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Sara reached over to the flowers on the bedside table next to her and picked out the note. She smiled at the note.
"What does it say?" Nick asked eager to know what saucy stuff the Boss had put in the note.
"It says."
"Dear Sara, I've always thought of you as a daughter to me, and a dear friend. But lately I've started getting feelings about you that a friend shouldn't have. I know this is totally out of character and all but I suppose everyone has to come out at one time or another. I've been through hell lately thinking about what you've been through and I hate to think of how that SOB hurt you. I know how you feel about Nick the stares across the labs etc I've seen them and I want to give you my full blessing to go for it. He's a great man and he's extremely lucky to get you. I know it's going to take along time for you to heal but if you ever need someone to talk to I'm always here for you.
From Grissom."
"What a fool!"
"What do you mean, 'What a Fool?'"
"I don't know it just popped out of my mouth,"
"What am I meant to do Nick?"
"Don't ask me I'm just the best mate and confidante. Just one piece of advice though. Grissom's right when he says it takes a long time to heal. For years I couldn't get over what had happened to me, but I was in different circumstances to you. If I were you I wouldn't even be thinking about your love life right now. Just get your own head sorted out, because although you're putting a brave face on and laughing a joking for the team I see right through that Sara. I've been there and I know your hurting. You can't just forget it happened and leave it at that. You have to work through it and I'm here to help you do that if and when you need me."
"Thanks Nicky," Sara got out of her bed carefully and walked slowly over to Nick's nearby bed. She climbed onto his gently and being careful not to touch his leg she snuggled up next to him. He put his arm around her and kissed her forehead. He felt little shudders on his chest and he soon realised Sara was crying.
"Shh honey, talk to me."
"It's just. I can't get it out of my head. You were right just now what you said. I put on a brave face because I always have done. When I have problems I don't let people see how I'm feeling because it's just not me. I like being private. Although Chad's dead now I just constantly think he's going to walk in here and . and . rape me again and I don't know what to do to make that feeling go away. I thought if I pretended that it didn't happen that it would just go away. Things are never going to be the same again Nick, he ruined everything. I've got nothing left."
"Sara you'll always have me left, even when you try to get rid of me. You mean the world to me I haven't got a better friend in the world. And regardless of whether you need me or not your stuck with me. Chad didn't ruin everything. He ruined life right now but just think of a few years down the line. You are such a strong person Sara and this will make you stronger. And I know you don't feel like it now but it's nothing to be ashamed of because it wasn't your fault."
Sara sobbed and her whole body shuddered violently with the sobs eliciting from her.
"That's it Sara get it all out,"
And she did. She must have cried for at least half an hour. She must've cried herself to sleep because when the sobs ceased Nick looked down to find her eyes closed in what seemed a peaceful sleep. Sure she was giving him a dead arm but she was fast asleep and dreaming and he didn't have the heart to wake her.
He looked out of the window on the other side of the room and saw what a miserable day it was. Rain was lashing down the window and the rain drops mirrored Sara's tears. The trees were blown around and Nick thought that they'd break soon but they just kept fighting back each time they were blown down. And Nick realised that those trees could be him and Sara. Every time that they were knocked down they got back up again stronger than before. He smiled at the thought and looked down at Sara. He kissed her forehead again and with his free hand stroked the outline of her face over and over again.
He remembered fondly how his mother had stroked his face similarly when he was a boy and he'd had trouble sleeping. Speaking of which he had to phone his mother soon otherwise she'd be worried. Well she'd be worried anyway when she heard about the shooting but she'd deal with it, she'd have to.
Sara's peaceful sleep came abruptly to an end not long after and she became restless, jumbled words tumbling from her small mouth. Her fists began to clench and she started sweating. Nick knew what was happening, the nightmares had started for her. He shook her gently, careful not to hurt her broken ribs. She refused to rise from her nightmare and so he shook more firmly. Her eyes opened wide with pure terror and she tried breathing in deeply to regain composure. Nick held onto her and tried to make eye contact with her.
"Sara look at me," At first she couldn't meet his gaze and her eyes fought hard to focus on one specific thing.
"Sara look at me." Nick commanded forcefully. He knew what he needed to say because these were the things that he wished someone would say to him when he had nightmares. Eventually she met his eye contact and kept it, her breathing gradually becoming normal again. Once Nick felt she'd calmed down thoroughly he asked her gently. "Was that your first one?"
"Yes ." she whispered.
"What happened?"
"It was just him doing it to me again." her voice trailed off and Nick could see how shocked she was.
"The first one's always the worst and I promise you something. I am going to be there for every single one of your nightmares, I'm going to make them go away like I did then Sara ok?"
"How?"
"Well I had an idea whilst you were sleeping I was wondering how you'd like to ."
He he he I know I'm evil but look at the bright side it's nearly the end of the story now! Therefore no more cliffhangers! Please review as all the reviews mean a lot to me. Feedback as usual, is welcome good or indeed bad. Until next time sweeties =) XX
Sara reached over to the flowers on the bedside table next to her and picked out the note. She smiled at the note.
