Scars of the Past

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I am thinking of you - In my sleepless solitude tonight - If it's wrong to love you - Then my heart just won't let me be right - 'Cause I've drowned in you - And I won't pull through - With out you by my side - I'd give my all - To have just one more night with you - I'd risk my life - To feel your body next to mine - 'Cause I can't go on - Living in the memory of our song - I'd give my all for your love tonight. (Mariah Carey – My all)

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Chapter 1 - Elena the SOLDIER

Elena walked away from the rubble of Reactor one. She brought her arm up to rub the ash out of her eyes as well as some of the left over tears. The blonde shook her head then mumbled to herself.

"SOLDIERS shouldn't cry. SOLDIERS shouldn't cry" She stopped walking, took a deep breathe to try and prevent new tears. It didn't work. Bringing her hand up again, she turned round to look back at the reactor. There were twisted bits of steal everywhere. Smoke was still rising from the wreck, even three days after it happened. "Who am I kidding" She whispered to herself. "I can't believe Adrienne's gone" She continued to stare trying to hold back the memories of her best friend. The blonde then felt a hand on her shoulder. She spun around swiftly, to stare the black haired man in the face. "Shit, Reeve. What you doing down here?" Reeve raised his eyebrows and looked intently at her for a minute. Elena instantly felt a fool when the answer clicked in her head. Of course he would be here, it's virtually his god damn reactor. She shook her head. "Okay bad question isn't it?" Reeve just nodded his head.

"You ok?" Reeve decided to ask his eyes fixed on the twisted remains of the reactor.

"I'll be fine" She paused for a minute. "Shit, I need to find Reno"

"No need. I'm right here" The blonde haired woman looked over Reeve's shoulder to see the red head, dressed in some blue jeans and a white T-shirt that had begun to lose it's colour. Grabbing on to Reno's hand, was a little red haired boy, rubbing his eyes with his other hand. The boy couldn't be any older than three. He looked up at Reno then tugged his arm.

"Daddy" The boy stared at his father with tears in his eyes, his arms stretched out for Reno to pick him up. The Turk bent down and grasped hold of the child's waist and rested him on his hip. Reeve walked over to where Reno was stood and stretched out his arms.

"I'll take Callum for a while; Elena wants to talk to you" The Shinra Executive grasped the boy as Reno let Reeve take him. "Tell you what Callum what do you say to an Ice Cream?" Callum's eyes lit up for just a second at what the black haired man was telling him and nodded his head. Reeve put the little red head on the ground. They then walked away from the reactor. The red haired Turk stared at them for a while before Elena walked over to him.

"How did Callum take it?" The blonde asked warily.

"How do you think a three year old takes it, when you tell him that his mummy is never coming home?" Reno turned round to look at the blonde SOLDIER. He hesitated before speaking. "You know, there hasn't been a minute I haven't sat there and wished all this shit was a dream, just hoping I would wake up any minute to find everything was ok." One stray tear ran down his cheek. Elena glanced at him for a minute, then looked towards the floor. "Hey El." Elena brought her eyes back to the Turk, waiting for him to continue. "Look after Callum for me. I gotta go and do something." She looked Reno in the eye then nodded.

"Aren't you on leave?" The blonde asked.

"Yeah. But it doesn't mean I can't do anything." Reno turned to walk towards Shinra HQ.

"Reno!" Elena shouted "Don't go and do anything stupid ok?" She said a bit quieter but the Turk heard her. He turned back around, looking the younger girl in the eye.

"I won't" Reno gave her a slight smile then jogged off.

Reeve came back to see the red haired man jogging away. The little boy was clutching onto his hand with an Chocolate ice cream in the other hand, ice cream all over his mouth. He had a smile on his face, which faulted a little, when he saw his father leaving. Callum ran over to Elena and tugged her uniform.

"Elly, where's daddy going?" The blonde gazed at the boy then smiled and ruffled his hair.

"Just gone to take care of something ok? He'll be back soon." The blonde bent down to the boy's level. "Meanwhile, you're gonna be with me. How do you like that?" That seemed to cheer the boy up a little more. He nodded his head furiously.

"You gonna be ok looking after him?" The head of Urban Development questioned.

"Of course I am. I owe it Adrienne." Reeve nodded his head.

"I've gotta get back ok. You just go home. I'll make an excuse up for you" The black haired man patted Callum on the head. Callum looked up.

