This Isn't Me
By
Natalie Elizabeth
Chapter 6
Buffy had just payed for all her purchases with Spikes money and was now making her way back to his house. Everything had gone ok on the Riley front. Buffy had made a few purchases for Spike to try make up for spending his money. As Buffy rounded the corner of the apartment complex she saw an old women sitting out the front of the apartment next to Spikes. Buffy smiled, it was a simple thing a women sitting outside her apartment but it was the small things that made this town seem really nice. Buffy walked past then stopped when the women said hello.
"Hello there dear are you new to here"
Buffy smiled "Yeah I am"
"Oh that's nice will you be staying long or just visiting"
"Well I am not to sure I was only going to be staying a few days, but I have been asked to stay for more"
"Well, I hope you do stay its nice here, please wont you take a seat" she said indicating the seat next to her. "So which apartment are you in"
Buffy pointed to Spikes and the womens smile grew.
"Oh your staying with William, hes such a lovely boy, its nice that hes got company".
Buffys brow furrowed she figured it was vamp central there every night, or at least a few floozies hanging around. "Doesn't he get a lot"
"No dear, you're the first I've seen, I really look out for him, although I think he thinks he looks after me," she said with a smile.
Realisation dawned on Buffy "Oh so your Mrs Weaver then, he told me about you its sweet that you guys look out for each other"
"Well we try, so are you his girlfriend" she inquired.
Buffy huffed "No I am just an old friend"
"Did you know him from Sunnydale?"
"Yeah I did, he told you about Sunnydale" she asked surprised.
"Yeah but it seemed to really upset him, I mean having your brother run off with your girlfriend"
Buffy looked confused, "Brother, Girlfriend".
"Surely you have seen the pictures on the wall"
"Oh Angel and Drusilla" that must have been the way he was able to explain it to the old women.
"Yeah that must have been really hard, did you know Angel and Drusilla well"
Buffy sighed "Yeah sorta, Angel was my boyfriend at the time he ran off with Drusilla, some boyfriend"
"Oh your Buffy then"
Buffy smiled "Yeah I am, how do you know, did he tell you about me" she asked surprised, why would spike talk about her.
"Oh yes, he said the two of you never got along, but I could tell it was one of those love/hate relationships"
"Yeah we loved to piss each other off" Buffy said smiling remembering the good old days when things were simple.
"Well its nice that you to are getting along now then, he really needs a friend. Well I better let you get your food inside, William's probably waiting"
"Umm ok it was nice talking to you," she said getting up.
"It was nice to have someone to talk to, so are you going to stay then"
Buffy turned around and smiled at the women. "Umm yeah I think I might it seems like a great town"
"Well good then I have to have you and William over one night for tea"
"That would be great, bye" Buffy turned and walked over to Spikes apartment and knocked on the door.
Spike walked over to the door knowing that it was Buffy, he could smell it was her. Opening the door a little Spike stood behind it so he wouldn't get caught by any of the suns raise. Buffy slowly opened the door and peaked in.
"Spike where are you"
"I am right behind the door luv"
Spike laughed when the Slayer jumped. She turned her head to look at him before coming all the way in and shutting the door.
"Getting soft Slayer cant even sense how close a vampire is to you"
"Yeah like you count" she scowled.
Spike frowned he thought she was just playing at not knowing he was right there. He was actually waiting for the door to come back and hit him in the face.
"You alright Slayer"
Buffy shivered then looked up at him "Umm yeah I am fine, why wouldn't I be"
Spike shrugged his shoulder then walked over to the kitchen. "Come on luv lets see what you bought then" Spike went to grab one of the bags but Buffy pulled back.
"Umm that's the one with womens stuff in it"
Spikes eyes bulged out of his head and Buffy laughed.
"You know underwear"
"Oh, umm ok" he said grabbing another bag, "Let see what you bought"
Buffy looked up at him shyly from one of the many bags she had been carrying. "I felt bad for spending you money so I bought some food that hopefully you would eat, I remembered that you sometimes eat"
Spike nodded
"Well I got these for breakfast" she said holding up a box of weta bix.
Spike looked up.
"Weta bix" he practically yelled. Spike reached over the table and grabbed them and stared at them.
"So I am guessing you like them and I am going to have to fight you for them"
Spikes ears pricked up, fight, in her condition she didn't look like she could fight and hadn't for awhile.
"Umm yeah fight me sure, so what else have you got" only seeing bread and milk in his bag.
"Well I got food that's going to give me lots of energy, like pasta and rice. I figured you could like mix them with blood, the idea grosses me out but it doesn't make me feel guilty for spending your money"
"Don't worry about it luv, we just need to get you back to your old self" Spike decided to test his theory and knocked a bag of rice off the table.
