Richmond High School 8: Richard Cypher
Duo---- September 17..1220 Casper ST
Shit. When I woke up I found myself still clinging to Heero. His skin was so warm and soft, I could fall a sleep again if I wanted to. But I can't. He doesn't want me. He only was helping me out because I was crying. Damn it...Boys don't cry, and here I'm crying my eyes out, he's probable disgusted with me.
I'll leave before he kicks me out. What a sure fired plan, run away before facing him. I slip out from his hold he has on me and move off the bed. I can't help myself when I turn around to look at him one last time. He is total relaxed, his face isn't controlled and it makes him look younger and more innocent. That is the face I can never have, I would kill that innocents to. Reaching out I trace his jaw line with my hand, and he rolls his to my hand.
I locate my shoes, not really wanting to put them on, and I walk through out his house bare foot. My car keys in my hand, I don't feel like going through the window like I did last night. Not with out any shoes on. The door is about five feet away from me, and I'm stopped.
He wraps his arms around my chest, and I'm frozen. Why does he stop me, why can't he let me go?
" Please don't run from me." Whispering gently into my ear. Damn it, why can't he let me go? He doesn't want me, why can't he not want me.
" I don't kill people like you Heero. You don't want a murder." His grasp loosens and I move to get away. Only to have him turn me around and hold me by my arms to stay in place.
" Duo, I've killed people too." He says trying to make me look up. I don't want to look into his eyes, they would be my down fall.
" It's not the same, you were ordered to kill those people. I just go out kill for money or because I feel like it" See not the same, please Heero see this. Its not the same, not the same.
" That's not true. I've killed good people Duo. People with families, have you every killed someone who had a family waiting for them to come home, only for them to get a call that their father/husband has been murdered."
"Its not true...we're not the same." I whisper, I'm losing this battle. Damn him and damn me for letting him get to me. How dare he think were the same, were not. I know we're not.
" Let go of me." He didn't listen to me. He doesn't listen to me at all. Instead he kissed me. Its just a soft brush of the lips, but it makes me want more, and he answers to it. Nibbling on my lower lip he pushes us back into the door. In the past two days I have been pined to a door by this man, and I want more. I shouldn't ask...I don't deserve to ask.
He runs his tongue along my bottom lip and I oblige to his questing tongue. The kiss is so much different from the one from last night. He moves slowly in exploring my mouth, all the while he runs his hands over my chest. Some were along the way he got his hands under the shirt, but I didn't care, and I gave in.
::You can't do this. You don't deserve this...him. You have to stop this now. You would kill him later on, he doesn't deserve a someone like you::
His lips are along my neck, and he's trying to remove my shirt. I would kill him, I always kill the people I love.
" NO, I can't do this." I push him away from me, he lands on his ass. " I'm sorry, you deserve so much more then death." With that I did the best thing I could always do, I ran. He said something but I never heard him, and I was in my car and away from his house, from him, as fast as I could.
Heero----
" I only want you." I can only hope he heard me. I can only hope. This is unlike me, and I could careless. Right now, all of my body wants to run after that boy.
*BEEP* BEEP*
My computer. Damn it. Who could be contacting my at this time. Its about lunch time, that means the guys know I didn't come to school today. They wouldn't e-mail me, but Dr. J would.
Heero,
The mission has changed. You are not to kill the target. Capture him, and leave him locked up. We are to come down and take him ourselves.
J
Oh, fuck. If they come down that would ruin our plans. Oh wait, if they come down then the rest would. That's okay if they can change their objective then so can I.
J,
Our target has not been found. The first lead was a dead end, but we are positive this next boy is him. We are not certain, and with the other gangs here we have to move quietly. Since I can not kill him, give warring to when you will be here so I can capture him before then.
Heero
I had to tell the other, so I wrote a short e-mail to Quatre.: Change of plans, met tonight at my house, only us.
Quatre new what I meant about us. Damn it, I can't wait until this is over, and I kill the doctors and the mole. We don't know who it is, but we know its not one of us, and we can't accuse anyone yet. If we did then the real mole would run, and we would be screwed.
