Never Alone
By Takako
Takki's notes: Yes another chap! That took me long. Coz I have school, and I have sososo many homework coz I'm having my IGCSE in like next year. Then my Internet broke down. So. Really really sorry that you guys have to wait, and I hope you guys won't abandon me. (sniff sniff). I hope this fic can get 50 reviews, that will be my best b-day pressie. Good news for Jenruki freaks, I might (I said might, so don't kill me if I didn't) have a new fic, obviously a Jenruki one. Might come out on my b-day, so it's kinda like a b-day pressie from myself. I'm really really sorry but I want to get to the fic asap so I can't do Thank You list to reviewers. But thank you so much for those who reviewed. They really mean a lot to me.
Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN Digimon, or else I won't be here writing fanfics or dreaming that Jenruki is official.
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Chapter 4
HANABI
Walking ever so slowly, Ruki entered the main lobby of Jenrya's hotel. It was quite a comfortable room, nicely cushioned chairs with elegant wooden tables. In the ceiling in the middle of the lobby hung a chandelier, which sparkled as light went through the crystals, making the whole thing looking like a present from god. Ruki looked around as she took off her sunglasses, revealing obvious black rings around her eyes.
Apparently, she had not slept well yesterday. The girl caught the sight of the lift. She pressed the button, within a few seconds, the doors of the lift rolled open.
At the same time, Jenrya was looking at Ruki's house from the corner of the street. Adjusting his sunglasses, he walked towards the door of her house. Unfortunately, he didn't have the courage to knock. 'What if she pushes me away again? Or maybe even further? This is too risky, but I can't chicken out now.' Clutching his fists, slowly he raised his fist and knocked rhythmically on the wooden door.
Her heart beating like crazy, Ruki swiftly ran out of the hotel as fast as her legs can carry her. Fortunately, Jenrya wasn't in his room. She had no idea why she came at the first place. 'Why am I so stupid? Thank god he's not here, or else I'll make a fool of myself. Well it wasn't really nice to runaway from him like that last night. But still. Oh god what the hell is wrong with me?'
Sighing, Jenrya returned to his hotel. He was kind of relieved that Ruki wasn't home. He wanted to apologize to her, but he just can't give up like that. What if she told him to go away and never see each other again? That was what he feared the most. He remembered when he first met her. It was in a battle, where he came out to stop her from battling with Takato. He first, like other people thought that she was a mean nasty abhorrence miss- attitude, but he realized that she does have a heart. When they spend so much time looking for Impmon..
-Flashback-
Ruki: Where is he?
Jenrya: He's seriously injured; I don't think he can go that far.
Ruki: (looks down) If he wants to be strong, then he should find a tamer.
Jenrya: (figures something out * light bulb *) Oh I see, Ruki you're worried about him?
Ruki: Huh?
Jenrya: So? (smiles innocently with a shrug)
Ruki: (pissed that he discovered her 'secret') Humph (cross her arms and turns her head to the other side).
-End of Flashback-
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1 week later.
Ruki was also thinking about this incidence. He did know her well and he can almost read her mind. 'Urgh this whole thing is confusing! Why the hell is he back? But who cares. He never contacted me anyways, guess he went back to China or something. 'Oh well, it's not like I'm going to miss him, like he brought so much trouble for me to think about.'
"Makino!" Ruki's boss shrieked from her personal manager room. "Come in right now."
"Coming!" Ruki said in a 'respectful' tone. 'Great now I have to deal with her now.' She cursed silently as she knocked and entered the room. She bowed with respect and said, "Yes boss?"
"What the hell is all this crap?" Her boss growled like a lion, ready to bite her head off. Ruki looked at the pile of paper that her boss was seizing in her hand. "What is this?" she gnarled at her, holding the pile of papers right in front of her face.
"Er. Paper?" Ruki said innocently.
