This Isn't Me
By
Natalie Elizabeth
Chapter 2
Spike parked his car outside his apartment and watched Buffy slowly get out of the car. She hadn't said a word on the way over and he was worried, that girl never seemed to shut up when he was in Sunnydale. The girl standing before him wasn't Buffy she was a shell of what Buffy used to be.
"Where to now" she asked nervously
Spike motioned to the apartment in front of them then began to fumble with his keys.
Buffy narrowed her eyes at him "You have keys to this place"
Spike looked up and smiled at her "Yeah don't go much for the stealing these days"
Buffy huffed "Yeah right I'll believe that when I see it"
Spikes smile got even bigger. This was the Buffy he remembered the sarcastic Buffy.
Spike opened the door and let Buffy walk in. Buffy was shocked by her surroundings. The outside of the apartment looked ok but inside was lavishly decked out.
"Wow" Buffy whispered "You couldn't have stolen all of this right"
"Nope I bought, it bloody expensive to, but hey its what I like" he said coming up behind her. "Sit down I'll get my first aid kit for that cut on your head ok"
Buffy nodded and sat down and waited for Spike to return. She was impressed with his place, thick carpets, dark wooden furniture, and drawings on the wall. Buffy took a closer look and realized that they were of Drusilla and Angel. Buffy huffed, family portraits, kinda human like, defiantly different to where most vampires live.
"Ok luv" Spike said coming back into the room with the first aid kit. "Lets get a look at you"
Buffy patiently waited for Spike to clean her head. When he just sat there Buffy gave Spike a look.
"What"
"Oh nothing its just, well, there's blood all over your face and hair and clothes, you look kinda dirty as well"
"So" Buffy asked hugging her body in and looking down feeling rather self- conscious.
"Don't take this the wrong way luv, but umm would you like to take a shower"
"What" she asked looking up.
"Well it might make you feel a bit better you know get some clean clothes on maybe, its just down the hall there" Spike said pointing in the direction.
"Umm ok" she said standing up. "But what's going to happen after I get out of the shower"
Spike looked at her strangely "Well you get dressed, I'll loan you some of my clothes, might not fit but it will do right. Then I'll fix you up make sure you're all patched up and then you can go get a good nights rest"
"Here?" she asked
"Well your not bloody going home that's for sure, not after what I saw tonight. Have a shower you will feel better"
Buffy nodded then headed in the direction of the shower.
Spike shook his head, who would have thought that William the bloody would be looking after the slayer.
Buffy walked into the bathroom and locked the door. Buffy looked around the bathroom and a small smile came to her lips when she saw the mirror. It probably came with the apartment but it was still funny that a vampire had a mirror. Buffy walked over to the mirror and her smile faded. What she saw was a frail looking girl. Skinny and pale with bags under her eyes and to top it off brown hair. Brown straggly waist length hair and god how she hated it. Riley said he loved it and she was never to change it. And that wasn't a suggestion that was a threat. Buffy began to take off her clothes and was once again disgusted with her self. Her body was littered with bruises cuts and scars; none of them made by a vampire.
As Buffy stepped into the shower she winced in pain as the hot water seeped into her cuts. Buffy slowly fell to the floor in a fit of tears. She watched as the water mingled with the dirt, her blood and tears and wished she could be that water, so she could disappear down the drain.
Meanwhile Spike had gone off in search of some clean clothes for Buffy. She needed to sleep so it didn't really matter what she wore. Spike pulled out a black t- shirt and a matching pair of boxer shorts. He found a pair of sweat pants in the bottom of one of his drawers, and decided she could wear them tomorrow if she needed them. Spike grabbed the shirt and shorts and headed to the bathroom. He was about to knock on the door when he heard crying. He put his ear to the door and the crying was loud and clear to him.
"Slayer are you alright"
Spike listened for a reply but all he heard was more crying.
"Buffy are you ok in there"
Buffy was still sitting on the floor crying when she heard Spike.
"Umm yeah I am alright," she said standing up trying to clear away her tears.
"Are you sure luv"
"Yeah yeah I'm fine" she quickly replied "Ill be out in minute".
"Ok if you're sure" Spike said unconvinced "There's some stuff for you to change into outside the door ok"
"Ok bye" she said trying to get rid of him.
Spike put the clothes down in front of the door then went back into his room to change.
Buffy quickly got out of the shower and wrapped a towel around her. She quickly put her underwear back on then opened the door slightly. Seeing the black bundle on the floor she quickly scooped them up and went back into the bathroom. Buffy quickly changed then left the bathroom in search of Spike.
