Chapter 7
A/N: elo minna! Hope you are enjoying my fic so far.. Anyways, I'll try to make this chap longer than usual, I'm now bombarded with school work so I think it'll be long after I can update again.. Hope you like this chap!! Reviews are much appreciated.
SANZO's POV:
"Aren't we there yet?" I asked Hakkai for the tenth time that day. He just smiled considerately and said we won't be there for a couple more minutes. I nodded my thanks and goes back to sulk mode. I'm getting really impatient as we have been in the jeep for about 12 hours non-stop. Add the fact that it is blisteringly hot and the kappa is annoying as ever. I'm really tempted to blow his brains off, but I need him to help me save Goku.
I sighed. I wonder how Goku is holding up? I just hope that damn Homura doesn't touch him again. I could feel veins popping in my head as I remembered the dream. I swear I'll kill him! But how? My gun doesn't work on him and close combat is a disadvantage to me. I was weighing other options; when I felt the jeep stop so suddenly, I was almost thrown out of my seat. I righted myself up in a dignified position before turning to Hakkai. "Do you mind explaining..." I stopped when I see him smiling and looking somewhere in the distance. I followed his gaze and smiled too. "I hope the welcoming committee prepared for our grand arrival!!" Gojyo said happily in the back.
GOKU's POV:
I'm alone again. I thought to myself as I was reflecting my current condition. I'm practically one with the bed as I was chained to it, neck, wrists, ankles and all. It reminded me of the time I was held prisoner at the mountain. But there is one major difference. I have Sanzo to save me from that hell. But now....
I sob when realization hits me. Sanzo will not come this time. He hates me and I'm sure of it. I heard him say so. And besides I left voluntarily. Sanzo will not come to me begging on his knees that I return to them. He is that proud of a man. I bet he's probably enjoying himself now, since he doesn't have to take care of me anymore. But what about me? Am I going to suffer to the depths of hell? Is there hope for me? Is my life worth living now?
I pounded the bed hard as more tears spilled out of my eyes. Life? What life? I don't have one. Me, Son Goku, is now legally a property of Homura Taishi. I don't own my life anymore. I'm at the mercy of Homura. And he's not the most merciful god. I thought harshly as I fingered my latest acquisition. A nasty bruise, I got from defying him.
I rocked back and forth, trying to calm myself down. As I did, my eye catches something shining. I squinted my eyes and found out that it was a mirror. I stood up and walk towards it, as far as the chain would allow me, and grabbed it. I looked at it tantalizingly for a few moments before breaking it. I took one huge shard and positioned it at the exposed part of my neck. Is life worth living? Is it? Is it? I kept asking myself that as to avoid myself from chickening out. With a burst of adrenaline I raised the shard and prepared to jab my throat. Goodbye Sanzo.. I thought as the world suddenly blacked out.
HOMURA's POV:
That does it. I thought to myself happily as I practically skipped towards Goku's room, anticipation rising within me. It has been so worth it. I mean talking to all youkai and gods alike that they leave the vicinity for a moment. I want this night to be very special. And I don't want any of them to be spoiling my plan.
As I neared Goku's room, Shien and Zenon appeared. I groaned. I don't want their stupid fucking advices now. I stopped walking and glared at them. "What do you want?" I ask them gruffly. "Oh, nothing really. We just want to have a little chat with you." Zenon replied sarcastically. "Not now." I swept past them but I heard Shien call after me. "Do you think it wise?" I stopped puzzled. "What wise?" "To let all your loyal objects have the day off?" "But of course." Shien sighed. "You are the fighting god. Surely you know that you have as many enemies as there are ants in the world?" I flicked my wrist at him. "You said so yourself, I'm fighting god. No one can ever beat me. Except possibly Goku." Zenon chuckled. "And you already lost to him, ne? Oh wait, you lost to that blond monk, what's his name? Oh yeah, Genjo Sanzo." I feel my temper flare up, and I could vaguely feel my hand trembling. Before I could do something to them that I would regret, I walked out and continued my way to Goku's room.