"Thank yoo for the ice scream, Mishter Deushi" Reeve smiled at the boy.

"You're a life saving you know Reeve" Elena picked up the boy and hoisted him on to her hip.

"Well what are cousins for you know. I just hope I catch Heidegger in a good mood" He chuckled at that.

"You'll be lucky, because if Reno gets to him first he'll be pissed off. I think he has a knack of being able to piss the fat ass off without trying" Elena started laughing "I'll see you later ok"

"I'm sure you will El" With that Reeve opened his car door and got in.

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"GET OUT!!!!!" The door of Heidegger's office flung open and a red haired Turk got pushed out. He stumble a little, but turned to look through the doorway. "I DON'T WANNA SEE YOU UNLESS IT'S SOMETHING IMPORTANT. NOW GET LOST!" The door slammed shut. Reno leaned against the wall and shut his eyes.

"It's important to me though" He said under his breath. Just then the lift doors opened to reveal the Wutian Turk.

"I thought I could here Heidegger shouting. What you doing here any way?" He asked Reno as he walked towards him. "You. Mister. Reno. Komiya. Are. Meant. To. Be. On. Leave" Tseng said jabbing his finger at the other Turk's chest after every word.

"Well it's my sworn duty to piss fat bastard off everyday, so I had to live up to it." Reno looked at his feet. "Anyway, I had to ask him something." Reno stared at the office door, his voice dropping to a hushed tone. "I just wanna rip Avalanche a part at this moment in time, but he won't have it." He sighed. The leader of the Turks put his arm around the other man.

"We all do Reno, but it won't happen over night. We'll get them." He took his arm back. "I can see you're not going to stop at home, so why don't you go down to the office, Rude's in there under some paper work somewhere." Tseng stopped, looking over the heart broken Turk. "We'll think of something." He gave Reno one of his rare smiles then into Heidegger's office.

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Rude Arakawa sat in front of the computer. Next to him on the desk, sat what felt like five feet of paper work. On the other side of him sat his cup of coffee that had gone cold hours ago. He took his sunglasses off and rubbed his tired eyes. Putting them in his top pocket, he began to type again.

"If you type anymore, your fingers are gonna just drop off, then where would we be?" Rude turned his attention to the Turk leaning on the door frame.

"Should have guessed you couldn't stay away for too long." The bald headed man gave a slight smile to the other "What you doing here anyway and where's the kid?"

"You all know how to make a guy welcome don't you? And he's with a friend" He paused for a minute "Shit I'm gonna get her into trouble with Heidegger" He smacked his hand against his head.

"She?" Rude raised an eyebrow.

"Yes she. She was Addy's best friend...." Reno's voice died off towards the end. "Anyway she was supposed to on duty. Damn it." He kicked the door frame lightly.

"What is she anyway?" Rude asked while getting up, walking over to the coffee machine.

"She's a SOLIDER First Class. Has been for about 5 years, I think. She was about the only person I could flirt with and Addy wouldn't get pissed off with me" The red head smiled at that thought. He went over to the couch and fell onto it. "She's been helping me out with Callum, so I thought she wouldn't mind looking after him for a few hours." Reno let his head fall against the back of the sofa. Rude let his hazel coloured eyes stare at Reno for a little while.

"You know, Sarah would look after the kid if you wanted her to. That way it would stop your friend getting in trouble." Rude offered his best friend. The other Turk brought his head back up to look at him.

"I know your wife would help Rude. I just wasn't thinking straight I knew where Elly would be, so I went to find her." He let his head fall back again. The door hurled open to show an angry looking black haired Turk. Tseng walked in and slammed the door shut that hard that a picture fell off the wall. Reno looked up again.

"What's up Boss?" The red haired Turk stared his boss in the eye. The Turk Leader rubbed his face with one hand then leaned on the closed door.

"Avalanche have struck again." Tseng watched as the red haired Turk's face welded up with anger a little. "They just blew up the number five Reactor." The Turk leader sighed. "But on the positive side we've found where they're based." Tseng went to sit behind his desk. Reno got up and went to sit on the edge of the table.

"What's the bad side?" Rude asked still stood near the coffee machine. Tseng looked over to Rude then to Reno. The stern look on his face never faltering.

"The President wants us to release the Sector Seven plate to kill them."

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