Notes : Here's the second part of the story! No new warnings, still Taito.
So without further ado..here's part two! (ooh that rhymed!)
Crazy for leaving you
Chapter Two
Tai stared around the lounge, everyone was in their sleeping bags, and by the looks of it, asleep. Tai turned on other side and smiled at the lump laying beside him. Matt was facing him, so Tai could see his face. Tai had always thought that Matt looked so peaceful as he slept. Almost like an angel. Tai smiled wider and reached over, gently stroking his lover's cheek. Matt's eyes opened and Tai was granted with the sight of the beautiful azure orbs. Matt smiled at him slightly. Still looking sleepy. Tai smiled back and leaned in, kissing his forehead. "How about we go in the other room Angel"? Tai asked. Matt nodded his agreement and moved to get out of his sleeping bag. "No, no Angel, stay right there". Tai whispered, he put his arms under his boyfriend and lifted him up, cradling him like a child. Matt rested his head against Tai's chest and closed his eyes. Tai smiled at Matt as he carried him into the hallway. Tai opened the door to his room and gently set Matt down on the bed. Matt's eyes opened as Tai shut the door. Tai then joined Matt on the bed. He helped Matt out of his sleeping bag quietly. He then kissed his lover passionately. Matt responded, allowing Tai entry. Tai's tongue gently explored Matt's mouth. Matt was suddenly aware of Tai's hand on the waistband on his pyjama trousers. "This is a very silly little top". Tai smirked, breaking away from the kiss, he straddled Matt and started to remove Matt's top. Unexpectedly, Matt pushed Tai off him so violently, Tai fell to the floor with a thump. "Matt, what are you doing"? Tai asked, looking hurt.
"I'm sorry Tai...I.I don't want this". Matt muttered. He turned his back to Tai and covered himself with the sleeping bag. Tai nodded, blinking back tears. He stood up, and left the room, closing the door gently behind him.
**
The morning sunlight shone through the curtains, Matt opened his eyes and stared around the room. For a second he had no idea where he was. Then the events of the previous night returned to his memory. The blood, the cut, pushing Tai off, the hurt look on his face. Matt sighed deeply and swung his legs over the bed. He rubbed his eyes and opened the bedroom door. He could hear sounds from the lounge, informing him that the others were all awake. "Hey Matt where were you"? Joe asked as Matt entered the lounge.
"Oh, um..". Matt began.
"He wasn't feeling too good last night, so I thought a proper night's sleep in a proper bed would do him good". Tai replied quickly. Matt nodded his thanks, Tai didn't look too happy. "Are you feeling better now?, want me to make you some toast"? Kari offered, looking concerned. "No thanks, I'm alright. If you don't mind I'll just get my things together and go". Matt muttered his reply. TK stepped towards his brother and rested his hand on his older brother's arm. "But Matt, we were gonna go somewhere, all together". He said with a cheerful smile.
"You can still do that without me Teek, besides I'm still feeling a little sick". Matt replied, managing a half smile. TK nodded, looking slightly hurt. Which was all Matt seemed to do these days, he thought, hurt people. "You sure you don't want to come"? Tai said, staring directly at this boyfriend. The look Tai gave him, made his comment seem more like a statement than a question. Matt chewed his lip for a second, the least he could do was go somewhere with Tai. He owed him an explaination as to what happened last night. The only trouble was, how to make up a convincing lie to cover up the real truth.
**
"Come on Ken!, you gotta be on my team". Davis whined. The group had decided that a day in the park playing soccer was a good an activity as any. "Why exactly"? Ken smirked.
"Cos you're ALMOST as good as me!, if we're on the same team we'll win"! Davis replied.
"You're forgetting me and Tai"! Sora interrupted.
"Tai's not playing". TK replied quietly.
"What?, Tai not playing soccer"? Davis' jaw dropped.
"He said he wanted to talk to Matt". Kari said, appearing behind TK. She motioned over to a wooden picnic bench where Tai and Matt were sitting.
**
"What happened last night Matt"? Tai asked, a concerned look distorted his usually cheerful face. "I don't know what you mean". Matt muttered, keeping his eyes fixed on the brown wood of the table top. "What happened Yamato". Tai repeated. His use of "Yamato" made Matt look up. He only ever called him "Yamato" when he was mad. "I'm sorry Tai". Matt said softly.
