He nods and keeps his eyes glued to the tiled floor. I can hear his voice waver as he tells
me that he understands. He looks as though he might break down, but to my surprise, he lifts up
his head and gives me a rueful smile.
"You planning on buying those?"
I give Yugi a quizzical look, causing him to snicker, especially so when I realize I have
two booster packs still in my hand. At this point, I'm tempted to give a sheepish grin, but that
just wouldn't be me.
"Sure. What the heck. Ring them through."
After purchasing the cards, I walk to the door, Yugi leading me. Once I reach there, I
stop, not wanting to leave just yet.
*I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is*
I sigh and look out the glass door. It's perfectly sunny and not too hot outside, well,
there's no steam coming from the pavement. It was a day like this when my parents died. I
haven't really felt at home ever since they died. Even now, there's a house, but not a home.
"What's troubling you, Seto?"
"Thinking about the home I used to have."
"Which one was that?"
"The one when my parents were here."
"...I'm sorry."
"No, don't be. It's not your fault I feel homeless."
"Homeless? But if you don't have a home, where does your soul feel at ease?"
"You're assuming I have a soul that I know about."
Yugi fell silent at that, and his smile seemed to melt away. Damn, now I've made him
upset. He doesn't deserve that. I should go before I do anything else to the poor angel.
"I have to go."
"Wait."
*And baby all I need for you to know is*
"If you ever change your mind, Seto, I'll be waiting for you, always."
Yugi unexpectedly pulls me down for a kiss, and I find myself submitting to my desires
as Yugi holds me to him. As quickly as it begins, it ends. Yugi parts from me, his breath
slightly ragged, same as my own. I straighten up, and I can still feel his soft, yet firm and
demanding lips on mine, even though he's standing four feet away from me. I give him a nod
and open the door.
Tears threaten to spill from his eyes, and he's trying his best to keep himself composed
as I'm ready to leave. I wish I could comfort him, to tell him it's alright, to dry his tears, but I
can't.
*I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away*
"Goodbye, Yugi."
"Bye Seto."
My ears pick up the obvious wobbling of his voice. He's about to burst into tears, I can
see it plainly. Ignoring a cry from the depths of my mind, I walk outside and close the door,
hearing the bell ringing once again. I won't look back, I don't want to see him crying, and I'm
already imagining his strangled sobs and whimpers. It's all my fault...I never wanted this to
happen.
*I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is*
I get in the car but I can't bring myself to even put the key in the ignition. Why bother?
Like I said to Yugi, I don't REALLY have a home. Everything's so confusing...what should I
do? Right now I feel like crawling in a hole and crying my eyes out, but I can't, and I won't.
I'm Seto Kaiba, strong, ruthless and in complete control. That's all I have left, really. A sense of myself.
*All I need for you to know is*
I end up at home, parking my Ferrari out on the lawn. I leave it unlocked, not caring if
it's stolen. The stupid vehicle means nothing anymore. Not after what just happened. I open
the door to find Mokuba there, who envelops me in a big hug, bringing a small smile to my face.
"Hey big brother! Wow! You sure are home early! It's quarter to three!"
"Yeah, couldn't concentrate."
"C'mon in!"
Mokuba quickly ushers me inside, and I barely have a chance to remove my coat and
shoes before Mokuba sees the booster packs. I hand him one and he squeals in delight.
"I'll duel you Seto!"
"Bring it on."
He smirks, and for a second there he looks with me. The duel itself was still going on
after two hours, and I was lacking in my skills, very badly. My blue eyes must have been feeling
neglected or something, because none of them ended up in my hand at all. My life points were
at a meagre 100, while Mokuba's were at 700. I feel quite embarrassed, but the game is a good
distraction for my troubled mind.
"Okay Seto, get ready to go down."
Mokuba pulls out the dark magician and lays it on the field. Remember how I was
saying the game was a good distraction? Screw that, the dark magician just brought this
afternoon's memories flooding back to me.
"Seto...are you alright? You look kind of sad."
"No, I'm fine."
"Can't handle defeat?"
Mokuba had the dark magician attack with the dark magic attack, and my life points ran
out. I gave a playful glare to Mokuba, whose eyes went wide. He took off into the kitchen, with
myself running after him. After catching up to him in the living room, I pin him to the couch
and we wrestle for a while, just having fun. I swear, it's been forever since I've spent time with
Mokuba. I'm really feeling guilty now, but at least he's enjoying himself now. I guess I am too.
Suddenly, I hear a large growling sound, and stand up, looking around. There's no way anything
got into the house, did it?
My little brother starts laughing loudly, and I turn around and give him a questioning
look.
"That was just my stomach growling."
"You must be really hungry then."
"Can we go out to Emu Palace now?"
"Sure."
"Quit ruffling my hair!"
I smirk, and ruffle his hair a little more. We get into the car and drive off. Once we
arrive there, I lead Mokuba into the restaurant. It's only four thirty, so we're able to get a seat
right away. The waiter asks us if we want anything to drink and leaves before we can order.
Mokuba and I chat about everything. Duelling, school, life in general. He's got a crush on a girl
his age named Ayumi. He want to tell her, but he isn't sure how to do it.
"So Seto...what would I do?"
"You're asking ME?"
"Good point...all the girls usually ask you, but you never say yes. What gives?"
"I'm too busy. I don't need some fangirl phoning me every three hours just to chat."