How dare Zenon rub it in my face! I thought vehemently. He knew, both of them knew that I had a sore spot when it comes to that damn Sanzo. It is because of him that Goku had not yet submitted himself to me. I swiped at the air releasing some anger. I better be composed before Goku. I smoothed out my robes and proceeded to unlock Goku's door. I opened it, a smile adorning my face. I was shocked when I realized what Goku was doing. I immediately released some aura to knock of the glass Goku was clutching. I misjudged the strength of it, so when it knocked off the glass it also knocked off Goku. I ran towards his side and gingerly placed him at the bed. He'll come around after a few minutes.
I busied myself with the plan, as I was waiting for Goku to wake up. I removed his chains, and clothed him with fresh and clean clothes. Ticking off, the list in my mind I placed myself at the bedside. I heard Goku stir in his sleep and mumble incoherently. He suddenly sits up. "I'm still alive?" He asked, not noticing my presence. "I'm afraid not." I tell him chuckling. He instinctively puts up his hands in front of him as if defending himself. Then his eyes suddenly went wide with shock when he realized he was free from the chains. "Homura.." He asks tentatively. I put on my mask, the most apologetic and lonely mask I ever had and sighed deeply. "Look, I'm sorry for what I did to you. But believe me, I did all of that because..." I trailed off looking at him uncertainly. He just clutched the bed sheets and wraps them protectively around himself. "I love you." His head jerked up in surprise. Then his eyes filled with rage. "That's not true! Even if you did, is this what you call love?! If this is it, then I don't want it." I controlled myself immensely to keep in character. "Goku please listen to me..." "No, I won't. I want out of this damn fucking hell! Just kill me okay? I know this is another one of your tricks!!" I reached out a hand and tried to calm him down. He just continued on his rage. "Remember the time you said you were lonely? Fuck! You were just trying to fool me into trusting you, right? And you succeeded! Isn't it enough? You got what you want from me.. you already got it.." Goku stopped his adrenaline running short and sobbed at the corner of the room. "I've already had enough. Please just kill me. .. Kill me. I'm so, so, so tired" he rocked himself back and forth. I put my arms around him but he waved them off. "Goku, if you want your freedom then go. I ordered my army to let you go. They won't stop you." He looked at me sulkily. "It's true if you don't believe me..." "Of course I don't." I winced at his reply but continued nonetheless. "Go then. You have your freedom. But remember this, I do love you and I won't hurt you ever again. It's just that I got jealous over Sanzo and I was angry at him for not treating you right. It's just that I vented my anger on you, instead of him. If you ever needed a place to go to, you're always welcome here. And if you do return, I promise to treat you right." With that I left him completely confused.
GOKU's POV:
What was that all about? I ask myself confused. Is Homura telling the truth? Or is it another one of his sick lies? I stood up and left the room, deciding to test if Homura was telling the truth about having no one to stop me leave. I spotted Shien and Zenon talking to each other. They didn't even glance at me. Maybe Homura was telling the truth. I let myself smile. At least I'm home free.
I walked the last flight of stairs. Feeling more and more overjoyed. I stopped when I heard someone sob. I strained my ears to listen to it carefully. I frowned when I realized it was Homura's voice. Is he really that lonely? I remembered the night he confessed that he is lonely after Rinrei's death. And he said that being with me makes him feel alive. I suddenly felt guilty. Maybe he does mean it; maybe he really hadn't intended to hurt me. Being the nice guy that I am, I felt my legs taking me up to where Homura's voice it. Maybe I can give him another chance. Besides I have nowhere to go to.
I stopped short when I heard someone. He sounds very familiar. "What is this? A ghost tower? HELLO?!! Anybody for a fight?" That's Gojyo isn't? I held my breath hoping I didn't imagine it. "Maa-maa Gojyo, isn't it better if we don't have any company?" Hakkai?! Is it really true?! I feel my eyes stinging with happy tears. Have they really come to save me? I almost dropped to the ground when I heard his voice. SANZO's voice. "Shut up! Let's just proceed shall we?" My knees suddenly felt weak with relief. As they rounded the corner to come up, they finally see me. Gojyo was practically flying to me. "Zaru?! Is that really you? I missed you. Have they treated you right? They didn't hurt you did they?" Gojyo's brow furrowed with worry. I smiled weakly at him. Then here comes Hakkai. "Goku are you okay? You look hungry.. Here I brought you some buns." He reached into his bag and produced a meat bun. I shook my head no and hugged them both, tears streaming down my face. "I'm so, so happy." "We're happy too bakazaru!!" Gojyo said laughing while messing up my brown locks.