"All these mistakes!" She continued to growl, "Big mistakes! This is unacceptable Makino, you've been making mistakes since Monday, and now it's Wednesday already, and I have enough!" She said as she slammed the pile of paper on the desk.
Ruki could feel anger boiling inside her. "What you think I really enjoy working here?" Ruki retorted, "You know how it feels when I have to do extra work until 12 and I almost.died!"
"Makino don't you dare to talk to me like that!" Her boss barked, her eyes were almost coming out of the sockets.
"You have no right to boss me around, I have enough! I'm leaving!" Ruki yelled angrily as she stomped out of the room, revealing the other workers in the company, who were all right in front of the door. They all went back to their posts abruptly pretending that nothing had happened. 'Stupid freaks.' Ruki thought as she grabbed her things and left without looking back.
---
Sitting alone by herself in a corner of the Pizza Place, silently munching her pizza in small bites, Ruki was like usual, deep in thought, even though the restaurant sounded more like a flea market, which was incredibly noisy, it still didn't distract her from thinking. Now she lost her job, not that she's poor and she really needed money, but she didn't want to ask her mom for money. It made her felt like a loser, so she had to make her own. That was Ruki. Never giving up her pride. 'This is stupid. Really stupid. What the hell is happening in my life? It's so dramatic.' She thought of the cheesy soap operas when the girl has obstacles in her life and the guy comes and saves her from it. 'How retarded. Not like it's going to happen to me.' Finished with her pizza, she stood up dumping her tray of litter into the bin with a swinging opening, she chuck the tray in. Seeing the litter gone down she put the tray on top of the bin and left.
---
"Where am I going now?" Ruki muttered to herself as she wandered aimlessly in the streets. 'The beach?' she thought, 'No not the beach. I hate that beach.' But her legs uncontrollably brought her to the beach that she had been a week before. 'Oh well I can't control my legs. How retarded is that, now thanks for bringing me here I really appreciated it.' She thought bitterly as she sat down, facing the most beautiful scenery she'd ever seen for ages. From her view she could see the whole sunset, which was breathtaking. Ruki stared, awed at the gorgeous view, silently admiring it.
"Ruki?" said a familiar voice. Slowly, Ruki turned around, her eyes meeting those warm grey ones, which were gazing at her with concern.
"You again?" she said coldly to him. She turned back and continued to gaze at the sunset. Silence for a century. Only the sound of the waves and the sizzling sound from the children who were playing firework sticks could be heard.
---
Namida ga kobore ochinai youni
I don't want my tears to drop
Nijinda sora o miagete iru yo
So I look up at the sky with teary eyes
---
"I." they both said in unison after the few centuries of silence. "You go first." They both said together again. "You first." Jenrya offered. He took a good look at Ruki and noticed her pale face and tired expression.
---
Hito wa doushite omoi no
Why can't people
Mama ni ikirarenai no
Cannot live as they wish?
---
"I." she started, taking a deep breath, she continued, "went to your hotel. I just want to apologize." Immediately, she looked down at her shoes. Jenrya smiled.
---
Nakenai yowai kokoro mo
I need neither a weak heart
Nakanai tsuyosa mo iranai
Nor a strong heart refusing tears
---
"I went to your place too." He said. "No one was there. I just want to apologize. I was being a bit annoying, but I'm just worried about you." They both stood there in complete silence. Gazing at their feet.
---
Negai o kakeru nagareru
I try to look
Hoshi o sagashite miru kedo
For a shooting star to set my wish
---
"I don't need you help. Could you just go away? Just let me live my own life!" Ruki said rather annoyed. "My life has nothing to do with you. You will never understand me, we're different people from different worlds."
---
Yoake ga mou hayasugite
Day is dawning so fast
Mitsukerarezu ni iru yo
I couldn't find it
---
"But could you at least let me try?" he said, having this expression when Ruki said that she hated Digimon years ago. "It's not going to hurt."