Buffy just stared as the package fell to the floor. Spike looked at her confused; her slayer reflexes should have caught it easily.
"What's wrong with you luv, even the whelp could have caught that"
"Nothing I didn't see it"
Yeah right Spike thought, she was staring right at it. "When was the last time you slayed, hell when was the last time you trained"
Buffy looked at the table and wouldn't look at him.
"God Buffy its been that long hasn't it. Damn it. Why didn't your friends say anything to you about it, don't they usually help you out. I know the whelp has a family, but what about Red or chirst what about your Watcher, what does he say about you not doing your sacred bloody duty"
"Well there in England so they don't really know"
"What do you bloody mean there in England"
Buffy flinched, Spike was now really yelling at her. "When I got married Giles didn't think he needed to train me anymore, that I had learnt all I had to so he went to England, Willow went with him to study magic" Buffy now began to shake.
"And I am guessing that wanker of a husband wouldn't let you right"
Buffy nodded then started bursting into tears. "Its not like I could anyway, I am so weak"
"Is that what the bastard told you" Spike grimaced.
"Well yeah sorta, the first time he hit me I tried to hit back but I couldn't, I thought I had been drugged but I couldn't find a puncture wound. I thought maybe he had put it in my food so I took every precaution but still nothing"
Tears were still running down Buffys face, and Spike himself started to feel sorry for her. She had gone through so much on her own.
"Stop crying luv"
Buffy shook her head.
"Do you miss not slaying"
Buffy nodded slowly.
"If you stop crying I'll make a deal with you"
Buffy looked up at him, what deal could he possibly be willing to make.
"If you want I'll help you get back to what you once were. I'll help you train then maybe even let you slay a few vamps who aren't me" he said with a small smile.
"Really" she asked hopefully
"As long as you stop bloody crying, I can't stand it"
Buffy smiled and wiped away her tears. "Ok" she said looking back in the bag. "Speaking of crying look what I bought" Buffy held out a mag of little marshmallows.
Spike grabbed the bag out of her hand and ripped the bag open. He then proceeded to chuck a handful into his mouth.
"Mmm, these are great Slayer. I never get to buy stuff shops usually close right on sundown. I usually have to rush in and out. Its either that or ask Mrs Weaver to get them for me. But that's not something a bachelor like my self is supposed to eat, you know me being the tough guy and all"
Buffy raised her eyebrows, yeah like Mrs Weaver thinks William is a tough guy, she thought.
"What else you got in that sack, Santa"
Buffy smiled. "Well you still smoke right, I mean I asked the girl at the counter and she seemed to recognise your description"
"Course I bloody smoke, out mind you"
Buffy reached into the bag and pulled out a small box and handed it to him.
"Well I hope these are the right ones then, the girl said there the ones you always buy"
Spike looked at the cigarettes. "Umm yeah they are, thanks, but you know you don't need to do all this for me"
"I know but I still feel like I owe you some how, oh yeah and she says to say hello by the way"
Spike looked up and smiled "Little red head"
Buffy nodded
"Yeah that's Jess, good little kid"
"Spike, she's like older than I am"
"Yeah well Slayer that's young compared to me. Umm you can put the food in one of the empty cupboards" Spike grabbed the milk and other perishables and put them in the fridge. "I am going to go watch some T.V. so if you wanna eat or what ever go ahead"
"You're just going to laze around all day," she asked following him into the lounge.
"Yes Slayer and I don't want to hear any crap about what Riley says if you wanna relax you can, now sit"
Buffy flopped on the couch and sighed.
"What's wrong now Slayer"
"That's exactly what's wrong you keep calling me Slayer, I'm not the Slayer, do I look like a Slayer, this isn't me" she said flinging her hair.
"Fine" he said standing up "You wanna look like the Slayer I remember, then we will make you the slayer, now come on" he said grabbing her arm and pulling her off the couch.
"Spike what are we doing" she said trying not to fall over as Spike pulled her along.
"We are going to make you the Slayer," he said walking into the bathroom.
Spike let go of her hand and opened a drawer and pulled a pair of scissors.
"We are going to cut my hair, no offence Spike but that's going to make much of a difference"
Spike smiled a big toothy grin. "Well Slayer its no secret that I'm not a true blonde"
"Really" Buffy asked shocked.