When all the commotion stopped, I looked hopefully at Sanzo. He looked really happy to see me. Or am I just imagining it? "Sanzo.." I ask him tentatively. "Bakazaru. You're always trouble you know that?" I was shattered. I knew it. He really hated me. Silent sobs racked my shoulder when I felt a hand pressed through my head. I looked up to see Sanzo smiling faintly. "Let's go home." I smiled and gingerly stood up. I feel Hakkai and Gojyo patting me at the back, as they led me outside the tower of hell.
HOMURA's POV:
What the..? I angrily mumbled as I saw the four of them walking out. This can't be happening I raged. My plan was perfect! I have Goku running to me, when they arrived. Damn that Sanzo! He always ruins my plans. I smile evilly. Sorry, Goku but I think I have to break my promise. I thought as I warped out of the tower towards them.
"Well, well, well. Look who we have here." I drawled lazily as I met up with them. "What do you want Homura?" Sanzo asked lazily. I looked at him my eyes filling with rage. "I want Goku back." Goku tumbled in front of them, despite being stopped by Hakkai. "Homura, you said I can have my freedom. Please leave us alone." I laughed before answering him. "This is not part of my plan, Goku. And I know I won't have you back if you return to them." "But you said.." I interrupted him, smiling. "Goku, I'm just saving you in a lot of pain. Sanzo here will hurt you again. And I don't want that." I said to him my voice dripping honey. I noted with satisfaction that Sanzo shook with anger. I continued. "Remember the last time? He said you are just dead weights to him. He can live without you." Goku was shuffling, he was hesitating.
"Don't listen to him, Goku." Gojyo said to Goku while looking at me angrily. "And you certainly doesn't need him for company, Goku. What does he do? Insult you all the time?" Gojyo snarled at me and I just smiled at him. "Now, come to me Goku. And I promise you, you'll never have to fear about being hurt again." I was getting impatient and I can see Goku is not heeding my words. He looks very often at Sanzo who just kept snarling at me. Damn! I have to resort to drastic measures I guess. When I was contemplating on what to do next, Goku suddenly spoke up. "Please Homura, I've made up my mind. I will go with them."
I stopped every fiber in my body burning with rage. "No! NO! You will stay with me, you here me Son Goku?" "No. Homura, I'm staying with Sanzo." I shook my head. "NO!! HE can't have you. If I can't have you, then.." I removed my shackles, to the dismay of the four, and started gathering some energy. I bring forth my sword and put all my energy towards it. "If I can't have you, then no one will!!!" I charged at Goku, my sword poised in front me and prepare to strike. Goku can't move with shock. I smiled as I neared him. No one, especially Sanzo will have you, my little zaru. I thought as I striked him.
GOKU's POV:
I'm trembling with fear. Homura had just removed his shackles and I'm sure he's going to kill me. He's been shouting madly about having no one else but him to have me. I think that is sick. I just closed my eyes waiting for him to strike me. Then I heard a savage cry and a dull thud afterwards. I open my eyes and found Sanzo lying in a pool of blood. "SANZO!!!!" I can't believe it. Sanzo shielded me! I gingerly gathered him in my arms, sobbing uncontrollably. "Sanzo why did you do that?" I ask him. He opened his eyes weakly and smiled. He tried to pat my head and console me. "Bakazaru." "Why Sanzo.. " "Because.. I love you." I felt Sanzo's body went limp. I looked at him unbelievably. "Sanzo?! Sanzo?! Wake up, dammit! Don't fool me... Sanzo?! Please wake up..." I pleaded but it was no use. HE wasn't responding. Sanzo's dead.
Sanzo's dead. Sanzo's dead. Someone is going to pay dearly. I walked towards Homura menacingly, my eyes wide with anger and fury and my body surrounded with a golden aura. "You are going to pay." I said to him in a deadly voice and as I removed my power control device.
