Hello ladies and gentlemen! I'm sorry this chapter took so long I've been
ill for a few days and haven't been able to get to the computer. So anyway
better late than never eh? Anyways thank you all again for the lovely
reviews and I'd love some more! Feedback is always greatly appreciated,
good or bad. Anyway enough about me here goes chapter 12.
"Act how you feel. You'll have good and bad days but don't pretend to be feeling something you're not because you'll only feel worse in the long run."
"Ok point taken. one last thing."
"Yeah fire away."
"Is my breakfast still down stairs?"
"Course it is."
"What are you doing Sara? Why are you fighting? You know you want me just as much as I want you otherwise you wouldn't have let me do what I did. You're just a slut Sara you know it your just too scared to admit it. You think your little friend Nick is going to protect you forever. I don't think so do you.?" He held her down using his immense bodily strength she tried to struggle but didn't succeed. He fiddled with her buttons undoing them with ease and she looked up into the cold blue eyes of ."
"Sara wake up!" Nick was shaking Sara trying to wake her from her nightmare. "Sara, come on Sara Wake up!"
She opened her eyes and immediately locked eye contact with Nick. The sweat was streaming down her face and mixed with the salty rivers of tears that fell down the contours of her pretty face. She immediately recognised the person sat in front of her and reached out to him needing the touch of someone she trusted. She was confused she'd dreamt that . but how could that be.?
"Sara what happened in you nightmare?" Nick was concerned. He'd seen Sara when she'd seen Chad in her nightmares this was different. She was genuinely petrified. Shaking like a leaf in his strong masculine arms, he stroked her back soothingly; he needed to calm her down and the quicker the better.
"Sara tell me what happened."
"It wasn't him Nick, It wasn't him doing it again Nick."
"Are you saying that you didn't have a nightmare about being attacked again?"
"No I was." She stuttered and stumbled over her words. "I was being attacked but it wasn't Chad."
"Then who was it?"
"It was . it was." She fought for breath and Nick saw she was about to start hyperventilating.
"Sara, look at me." She obeyed his command. "Ok now keep eye contact with me and do as I say. Breathe in through your nose and out through your mouth." He repeated the pattern until he could see his friend had calmed down enough to talk to him.
"Sara who was it?"
"His eyes just bore a hole right through me.. They were so calm but full of. I don't know."
"Who Sara?"
She looked down, ashamed to say the name, ashamed to make him seem like the bad guy when he was just a lovely, kind, generous man.
"Grissom," "It's ok Sara. It happens. You're minds just working on overdrive and you've got your people confused. Grissom wouldn't ever hurt you and you know that. You were probably just thinking about Gris yesterday and you mind got a bit confused. It's happened to me many a time. You just need to distinguish dreams from reality."
She nodded, listening intently to the logical words of her friend but she couldn't help feeling guilty. She felt like she'd just tarnished Grissom's good name, and she remembered back to how she'd felt about him a while back. She hated feeling the way she did. She felt confused and unable to let her mind grasp onto ideas that were simple. She needed to get out the house, but she needed to do it alone.
After about 20 minutes she felt ok and decided to settle back down to sleep, or at least that's what Nick thought. He wearily went back to bed and looking at his bedside clock decided that 3.43am was too early to have breakfast and quickly slipped back into a deep sleep.
Sara got dressed and quietly wandered down the stairs and out of the front door. She felt the cool breeze of the early morning on her face and felt instantly refreshed. She didn't know where she was going but she guessed she'd figure that out when she got there. She'd brought her gun to satisfy her vivid fears and she'd wrapped up warm not knowing how long she would be out for. She walked briskly even though she wasn't in the mood to rush. Her feet worked purely on their own, seemingly not belonging to the rest of her body.
She must have walked for about an hour until she came to rest on a hill overlooking a small lake. It was a clear view to the horizon and the dawn was gracing the earth with its presence like it did every morning. Sara looked to her wrist trying to find out the time but quickly remembered she'd forgotten to put on her watch in her haste to get dressed. She smiled. She didn't need the time. She felt alive, free and happy. The bright crimson rays encroaching the horizon brought a deep feeling of contentment to her and she lowered herself to the ground, resting up against a nearby tree.
She loved dawn. It meant new beginnings, new starts, new prospects and most importantly a new life. This new day could be anything you wanted it to be, in her opinion it was yours for the taking and she knew she could no longer let a dead man rule her life. It had been just over a month since the attack, and sure she was still having nightmares, but she'd always healed quickly. She could let things go if she tried hard enough. She knew that Chad could never hurt her again. She'd been lucky enough to have that closure. She didn't have to go to court to have him put away. It would take a while to get over the whole experience but she knew she could do it with the help of Nick.
Nick.. Or Grissom. That part of her life wasn't important right now it was just about her. She needed to feel the real person inside of her again. Not the person who felt numb and ashamed of something that wasn't her fault. She remembered back to her college years of how when things were bothering her she found a spot where she could watch the dawn and everything became clear again. She smiled as she realised how long it'd been since she last did this and let out a long contented sigh.