"Spike where are you" she called
"I'm in my room, get the first aid kit and ill fix you up in here"
Buffy walked into the lounge room grabbed the kit and headed off in the direction she heard Spikes voice. She knocked on a closed door and waited.
"Come in luv"
Buffy walked in and saw Spike sitting on a king size bed wearing the exact same outfit.
"Hey we match," she said giving him a small smile.
"Yeah we do. Now come on luv lets get a look at that cut ok" Spike patted the space beside him and waited for Buffy to walk over.
Buffy awkwardly sat beside him and handed over the first aid kit. Spike set to work cleaning up the cut on her head, which had started bleeding again. After applying gaze and tape to her head he began to look at her curiously.
"What?" she asked.
Spike shock his head "Nothing its just, umm are you bleeding anywhere else" Spikes face suddenly slipped into his demon face then back to human.
Buffy shook her head.
"Are you sure" he asked trying to keep his demon under control.
Buffy turned her body away from Spike.
"You are aren't you luv, you cant lie to me I can smell it"
Spike turned Buffys body to him and began to look over her. He saw a jagged scratch peeking out from the sleeve of her right arm. Spike pulled the sleeve up further and saw the scratch continued, parts of it had spilt and were bleeding. Spike looked up at Buffy but she wouldn't look at him.
"How did you get this luv, was it a vampire"
Buffy just shook her head. Spike looked over at Buffys left arm and saw a multitude of tiny scratches covering it. Spike looked over her body and saw a deep wound peaking out of the boxers. He looked at her again for some answers and noticed scratches on her neck.
"Oh god pet what happened to you'
Buffy didn't answer.
"They are all over your body aren't they" he asked
Buffy nodded with tears starting to appear in her eyes.
"Buffy can I see, I need to stop the blood its really affecting me"
Buffy body began to shake
"Its ok pet, I promise I wont hurt you I just need to fix it ok"
Spike took the bottom of her shirt and began to lift it up. Spike was shocked with what he saw. The jagged scratch ran all the way up her arm just below her throat then down her abdomen. Spike pulled the rest of the shirt off and then examined her back. It was just as bad at the back.
"Did I umm get kicked in the ribs?" Buffy asked nervously noticing a new bruise.
Spike nodded "I couldn't get to you fast enough"
Spike began to clean some of the cuts that had opened and began to bandage them.
"Do you wanna tell me how this happened"
"He, hes my husband, and I disobeyed him" She stammered
"What" Spike yelled "That bastard did this to you, why"
"I disobeyed him"
"So he beats you then"
Buffy nodded "Hes my husband he has the right"
"No he doesn't, how long has this been happening, why didn't you leave him, go to your mum"
"Its only been happening the last couple of years but not this bad. I tried to get away, I really did. He found me and beat t me for it, told me I was an ungrateful wife, that I couldn't get anyone better cause no one would want a freak like me and hes right."
"Slayer how could you let him do this to you, what did your mum say"
"She's dead" she stammered with tears now freely falling.
Spikes eyes bulged "I'm sorry, when?"
"About a year after you left, I had no one left"
"Is that why you married the wanker"
Buffy nodded
"I don't understand why did he do this to you, what did he cut you with"
"I knife I guess, it was blunt, he said I wanted it"
"Yeah cause you really wanted this"
"I tried to call Angel" she stammered
"So he did this to you, over a phone call"
Buffy nodded "He said I was having an affair, that I was obsessed with vampires and if I wanted rough sex he was going to give it to me"
"Did he rape you"
"No hes my husband he said its isn't"
"How many times did he do this love"
"Hes my husband, when ever he wants"
Spike stood up and shouted "The bloody bastard, I'll kill him"
"No Spike you cant, just leave it please"
Spike sat down next to Buffy "Are you alright"
Buffy nodded "I just want to get some sleep ok"
"Ok put your shirt back on and lay down"
Buffy cringed "So I am guessing you want payment for looking after me then"
Spike looked at her with wide eyes "No pet I don't" he said angrily. "What has this guy done to you, I want you to lay down to get some sleep, nothing else"
"But Riley says"
"I don't care what the wanker says you don't need to do that ok. Riley is wrong about everything. Just because he's your husband it doesn't give him the right to do what he wants, you're the slayer not some freak. Any guy would die for you "
Buffy looked up at Spike embarrassed. It had been awhile since anyone had said something nice about her.
