Dr. Crane walking in the door startled me out of my confusion. He always
has to make an entrance. "Mail call," he said walking over to me, "Daphne,
this one's for you."
"Thanks," I said. "I wonder who it could be from."
I looked at the envelope, it was post marked Seattle, but had no return address. Curiosity got the best of me and I ripped right into the envelope. I pulled out two pieces of expertly folded paper. I recognized the handwriting instantly when I lifted the first fold in the paper. As I began to read the letter, Donny rested his chin on my shoulder, trying to read it with me.
"Excuse me," I said sharply, "does this have your name on it?"
"No, I." he said lifting his chin from my shoulder.
"I didn't think so," I said pushing him back.
"Honey," he said.
"Whoever wrote this, wrote this for me," I said, "I'm sure that they didn't write it thinking that you would read it too. This is for me. I wouldn't read a letter over your shoulder if my name wasn't on it."
"Okay," he said hurt that I had pushed him away. I honestly did not care.
I then focused my attention back on the letter in my hands. As I read the words, I could almost hear his voice saying them to me, whispering them in my ear. I shuttered.
** Dear Daphne:
I never believed in miracles or love for that matter until I met you. I remember seeing your beautiful face for the first time and feeling the wind slowly being knocked out of me. Standing right in front of me was everything I ever wanted in life.
I know that hearing me say that might sound a bit strange to you, but so help me it's the truth. Your eyes, I saw them smiling at me and I just knew. I knew from that very moment that I wanted to share my life with you. I knew at that moment love isn't at all what I thought it was.
I heard a song today. I just couldn't get it out of my mind and given the circumstances I tried. But the more I thought of it, the more I believed the words to be true and instead of hearing them, I wanted to read them. I took it upon myself to do a bit of research in between patients today. Once I had found it, I couldn't think about anything else for the rest of the day. In my hands I held the words, my feelings were on a piece of paper staring up at me. And that's when I decided to write this letter.
The lyrics are everything I have felt from the moment I met you. It's funny; I never listened to that radio station until you told me that you sometimes switch to that when Frasier's show gets to be too much. Today, I'm glad I turned it on. Now I've never heard of the person who sings it nor the movie that it's from but that does not matter. It's the words. They say everything that I have wanted to you for so long.
I Believe in You and Me I believe that we will be
In love eternally
Well as far as I can see You will always be the one For me
I've always thought that about us. For in my dreams we were always together. A part of me will always truly believe that we would have a wonderful life together. I believed that deep down in your heart, under several layers of insecurity and fear (much like mine), that part of you loved me. As long as I live, I'll believe that we were meant to be in love. Meeting each other happened for a reason, I realized that instantly. No one told me to fall in love with you, it just happened. And no one, I mean that from the bottom of my heart, will ever be able to fill the place that you occupy in my soul. You will always be the one.
And I believe in dreams again I believe that love will never end And like the river finds the sea I was lost, now I'm free Because I believe in you and me.
From the time I was a child, I had one dream in life, to find someone who loved me as much as I loved her. I thought I found that, but until I met you, I had no idea that I gave up on that dream too soon. I will love you forever, for loving you gives my life meaning, even if I can't experience it with you. Until I met you, I was lost, searching answers that I could never seem to find and then there you were. Suddenly I had all of the answers.
I will never leave your side I will never hurt your pride When all the chips are down Then I will always be around
Just to be right where you are
My love, you know I love you
From the day I met you, I have always put your feelings and your happiness before mine. That explains so many circumstances in which I had the opportunity to tell you my feelings but decided against it. And I'm always there for you whenever you need someone to talk to and you know I would support you in anything that you do, especially if it determined your happiness. I'll tell you though, some times it's beyond difficult to hide my true feelings about things that concern you. Walking away from the situation has always been my escape, albeit a bad one. Part of me always hoped you would notice that I was hurting, but you never did. Just being near you often made up for the hurt. My love for you often heals any wound that appears on my heart because I know that no one can take away my feelings. They are a part of who I am now and they always will be.
I will never leave you out
I will always let you in
To places no one's ever been Deep inside, can't you see? That I believe in you and me.
Wherever we'd go, whatever we'd do, I would want you by my side. You make me a better person for you bring out the best in me. I would never hide anything from you. There are already so many parts of who I am that only you have seen. I don't have to pretend with you. For years, the real me has been fighting a never-ending battle to be seen. Never have I been so comfortable with someone to let them past the wall that has been building up around me. Never have I trusted someone so much. Deep inside I know, well I hope I know that you are aware of my feelings and maybe share them.