I wish I knew who it was. This mole has been nothing but trouble, sending out information to Epyon. They know about us having double missions, and about Duo being Shinigami. What else do they know, and how much have they told. Damn, I can't wait to kill him.
*BEEP* BEEP*
What the... J wouldn't write back, he has what he wants. I look, its from Quatre.
Dear Heero,
We are happy to hear from you. I thought something had happen to you. I have to get to the point before lunch is over. We will be at your house after school. Hilde wants to know if Duo is alright. She's pretty worried about him. I'm to from what she told me. I have to go.
Love, Quatre
I smile, that sounds like them two. Especial after what Hilde told me about Duo.
^^FLASH BACK^^^
Hilde had corner me in the cafeteria. She looked serious so I didn't protest.
" What is this about Hilde?"
" It's about Duo. There something you should know." Now she looked concerned. She really liked this Maxwell boy. So I say nothing and she goes on. " He will run and hide, but he would never tell a lie. Trust me on this, he lives by it. If he is hurt he will run and hide." She paused looking down at the floor.
" He's really fragile, the mask he wears is always on. Once or twice I've seen him without it on. If you don't watch your step Heero he will break. I've seen it before, and he killed everyone it in the room." With that she walked away, tears in her eyes.
^^^^^^^
He will run and hide, but never tells a lie. So he really thinks he doesn't deserve me.
"Oh Dou, I'm the one who doesn't deserve you." I said aloud to no one. I don't deserve him, but....I still want him...need him... "I've fallen for you Duo Maxwell, and I'm not going to let go until you realize that.
( I was going to stop here, and post it but Fanfiction isn't working ., and so I went on.)
Duo--where a bouts unknown.
I've been driving for hours, and I don't remember the last time I've done this. Just drive to run away from everyone-thing. I just want to forget my life, my problems. All of which I have created on my own, digging a hole to deep to get out of. And I think I've dug myself into hell.
:: You belong in hell, you know that right::
/ I know./ I step on the gas running the light. Some unknown woman flicks my off, but I don't care. Taking a left then right, I find myself close to the outskirts of the city. How long have I been driving? Does it really matter? I pull over.
I could leave now. I have more then enough stuff in the car to start a new somewhere else. I can leave this place, leave my problems here, leave Heero for good.
::You would not leave. It's not in you. You will go back into the city and wait for to see if Heero still wants to fuck you.::
" Its not like that. I don't want that"
:: Yeah and the cat didn't eat the cannery.::
" Shut up." And the voice did just that. God, if I could kill any part of my self I would kill that voice. It drives me up the wall.
Sitting the car's trunk I look over the scenery. It really was nice, the cliff gave way to the view of the ocean. The scenery was lost to my right now, all I wanted to do was jump off that cliff.
" This is bullshit. Why can't I just let him fuck me and get it over with? Why do I want more?"
::Stupid Maxwell, you've fallen in love, and you know he loves you too.::
" He'll end up dead, and I would be alone again. I can't take it anymore."
:: You will give in, and have what you want. Even if it is for a short time.::
For the first time in a long time I agree with myself. I get back into the car starting the engine, and drive back into the city. I was still driving aimless around the city. My mood still hadn't changed, but it went from suicidal to oh hell I don't know but I still feel off.
My location was unknown to me, well because I just didn't give a fuck about were I was. I think I've been driving around in circles for the last half hour. Around that damn school that started it all, Richmond High. I had to come to this school, and me thinking I could stay longer. I mean I had friends and studies were going great. Stupid school, I should blow it up.
I actual stop at the red light Before it turns green the passenger door is opened . Thinking was out of the question for my body, reaction took over. Sword-back seat, 5inch knife taped behind passenger's seat, 9m.m. driver's side door. I went for that, the man sat in the chair.
*HONK* The light was green. Fucking asshole can't you see I have a gun out. Either way, once the door is shut I step on the gas.
" Who the fuck are you?" My left hand on the wheel, right hand pointing a gun at this guy, and my eyes traveling back and forth.
"My name is Richard Cypher of the Red Dragon." He said. Great had to ask for a name.
