HER. It was her who encouraged me to bring life back to myself. To let her
see again the Mistui that she admired. The Mistui so alive on court, on
school. This time I cared. I knew it was the right thing to do so here I
am. Playing and loving once more. I don't care what happens to me now. All
I want to see is Mizumi happy. To see my true self again - playing
basketball. I had loved her, I guess. But no one knew. Kogure, Akagi,
Miyagi, Ayako - my parents. My parents didn't care too so who cares now?
Only me. And the girl I love. Days passed into weeks and these weeks into
months. And my little Mizumi was just there. I kept waiting till the day I
could tell her how much I love her. How I really loved her but too scared
to tell her. And I kept playing for her - for her.
Then I could hardly see her. I would always look outside my window to see if she's there. No nothing not even a sign of her hair or a strand of it. I missed the sound of her shoes that was so light I could hardly notice it was her. It felt so cold looking at nothing and perhaps - waiting for nothing? But I just kept these thoughts inside me and pretended like nothing is really happening to me. Like a was still this Mr. MVP who can wipe any team at any instance but I was not. I kept thinking about her - it's the least I can do to keep a serene atmosphere inside me. Inside me. I kept knocking at her door but no answer. I wish I knew where she was. Where she really was. I looked for her at the hospital where she always went - she was a volunteer there. She wasn't there. I looked for her at her school and her teacher told me that she wasn't attending her classes this past few days. Why? She always told me to study and attend my schooling as always. But where is she now? Where is my Mizumi Yukino? The water that kept on flowing and the first warm snow that the earth has ever experienced. Where is she now? Did she left me? My life? Could it be any harder to know she just went off without any good-byes?
I missed her so much, I always waited for her then it came. A phone call that made me crash into pieces. "Mr. Mistui Hisashi?" "Yes, it's me" "I am a doctor from Kanagawa Hospital." "Hospital?" At the first thought, I felt a chill on my spine thinking that one of my parents met an accident. "We need you here right away, sir we will." I put down the phone not wanting to hear the next lines that he would say and picked up my mother's car even though I have no license on driving and rushed there.
And now I am here standing looking at the operating room window. No, it's not my mom or my dad or anyone else. It's Mizumi. Three months on the hospital. Heart ailment the doctor said. I asked him why me. He told me he found my number on her wallet the day before she collapsed on her private room. He thought I might be someone important for her. I wish I wasn't so I won't feel this awful. She wasn't really a volunteer on that hospital and wasn't really an active young lady. She's now here fighting for her life all this time and where was I? Just here standing not even getting close to her. No.
Why are things so cruel to me? My life was hell before and then You gave her to me. To suit me fine and we were perfectly fine and now? You're taking her away? We were just getting started and You're taking her away from me? You know she's the only person I had loved and now? Why do these things need to happen to me? Why?
Then I could hardly see her. I would always look outside my window to see if she's there. No nothing not even a sign of her hair or a strand of it. I missed the sound of her shoes that was so light I could hardly notice it was her. It felt so cold looking at nothing and perhaps - waiting for nothing? But I just kept these thoughts inside me and pretended like nothing is really happening to me. Like a was still this Mr. MVP who can wipe any team at any instance but I was not. I kept thinking about her - it's the least I can do to keep a serene atmosphere inside me. Inside me. I kept knocking at her door but no answer. I wish I knew where she was. Where she really was. I looked for her at the hospital where she always went - she was a volunteer there. She wasn't there. I looked for her at her school and her teacher told me that she wasn't attending her classes this past few days. Why? She always told me to study and attend my schooling as always. But where is she now? Where is my Mizumi Yukino? The water that kept on flowing and the first warm snow that the earth has ever experienced. Where is she now? Did she left me? My life? Could it be any harder to know she just went off without any good-byes?
I missed her so much, I always waited for her then it came. A phone call that made me crash into pieces. "Mr. Mistui Hisashi?" "Yes, it's me" "I am a doctor from Kanagawa Hospital." "Hospital?" At the first thought, I felt a chill on my spine thinking that one of my parents met an accident. "We need you here right away, sir we will." I put down the phone not wanting to hear the next lines that he would say and picked up my mother's car even though I have no license on driving and rushed there.
And now I am here standing looking at the operating room window. No, it's not my mom or my dad or anyone else. It's Mizumi. Three months on the hospital. Heart ailment the doctor said. I asked him why me. He told me he found my number on her wallet the day before she collapsed on her private room. He thought I might be someone important for her. I wish I wasn't so I won't feel this awful. She wasn't really a volunteer on that hospital and wasn't really an active young lady. She's now here fighting for her life all this time and where was I? Just here standing not even getting close to her. No.
Why are things so cruel to me? My life was hell before and then You gave her to me. To suit me fine and we were perfectly fine and now? You're taking her away? We were just getting started and You're taking her away from me? You know she's the only person I had loved and now? Why do these things need to happen to me? Why?