"What does it say?" Nick asked eager to know what saucy stuff the Boss had put in the note.
"It says."
"Dear Sara, I've always thought of you as a daughter to me, and a dear friend. But lately I've started getting feelings about you that a friend shouldn't have. I know this is totally out of character and all but I suppose everyone has to come out at one time or another. I've been through hell lately thinking about what you've been through and I hate to think of how that SOB hurt you. I know how you feel about Nick the stares across the labs etc I've seen them and I want to give you my full blessing to go for it. He's a great man and he's extremely lucky to get you. I know it's going to take along time for you to heal but if you ever need someone to talk to I'm always here for you.
From Grissom."
"What a fool!"
"What do you mean, 'What a Fool?'"
"I don't know it just popped out of my mouth,"
"What am I meant to do Nick?"
"Don't ask me I'm just the best mate and confidante. Just one piece of advice though. Grissom's right when he says it takes a long time to heal. For years I couldn't get over what had happened to me, but I was in different circumstances to you. If I were you I wouldn't even be thinking about your love life right now. Just get your own head sorted out, because although you're putting a brave face on and laughing a joking for the team I see right through that Sara. I've been there and I know your hurting. You can't just forget it happened and leave it at that. You have to work through it and I'm here to help you do that if and when you need me."
"Thanks Nicky," Sara got out of her bed carefully and walked slowly over to Nick's nearby bed. She climbed onto his gently and being careful not to touch his leg she snuggled up next to him. He put his arm around her and kissed her forehead. He felt little shudders on his chest and he soon realised Sara was crying.
"Shh honey, talk to me."
"It's just. I can't get it out of my head. You were right just now what you said. I put on a brave face because I always have done. When I have problems I don't let people see how I'm feeling because it's just not me. I like being private. Although Chad's dead now I just constantly think he's going to walk in here and . and . rape me again and I don't know what to do to make that feeling go away. I thought if I pretended that it didn't happen that it would just go away. Things are never going to be the same again Nick, he ruined everything. I've got nothing left."
"Sara you'll always have me left, even when you try to get rid of me. You mean the world to me I haven't got a better friend in the world. And regardless of whether you need me or not your stuck with me. Chad didn't ruin everything. He ruined life right now but just think of a few years down the line. You are such a strong person Sara and this will make you stronger. And I know you don't feel like it now but it's nothing to be ashamed of because it wasn't your fault."
Sara sobbed and her whole body shuddered violently with the sobs eliciting from her.
"That's it Sara get it all out,"
And she did. She must have cried for at least half an hour. She must've cried herself to sleep because when the sobs ceased Nick looked down to find her eyes closed in what seemed a peaceful sleep. Sure she was giving him a dead arm but she was fast asleep and dreaming and he didn't have the heart to wake her.
He looked out of the window on the other side of the room and saw what a miserable day it was. Rain was lashing down the window and the rain drops mirrored Sara's tears. The trees were blown around and Nick thought that they'd break soon but they just kept fighting back each time they were blown down. And Nick realised that those trees could be him and Sara. Every time that they were knocked down they got back up again stronger than before. He smiled at the thought and looked down at Sara. He kissed her forehead again and with his free hand stroked the outline of her face over and over again.
He remembered fondly how his mother had stroked his face similarly when he was a boy and he'd had trouble sleeping. Speaking of which he had to phone his mother soon otherwise she'd be worried. Well she'd be worried anyway when she heard about the shooting but she'd deal with it, she'd have to.
Sara's peaceful sleep came abruptly to an end not long after and she became restless, jumbled words tumbling from her small mouth. Her fists began to clench and she started sweating. Nick knew what was happening, the nightmares had started for her. He shook her gently, careful not to hurt her broken ribs. She refused to rise from her nightmare and so he shook more firmly. Her eyes opened wide with pure terror and she tried breathing in deeply to regain composure. Nick held onto her and tried to make eye contact with her.
"Sara look at me," At first she couldn't meet his gaze and her eyes fought hard to focus on one specific thing.
"Sara look at me." Nick commanded forcefully. He knew what he needed to say because these were the things that he wished someone would say to him when he had nightmares. Eventually she met his eye contact and kept it, her breathing gradually becoming normal again. Once Nick felt she'd calmed down thoroughly he asked her gently. "Was that your first one?"
"Yes ." she whispered.
"What happened?"
"It was just him doing it to me again." her voice trailed off and Nick could see how shocked she was.
"The first one's always the worst and I promise you something. I am going to be there for every single one of your nightmares, I'm going to make them go away like I did then Sara ok?"
"How?"
"Well I had an idea whilst you were sleeping I was wondering how you'd like to ."
He he he I know I'm evil but look at the bright side it's nearly the end of the story now! Therefore no more cliffhangers! Please review as all the reviews mean a lot to me. Feedback as usual, is welcome good or indeed bad. Until next time sweeties =) XX