Maybe I'm a fool
To feel the way I do
I will play the fool forever
Just to be with you forever
Maybe I am a fool to have fallen in love with you at first sight. But I still ask the question how could I not? You are the most beautiful person I have ever met, on the inside as well as the out. You radiate warmth, curiosity.so many things. I love all of the things that make you who you are. I would never change a thing about you because you would no longer be the person I fell in love with. I will always play the fool because the only thing I've ever wanted is to be with you forever.
I believe in miracles And love is a miracle
You're my dream come true
I was lost, now I'm free Because I believe in you and me
I never believed in miracles until I met you. And the love that I feel for you is a miracle in itself because never before have I put everything that I am into something. Something that I want more than anything in the world but know that it will never be. I will live my life believing in us and what we could be together. And I will thank god every night for having you in my life. I would never hurt you and would do anything to make you happy, to see you smile.
I know that you have chosen to spend your life with another. I never stopped you, I never asked you to give me a chance and I have to live with that. But nothing could ever make me stop loving you. I'm lost without my love for you. It's all I know. But I wanted you to know that no matter what happens, I believe in you and me. And together in my dreams is where we will always be.
I'll love you for all of time, Niles
I put the letter down but never released it from my fingers. I looked up and into the eyes of Dr. and Mr. Crane. Their confusion matched mine. The only difference is the fact that my eyes are slowly filling with tears. The beauty of the words before me took my breath away. The selflessness and the love that this man has.for me.
"Honey," Donny said again. God, I wish he would stop calling me that. It's just not right.
"Donny, please," I said dismissing him with a wave.
"Daphne," Dr. Crane said coming over to me.. "Are you all right?"
Leave it to Dr. Crane to get the answers out of me. I knew it wouldn't take him long to realize what was happening. Unlike Donny, I knew that he was genuinely concerned. He has spent a lot more time with me and knows me far better than Donny ever could.
"I'm fine," I said while reading the letter again. I let each word sink into my heart and mind.
"Is there anything you need," he asked. Dear Dr. Crane, he has no idea who this letter was from, although I suspect he's slowly catching on and he was trying to make me feel better.
"Yes," I said standing up, "I need some fresh air. I think I'll go for a walk."
"I'll go with you," Donny said noticing that it was taking me a few seconds to find my footing.
"No, I'm fine," I said regaining my balance.
"Daphne, something has obviously upset you," he said.
"I'm not upset," I said, "I just need some time alone."
"But honey," he said.
"Would you stop calling me that," I exploded, "please Donny. Just leave me alone."
I brushed past him and flew out the door, the letter still tightly in my grasp.
"Thanks," I said. "I wonder who it could be from."
I looked at the envelope, it was post marked Seattle, but had no return address. Curiosity got the best of me and I ripped right into the envelope. I pulled out two pieces of expertly folded paper. I recognized the handwriting instantly when I lifted the first fold in the paper. As I began to read the letter, Donny rested his chin on my shoulder, trying to read it with me.
"Excuse me," I said sharply, "does this have your name on it?"
"No, I." he said lifting his chin from my shoulder.
"I didn't think so," I said pushing him back.
"Honey," he said.
"Whoever wrote this, wrote this for me," I said, "I'm sure that they didn't write it thinking that you would read it too. This is for me. I wouldn't read a letter over your shoulder if my name wasn't on it."
"Okay," he said hurt that I had pushed him away. I honestly did not care.
I then focused my attention back on the letter in my hands. As I read the words, I could almost hear his voice saying them to me, whispering them in my ear. I shuttered.
** Dear Daphne:
I never believed in miracles or love for that matter until I met you. I remember seeing your beautiful face for the first time and feeling the wind slowly being knocked out of me. Standing right in front of me was everything I ever wanted in life.
I know that hearing me say that might sound a bit strange to you, but so help me it's the truth. Your eyes, I saw them smiling at me and I just knew. I knew from that very moment that I wanted to share my life with you. I knew at that moment love isn't at all what I thought it was.
I heard a song today. I just couldn't get it out of my mind and given the circumstances I tried. But the more I thought of it, the more I believed the words to be true and instead of hearing them, I wanted to read them. I took it upon myself to do a bit of research in between patients today. Once I had found it, I couldn't think about anything else for the rest of the day. In my hands I held the words, my feelings were on a piece of paper staring up at me. And that's when I decided to write this letter.
The lyrics are everything I have felt from the moment I met you. It's funny; I never listened to that radio station until you told me that you sometimes switch to that when Frasier's show gets to be too much. Today, I'm glad I turned it on. Now I've never heard of the person who sings it nor the movie that it's from but that does not matter. It's the words. They say everything that I have wanted to you for so long.