Spike laughed and then pulled out a huge container. "But this might do the trick to make you feel a little more like the slayer"
Buffy looked at the huge container of peroxide and smiled. "Alright lets do it"
~TBC~
Chapter 6
Buffy had just payed for all her purchases with Spikes money and was now making her way back to his house. Everything had gone ok on the Riley front. Buffy had made a few purchases for Spike to try make up for spending his money. As Buffy rounded the corner of the apartment complex she saw an old women sitting out the front of the apartment next to Spikes. Buffy smiled, it was a simple thing a women sitting outside her apartment but it was the small things that made this town seem really nice. Buffy walked past then stopped when the women said hello.
"Hello there dear are you new to here"
Buffy smiled "Yeah I am"
"Oh that's nice will you be staying long or just visiting"
"Well I am not to sure I was only going to be staying a few days, but I have been asked to stay for more"
"Well, I hope you do stay its nice here, please wont you take a seat" she said indicating the seat next to her. "So which apartment are you in"
Buffy pointed to Spikes and the womens smile grew.
"Oh your staying with William, hes such a lovely boy, its nice that hes got company".
Buffys brow furrowed she figured it was vamp central there every night, or at least a few floozies hanging around. "Doesn't he get a lot"
"No dear, you're the first I've seen, I really look out for him, although I think he thinks he looks after me," she said with a smile.
Realisation dawned on Buffy "Oh so your Mrs Weaver then, he told me about you its sweet that you guys look out for each other"
"Well we try, so are you his girlfriend" she inquired.
Buffy huffed "No I am just an old friend"
"Did you know him from Sunnydale?"
"Yeah I did, he told you about Sunnydale" she asked surprised.
"Yeah but it seemed to really upset him, I mean having your brother run off with your girlfriend"
Buffy looked confused, "Brother, Girlfriend".
"Surely you have seen the pictures on the wall"
"Oh Angel and Drusilla" that must have been the way he was able to explain it to the old women.
"Yeah that must have been really hard, did you know Angel and Drusilla well"
Buffy sighed "Yeah sorta, Angel was my boyfriend at the time he ran off with Drusilla, some boyfriend"
"Oh your Buffy then"
Buffy smiled "Yeah I am, how do you know, did he tell you about me" she asked surprised, why would spike talk about her.
"Oh yes, he said the two of you never got along, but I could tell it was one of those love/hate relationships"
"Yeah we loved to piss each other off" Buffy said smiling remembering the good old days when things were simple.
"Well its nice that you to are getting along now then, he really needs a friend. Well I better let you get your food inside, William's probably waiting"
"Umm ok it was nice talking to you," she said getting up.
"It was nice to have someone to talk to, so are you going to stay then"
Buffy turned around and smiled at the women. "Umm yeah I think I might it seems like a great town"
"Well good then I have to have you and William over one night for tea"
"That would be great, bye" Buffy turned and walked over to Spikes apartment and knocked on the door.
Spike walked over to the door knowing that it was Buffy, he could smell it was her. Opening the door a little Spike stood behind it so he wouldn't get caught by any of the suns raise. Buffy slowly opened the door and peaked in.
"Spike where are you"
"I am right behind the door luv"
Spike laughed when the Slayer jumped. She turned her head to look at him before coming all the way in and shutting the door.
"Getting soft Slayer cant even sense how close a vampire is to you"
"Yeah like you count" she scowled.
Spike frowned he thought she was just playing at not knowing he was right there. He was actually waiting for the door to come back and hit him in the face.
"You alright Slayer"
Buffy shivered then looked up at him "Umm yeah I am fine, why wouldn't I be"
Spike shrugged his shoulder then walked over to the kitchen. "Come on luv lets see what you bought then" Spike went to grab one of the bags but Buffy pulled back.
"Umm that's the one with womens stuff in it"
Spikes eyes bulged out of his head and Buffy laughed.
"You know underwear"
"Oh, umm ok" he said grabbing another bag, "Let see what you bought"
Buffy looked up at him shyly from one of the many bags she had been carrying. "I felt bad for spending you money so I bought some food that hopefully you would eat, I remembered that you sometimes eat"
Spike nodded
"Well I got these for breakfast" she said holding up a box of weta bix.
Spike looked up.
"Weta bix" he practically yelled. Spike reached over the table and grabbed them and stared at them.
"So I am guessing you like them and I am going to have to fight you for them"
Spikes ears pricked up, fight, in her condition she didn't look like she could fight and hadn't for awhile.
"Umm yeah fight me sure, so what else have you got" only seeing bread and milk in his bag.
"Well I got food that's going to give me lots of energy, like pasta and rice. I figured you could like mix them with blood, the idea grosses me out but it doesn't make me feel guilty for spending your money"
"Don't worry about it luv, we just need to get you back to your old self" Spike decided to test his theory and knocked a bag of rice off the table.