---
Kimi no koto omoidasu hi
There is not a day
Nante nai no wa
I remember you
---
"I don't think you should try. Let's not see each other again." Ruki said as she looked at the children on the beach waving around firework sticks, which were dazzling compared to the night. "Like fireworks, dazzling but temporary. Just like those so called emotions and stuff."
---
Kimi no koto wasureta
Because I have never
Toki ga nai kara
Forgotten you
---
Jenrya sighed. "But Ru-"
"Why do you care anyways?" she asked.
---
Kanashii koto ni deau tabi ni
Whenever I wish, to my sorrow
Daijoubu dayo to kuchiguse ni nari
I am in the habit of saying "I'm all right"
---
"There was a guy, he met this girl which gave him a really bad first impression. Cold, heartless, mean, arrogant miss attitude. But spending time alone with her, he finally realized that she did care about people and she had a heart. Even though she didn't want to admit it, he could see it from her eyes. As time past by, he realized that he was slowly falling for her, but he knew that she wasn't those kinda people, so he never told her."
---
Ano hi nanika ga tomatte
On that day
Shimatte konna atashi ja
Something had ceased
---
"Until the day he left, he just managed to force a goodbye and take care from her. That was it. He missed her a lot. Finally he couldn't help it and came back, meeting the girl of his dreams again. He tried to let her open her heart to him, but she feared. He came back to help the girl he loved from loneliness and sorrow. Ruki why? Why do you have to push me away?"
---
Ikura inotte mitatte
However long I pray
Hoshi hitotsu sae mienai
I cannot find even a star
---
"Nice story." Ruki said dryly, ignoring his question. "We shouldn't see each other again." She repeated, this time feeling distraught. "If that's what you want." Jenrya said, feeling that this was the end of his life, but he wouldn't force her, if she wants to live her own life, then he should let her be. If that will make her feel better.
---
Aitai yo ne aitai yo
I want to see you, I really want to
Kioku no naka no
In my memories
---
Reluctantly, Ruki allowed herself to look at Jenrya once more. She almost gave up, seeing the distressed look on Jenrya's face, but she has her own life, and he has no right to interfere it. Turning around she said, "Don't look back."
---
Egao dake yasashi sugite
You are smiling so tenderly
Doushiyou mo nai
I don't know what to do
---
Jenrya looked at the girl who was conquered by loneliness. As she turned around and left, helplessly he looked at her back once more. Closing his eyes, he turned around, utterly wretched. 'She will live happier without me bugging her.'
---
Kimi no koto omoidasu hi
There is not a day
Nante nai no wa
I remember you
Kimi no koto wasureta
Because I have never
Toki ga nai kara
Forgotten you
Aitai yo ne aitai yo
I want to see you, I really want to
Kioku no naka no
In my memories
Egao dake yasashi sugite
You are smiling so tenderly
Doushiyou no nai
I don't know what to do
---
"That's right. Dazzling, but temporary."
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Takki's notes: Ahh. How sad. OK I was actually ready to cry when I was writing this chap. Well actually I didn't, but still. yeah whatever. Not gonna tell you if it will be a happy ending or not, coz I still haven't decided hahahahaha. Cliffhanger. Well I don't have a plot, so I write whatever that comes in my mind. Once again sorry for you guys to wait so long, it took me a while to translate the lyrics. I suggest that you should download all the songs mentioned in all the chapters, especially HANABI, it sounds really depressing, coz I was listening to it when I typed. HANABI literally means flower fire aka fireworks. And there are some 'fireworks' sticks that sizzle and sparkle and you can actually hold it and wave it around. They're really fun, and that's what the kids were playing on the beach. Oh yeah and the little Jenruki flashback, that's what he said in my version, but more or less that's a big Jenruki thing
My Jenruki community, which has absolutely nothing in it:
http://communities.msn.com/JenrukiForever
email: takki_no_hikari@hotmail.com (feel free to add me on MSN)
Takako (Please R&R!!)
Oh and anyone who want me to notify them when I update, review or email me.