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A/N: elo minna! Hope you are enjoying my fic so far.. Anyways, I'll try to make this chap longer than usual, I'm now bombarded with school work so I think it'll be long after I can update again.. Hope you like this chap!! Reviews are much appreciated.
SANZO's POV:
"Aren't we there yet?" I asked Hakkai for the tenth time that day. He just smiled considerately and said we won't be there for a couple more minutes. I nodded my thanks and goes back to sulk mode. I'm getting really impatient as we have been in the jeep for about 12 hours non-stop. Add the fact that it is blisteringly hot and the kappa is annoying as ever. I'm really tempted to blow his brains off, but I need him to help me save Goku.
I sighed. I wonder how Goku is holding up? I just hope that damn Homura doesn't touch him again. I could feel veins popping in my head as I remembered the dream. I swear I'll kill him! But how? My gun doesn't work on him and close combat is a disadvantage to me. I was weighing other options; when I felt the jeep stop so suddenly, I was almost thrown out of my seat. I righted myself up in a dignified position before turning to Hakkai. "Do you mind explaining..." I stopped when I see him smiling and looking somewhere in the distance. I followed his gaze and smiled too. "I hope the welcoming committee prepared for our grand arrival!!" Gojyo said happily in the back.
GOKU's POV:
I'm alone again. I thought to myself as I was reflecting my current condition. I'm practically one with the bed as I was chained to it, neck, wrists, ankles and all. It reminded me of the time I was held prisoner at the mountain. But there is one major difference. I have Sanzo to save me from that hell. But now....
I sob when realization hits me. Sanzo will not come this time. He hates me and I'm sure of it. I heard him say so. And besides I left voluntarily. Sanzo will not come to me begging on his knees that I return to them. He is that proud of a man. I bet he's probably enjoying himself now, since he doesn't have to take care of me anymore. But what about me? Am I going to suffer to the depths of hell? Is there hope for me? Is my life worth living now?
I pounded the bed hard as more tears spilled out of my eyes. Life? What life? I don't have one. Me, Son Goku, is now legally a property of Homura Taishi. I don't own my life anymore. I'm at the mercy of Homura. And he's not the most merciful god. I thought harshly as I fingered my latest acquisition. A nasty bruise, I got from defying him.
I rocked back and forth, trying to calm myself down. As I did, my eye catches something shining. I squinted my eyes and found out that it was a mirror. I stood up and walk towards it, as far as the chain would allow me, and grabbed it. I looked at it tantalizingly for a few moments before breaking it. I took one huge shard and positioned it at the exposed part of my neck. Is life worth living? Is it? Is it? I kept asking myself that as to avoid myself from chickening out. With a burst of adrenaline I raised the shard and prepared to jab my throat. Goodbye Sanzo.. I thought as the world suddenly blacked out.
HOMURA's POV:
That does it. I thought to myself happily as I practically skipped towards Goku's room, anticipation rising within me. It has been so worth it. I mean talking to all youkai and gods alike that they leave the vicinity for a moment. I want this night to be very special. And I don't want any of them to be spoiling my plan.
As I neared Goku's room, Shien and Zenon appeared. I groaned. I don't want their stupid fucking advices now. I stopped walking and glared at them. "What do you want?" I ask them gruffly. "Oh, nothing really. We just want to have a little chat with you." Zenon replied sarcastically. "Not now." I swept past them but I heard Shien call after me. "Do you think it wise?" I stopped puzzled. "What wise?" "To let all your loyal objects have the day off?" "But of course." Shien sighed. "You are the fighting god. Surely you know that you have as many enemies as there are ants in the world?" I flicked my wrist at him. "You said so yourself, I'm fighting god. No one can ever beat me. Except possibly Goku." Zenon chuckled. "And you already lost to him, ne? Oh wait, you lost to that blond monk, what's his name? Oh yeah, Genjo Sanzo." I feel my temper flare up, and I could vaguely feel my hand trembling. Before I could do something to them that I would regret, I walked out and continued my way to Goku's room.
