore. "I'm leaving."
It was Jenrya's turn to ask why this time. "Why?" he said, causing Ruki to stop, her back facing her. "What is wrong to let out yourself? It's not like people will think that you're a loser when you laugh. Why do you always hide yourself?"
"That, is none of your business." Ruki replied dryly, her back still facing him.
"You enjoyed it. I can tell you want someone to care about you, you want someone to understand you, but the other half of you, is not letting your toughness and pride go. I'm trying to understand you. Don't you understand?"
Ruki wished she could evaporate and turn into a cloud, then rain down somewhere where Jenrya will never be able to find her again. He was reading her like a book, but she wouldn't give up. She turned around and looked at him grimly. "I don't need your help. Go away."
"Ruki, don't force your-"
"GO AWAY!" she yelled angrily as she ran as fast as she could from Jenrya.
Slowly, Jenrya walked back on the beach wretched as he sat down. He couldn't understand. Why does Ruki have to hide everything? What was she afraid of? 'Why do I have to fall for Ruki Makino? Why her? Why does it have to be her?' He could still remember how lonely she looked when she told him to go away. It hurt Jenrya so much. 'How can a guy stand his girl in his dreams all alone and miserable? Oh god great now I've gotten myself into all this trouble. No matter what I am going to save her from all this torture of sorrow and loneliness.'
---
Ruki didn't know why. There was one tiny second that she did consider to go back to him and cry, letting out all the feelings. But she just couldn't. Her pride was too strong. But she did really enjoy his company, and she also did enjoy the kicking waves session. 'No I couldn't fall for him. He's going to hurt me. He's going to laugh at me like there's no tomorrow. He'll think that I'm a loser.' Ruki accidentally rolled over the remote control of her hi-fi. Never ever.
Itsuka ha umareru mae kara kitto
Sometimes, surely before I was born
Kawaranai mono sagashitsudzukete ha
I was searching for something unchanging
Mitsukete ushinatte toki ni
I'd find it, and lose it, and sometimes
Hito wo kizu tsuketa yoru mo atta
There were nights where I hurt people
Moshimo tatta hitotsu dake negai ga kanau nara
If just one of your wishes could come true
Moshimo tatta hitotsu dake negai ga kanau nara
If just one of your wishes could come true
Kimi ha nani wo inoru
What would you wish for?
Kono sora ni kimi ha nani wo inoru
What would you wish for, here, under this sky?
Tsuyoku hoshi garu kimochi no soba de
Despite my strong desire
Dokoka akirame oboehajimete ha
I started giving up
Mitsukete tebanashite toki ni
I'd find it, realease it, and sometimes
Jibun wo kizu tsuketa yoru mo atta
There were nights when I hurt myself
Moshimo kimi ni sashidaseru mono ga aru to sureba
If there were something I could give you
Moshimo kimi ni sashidaseru mono ga aru to sureba
If there were something I could give to you
Kawaranu tashika na omoi
It would be my unchanging, certain thoughts
Honno sukoshi demo waratte kureru nara
If you'll laugh for me, even just a little
Mada koko ni ikiru imi mo aru yo ne
Then there's still a reason for me to live here
Honno sukoshi demo motomete kureru nara
If you'll search for me, even just a little
Mada koko ni ikiru koto yurusareru kana
Then maybe my living here will be forgiven
Moshimo tatta hitotsu dake negai ga kanau nara
If just one of your wishes could come true
Moshimo tatta hitotsu dake negai ga kanau nara
If just one of your wishes could come true
Kimi ha nani wo inoru
What would you wish for?
Moshimo kimi ni sashidaseru mono ga aru to sureba
If there were something I could give to you
Moshimo kimi ni sashidaseru mono ga aru to sureba
If there were something I could give to you
Kawaranu tashika na omoi
It would be my unchanging, certain thoughts.
Sou kawaranu tashika na omoi
Yes my unchanging certain thoughts
Nee koko ni
Right here
---
Takki's notes: Oh I hate this chapter. It doesn't really make sense and I dunno how to describe the whole scene out. Pisses me off so much. Oh well please do review and tell me how it sucks. I don't care.
Also, I was bored and I started this Jenruki community on MSN. Anyone interested have a look or join if you want to. I have no idea what it is there for.
http://groups.msn.com/JenrukiForever/
That's all. I have no idea when the next chapter will come out. OK I promise in a month. School's gonna start again!!
Anyone wants to be notified when I update, email or review.
Email: takki_no_hikari@hotmail.com
Takako