"Look at me Matt". Tai replied gently. Matt slowly lifted his gaze and met his boyfriend's dark brown eyes. Tai seemed to stare into him, as if he could see his soul. "I'm really worried about you, last night you seemed so off. I mean I know we've never tried going all the way before, but it felt so right. You seemed so scared, I could see the fear in your eyes Matt. I'm really worried".
"I'm alright". Matt replied quietly.
"Yeah and Joe is dating Izzy"! Tai said sarcastically, however, he remembered that Joe WAS in fact dating Izzy. He looked sheepish as he continued. "Ok, bad example. Please don't try to pacify me with lies Matt, you're not alright". Tai reached over and took Matt's hand. "I'm sorry, I just got shocked that's all. I wasn't expecting it, I panicked". Matt lied.
"Matt, has something happened to you"? Tai asked.
"What do you mean"? Matt replied a little too sharply. He felt his heart rate increase.
"You seemed so scared of being that intimate. Have you been...". Tai trailed off.
"God! No!, no, nothing like that". Matt said quickly. "You just took me by surprise that's all, I'll be ready next time". Matt managed another false smile. Tai smiled too.
"Good, so what are you doing tonight then"?
"Band practice, sorry".
"It's ok, mind if I tag along?, after all, I am your biggest fan". Tai smirked.
"Um.sure". Matt said uncertainly.
"Great!, now then, let's get to that game"!. Matt faked another smile. It was obvious that their little talk had pleased Tai and put his mind at rest. However, Matt knew that eventually he would run out of excuses for them to not have sex. He was too ashamed of his own body to let Tai see it. The scars from previous cuts were all over him and it would kill him for those to be revealed. Matt sighed as he followed his boyfriend, and slipped his happy face on.
**
"Not bad, nice drumming Akemi". Gendo said as the song came to an end.
"That's always been my favourite". Akemi replied.
"Wouldn't be anything to do with the long drum solo now would it"? Toshiki teased, jabbing Akemi in the ribs. The band took a break for a while to relax. Tai , who had been sat at the back of the hall watching, decided to take the chance to get a drink. There was a small vending machine just beside the entrance. Tai was just putting the change in when Gendo joined him. "Good tunes there". Tai said as he selected a soda.
"Thanks, we're really bringing this together, we expect to get some gigs pretty soon. Matt's guitar playing has really come on. Let's all hope he's stopped his other little habit". Gendo replied slipping his own change in the machine.
"His habit?, does Matt smoke"? Tai asked, shocked.
"Oh, sorry, I just assumed you knew about Matt. I don't know if I should say. There must be a reason he doesn't want you to know". Gendo noticed that Tai looked incredibly hurt at this last comment. He sighed. "Look just chill here for a second, I'll be right back". Tai watched as Gendo disappeared back into the practice hall. Seconds later he emerged with a large ring binder-type folder. He started to rifle through it. "No offence Gendo, but your music notes won't do much good". Tai said watching the frantic band member. "Shit!, it's not here!...oh.no wait! Here it is". Gendo grabbed a piece of pink writing paper. Tai recognised the paper from the pad that was beside the phone at Matt's house. Gendo folded the paper up and handed it to Tai. "Don't read it here". Gendo ordered. He grabbed his pen, which was clipped to the side of the file. He found a blank piece of paper and scribbled something down on it. He handed that to Tai as well. "Read this after you've read the pink one. If you read it before it won't make sense". Gendo explained.
Tai felt a lump of fear in his throat. There was something wrong. Something wrong with Matt.
**
"Well I guess I should go in". Matt muttered. He and Tai were stood outside the apartment Matt and Mr Ishida shared. "I'm a little bit late, Dad will wonder where I am".
"Alright Matt, well, how about you come to mine tomorrow?. Kari and TK have organised a trip to the digital world. I thought we could go too, see Agumon and Gabumon. What do ya say"?
"Sure Tai, can't think of anything I'd rather do". Matt smiled a bit. The thought of seeing Gabumon pleased him. "Alright, well I'll see you at my place at ten tomorrow. You better go in". Tai replied, pulling his boyfriend in for a hug. Matt hugged back weakly. Tai kissed him before watching Matt enter his flat. Tai sighed and felt for the notes in his pocket. They were still there, he guessed it was safe to read them now. Tai started on his way home, he decided to stop off at the park to read the notes. That way, he wouldn't be waylaid by his mum or Kari.
