All I Left Behind - Chapter 5
Written by: Crimson Haze
...then there came the terrible silence. She was surrounded by it, enveloped
within it. She attempted to cry out for help, or even to take in the comfort of hearing
her own voice...but she had no such luck. The sensation of being gagged overtook the
young girl as she continued to struggle to scream.
The darkness that shrouded her wasn't aiding to ease the girl's highly paniced
state of mind. The feeling of being completely weightless and floating about didn't help
the situation either. There was nothing. Only emptiness that was driving the frightened
sorceress into insanity.
She could feel wetness upon her cheeks. She was crying...how long had she been in
this place? There was no beginning or end to the black void she happened to be entombed
within. The idea of her own death crossed her thoughts as she began to cease her seemingly
fruitless attempts to ward of the silence.
...could she have died?
"No. My child, you have not passed on.", a voice slashed through the silence with
one swift gesture. A warm, golden light suddenly wrapped about Lina's shivering form after
the mysterious voice had banished the silence into oblivion.
The warmth that spread over her body reminded her of a mother's touch. One to calm
and comfort. To try and ease any discomfort that the child might have. Lina welcomed the
familiar sensation, her body instantly relaxing as she did so. She still could not find
her voice, so within her mind she pleaded for the voice to continue soothe her.
"Yes, that is what I am here for. My little chaotic one, what have you gotten yourself
into? I knew that one day one side of your personality would overtake the other. Although,
I had hoped you would have acted more, how should I put this, maturely. So, My child, I am
going to give you a chance to redeem yourself. I know that if you knew the true consequences
of your actions, you would not have acted as you did."
Lina felt the warmth of the light grow in intensity, causing her to shudder in response.
The sensation left the young sorceress with the distinct understanding to take great heed in
what the voice was saying.
"I will place you back to the evening of the girl's murder. You will have to correct the
great wrong you have commited. You will also have all of the memories of what you experienced
after sending that poor girl to her rather brutal death. You will even remember -our- little
encounter, My child."
The warmth and the light began to recede from the girl. Leaving her cold and vulnerable.
As she opened her eyes, she was greeted with the sight of a ethereal woman of shimmering gold.
A smile graced the woman's lips as she watched Lina's expression of complete awe. Her eyes
reflecting everything and nothing, a mixture of swirling ebony and gold.
"We will meet again, My child. But, when that day comes, you will be with me for all
eternity. How I do love you, My chaotic one. You have always been one of my favorite children.
I have enjoyed our little meeting... Good-bye, My child."
And with those words, Lina disappeared from the great Sea of Chaos. Leaving a rather
amused L-sama behind. A smile still upon her lips as she stared at the great expanse that was
her home.
"My child, other than this small task I have sent you out to complete, there is one ordeal
you must face. That of which, is love. I did not mention that you were not the only one who
should keep their memories of the events that followed your ill-fated decision. A certain
Mazoku Priest will also have the honor of remembering everything. I do wonder how he shall
act when all is said and done..."
~~~*~~~*~~~
As soon as she had departed from the Sea of Chaos, she suddenly found herself standing
before a cheerful young girl who eerily looked like Lina herself. She stared at the girl,
seemingly in a daze...her eyes glazing over as the memories hit her head on. This was the
girl she killed. She had thrown this girl to a group of blood thirsty mazoku...and for what?
To save herself from a few battles that she could easily win? How foolish of her to have done
such a thing. She suddenly despised herself through and through. The sight of the actress was
too much. She wasn't going to make the same mistake again, but she would have to live with
the truth that she was capable of becoming what she so despised. And she was not going to
forget that. Never.
She swiftly raised one gloved hand and firmly placed it over the girl's mouth, instantly
quieting her. Her gaze steely and quite stern. "I am sure that you have many, many reasons
for admiring me, but they are wasted on a sad and pathetic individual. I am not worthy of
such idolization from such a talented young girl as yourself. Please, do not waste your life
trying to be someone that you are not."
Without saying another word, she stepped back from the girl, turning about on her heels
and headed towards the inn. This time, she was not going to run from her enemy. Her
expression suddenly becoming sour as she remembered herself running away from her life like
a dog with it's tail tucked between it's legs. She was going to give the mazoku a beating that
would simply shock the rest of those whom might wish to follow in their footsteps.
Ignoring the insistant cries of the young actress who wished to know why she would say
such a thing, she vanished into the large crowd of afternoon shoppers, her thoughts on one
soul objective. Set everything right...but, with that thought, she was suddenly reminded of
one incidence that happened between herself and a certain mazoku. The only good that had
come from her horrible crime. Xellos...why had he behaved as he did? He couldn't have
possibly cared for her... But, she would never recover from that kiss. His touches that could
melt her down to the core. She knew that she could never experience those things again and
that made her heart ache with longing that she had never known. But, maybe this was just one
of her punishments for killing the young girl.
As she placed her hand over her heart and pushed back the tears that threatened to
spill down her cheeks. She had to go on...no matter how much sorrow she felt. And with that,
she raised her eyes upward and sent a silent thank you to the Mother of Us All. She had been
given the chance to redeem herself and she was not going to squander such an opportunity.
~~~~~~~
Alrighty. After a -very- long break
from being burnt out and quite
frustrated with everything in my life,
I am back and ready to finish up this
puppy! :D I am planning on writing two
new fics after I finish this one.
I am going to be doing Slayers!
Shakespearean style! It may take me
awhile, but they will be worth it! I plan
to write Chp. 6 tomorrow after school!
Sorry, once again, for delaying this fic
for so long. Bai bai!
