Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters portrayed or mentioned here, they all belong ultimately to Joss Whedon. I do, however, own this particular storyline and the portrayals of the characters //in this story//.
Spoilers: None really in this installment. (Except that Buffy and Spike have been boinking.)
Notes: Any text in //these// is italicized. I really wish I could upload it in .doc or .html format, but I can't. :b This is basically an extension of the last installment, where Buffy and Tara have a little talk on the way to the doctor's office.
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They were at least three blocks away from the house before Tara spoke up. "So, um . . . what's going on, with the doctor's visit?"
Buffy sighed. At least with Tara, she wouldn't have to explain about sleeping with Spike before telling her the news. "I think I'm pregnant." She waited for Tara to make some sign of understanding. Instead, she simply drove silently for a few minutes. Finally, she replied, "You do mean, by Spike, right?"
Buffy threw up her hands. "I think so! I mean, the possibility of me getting pregnant by Spike is about as likely as the possibility of me becoming pregnant when I'm not with anyone!" She sighed, deciding to explain a little. "See, when Angel and I were together - before we'd had sex, when we were still constantly kissing and telling each other 'I love you' - he told me he couldn't have children. It was one of those things that we never brought up again, but it always hung between us. He couldn't have children, and I wanted them, in the far future." She shook her head. "I mean, they're just dead bodies, if you wanna get technical. How can reanimated corpses have live . . . well, you know. How can they reproduce at all if they don't even have a beating heart?"
To this, Tara only shrugged. "But, but you think you are pregnant. And, and you've only been with Spike?"
Buffy nodded. "Since I got back, yeah. Before that, I was only with Riley, and I started taking birth control pills then. I mean, I was //careful//. If it was a possibility that I could get pregnant, I pulled out all the stops. I figured, if nothing else, my mother would kill me if I got pregnant. And already, I am beginning to hate that word. Pregnant. It's such an ugly word."
Tara nodded, though Buffy wasn't sure if it was in agreement with her thoughts on the word 'pregnant', or with something else she'd said. "So, have you taken a self-pregnancy test?"
"Yeah," Buffy replied, nodding. "I checked it, it seemed like a hundred times, to make sure it wasn't wrong. But I did everything right, and it was on the test, clear as day. That damned little plus sign."
Tara bit her lip. "You know . . . if it turns out you are … expecting . . . well, it's just a suggestion, but I figure you should keep your options open, right? Um, what I'm saying, is . . . you could always have a-an a-abortion." She lowered her voice on the last word, as if speaking it too loud would be bad luck. Buffy frowned at that idea.
"Yeah, I don't really like that idea, but, it is an option. Or, you know, it would be if this were a normal situation. But the fact that we're sitting on a Hellmouth and that the thing's father isn't even alive might make the options different." She rose her eyebrows and said contemplatively, "Course, an exorcism might work better than any abortion."
Tara didn't answer.
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Please review and tell me what you think! If you'd rather your opinion be private, you can always e-mail me at 'sailor_silver_fox@hotmail.com' - I love getting e-mails!
Next up!: The doctor's exam!
Spoilers: None really in this installment. (Except that Buffy and Spike have been boinking.)
Notes: Any text in //these// is italicized. I really wish I could upload it in .doc or .html format, but I can't. :b This is basically an extension of the last installment, where Buffy and Tara have a little talk on the way to the doctor's office.
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They were at least three blocks away from the house before Tara spoke up. "So, um . . . what's going on, with the doctor's visit?"
Buffy sighed. At least with Tara, she wouldn't have to explain about sleeping with Spike before telling her the news. "I think I'm pregnant." She waited for Tara to make some sign of understanding. Instead, she simply drove silently for a few minutes. Finally, she replied, "You do mean, by Spike, right?"
Buffy threw up her hands. "I think so! I mean, the possibility of me getting pregnant by Spike is about as likely as the possibility of me becoming pregnant when I'm not with anyone!" She sighed, deciding to explain a little. "See, when Angel and I were together - before we'd had sex, when we were still constantly kissing and telling each other 'I love you' - he told me he couldn't have children. It was one of those things that we never brought up again, but it always hung between us. He couldn't have children, and I wanted them, in the far future." She shook her head. "I mean, they're just dead bodies, if you wanna get technical. How can reanimated corpses have live . . . well, you know. How can they reproduce at all if they don't even have a beating heart?"
To this, Tara only shrugged. "But, but you think you are pregnant. And, and you've only been with Spike?"
Buffy nodded. "Since I got back, yeah. Before that, I was only with Riley, and I started taking birth control pills then. I mean, I was //careful//. If it was a possibility that I could get pregnant, I pulled out all the stops. I figured, if nothing else, my mother would kill me if I got pregnant. And already, I am beginning to hate that word. Pregnant. It's such an ugly word."
Tara nodded, though Buffy wasn't sure if it was in agreement with her thoughts on the word 'pregnant', or with something else she'd said. "So, have you taken a self-pregnancy test?"
"Yeah," Buffy replied, nodding. "I checked it, it seemed like a hundred times, to make sure it wasn't wrong. But I did everything right, and it was on the test, clear as day. That damned little plus sign."
Tara bit her lip. "You know . . . if it turns out you are … expecting . . . well, it's just a suggestion, but I figure you should keep your options open, right? Um, what I'm saying, is . . . you could always have a-an a-abortion." She lowered her voice on the last word, as if speaking it too loud would be bad luck. Buffy frowned at that idea.
"Yeah, I don't really like that idea, but, it is an option. Or, you know, it would be if this were a normal situation. But the fact that we're sitting on a Hellmouth and that the thing's father isn't even alive might make the options different." She rose her eyebrows and said contemplatively, "Course, an exorcism might work better than any abortion."
Tara didn't answer.
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Please review and tell me what you think! If you'd rather your opinion be private, you can always e-mail me at 'sailor_silver_fox@hotmail.com' - I love getting e-mails!
Next up!: The doctor's exam!