"That makes sense."
me that he understands. He looks as though he might break down, but to my surprise, he lifts up
his head and gives me a rueful smile.
"You planning on buying those?"
I give Yugi a quizzical look, causing him to snicker, especially so when I realize I have
two booster packs still in my hand. At this point, I'm tempted to give a sheepish grin, but that
just wouldn't be me.
"Sure. What the heck. Ring them through."
After purchasing the cards, I walk to the door, Yugi leading me. Once I reach there, I
stop, not wanting to leave just yet.
*I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is*
I sigh and look out the glass door. It's perfectly sunny and not too hot outside, well,
there's no steam coming from the pavement. It was a day like this when my parents died. I
haven't really felt at home ever since they died. Even now, there's a house, but not a home.
"What's troubling you, Seto?"
"Thinking about the home I used to have."
"Which one was that?"
"The one when my parents were here."
"...I'm sorry."
"No, don't be. It's not your fault I feel homeless."
"Homeless? But if you don't have a home, where does your soul feel at ease?"
"You're assuming I have a soul that I know about."
Yugi fell silent at that, and his smile seemed to melt away. Damn, now I've made him
upset. He doesn't deserve that. I should go before I do anything else to the poor angel.
"I have to go."
"Wait."
*And baby all I need for you to know is*
"If you ever change your mind, Seto, I'll be waiting for you, always."
Yugi unexpectedly pulls me down for a kiss, and I find myself submitting to my desires
as Yugi holds me to him. As quickly as it begins, it ends. Yugi parts from me, his breath
slightly ragged, same as my own. I straighten up, and I can still feel his soft, yet firm and
demanding lips on mine, even though he's standing four feet away from me. I give him a nod
and open the door.
Tears threaten to spill from his eyes, and he's trying his best to keep himself composed
as I'm ready to leave. I wish I could comfort him, to tell him it's alright, to dry his tears, but I
can't.
*I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away*
"Goodbye, Yugi."
"Bye Seto."
My ears pick up the obvious wobbling of his voice. He's about to burst into tears, I can
see it plainly. Ignoring a cry from the depths of my mind, I walk outside and close the door,
hearing the bell ringing once again. I won't look back, I don't want to see him crying, and I'm
already imagining his strangled sobs and whimpers. It's all my fault...I never wanted this to
happen.
*I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is*
I get in the car but I can't bring myself to even put the key in the ignition. Why bother?
Like I said to Yugi, I don't REALLY have a home. Everything's so confusing...what should I
do? Right now I feel like crawling in a hole and crying my eyes out, but I can't, and I won't.
I'm Seto Kaiba, strong, ruthless and in complete control. That's all I have left, really. A sense of myself.
*All I need for you to know is*
I end up at home, parking my Ferrari out on the lawn. I leave it unlocked, not caring if
it's stolen. The stupid vehicle means nothing anymore. Not after what just happened. I open
the door to find Mokuba there, who envelops me in a big hug, bringing a small smile to my face.
"Hey big brother! Wow! You sure are home early! It's quarter to three!"
"Yeah, couldn't concentrate."
"C'mon in!"
Mokuba quickly ushers me inside, and I barely have a chance to remove my coat and
shoes before Mokuba sees the booster packs. I hand him one and he squeals in delight.
"I'll duel you Seto!"
"Bring it on."
He smirks, and for a second there he looks with me. The duel itself was still going on
after two hours, and I was lacking in my skills, very badly. My blue eyes must have been feeling
neglected or something, because none of them ended up in my hand at all. My life points were
at a meagre 100, while Mokuba's were at 700. I feel quite embarrassed, but the game is a good
distraction for my troubled mind.
"Okay Seto, get ready to go down."
Mokuba pulls out the dark magician and lays it on the field. Remember how I was
saying the game was a good distraction? Screw that, the dark magician just brought this
afternoon's memories flooding back to me.
"Seto...are you alright? You look kind of sad."
"No, I'm fine."
"Can't handle defeat?"
Mokuba had the dark magician attack with the dark magic attack, and my life points ran
out. I gave a playful glare to Mokuba, whose eyes went wide. He took off into the kitchen, with
myself running after him. After catching up to him in the living room, I pin him to the couch
and we wrestle for a while, just having fun. I swear, it's been forever since I've spent time with
Mokuba. I'm really feeling guilty now, but at least he's enjoying himself now. I guess I am too.
Suddenly, I hear a large growling sound, and stand up, looking around. There's no way anything
got into the house, did it?
My little brother starts laughing loudly, and I turn around and give him a questioning
look.
"That was just my stomach growling."
"You must be really hungry then."
"Can we go out to Emu Palace now?"
"Sure."
"Quit ruffling my hair!"
I smirk, and ruffle his hair a little more. We get into the car and drive off. Once we
arrive there, I lead Mokuba into the restaurant. It's only four thirty, so we're able to get a seat
right away. The waiter asks us if we want anything to drink and leaves before we can order.
Mokuba and I chat about everything. Duelling, school, life in general. He's got a crush on a girl
his age named Ayumi. He want to tell her, but he isn't sure how to do it.
"So Seto...what would I do?"
"You're asking ME?"
"Good point...all the girls usually ask you, but you never say yes. What gives?"
"I'm too busy. I don't need some fangirl phoning me every three hours just to chat."
"That makes sense."