By Takako
Takki's notes: Yes another chap! That took me long. Coz I have school, and I have sososo many homework coz I'm having my IGCSE in like next year. Then my Internet broke down. So. Really really sorry that you guys have to wait, and I hope you guys won't abandon me. (sniff sniff). I hope this fic can get 50 reviews, that will be my best b-day pressie. Good news for Jenruki freaks, I might (I said might, so don't kill me if I didn't) have a new fic, obviously a Jenruki one. Might come out on my b-day, so it's kinda like a b-day pressie from myself. I'm really really sorry but I want to get to the fic asap so I can't do Thank You list to reviewers. But thank you so much for those who reviewed. They really mean a lot to me.
Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN Digimon, or else I won't be here writing fanfics or dreaming that Jenruki is official.
---
Chapter 4
HANABI
Walking ever so slowly, Ruki entered the main lobby of Jenrya's hotel. It was quite a comfortable room, nicely cushioned chairs with elegant wooden tables. In the ceiling in the middle of the lobby hung a chandelier, which sparkled as light went through the crystals, making the whole thing looking like a present from god. Ruki looked around as she took off her sunglasses, revealing obvious black rings around her eyes.
Apparently, she had not slept well yesterday. The girl caught the sight of the lift. She pressed the button, within a few seconds, the doors of the lift rolled open.
At the same time, Jenrya was looking at Ruki's house from the corner of the street. Adjusting his sunglasses, he walked towards the door of her house. Unfortunately, he didn't have the courage to knock. 'What if she pushes me away again? Or maybe even further? This is too risky, but I can't chicken out now.' Clutching his fists, slowly he raised his fist and knocked rhythmically on the wooden door.
Her heart beating like crazy, Ruki swiftly ran out of the hotel as fast as her legs can carry her. Fortunately, Jenrya wasn't in his room. She had no idea why she came at the first place. 'Why am I so stupid? Thank god he's not here, or else I'll make a fool of myself. Well it wasn't really nice to runaway from him like that last night. But still. Oh god what the hell is wrong with me?'
Sighing, Jenrya returned to his hotel. He was kind of relieved that Ruki wasn't home. He wanted to apologize to her, but he just can't give up like that. What if she told him to go away and never see each other again? That was what he feared the most. He remembered when he first met her. It was in a battle, where he came out to stop her from battling with Takato. He first, like other people thought that she was a mean nasty abhorrence miss- attitude, but he realized that she does have a heart. When they spend so much time looking for Impmon..
-Flashback-
Ruki: Where is he?
Jenrya: He's seriously injured; I don't think he can go that far.
Ruki: (looks down) If he wants to be strong, then he should find a tamer.
Jenrya: (figures something out * light bulb *) Oh I see, Ruki you're worried about him?
Ruki: Huh?
Jenrya: So? (smiles innocently with a shrug)
Ruki: (pissed that he discovered her 'secret') Humph (cross her arms and turns her head to the other side).
-End of Flashback-
---
1 week later.
Ruki was also thinking about this incidence. He did know her well and he can almost read her mind. 'Urgh this whole thing is confusing! Why the hell is he back? But who cares. He never contacted me anyways, guess he went back to China or something. 'Oh well, it's not like I'm going to miss him, like he brought so much trouble for me to think about.'
"Makino!" Ruki's boss shrieked from her personal manager room. "Come in right now."
"Coming!" Ruki said in a 'respectful' tone. 'Great now I have to deal with her now.' She cursed silently as she knocked and entered the room. She bowed with respect and said, "Yes boss?"
"What the hell is all this crap?" Her boss growled like a lion, ready to bite her head off. Ruki looked at the pile of paper that her boss was seizing in her hand. "What is this?" she gnarled at her, holding the pile of papers right in front of her face.
"Er. Paper?" Ruki said innocently.