"Happier now then?"
"How'd you know to find me here?"
"Well," Nick said crouching down next to her, "you always told me how you enjoyed sunrises and how they made you think clearly, so I searched around until I thought of a good place to find a sunrise and voila,"
"I thought you were out for the count," she smirked.
"Well I was but then I needed the bathroom and someone wasn't in their bedroom, first I panicked and then I remembered what you told me ages ago and I came looking for you."
Nick leant up against the tree, and sat firmly on the ground. He put an arm around Sara and pulled her into him. She sighed again and rested her head on his chest.
"So did you sort anything out? In your head I mean."
"Yeah I did. This is a brand new day Nick and I need to get on with my life. I can't let the SOB rule my life forever. So I've made a few decisions."
"And they would be.?"
"I'm going back to work. I've missed the team and I've missed my work. I love what I do and I hate not getting that feeling of accomplishment when you've just solved a case." "Well how about if I told you I've made a decision too?"
"You're joking?"
"No, I can walk on my leg now I don't need the crutches and I feel alright in myself. I don't see why Grissom wouldn't be pleased to see us both back."
Sara threaded her arms round Nick's back. "I feel so alive. and I haven't felt like that in a while."
"I feel tired." He smiled at Sara and she gave him a mock look of distaste. "Sheesh I was joking you know?"
"Shhh man I came out here for some solitude and to watch the sunrise. Now you either shut up and watch or leave." She laughed at his OTT look of hurt and punched him lightly in the stomach.
"Hey hey ok I'll shut up just chill,"
By now the sunrise had nearly completely risen above the horizon and the pair both turned to watch the finale of the dawn's matinee. It felt good just watching it, just to be a part of its audience. And it was just so powerful that it freed Nick of all his bad feelings that he'd kept locked up for a while. He felt good, no scratch that he felt amazing. He turned round to face his friend who was too, enthralled by the beauty of the spectacle in front of them. She felt the presence of his eyes on her face and she turned to face him slowly, savouring the moment. They kept eye contact for what seemed an eternity and she moved closer to him, the need to kiss him filling up inside her. She closed her eyes slowly and moved in closer once more. He moved in closer to the inevitable embrace and then..
I know it's a cliffhanger but I haven't done one for a few chapters so I thought this was a nice one to leave you hanging on! I'd love your feedback and reviews would be great! I thought it'd give the Nick/Sara shippers something to think about. Anyway ladies and gentlemen until next time . =) XX
"Act how you feel. You'll have good and bad days but don't pretend to be feeling something you're not because you'll only feel worse in the long run."
"Ok point taken. one last thing."
"Yeah fire away."
"Is my breakfast still down stairs?"
"Course it is."
"What are you doing Sara? Why are you fighting? You know you want me just as much as I want you otherwise you wouldn't have let me do what I did. You're just a slut Sara you know it your just too scared to admit it. You think your little friend Nick is going to protect you forever. I don't think so do you.?" He held her down using his immense bodily strength she tried to struggle but didn't succeed. He fiddled with her buttons undoing them with ease and she looked up into the cold blue eyes of ."
"Sara wake up!" Nick was shaking Sara trying to wake her from her nightmare. "Sara, come on Sara Wake up!"
She opened her eyes and immediately locked eye contact with Nick. The sweat was streaming down her face and mixed with the salty rivers of tears that fell down the contours of her pretty face. She immediately recognised the person sat in front of her and reached out to him needing the touch of someone she trusted. She was confused she'd dreamt that . but how could that be.?
"Sara what happened in you nightmare?" Nick was concerned. He'd seen Sara when she'd seen Chad in her nightmares this was different. She was genuinely petrified. Shaking like a leaf in his strong masculine arms, he stroked her back soothingly; he needed to calm her down and the quicker the better.
"Sara tell me what happened."
"It wasn't him Nick, It wasn't him doing it again Nick."
"Are you saying that you didn't have a nightmare about being attacked again?"
"No I was." She stuttered and stumbled over her words. "I was being attacked but it wasn't Chad."
"Then who was it?"
"It was . it was." She fought for breath and Nick saw she was about to start hyperventilating.
"Sara, look at me." She obeyed his command. "Ok now keep eye contact with me and do as I say. Breathe in through your nose and out through your mouth." He repeated the pattern until he could see his friend had calmed down enough to talk to him.
"Sara who was it?"
"His eyes just bore a hole right through me.. They were so calm but full of. I don't know."
"Who Sara?"
She looked down, ashamed to say the name, ashamed to make him seem like the bad guy when he was just a lovely, kind, generous man.
"Grissom," "It's ok Sara. It happens. You're minds just working on overdrive and you've got your people confused. Grissom wouldn't ever hurt you and you know that. You were probably just thinking about Gris yesterday and you mind got a bit confused. It's happened to me many a time. You just need to distinguish dreams from reality."
