My beautiful Teef…

Before I say anything, please keep an open mind and don't judge me because I have said this to your face; I've taken a cowards way out. But its only because I know I could never tell you all these things to your face; things that I guess you have to know. I want you to know them because they are part of my love for you.

I guess that's the best place of any to start. I admit now; as strange as it may sound, I am falling in love with you deeper each moment. Like I said, I have been feeling like this for about six months. That was when I felt a little something more for you than a friend. But it was when I was trapped in my burning room and you saved me that I realised how much I care for you. I couldn't believe that you could risk your life so much for me; it showed me that you cared and I realised I cared so so much for you.

Last night wasn't a mistake, no matter how much you may think it was, if you do think that. It was the best night of my life. I have dreamed of you ever since I was a little boy; hoping that the little girl next door would come and say hi. You never did; and so I kept hold of those dreams inside my head. You knew some of the story when we fell into the Lifestream; the rest of it is that I have always been in love with you. I used to write songs and poems to my Tifa; you never got them because I was and still am way too shy. I know that back then you never gave me a second thought.

But now, you are my best friend, the only person who could ever understand me, and my deepest desire. I didn't know that you were seeing Keenan again, but that wouldn't have stopped me. Last night was amazing; it was meant to be. It was truly magical. I have never felt like that and I know why…because I have never been in love with anyone as deeply as I am in love with you. I was a fool to pick Aeris over you; my fears that you would never love me back deluded me until I believed that you didn't. Even when it was obvious that you did, I still wouldn't believe it. I used to think it was my curse… My love has lasted more than a decade; yet I never showed it. I can assure you that you have always had a special place in my heart though.

And you always will.

The reason why I am not here now is because I want to leave the way open for you and Keenan. You have a history together, and you deserve a chance with him. I don't want to get in the way. You should pick him over me, as much as it tears my heart apart to say that. I have been selfish and I have hurt you so much through being weak and blind to what you were feeling. I have been insensitive. I don't deserve you. I may have once, but I have hurt you too much. Please don't let this hurt you; I have left because I have realised how much I have hurt you.

Nevertheless I love you more than the planet (and you see what I went through to save the planet; Id do it all over again twice for you…) and so if you want to come back to me I would be the happiest person alive. I have my PHS on me. I am staying at the Inn on the other side of Landersun; the one near Barrett's old house. If you want, come to find me. Don't let this influence you. You have to decide for yourself what you really want.

One thing I ask, please don't make it so I never see your beautiful face again. You are everything and the only thing I have. We belong together as friends even if that is all. Forget this day ever happened if you want, anything; I just cant live without your support. I'm going to leave you now.

You are my past and present. It's up to you whether you want to be my future.

I love you.

Love forever, Cloud xxx