"All these mistakes!" She continued to growl, "Big mistakes! This is unacceptable Makino, you've been making mistakes since Monday, and now it's Wednesday already, and I have enough!" She said as she slammed the pile of paper on the desk.
Ruki could feel anger boiling inside her. "What you think I really enjoy working here?" Ruki retorted, "You know how it feels when I have to do extra work until 12 and I almost.died!"
"Makino don't you dare to talk to me like that!" Her boss barked, her eyes were almost coming out of the sockets.
"You have no right to boss me around, I have enough! I'm leaving!" Ruki yelled angrily as she stomped out of the room, revealing the other workers in the company, who were all right in front of the door. They all went back to their posts abruptly pretending that nothing had happened. 'Stupid freaks.' Ruki thought as she grabbed her things and left without looking back.
---
Sitting alone by herself in a corner of the Pizza Place, silently munching her pizza in small bites, Ruki was like usual, deep in thought, even though the restaurant sounded more like a flea market, which was incredibly noisy, it still didn't distract her from thinking. Now she lost her job, not that she's poor and she really needed money, but she didn't want to ask her mom for money. It made her felt like a loser, so she had to make her own. That was Ruki. Never giving up her pride. 'This is stupid. Really stupid. What the hell is happening in my life? It's so dramatic.' She thought of the cheesy soap operas when the girl has obstacles in her life and the guy comes and saves her from it. 'How retarded. Not like it's going to happen to me.' Finished with her pizza, she stood up dumping her tray of litter into the bin with a swinging opening, she chuck the tray in. Seeing the litter gone down she put the tray on top of the bin and left.
---
"Where am I going now?" Ruki muttered to herself as she wandered aimlessly in the streets. 'The beach?' she thought, 'No not the beach. I hate that beach.' But her legs uncontrollably brought her to the beach that she had been a week before. 'Oh well I can't control my legs. How retarded is that, now thanks for bringing me here I really appreciated it.' She thought bitterly as she sat down, facing the most beautiful scenery she'd ever seen for ages. From her view she could see the whole sunset, which was breathtaking. Ruki stared, awed at the gorgeous view, silently admiring it.
"Ruki?" said a familiar voice. Slowly, Ruki turned around, her eyes meeting those warm grey ones, which were gazing at her with concern.
"You again?" she said coldly to him. She turned back and continued to gaze at the sunset. Silence for a century. Only the sound of the waves and the sizzling sound from the children who were playing firework sticks could be heard.
---
Namida ga kobore ochinai youni
I don't want my tears to drop
Nijinda sora o miagete iru yo
So I look up at the sky with teary eyes
---
"I." they both said in unison after the few centuries of silence. "You go first." They both said together again. "You first." Jenrya offered. He took a good look at Ruki and noticed her pale face and tired expression.
---
Hito wa doushite omoi no
Why can't people
Mama ni ikirarenai no
Cannot live as they wish?
---
"I." she started, taking a deep breath, she continued, "went to your hotel. I just want to apologize." Immediately, she looked down at her shoes. Jenrya smiled.
---
Nakenai yowai kokoro mo
I need neither a weak heart
Nakanai tsuyosa mo iranai
Nor a strong heart refusing tears
---
"I went to your place too." He said. "No one was there. I just want to apologize. I was being a bit annoying, but I'm just worried about you." They both stood there in complete silence. Gazing at their feet.
---
Negai o kakeru nagareru
I try to look
Hoshi o sagashite miru kedo
For a shooting star to set my wish
---
"I don't need you help. Could you just go away? Just let me live my own life!" Ruki said rather annoyed. "My life has nothing to do with you. You will never understand me, we're different people from different worlds."
---
Yoake ga mou hayasugite
Day is dawning so fast
Mitsukerarezu ni iru yo
I couldn't find it
---
"But could you at least let me try?" he said, having this expression when Ruki said that she hated Digimon years ago. "It's not going to hurt."