I Believe in You and Me I believe that we will be
In love eternally
Well as far as I can see You will always be the one For me
I've always thought that about us. For in my dreams we were always together. A part of me will always truly believe that we would have a wonderful life together. I believed that deep down in your heart, under several layers of insecurity and fear (much like mine), that part of you loved me. As long as I live, I'll believe that we were meant to be in love. Meeting each other happened for a reason, I realized that instantly. No one told me to fall in love with you, it just happened. And no one, I mean that from the bottom of my heart, will ever be able to fill the place that you occupy in my soul. You will always be the one.
And I believe in dreams again I believe that love will never end And like the river finds the sea I was lost, now I'm free Because I believe in you and me.
From the time I was a child, I had one dream in life, to find someone who loved me as much as I loved her. I thought I found that, but until I met you, I had no idea that I gave up on that dream too soon. I will love you forever, for loving you gives my life meaning, even if I can't experience it with you. Until I met you, I was lost, searching answers that I could never seem to find and then there you were. Suddenly I had all of the answers.
I will never leave your side I will never hurt your pride When all the chips are down Then I will always be around
Just to be right where you are
My love, you know I love you
From the day I met you, I have always put your feelings and your happiness before mine. That explains so many circumstances in which I had the opportunity to tell you my feelings but decided against it. And I'm always there for you whenever you need someone to talk to and you know I would support you in anything that you do, especially if it determined your happiness. I'll tell you though, some times it's beyond difficult to hide my true feelings about things that concern you. Walking away from the situation has always been my escape, albeit a bad one. Part of me always hoped you would notice that I was hurting, but you never did. Just being near you often made up for the hurt. My love for you often heals any wound that appears on my heart because I know that no one can take away my feelings. They are a part of who I am now and they always will be.
I will never leave you out
I will always let you in
To places no one's ever been Deep inside, can't you see? That I believe in you and me.
Wherever we'd go, whatever we'd do, I would want you by my side. You make me a better person for you bring out the best in me. I would never hide anything from you. There are already so many parts of who I am that only you have seen. I don't have to pretend with you. For years, the real me has been fighting a never-ending battle to be seen. Never have I been so comfortable with someone to let them past the wall that has been building up around me. Never have I trusted someone so much. Deep inside I know, well I hope I know that you are aware of my feelings and maybe share them.
Maybe I'm a fool
To feel the way I do
I will play the fool forever
Just to be with you forever
Maybe I am a fool to have fallen in love with you at first sight. But I still ask the question how could I not? You are the most beautiful person I have ever met, on the inside as well as the out. You radiate warmth, curiosity.so many things. I love all of the things that make you who you are. I would never change a thing about you because you would no longer be the person I fell in love with. I will always play the fool because the only thing I've ever wanted is to be with you forever.
I believe in miracles And love is a miracle
You're my dream come true
I was lost, now I'm free Because I believe in you and me
I never believed in miracles until I met you. And the love that I feel for you is a miracle in itself because never before have I put everything that I am into something. Something that I want more than anything in the world but know that it will never be. I will live my life believing in us and what we could be together. And I will thank god every night for having you in my life. I would never hurt you and would do anything to make you happy, to see you smile.
I know that you have chosen to spend your life with another. I never stopped you, I never asked you to give me a chance and I have to live with that. But nothing could ever make me stop loving you. I'm lost without my love for you. It's all I know. But I wanted you to know that no matter what happens, I believe in you and me. And together in my dreams is where we will always be.
I'll love you for all of time, Niles
I put the letter down but never released it from my fingers. I looked up and into the eyes of Dr. and Mr. Crane. Their confusion matched mine. The only difference is the fact that my eyes are slowly filling with tears. The beauty of the words before me took my breath away. The selflessness and the love that this man has.for me.
"Honey," Donny said again. God, I wish he would stop calling me that. It's just not right.
"Donny, please," I said dismissing him with a wave.
"Daphne," Dr. Crane said coming over to me.. "Are you all right?"
Leave it to Dr. Crane to get the answers out of me. I knew it wouldn't take him long to realize what was happening. Unlike Donny, I knew that he was genuinely concerned. He has spent a lot more time with me and knows me far better than Donny ever could.
"I'm fine," I said while reading the letter again. I let each word sink into my heart and mind.
"Is there anything you need," he asked. Dear Dr. Crane, he has no idea who this letter was from, although I suspect he's slowly catching on and he was trying to make me feel better.
"Yes," I said standing up, "I need some fresh air. I think I'll go for a walk."
"I'll go with you," Donny said noticing that it was taking me a few seconds to find my footing.
"No, I'm fine," I said regaining my balance.
"Daphne, something has obviously upset you," he said.
"I'm not upset," I said, "I just need some time alone."
"But honey," he said.
"Would you stop calling me that," I exploded, "please Donny. Just leave me alone."
I brushed past him and flew out the door, the letter still tightly in my grasp.