This Isn't Me.
By
Natalie Elizabeth
Chapter 9
Spike turned and made his way back to the car. It was only when he reached the car that he realised that his arm was still around buffy. Spike jumped back from buffy with fear in his eyes.
"Ok god Buffy I am so sorry"
Buffy looked at him startled what the hell was he carrying on about.
"I am so stupid how could I be that stupid. I mean I just rescued you from an abusive husband and then I get rough with you showing off to some vampires"
Buffy raised her eyebrows at him.
Spike began to turn into a stuttering idiot. "No I didn't mean it like that, I kissed you to protect you. When I heard what they said I knew I had to protect you from those perverts. Kissing you made a claim on you in front of those wanker, oh god I am sorry. I'll understand if you wanna get away from me"
Spike saw Buffy raise her right arm and closed his eyes preparing for the pain about to hit his face. When he felt her arm around his neck, he thought at first that she was trying to strangle him but her other arm was now resting on his back. Spike opened his eyes and realised she was hugging him.
"Thank you" she whispered.
Buffy let go of Spike and got in the car. Spike stood there flabbergasted, and was shocked that he had even used the word, before finally coming back into reality and turned and got in the car. Driving along Spike could see Buffys nervousness.
"Spike about what those vampires said"
"I don't wanna know Slayer"
How could he not want to know she thought. "Ok I get it, its one of those, I don't want you to HAVE to tell me, I WANT you to WANT to tell me right, you know to prove that I do trust you"
Spike looked over at her "No Buffy I really don't want to know, I have heard enough tales from the Finn household. I already hate the wanker for my own reasons and now your giving me more and you say I cant kill him".
The pair sat in silence for a few minutes before Spike finally broke it.
"I am sorry that I kissed you luv"
Buffy rolled her eyes "Its no biggie, I mean its not as if you haven't done it before I was just a little surprised that's all"
Spike looked at her shocked "When have I kissed you before"
Buffy smiled "Don't you remember, when Willow put that spell on us to make us fall in love"
"Oh yeah, that sodden witch, but it wasn't to fall in love it was that we were to get married, there's a difference"
Buffy sighed "Yeah I know now that there's a difference"
"Hey, I thought willow did a forgetting spell on you"
Buffy had a twinkle in her eye "Nah I told her not to worry about it, it gave me more reasons to want to kill you sorry ass"
Spike nodded then a grin came to his face. "'So am I a better kisser than Angelus"
Buffy laughed "Hes like a million miles away but your still having a pissing contest with him"
"Well am I"
Buffy thought for a second before replying. "I don't really know, neither of you was better or worse, just different. I mean with Angel it was like he was always scared, you know kinda bad for a vampire to be making out with a Slayer. He was always hesitant, I guess the soul was weighing down on him. Now you there's a whole different thing, I am not sure if it was the spell or just you but you had a certainty with your kisses, you knew what you what you wanted to do so you did it, nothing held you back"
"Well see there you go, I am the better kisser"
"Yah if you say so Spike" Buffy smiled it had been awhile when she had been kissed with so much passion and feeling behind it. "So why didn't we kill the uglies then"
"Well I thought we would save them for tomorrow night, figure we do some training in the morning and that should at least get you ready for those wimps"
Buffy smiled. "Really I really get to train"
Spike shrugged "Well yeah if you want, I said I would get you back on your feet" Spike parked his car in the apartment block and opened his door. "Come on slayer we better go get some sleep big day tomorrow"
~TBC~
Chapter 9
Spike turned and made his way back to the car. It was only when he reached the car that he realised that his arm was still around buffy. Spike jumped back from buffy with fear in his eyes.
"Ok god Buffy I am so sorry"
Buffy looked at him startled what the hell was he carrying on about.
"I am so stupid how could I be that stupid. I mean I just rescued you from an abusive husband and then I get rough with you showing off to some vampires"
Buffy raised her eyebrows at him.
Spike began to turn into a stuttering idiot. "No I didn't mean it like that, I kissed you to protect you. When I heard what they said I knew I had to protect you from those perverts. Kissing you made a claim on you in front of those wanker, oh god I am sorry. I'll understand if you wanna get away from me"
Spike saw Buffy raise her right arm and closed his eyes preparing for the pain about to hit his face. When he felt her arm around his neck, he thought at first that she was trying to strangle him but her other arm was now resting on his back. Spike opened his eyes and realised she was hugging him.
"Thank you" she whispered.
Buffy let go of Spike and got in the car. Spike stood there flabbergasted, and was shocked that he had even used the word, before finally coming back into reality and turned and got in the car. Driving along Spike could see Buffys nervousness.
"Spike about what those vampires said"
"I don't wanna know Slayer"
How could he not want to know she thought. "Ok I get it, its one of those, I don't want you to HAVE to tell me, I WANT you to WANT to tell me right, you know to prove that I do trust you"
Spike looked over at her "No Buffy I really don't want to know, I have heard enough tales from the Finn household. I already hate the wanker for my own reasons and now your giving me more and you say I cant kill him".
The pair sat in silence for a few minutes before Spike finally broke it.
"I am sorry that I kissed you luv"
Buffy rolled her eyes "Its no biggie, I mean its not as if you haven't done it before I was just a little surprised that's all"
Spike looked at her shocked "When have I kissed you before"
Buffy smiled "Don't you remember, when Willow put that spell on us to make us fall in love"
"Oh yeah, that sodden witch, but it wasn't to fall in love it was that we were to get married, there's a difference"
Buffy sighed "Yeah I know now that there's a difference"
"Hey, I thought willow did a forgetting spell on you"
Buffy had a twinkle in her eye "Nah I told her not to worry about it, it gave me more reasons to want to kill you sorry ass"
Spike nodded then a grin came to his face. "'So am I a better kisser than Angelus"
Buffy laughed "Hes like a million miles away but your still having a pissing contest with him"
"Well am I"
Buffy thought for a second before replying. "I don't really know, neither of you was better or worse, just different. I mean with Angel it was like he was always scared, you know kinda bad for a vampire to be making out with a Slayer. He was always hesitant, I guess the soul was weighing down on him. Now you there's a whole different thing, I am not sure if it was the spell or just you but you had a certainty with your kisses, you knew what you what you wanted to do so you did it, nothing held you back"
"Well see there you go, I am the better kisser"
"Yah if you say so Spike" Buffy smiled it had been awhile when she had been kissed with so much passion and feeling behind it. "So why didn't we kill the uglies then"
"Well I thought we would save them for tomorrow night, figure we do some training in the morning and that should at least get you ready for those wimps"
Buffy smiled. "Really I really get to train"
Spike shrugged "Well yeah if you want, I said I would get you back on your feet" Spike parked his car in the apartment block and opened his door. "Come on slayer we better go get some sleep big day tomorrow"
~TBC~