Buffy just stared as the package fell to the floor. Spike looked at her confused; her slayer reflexes should have caught it easily.
"What's wrong with you luv, even the whelp could have caught that"
"Nothing I didn't see it"
Yeah right Spike thought, she was staring right at it. "When was the last time you slayed, hell when was the last time you trained"
Buffy looked at the table and wouldn't look at him.
"God Buffy its been that long hasn't it. Damn it. Why didn't your friends say anything to you about it, don't they usually help you out. I know the whelp has a family, but what about Red or chirst what about your Watcher, what does he say about you not doing your sacred bloody duty"
"Well there in England so they don't really know"
"What do you bloody mean there in England"
Buffy flinched, Spike was now really yelling at her. "When I got married Giles didn't think he needed to train me anymore, that I had learnt all I had to so he went to England, Willow went with him to study magic" Buffy now began to shake.
"And I am guessing that wanker of a husband wouldn't let you right"
Buffy nodded then started bursting into tears. "Its not like I could anyway, I am so weak"
"Is that what the bastard told you" Spike grimaced.
"Well yeah sorta, the first time he hit me I tried to hit back but I couldn't, I thought I had been drugged but I couldn't find a puncture wound. I thought maybe he had put it in my food so I took every precaution but still nothing"
Tears were still running down Buffys face, and Spike himself started to feel sorry for her. She had gone through so much on her own.
"Stop crying luv"
Buffy shook her head.
"Do you miss not slaying"
Buffy nodded slowly.
"If you stop crying I'll make a deal with you"
Buffy looked up at him, what deal could he possibly be willing to make.
"If you want I'll help you get back to what you once were. I'll help you train then maybe even let you slay a few vamps who aren't me" he said with a small smile.
"Really" she asked hopefully
"As long as you stop bloody crying, I can't stand it"
Buffy smiled and wiped away her tears. "Ok" she said looking back in the bag. "Speaking of crying look what I bought" Buffy held out a mag of little marshmallows.
Spike grabbed the bag out of her hand and ripped the bag open. He then proceeded to chuck a handful into his mouth.
"Mmm, these are great Slayer. I never get to buy stuff shops usually close right on sundown. I usually have to rush in and out. Its either that or ask Mrs Weaver to get them for me. But that's not something a bachelor like my self is supposed to eat, you know me being the tough guy and all"
Buffy raised her eyebrows, yeah like Mrs Weaver thinks William is a tough guy, she thought.
"What else you got in that sack, Santa"
Buffy smiled. "Well you still smoke right, I mean I asked the girl at the counter and she seemed to recognise your description"
"Course I bloody smoke, out mind you"
Buffy reached into the bag and pulled out a small box and handed it to him.
"Well I hope these are the right ones then, the girl said there the ones you always buy"
Spike looked at the cigarettes. "Umm yeah they are, thanks, but you know you don't need to do all this for me"
"I know but I still feel like I owe you some how, oh yeah and she says to say hello by the way"
Spike looked up and smiled "Little red head"
Buffy nodded
"Yeah that's Jess, good little kid"
"Spike, she's like older than I am"
"Yeah well Slayer that's young compared to me. Umm you can put the food in one of the empty cupboards" Spike grabbed the milk and other perishables and put them in the fridge. "I am going to go watch some T.V. so if you wanna eat or what ever go ahead"
"You're just going to laze around all day," she asked following him into the lounge.
"Yes Slayer and I don't want to hear any crap about what Riley says if you wanna relax you can, now sit"
Buffy flopped on the couch and sighed.
"What's wrong now Slayer"
"That's exactly what's wrong you keep calling me Slayer, I'm not the Slayer, do I look like a Slayer, this isn't me" she said flinging her hair.
"Fine" he said standing up "You wanna look like the Slayer I remember, then we will make you the slayer, now come on" he said grabbing her arm and pulling her off the couch.
"Spike what are we doing" she said trying not to fall over as Spike pulled her along.
"We are going to make you the Slayer," he said walking into the bathroom.
Spike let go of her hand and opened a drawer and pulled a pair of scissors.
"We are going to cut my hair, no offence Spike but that's going to make much of a difference"
Spike smiled a big toothy grin. "Well Slayer its no secret that I'm not a true blonde"
"Really" Buffy asked shocked.
Spike laughed and then pulled out a huge container. "But this might do the trick to make you feel a little more like the slayer"
Buffy looked at the huge container of peroxide and smiled. "Alright lets do it"
~TBC~