Tai seated himself on his favourite bench when he arrived at the park. He immediately dug into his pocket and withdrew the two notes. He laid Gendo's note beside him and opened up the pink note. He gasp as he started to read.
Dear Gendo, Hey, it's me. I'm sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but I did it again. Three times. I know it was wrong of me and everything, but I got so down last night, I didn't know what else to do. I don't even know why I do it. I guess for a while it makes me feel better. I've always thought people who cut themselves were a bit nutty, but I guess that makes me nutty. It's become a habit, and as I told you and the guys, I do it worse and worse everytime. The cuts get longer, deeper..more often. I don't know what sparked me to do it last night, I was having such a great time at Tai's house. That's where I am now, sat in Tai's bed writing this, it's about three am I think. I did it twice before I came and once when I was here. It was a close call, I was interrupted by Davis, I guess if he hadn't have needed the toilet, I'd have done it again. Please don't tell anyone this...especially not Tai, it'll hurt him so...I know he'd hate me for keeping this from him, but it's for the best. Sorry for doing it again.I just thought you should know.
Yamato (one sick dude)
Tai was in tears by the end of the letter. Shaking, he picked up Gendo's note.
Tai, I know that will have come as such a shock to you, we only found out in a truth game, we were sworn to secrecy, I left my number at the bottom if you want to call me. Gendo
Tai stuffed both the letters back in his pockets. He wiped his tears away. He stood up and made his way home..
**
"Hey Tai, mom says there's some..." Kari began as her brother entered the apartment. She was cut off however, as her brother stalked past her and slammed his bedroom door hard. Kari frowned. She made her way to Tai's door and knocked. "Go away". Came the reply.
"Tai what's wrong?, have you had a fight with Matt"? She asked, a worried look crossing her face. "What part of go away don't you understand? And don't say that name around me"! Tai yelled back. Kari gulped, she made her way to the phone and began to dial...
Notes: That's another chapter done!, next one coming soon!
Crazy for leaving you
Chapter Two
Tai stared around the lounge, everyone was in their sleeping bags, and by the looks of it, asleep. Tai turned on other side and smiled at the lump laying beside him. Matt was facing him, so Tai could see his face. Tai had always thought that Matt looked so peaceful as he slept. Almost like an angel. Tai smiled wider and reached over, gently stroking his lover's cheek. Matt's eyes opened and Tai was granted with the sight of the beautiful azure orbs. Matt smiled at him slightly. Still looking sleepy. Tai smiled back and leaned in, kissing his forehead. "How about we go in the other room Angel"? Tai asked. Matt nodded his agreement and moved to get out of his sleeping bag. "No, no Angel, stay right there". Tai whispered, he put his arms under his boyfriend and lifted him up, cradling him like a child. Matt rested his head against Tai's chest and closed his eyes. Tai smiled at Matt as he carried him into the hallway. Tai opened the door to his room and gently set Matt down on the bed. Matt's eyes opened as Tai shut the door. Tai then joined Matt on the bed. He helped Matt out of his sleeping bag quietly. He then kissed his lover passionately. Matt responded, allowing Tai entry. Tai's tongue gently explored Matt's mouth. Matt was suddenly aware of Tai's hand on the waistband on his pyjama trousers. "This is a very silly little top". Tai smirked, breaking away from the kiss, he straddled Matt and started to remove Matt's top. Unexpectedly, Matt pushed Tai off him so violently, Tai fell to the floor with a thump. "Matt, what are you doing"? Tai asked, looking hurt.
"I'm sorry Tai...I.I don't want this". Matt muttered. He turned his back to Tai and covered himself with the sleeping bag. Tai nodded, blinking back tears. He stood up, and left the room, closing the door gently behind him.
**
The morning sunlight shone through the curtains, Matt opened his eyes and stared around the room. For a second he had no idea where he was. Then the events of the previous night returned to his memory. The blood, the cut, pushing Tai off, the hurt look on his face. Matt sighed deeply and swung his legs over the bed. He rubbed his eyes and opened the bedroom door. He could hear sounds from the lounge, informing him that the others were all awake. "Hey Matt where were you"? Joe asked as Matt entered the lounge.