" Are you going to avenge the death of your bother." Oh well just one more person to add to my list of people : Kill them before they kill you. Wonderful. Another gang member to get associated with. Red Dragon huh. The Red Dragon are mostly drug dealers and shot porn videos. I've been to one of there shoots for it, I had to make sure the girls were willing, because they were all under age. I ended up shocked at how clean cut they were about it all, and found nothing wrong with them, until now.
" No, my brother did something to piss you off and that was his problem not mine."
" I was set up, he did nothing wrong. I'm going to kill the men who set me up though."
Richard nodded. He was tall and skinny, but mostly built, with long red hair. I know red hair, kind of exotic. " I'm not armed and I mean no harm to you Duo."
" Then why the fuck do you just mossy on into my car." I still keep my gun up, no harm my ass. Every one wants to harm me or kill me.
" Your still alive; I take it you took my warning and fled before Gundam killed you." I turn to him, putting my gun down. My hand was cramping up, I either was going to have to shot him or put it down.
" Buckle up," I ask, he gives me weird look "Just do it or get out."
What can I say, when your parents die in a car crash you become paranoid. He did it, and I felt a little bit better.
" I didn't run, but it wasn't like I didn't try. I can't tell you what I know about them, but you were right about the double missions. One was to kill me and the other I can't not say."
" We knew about that much. Gundam has a mole in there grasp, and even I do not know who it is. They work for Epyon, and I got my information from them. Or what they wanted to tell me. All I knew, and now almost every gang here is that you are Shinigami."
I should of pulled the gun back on him, but there was no reason to. That action would get me no where.
" Why are here? And do get the point."
" Do you watch the news?"
Does he get to the point. No. Damn it, I'm tried of these games, but I play anyways.
" No, the news is half truths, half lies, and one hell of a propaganda."
" If you watched the news then you would have seen that the Earth Spare Alliance is almost at civil war with themselves."
" So what. What does that have to do with me and everyone here."
" Think about it. The supreme power here will support someone within the Alliance, making them come out on top. Resulting in that gang have not only money, power over other gangs, but political power as well. Just think if the wrong person got there, there would be chaos."
Okay. This is way more then I can chew, but it still doesn't fall into place for me. Why would it matter if someone had political power? This is stupid.
" Nice story. I don't see why it would matter if someone had a little political." He started to laugh. Everyone tends to laugh at me and not with me. I hate this.
" Civilians, Duo. The Alliance is already at each others throats, and everyone here are too about to brake out and kill each other. There are civilians Duo. People who have never seen our world and live normal lives. They would be effected by this war."
Damn, why does everyone have to be right? He's right. A war would brake out, leaving war orphans and kids like me fighting in the end. " Where do I fall into all this? Everyone believes I'm the key but me."
" You already said you were going to kill the doctors." I nod my agreement. " Now I have a job for you." I groan. Another job wonderful, just what I needed. Richard apparently didn't hear it cause he went on. " Tell me Duo how do you feel about the Gundams?"
How do I feel about them? How do I answer that one? My feelings are torn, but I know I would do almost anything for them. I can't answer like that, so go with what's safe.
" I wouldn't kill them." There see if he offers me that kind a of job he knows I wouldn't take it. Isn't that what he wants to know?
" This is going to sound odd, but I'm to offer you two jobs. The first is to protect Gundam from the doctors. I've received information that the doctors have been informed about their double life. The second is after this blows over Shinigami is to never kill again." Okay, odd. Yeah you could say that, but these missions make no sense.
" I don't understand why you warn me about them, then tell me to protect them." I look over at him. " I'll take the first, but the second. There never are guaranties, Richard. I'm death, I take enjoyment from taking another's life. I'm a monster." I finial stop the car after our hour talk. " I'll send you an address to send the money. You can leave now."
Richard did just that. I'm at a lost why do I have to protect them from the doctors, and why does the Red Dragon care? Why do they want me to stop killing? This is way over my head. They just give me enough information to chase my tail around then feed me more later. God, why can't someone tell me the who story and then leave with no strings attached.
This is sad, Death is asking God for help.
tbc
okay, if I can every get fanfiction to work for me, this would be up and I swear every chapter I write gets more confusing, ne. Oh well, this was going to be a lemon, but I'm saving it for later. thanks to those who reviewed, and please keep them coming
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