---
Kimi no koto omoidasu hi
There is not a day
Nante nai no wa
I remember you
---
"I don't think you should try. Let's not see each other again." Ruki said as she looked at the children on the beach waving around firework sticks, which were dazzling compared to the night. "Like fireworks, dazzling but temporary. Just like those so called emotions and stuff."
---
Kimi no koto wasureta
Because I have never
Toki ga nai kara
Forgotten you
---
Jenrya sighed. "But Ru-"
"Why do you care anyways?" she asked.
---
Kanashii koto ni deau tabi ni
Whenever I wish, to my sorrow
Daijoubu dayo to kuchiguse ni nari
I am in the habit of saying "I'm all right"
---
"There was a guy, he met this girl which gave him a really bad first impression. Cold, heartless, mean, arrogant miss attitude. But spending time alone with her, he finally realized that she did care about people and she had a heart. Even though she didn't want to admit it, he could see it from her eyes. As time past by, he realized that he was slowly falling for her, but he knew that she wasn't those kinda people, so he never told her."
---
Ano hi nanika ga tomatte
On that day
Shimatte konna atashi ja
Something had ceased
---
"Until the day he left, he just managed to force a goodbye and take care from her. That was it. He missed her a lot. Finally he couldn't help it and came back, meeting the girl of his dreams again. He tried to let her open her heart to him, but she feared. He came back to help the girl he loved from loneliness and sorrow. Ruki why? Why do you have to push me away?"
---
Ikura inotte mitatte
However long I pray
Hoshi hitotsu sae mienai
I cannot find even a star
---
"Nice story." Ruki said dryly, ignoring his question. "We shouldn't see each other again." She repeated, this time feeling distraught. "If that's what you want." Jenrya said, feeling that this was the end of his life, but he wouldn't force her, if she wants to live her own life, then he should let her be. If that will make her feel better.
---
Aitai yo ne aitai yo
I want to see you, I really want to
Kioku no naka no
In my memories
---
Reluctantly, Ruki allowed herself to look at Jenrya once more. She almost gave up, seeing the distressed look on Jenrya's face, but she has her own life, and he has no right to interfere it. Turning around she said, "Don't look back."
---
Egao dake yasashi sugite
You are smiling so tenderly
Doushiyou mo nai
I don't know what to do
---
Jenrya looked at the girl who was conquered by loneliness. As she turned around and left, helplessly he looked at her back once more. Closing his eyes, he turned around, utterly wretched. 'She will live happier without me bugging her.'
---
Kimi no koto omoidasu hi
There is not a day
Nante nai no wa
I remember you
Kimi no koto wasureta
Because I have never
Toki ga nai kara
Forgotten you
Aitai yo ne aitai yo
I want to see you, I really want to
Kioku no naka no
In my memories
Egao dake yasashi sugite
You are smiling so tenderly
Doushiyou no nai
I don't know what to do
---
"That's right. Dazzling, but temporary."
---
Takki's notes: Ahh. How sad. OK I was actually ready to cry when I was writing this chap. Well actually I didn't, but still. yeah whatever. Not gonna tell you if it will be a happy ending or not, coz I still haven't decided hahahahaha. Cliffhanger. Well I don't have a plot, so I write whatever that comes in my mind. Once again sorry for you guys to wait so long, it took me a while to translate the lyrics. I suggest that you should download all the songs mentioned in all the chapters, especially HANABI, it sounds really depressing, coz I was listening to it when I typed. HANABI literally means flower fire aka fireworks. And there are some 'fireworks' sticks that sizzle and sparkle and you can actually hold it and wave it around. They're really fun, and that's what the kids were playing on the beach. Oh yeah and the little Jenruki flashback, that's what he said in my version, but more or less that's a big Jenruki thing
My Jenruki community, which has absolutely nothing in it:
http://communities.msn.com/JenrukiForever
email: takki_no_hikari@hotmail.com (feel free to add me on MSN)
Takako (Please R&R!!)
Oh and anyone who want me to notify them when I update, review or email me.