"Oh, um..". Matt began.
"He wasn't feeling too good last night, so I thought a proper night's sleep in a proper bed would do him good". Tai replied quickly. Matt nodded his thanks, Tai didn't look too happy. "Are you feeling better now?, want me to make you some toast"? Kari offered, looking concerned. "No thanks, I'm alright. If you don't mind I'll just get my things together and go". Matt muttered his reply. TK stepped towards his brother and rested his hand on his older brother's arm. "But Matt, we were gonna go somewhere, all together". He said with a cheerful smile.
"You can still do that without me Teek, besides I'm still feeling a little sick". Matt replied, managing a half smile. TK nodded, looking slightly hurt. Which was all Matt seemed to do these days, he thought, hurt people. "You sure you don't want to come"? Tai said, staring directly at this boyfriend. The look Tai gave him, made his comment seem more like a statement than a question. Matt chewed his lip for a second, the least he could do was go somewhere with Tai. He owed him an explaination as to what happened last night. The only trouble was, how to make up a convincing lie to cover up the real truth.
**
"Come on Ken!, you gotta be on my team". Davis whined. The group had decided that a day in the park playing soccer was a good an activity as any. "Why exactly"? Ken smirked.
"Cos you're ALMOST as good as me!, if we're on the same team we'll win"! Davis replied.
"You're forgetting me and Tai"! Sora interrupted.
"Tai's not playing". TK replied quietly.
"What?, Tai not playing soccer"? Davis' jaw dropped.
"He said he wanted to talk to Matt". Kari said, appearing behind TK. She motioned over to a wooden picnic bench where Tai and Matt were sitting.
**
"What happened last night Matt"? Tai asked, a concerned look distorted his usually cheerful face. "I don't know what you mean". Matt muttered, keeping his eyes fixed on the brown wood of the table top. "What happened Yamato". Tai repeated. His use of "Yamato" made Matt look up. He only ever called him "Yamato" when he was mad. "I'm sorry Tai". Matt said softly.
"Look at me Matt". Tai replied gently. Matt slowly lifted his gaze and met his boyfriend's dark brown eyes. Tai seemed to stare into him, as if he could see his soul. "I'm really worried about you, last night you seemed so off. I mean I know we've never tried going all the way before, but it felt so right. You seemed so scared, I could see the fear in your eyes Matt. I'm really worried".
"I'm alright". Matt replied quietly.
"Yeah and Joe is dating Izzy"! Tai said sarcastically, however, he remembered that Joe WAS in fact dating Izzy. He looked sheepish as he continued. "Ok, bad example. Please don't try to pacify me with lies Matt, you're not alright". Tai reached over and took Matt's hand. "I'm sorry, I just got shocked that's all. I wasn't expecting it, I panicked". Matt lied.
"Matt, has something happened to you"? Tai asked.
"What do you mean"? Matt replied a little too sharply. He felt his heart rate increase.
"You seemed so scared of being that intimate. Have you been...". Tai trailed off.
"God! No!, no, nothing like that". Matt said quickly. "You just took me by surprise that's all, I'll be ready next time". Matt managed another false smile. Tai smiled too.
"Good, so what are you doing tonight then"?
"Band practice, sorry".
"It's ok, mind if I tag along?, after all, I am your biggest fan". Tai smirked.
"Um.sure". Matt said uncertainly.
"Great!, now then, let's get to that game"!. Matt faked another smile. It was obvious that their little talk had pleased Tai and put his mind at rest. However, Matt knew that eventually he would run out of excuses for them to not have sex. He was too ashamed of his own body to let Tai see it. The scars from previous cuts were all over him and it would kill him for those to be revealed. Matt sighed as he followed his boyfriend, and slipped his happy face on.
**
"Not bad, nice drumming Akemi". Gendo said as the song came to an end.
"That's always been my favourite". Akemi replied.
"Wouldn't be anything to do with the long drum solo now would it"? Toshiki teased, jabbing Akemi in the ribs. The band took a break for a while to relax. Tai , who had been sat at the back of the hall watching, decided to take the chance to get a drink. There was a small vending machine just beside the entrance. Tai was just putting the change in when Gendo joined him. "Good tunes there". Tai said as he selected a soda.