How dare Zenon rub it in my face! I thought vehemently. He knew, both of them knew that I had a sore spot when it comes to that damn Sanzo. It is because of him that Goku had not yet submitted himself to me. I swiped at the air releasing some anger. I better be composed before Goku. I smoothed out my robes and proceeded to unlock Goku's door. I opened it, a smile adorning my face. I was shocked when I realized what Goku was doing. I immediately released some aura to knock of the glass Goku was clutching. I misjudged the strength of it, so when it knocked off the glass it also knocked off Goku. I ran towards his side and gingerly placed him at the bed. He'll come around after a few minutes.
I busied myself with the plan, as I was waiting for Goku to wake up. I removed his chains, and clothed him with fresh and clean clothes. Ticking off, the list in my mind I placed myself at the bedside. I heard Goku stir in his sleep and mumble incoherently. He suddenly sits up. "I'm still alive?" He asked, not noticing my presence. "I'm afraid not." I tell him chuckling. He instinctively puts up his hands in front of him as if defending himself. Then his eyes suddenly went wide with shock when he realized he was free from the chains. "Homura.." He asks tentatively. I put on my mask, the most apologetic and lonely mask I ever had and sighed deeply. "Look, I'm sorry for what I did to you. But believe me, I did all of that because..." I trailed off looking at him uncertainly. He just clutched the bed sheets and wraps them protectively around himself. "I love you." His head jerked up in surprise. Then his eyes filled with rage. "That's not true! Even if you did, is this what you call love?! If this is it, then I don't want it." I controlled myself immensely to keep in character. "Goku please listen to me..." "No, I won't. I want out of this damn fucking hell! Just kill me okay? I know this is another one of your tricks!!" I reached out a hand and tried to calm him down. He just continued on his rage. "Remember the time you said you were lonely? Fuck! You were just trying to fool me into trusting you, right? And you succeeded! Isn't it enough? You got what you want from me.. you already got it.." Goku stopped his adrenaline running short and sobbed at the corner of the room. "I've already had enough. Please just kill me. .. Kill me. I'm so, so, so tired" he rocked himself back and forth. I put my arms around him but he waved them off. "Goku, if you want your freedom then go. I ordered my army to let you go. They won't stop you." He looked at me sulkily. "It's true if you don't believe me..." "Of course I don't." I winced at his reply but continued nonetheless. "Go then. You have your freedom. But remember this, I do love you and I won't hurt you ever again. It's just that I got jealous over Sanzo and I was angry at him for not treating you right. It's just that I vented my anger on you, instead of him. If you ever needed a place to go to, you're always welcome here. And if you do return, I promise to treat you right." With that I left him completely confused.
GOKU's POV:
What was that all about? I ask myself confused. Is Homura telling the truth? Or is it another one of his sick lies? I stood up and left the room, deciding to test if Homura was telling the truth about having no one to stop me leave. I spotted Shien and Zenon talking to each other. They didn't even glance at me. Maybe Homura was telling the truth. I let myself smile. At least I'm home free.
I walked the last flight of stairs. Feeling more and more overjoyed. I stopped when I heard someone sob. I strained my ears to listen to it carefully. I frowned when I realized it was Homura's voice. Is he really that lonely? I remembered the night he confessed that he is lonely after Rinrei's death. And he said that being with me makes him feel alive. I suddenly felt guilty. Maybe he does mean it; maybe he really hadn't intended to hurt me. Being the nice guy that I am, I felt my legs taking me up to where Homura's voice it. Maybe I can give him another chance. Besides I have nowhere to go to.
I stopped short when I heard someone. He sounds very familiar. "What is this? A ghost tower? HELLO?!! Anybody for a fight?" That's Gojyo isn't? I held my breath hoping I didn't imagine it. "Maa-maa Gojyo, isn't it better if we don't have any company?" Hakkai?! Is it really true?! I feel my eyes stinging with happy tears. Have they really come to save me? I almost dropped to the ground when I heard his voice. SANZO's voice. "Shut up! Let's just proceed shall we?" My knees suddenly felt weak with relief. As they rounded the corner to come up, they finally see me. Gojyo was practically flying to me. "Zaru?! Is that really you? I missed you. Have they treated you right? They didn't hurt you did they?" Gojyo's brow furrowed with worry. I smiled weakly at him. Then here comes Hakkai. "Goku are you okay? You look hungry.. Here I brought you some buns." He reached into his bag and produced a meat bun. I shook my head no and hugged them both, tears streaming down my face. "I'm so, so happy." "We're happy too bakazaru!!" Gojyo said laughing while messing up my brown locks.