-Crimson Haze
Written by: Crimson Haze
...then there came the terrible silence. She was surrounded by it, enveloped
within it. She attempted to cry out for help, or even to take in the comfort of hearing
her own voice...but she had no such luck. The sensation of being gagged overtook the
young girl as she continued to struggle to scream.
The darkness that shrouded her wasn't aiding to ease the girl's highly paniced
state of mind. The feeling of being completely weightless and floating about didn't help
the situation either. There was nothing. Only emptiness that was driving the frightened
sorceress into insanity.
She could feel wetness upon her cheeks. She was crying...how long had she been in
this place? There was no beginning or end to the black void she happened to be entombed
within. The idea of her own death crossed her thoughts as she began to cease her seemingly
fruitless attempts to ward of the silence.
...could she have died?
"No. My child, you have not passed on.", a voice slashed through the silence with
one swift gesture. A warm, golden light suddenly wrapped about Lina's shivering form after
the mysterious voice had banished the silence into oblivion.
The warmth that spread over her body reminded her of a mother's touch. One to calm
and comfort. To try and ease any discomfort that the child might have. Lina welcomed the
familiar sensation, her body instantly relaxing as she did so. She still could not find
her voice, so within her mind she pleaded for the voice to continue soothe her.
"Yes, that is what I am here for. My little chaotic one, what have you gotten yourself
into? I knew that one day one side of your personality would overtake the other. Although,
I had hoped you would have acted more, how should I put this, maturely. So, My child, I am
going to give you a chance to redeem yourself. I know that if you knew the true consequences
of your actions, you would not have acted as you did."
Lina felt the warmth of the light grow in intensity, causing her to shudder in response.
The sensation left the young sorceress with the distinct understanding to take great heed in
what the voice was saying.
"I will place you back to the evening of the girl's murder. You will have to correct the
great wrong you have commited. You will also have all of the memories of what you experienced
after sending that poor girl to her rather brutal death. You will even remember -our- little
encounter, My child."
The warmth and the light began to recede from the girl. Leaving her cold and vulnerable.
As she opened her eyes, she was greeted with the sight of a ethereal woman of shimmering gold.
A smile graced the woman's lips as she watched Lina's expression of complete awe. Her eyes
reflecting everything and nothing, a mixture of swirling ebony and gold.
"We will meet again, My child. But, when that day comes, you will be with me for all
eternity. How I do love you, My chaotic one. You have always been one of my favorite children.
I have enjoyed our little meeting... Good-bye, My child."
And with those words, Lina disappeared from the great Sea of Chaos. Leaving a rather
amused L-sama behind. A smile still upon her lips as she stared at the great expanse that was
her home.
"My child, other than this small task I have sent you out to complete, there is one ordeal
you must face. That of which, is love. I did not mention that you were not the only one who
should keep their memories of the events that followed your ill-fated decision. A certain
Mazoku Priest will also have the honor of remembering everything. I do wonder how he shall
act when all is said and done..."
~~~*~~~*~~~
As soon as she had departed from the Sea of Chaos, she suddenly found herself standing
before a cheerful young girl who eerily looked like Lina herself. She stared at the girl,
seemingly in a daze...her eyes glazing over as the memories hit her head on. This was the
girl she killed. She had thrown this girl to a group of blood thirsty mazoku...and for what?
To save herself from a few battles that she could easily win? How foolish of her to have done
such a thing. She suddenly despised herself through and through. The sight of the actress was
too much. She wasn't going to make the same mistake again, but she would have to live with
the truth that she was capable of becoming what she so despised. And she was not going to
forget that. Never.
She swiftly raised one gloved hand and firmly placed it over the girl's mouth, instantly
quieting her. Her gaze steely and quite stern. "I am sure that you have many, many reasons
for admiring me, but they are wasted on a sad and pathetic individual. I am not worthy of
such idolization from such a talented young girl as yourself. Please, do not waste your life
trying to be someone that you are not."
Without saying another word, she stepped back from the girl, turning about on her heels
and headed towards the inn. This time, she was not going to run from her enemy. Her
expression suddenly becoming sour as she remembered herself running away from her life like
a dog with it's tail tucked between it's legs. She was going to give the mazoku a beating that
would simply shock the rest of those whom might wish to follow in their footsteps.
Ignoring the insistant cries of the young actress who wished to know why she would say
such a thing, she vanished into the large crowd of afternoon shoppers, her thoughts on one
soul objective. Set everything right...but, with that thought, she was suddenly reminded of
one incidence that happened between herself and a certain mazoku. The only good that had
come from her horrible crime. Xellos...why had he behaved as he did? He couldn't have
possibly cared for her... But, she would never recover from that kiss. His touches that could
melt her down to the core. She knew that she could never experience those things again and
that made her heart ache with longing that she had never known. But, maybe this was just one
of her punishments for killing the young girl.
As she placed her hand over her heart and pushed back the tears that threatened to
spill down her cheeks. She had to go on...no matter how much sorrow she felt. And with that,
she raised her eyes upward and sent a silent thank you to the Mother of Us All. She had been
given the chance to redeem herself and she was not going to squander such an opportunity.
~~~~~~~
Alrighty. After a -very- long break
from being burnt out and quite
frustrated with everything in my life,
I am back and ready to finish up this
puppy! :D I am planning on writing two
new fics after I finish this one.
I am going to be doing Slayers!
Shakespearean style! It may take me
awhile, but they will be worth it! I plan
to write Chp. 6 tomorrow after school!
Sorry, once again, for delaying this fic
for so long. Bai bai!
-Crimson Haze