She nodded, listening intently to the logical words of her friend but she couldn't help feeling guilty. She felt like she'd just tarnished Grissom's good name, and she remembered back to how she'd felt about him a while back. She hated feeling the way she did. She felt confused and unable to let her mind grasp onto ideas that were simple. She needed to get out the house, but she needed to do it alone.
After about 20 minutes she felt ok and decided to settle back down to sleep, or at least that's what Nick thought. He wearily went back to bed and looking at his bedside clock decided that 3.43am was too early to have breakfast and quickly slipped back into a deep sleep.
Sara got dressed and quietly wandered down the stairs and out of the front door. She felt the cool breeze of the early morning on her face and felt instantly refreshed. She didn't know where she was going but she guessed she'd figure that out when she got there. She'd brought her gun to satisfy her vivid fears and she'd wrapped up warm not knowing how long she would be out for. She walked briskly even though she wasn't in the mood to rush. Her feet worked purely on their own, seemingly not belonging to the rest of her body.
She must have walked for about an hour until she came to rest on a hill overlooking a small lake. It was a clear view to the horizon and the dawn was gracing the earth with its presence like it did every morning. Sara looked to her wrist trying to find out the time but quickly remembered she'd forgotten to put on her watch in her haste to get dressed. She smiled. She didn't need the time. She felt alive, free and happy. The bright crimson rays encroaching the horizon brought a deep feeling of contentment to her and she lowered herself to the ground, resting up against a nearby tree.
She loved dawn. It meant new beginnings, new starts, new prospects and most importantly a new life. This new day could be anything you wanted it to be, in her opinion it was yours for the taking and she knew she could no longer let a dead man rule her life. It had been just over a month since the attack, and sure she was still having nightmares, but she'd always healed quickly. She could let things go if she tried hard enough. She knew that Chad could never hurt her again. She'd been lucky enough to have that closure. She didn't have to go to court to have him put away. It would take a while to get over the whole experience but she knew she could do it with the help of Nick.
Nick.. Or Grissom. That part of her life wasn't important right now it was just about her. She needed to feel the real person inside of her again. Not the person who felt numb and ashamed of something that wasn't her fault. She remembered back to her college years of how when things were bothering her she found a spot where she could watch the dawn and everything became clear again. She smiled as she realised how long it'd been since she last did this and let out a long contented sigh.
"Happier now then?"
"How'd you know to find me here?"
"Well," Nick said crouching down next to her, "you always told me how you enjoyed sunrises and how they made you think clearly, so I searched around until I thought of a good place to find a sunrise and voila,"
"I thought you were out for the count," she smirked.
"Well I was but then I needed the bathroom and someone wasn't in their bedroom, first I panicked and then I remembered what you told me ages ago and I came looking for you."
Nick leant up against the tree, and sat firmly on the ground. He put an arm around Sara and pulled her into him. She sighed again and rested her head on his chest.
"So did you sort anything out? In your head I mean."
"Yeah I did. This is a brand new day Nick and I need to get on with my life. I can't let the SOB rule my life forever. So I've made a few decisions."
"And they would be.?"
"I'm going back to work. I've missed the team and I've missed my work. I love what I do and I hate not getting that feeling of accomplishment when you've just solved a case." "Well how about if I told you I've made a decision too?"
"You're joking?"
"No, I can walk on my leg now I don't need the crutches and I feel alright in myself. I don't see why Grissom wouldn't be pleased to see us both back."
Sara threaded her arms round Nick's back. "I feel so alive. and I haven't felt like that in a while."
"I feel tired." He smiled at Sara and she gave him a mock look of distaste. "Sheesh I was joking you know?"
"Shhh man I came out here for some solitude and to watch the sunrise. Now you either shut up and watch or leave." She laughed at his OTT look of hurt and punched him lightly in the stomach.
"Hey hey ok I'll shut up just chill,"
By now the sunrise had nearly completely risen above the horizon and the pair both turned to watch the finale of the dawn's matinee. It felt good just watching it, just to be a part of its audience. And it was just so powerful that it freed Nick of all his bad feelings that he'd kept locked up for a while. He felt good, no scratch that he felt amazing. He turned round to face his friend who was too, enthralled by the beauty of the spectacle in front of them. She felt the presence of his eyes on her face and she turned to face him slowly, savouring the moment. They kept eye contact for what seemed an eternity and she moved closer to him, the need to kiss him filling up inside her. She closed her eyes slowly and moved in closer once more. He moved in closer to the inevitable embrace and then..
I know it's a cliffhanger but I haven't done one for a few chapters so I thought this was a nice one to leave you hanging on! I'd love your feedback and reviews would be great! I thought it'd give the Nick/Sara shippers something to think about. Anyway ladies and gentlemen until next time . =) XX