"I'll see you in the morning"
TBC
By
Natalie Elizabeth
Chapter 2
Spike parked his car outside his apartment and watched Buffy slowly get out of the car. She hadn't said a word on the way over and he was worried, that girl never seemed to shut up when he was in Sunnydale. The girl standing before him wasn't Buffy she was a shell of what Buffy used to be.
"Where to now" she asked nervously
Spike motioned to the apartment in front of them then began to fumble with his keys.
Buffy narrowed her eyes at him "You have keys to this place"
Spike looked up and smiled at her "Yeah don't go much for the stealing these days"
Buffy huffed "Yeah right I'll believe that when I see it"
Spikes smile got even bigger. This was the Buffy he remembered the sarcastic Buffy.
Spike opened the door and let Buffy walk in. Buffy was shocked by her surroundings. The outside of the apartment looked ok but inside was lavishly decked out.
"Wow" Buffy whispered "You couldn't have stolen all of this right"
"Nope I bought, it bloody expensive to, but hey its what I like" he said coming up behind her. "Sit down I'll get my first aid kit for that cut on your head ok"
Buffy nodded and sat down and waited for Spike to return. She was impressed with his place, thick carpets, dark wooden furniture, and drawings on the wall. Buffy took a closer look and realized that they were of Drusilla and Angel. Buffy huffed, family portraits, kinda human like, defiantly different to where most vampires live.
"Ok luv" Spike said coming back into the room with the first aid kit. "Lets get a look at you"
Buffy patiently waited for Spike to clean her head. When he just sat there Buffy gave Spike a look.
"What"
"Oh nothing its just, well, there's blood all over your face and hair and clothes, you look kinda dirty as well"
"So" Buffy asked hugging her body in and looking down feeling rather self- conscious.
"Don't take this the wrong way luv, but umm would you like to take a shower"
"What" she asked looking up.
"Well it might make you feel a bit better you know get some clean clothes on maybe, its just down the hall there" Spike said pointing in the direction.
"Umm ok" she said standing up. "But what's going to happen after I get out of the shower"
Spike looked at her strangely "Well you get dressed, I'll loan you some of my clothes, might not fit but it will do right. Then I'll fix you up make sure you're all patched up and then you can go get a good nights rest"
"Here?" she asked
"Well your not bloody going home that's for sure, not after what I saw tonight. Have a shower you will feel better"
Buffy nodded then headed in the direction of the shower.
Spike shook his head, who would have thought that William the bloody would be looking after the slayer.
Buffy walked into the bathroom and locked the door. Buffy looked around the bathroom and a small smile came to her lips when she saw the mirror. It probably came with the apartment but it was still funny that a vampire had a mirror. Buffy walked over to the mirror and her smile faded. What she saw was a frail looking girl. Skinny and pale with bags under her eyes and to top it off brown hair. Brown straggly waist length hair and god how she hated it. Riley said he loved it and she was never to change it. And that wasn't a suggestion that was a threat. Buffy began to take off her clothes and was once again disgusted with her self. Her body was littered with bruises cuts and scars; none of them made by a vampire.
As Buffy stepped into the shower she winced in pain as the hot water seeped into her cuts. Buffy slowly fell to the floor in a fit of tears. She watched as the water mingled with the dirt, her blood and tears and wished she could be that water, so she could disappear down the drain.
Meanwhile Spike had gone off in search of some clean clothes for Buffy. She needed to sleep so it didn't really matter what she wore. Spike pulled out a black t- shirt and a matching pair of boxer shorts. He found a pair of sweat pants in the bottom of one of his drawers, and decided she could wear them tomorrow if she needed them. Spike grabbed the shirt and shorts and headed to the bathroom. He was about to knock on the door when he heard crying. He put his ear to the door and the crying was loud and clear to him.
"Slayer are you alright"
Spike listened for a reply but all he heard was more crying.
"Buffy are you ok in there"
Buffy was still sitting on the floor crying when she heard Spike.
"Umm yeah I am alright," she said standing up trying to clear away her tears.
"Are you sure luv"
"Yeah yeah I'm fine" she quickly replied "Ill be out in minute".
"Ok if you're sure" Spike said unconvinced "There's some stuff for you to change into outside the door ok"
"Ok bye" she said trying to get rid of him.
Spike put the clothes down in front of the door then went back into his room to change.
Buffy quickly got out of the shower and wrapped a towel around her. She quickly put her underwear back on then opened the door slightly. Seeing the black bundle on the floor she quickly scooped them up and went back into the bathroom. Buffy quickly changed then left the bathroom in search of Spike.