"Thanks, we're really bringing this together, we expect to get some gigs pretty soon. Matt's guitar playing has really come on. Let's all hope he's stopped his other little habit". Gendo replied slipping his own change in the machine.
"His habit?, does Matt smoke"? Tai asked, shocked.
"Oh, sorry, I just assumed you knew about Matt. I don't know if I should say. There must be a reason he doesn't want you to know". Gendo noticed that Tai looked incredibly hurt at this last comment. He sighed. "Look just chill here for a second, I'll be right back". Tai watched as Gendo disappeared back into the practice hall. Seconds later he emerged with a large ring binder-type folder. He started to rifle through it. "No offence Gendo, but your music notes won't do much good". Tai said watching the frantic band member. "Shit!, it's not here!...oh.no wait! Here it is". Gendo grabbed a piece of pink writing paper. Tai recognised the paper from the pad that was beside the phone at Matt's house. Gendo folded the paper up and handed it to Tai. "Don't read it here". Gendo ordered. He grabbed his pen, which was clipped to the side of the file. He found a blank piece of paper and scribbled something down on it. He handed that to Tai as well. "Read this after you've read the pink one. If you read it before it won't make sense". Gendo explained.
Tai felt a lump of fear in his throat. There was something wrong. Something wrong with Matt.
**
"Well I guess I should go in". Matt muttered. He and Tai were stood outside the apartment Matt and Mr Ishida shared. "I'm a little bit late, Dad will wonder where I am".
"Alright Matt, well, how about you come to mine tomorrow?. Kari and TK have organised a trip to the digital world. I thought we could go too, see Agumon and Gabumon. What do ya say"?
"Sure Tai, can't think of anything I'd rather do". Matt smiled a bit. The thought of seeing Gabumon pleased him. "Alright, well I'll see you at my place at ten tomorrow. You better go in". Tai replied, pulling his boyfriend in for a hug. Matt hugged back weakly. Tai kissed him before watching Matt enter his flat. Tai sighed and felt for the notes in his pocket. They were still there, he guessed it was safe to read them now. Tai started on his way home, he decided to stop off at the park to read the notes. That way, he wouldn't be waylaid by his mum or Kari.
Tai seated himself on his favourite bench when he arrived at the park. He immediately dug into his pocket and withdrew the two notes. He laid Gendo's note beside him and opened up the pink note. He gasp as he started to read.
Dear Gendo, Hey, it's me. I'm sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but I did it again. Three times. I know it was wrong of me and everything, but I got so down last night, I didn't know what else to do. I don't even know why I do it. I guess for a while it makes me feel better. I've always thought people who cut themselves were a bit nutty, but I guess that makes me nutty. It's become a habit, and as I told you and the guys, I do it worse and worse everytime. The cuts get longer, deeper..more often. I don't know what sparked me to do it last night, I was having such a great time at Tai's house. That's where I am now, sat in Tai's bed writing this, it's about three am I think. I did it twice before I came and once when I was here. It was a close call, I was interrupted by Davis, I guess if he hadn't have needed the toilet, I'd have done it again. Please don't tell anyone this...especially not Tai, it'll hurt him so...I know he'd hate me for keeping this from him, but it's for the best. Sorry for doing it again.I just thought you should know.
Yamato (one sick dude)
Tai was in tears by the end of the letter. Shaking, he picked up Gendo's note.
Tai, I know that will have come as such a shock to you, we only found out in a truth game, we were sworn to secrecy, I left my number at the bottom if you want to call me. Gendo
Tai stuffed both the letters back in his pockets. He wiped his tears away. He stood up and made his way home..
**
"Hey Tai, mom says there's some..." Kari began as her brother entered the apartment. She was cut off however, as her brother stalked past her and slammed his bedroom door hard. Kari frowned. She made her way to Tai's door and knocked. "Go away". Came the reply.
"Tai what's wrong?, have you had a fight with Matt"? She asked, a worried look crossing her face. "What part of go away don't you understand? And don't say that name around me"! Tai yelled back. Kari gulped, she made her way to the phone and began to dial...
Notes: That's another chapter done!, next one coming soon!