"Spike where are you" she called
"I'm in my room, get the first aid kit and ill fix you up in here"
Buffy walked into the lounge room grabbed the kit and headed off in the direction she heard Spikes voice. She knocked on a closed door and waited.
"Come in luv"
Buffy walked in and saw Spike sitting on a king size bed wearing the exact same outfit.
"Hey we match," she said giving him a small smile.
"Yeah we do. Now come on luv lets get a look at that cut ok" Spike patted the space beside him and waited for Buffy to walk over.
Buffy awkwardly sat beside him and handed over the first aid kit. Spike set to work cleaning up the cut on her head, which had started bleeding again. After applying gaze and tape to her head he began to look at her curiously.
"What?" she asked.
Spike shock his head "Nothing its just, umm are you bleeding anywhere else" Spikes face suddenly slipped into his demon face then back to human.
Buffy shook her head.
"Are you sure" he asked trying to keep his demon under control.
Buffy turned her body away from Spike.
"You are aren't you luv, you cant lie to me I can smell it"
Spike turned Buffys body to him and began to look over her. He saw a jagged scratch peeking out from the sleeve of her right arm. Spike pulled the sleeve up further and saw the scratch continued, parts of it had spilt and were bleeding. Spike looked up at Buffy but she wouldn't look at him.
"How did you get this luv, was it a vampire"
Buffy just shook her head. Spike looked over at Buffys left arm and saw a multitude of tiny scratches covering it. Spike looked over her body and saw a deep wound peaking out of the boxers. He looked at her again for some answers and noticed scratches on her neck.
"Oh god pet what happened to you'
Buffy didn't answer.
"They are all over your body aren't they" he asked
Buffy nodded with tears starting to appear in her eyes.
"Buffy can I see, I need to stop the blood its really affecting me"
Buffy body began to shake
"Its ok pet, I promise I wont hurt you I just need to fix it ok"
Spike took the bottom of her shirt and began to lift it up. Spike was shocked with what he saw. The jagged scratch ran all the way up her arm just below her throat then down her abdomen. Spike pulled the rest of the shirt off and then examined her back. It was just as bad at the back.
"Did I umm get kicked in the ribs?" Buffy asked nervously noticing a new bruise.
Spike nodded "I couldn't get to you fast enough"
Spike began to clean some of the cuts that had opened and began to bandage them.
"Do you wanna tell me how this happened"
"He, hes my husband, and I disobeyed him" She stammered
"What" Spike yelled "That bastard did this to you, why"
"I disobeyed him"
"So he beats you then"
Buffy nodded "Hes my husband he has the right"
"No he doesn't, how long has this been happening, why didn't you leave him, go to your mum"
"Its only been happening the last couple of years but not this bad. I tried to get away, I really did. He found me and beat t me for it, told me I was an ungrateful wife, that I couldn't get anyone better cause no one would want a freak like me and hes right."
"Slayer how could you let him do this to you, what did your mum say"
"She's dead" she stammered with tears now freely falling.
Spikes eyes bulged "I'm sorry, when?"
"About a year after you left, I had no one left"
"Is that why you married the wanker"
Buffy nodded
"I don't understand why did he do this to you, what did he cut you with"
"I knife I guess, it was blunt, he said I wanted it"
"Yeah cause you really wanted this"
"I tried to call Angel" she stammered
"So he did this to you, over a phone call"
Buffy nodded "He said I was having an affair, that I was obsessed with vampires and if I wanted rough sex he was going to give it to me"
"Did he rape you"
"No hes my husband he said its isn't"
"How many times did he do this love"
"Hes my husband, when ever he wants"
Spike stood up and shouted "The bloody bastard, I'll kill him"
"No Spike you cant, just leave it please"
Spike sat down next to Buffy "Are you alright"
Buffy nodded "I just want to get some sleep ok"
"Ok put your shirt back on and lay down"
Buffy cringed "So I am guessing you want payment for looking after me then"
Spike looked at her with wide eyes "No pet I don't" he said angrily. "What has this guy done to you, I want you to lay down to get some sleep, nothing else"
"But Riley says"
"I don't care what the wanker says you don't need to do that ok. Riley is wrong about everything. Just because he's your husband it doesn't give him the right to do what he wants, you're the slayer not some freak. Any guy would die for you "
Buffy looked up at Spike embarrassed. It had been awhile since anyone had said something nice about her.
"I'll see you in the morning"
TBC