When all the commotion stopped, I looked hopefully at Sanzo. He looked really happy to see me. Or am I just imagining it? "Sanzo.." I ask him tentatively. "Bakazaru. You're always trouble you know that?" I was shattered. I knew it. He really hated me. Silent sobs racked my shoulder when I felt a hand pressed through my head. I looked up to see Sanzo smiling faintly. "Let's go home." I smiled and gingerly stood up. I feel Hakkai and Gojyo patting me at the back, as they led me outside the tower of hell.
HOMURA's POV:
What the..? I angrily mumbled as I saw the four of them walking out. This can't be happening I raged. My plan was perfect! I have Goku running to me, when they arrived. Damn that Sanzo! He always ruins my plans. I smile evilly. Sorry, Goku but I think I have to break my promise. I thought as I warped out of the tower towards them.
"Well, well, well. Look who we have here." I drawled lazily as I met up with them. "What do you want Homura?" Sanzo asked lazily. I looked at him my eyes filling with rage. "I want Goku back." Goku tumbled in front of them, despite being stopped by Hakkai. "Homura, you said I can have my freedom. Please leave us alone." I laughed before answering him. "This is not part of my plan, Goku. And I know I won't have you back if you return to them." "But you said.." I interrupted him, smiling. "Goku, I'm just saving you in a lot of pain. Sanzo here will hurt you again. And I don't want that." I said to him my voice dripping honey. I noted with satisfaction that Sanzo shook with anger. I continued. "Remember the last time? He said you are just dead weights to him. He can live without you." Goku was shuffling, he was hesitating.
"Don't listen to him, Goku." Gojyo said to Goku while looking at me angrily. "And you certainly doesn't need him for company, Goku. What does he do? Insult you all the time?" Gojyo snarled at me and I just smiled at him. "Now, come to me Goku. And I promise you, you'll never have to fear about being hurt again." I was getting impatient and I can see Goku is not heeding my words. He looks very often at Sanzo who just kept snarling at me. Damn! I have to resort to drastic measures I guess. When I was contemplating on what to do next, Goku suddenly spoke up. "Please Homura, I've made up my mind. I will go with them."
I stopped every fiber in my body burning with rage. "No! NO! You will stay with me, you here me Son Goku?" "No. Homura, I'm staying with Sanzo." I shook my head. "NO!! HE can't have you. If I can't have you, then.." I removed my shackles, to the dismay of the four, and started gathering some energy. I bring forth my sword and put all my energy towards it. "If I can't have you, then no one will!!!" I charged at Goku, my sword poised in front me and prepare to strike. Goku can't move with shock. I smiled as I neared him. No one, especially Sanzo will have you, my little zaru. I thought as I striked him.
GOKU's POV:
I'm trembling with fear. Homura had just removed his shackles and I'm sure he's going to kill me. He's been shouting madly about having no one else but him to have me. I think that is sick. I just closed my eyes waiting for him to strike me. Then I heard a savage cry and a dull thud afterwards. I open my eyes and found Sanzo lying in a pool of blood. "SANZO!!!!" I can't believe it. Sanzo shielded me! I gingerly gathered him in my arms, sobbing uncontrollably. "Sanzo why did you do that?" I ask him. He opened his eyes weakly and smiled. He tried to pat my head and console me. "Bakazaru." "Why Sanzo.. " "Because.. I love you." I felt Sanzo's body went limp. I looked at him unbelievably. "Sanzo?! Sanzo?! Wake up, dammit! Don't fool me... Sanzo?! Please wake up..." I pleaded but it was no use. HE wasn't responding. Sanzo's dead.
Sanzo's dead. Sanzo's dead. Someone is going to pay dearly. I walked towards Homura menacingly, my eyes wide with anger and fury and my body surrounded with a golden aura. "You are going to pay." I said to him in a deadly voice and as I removed my power control device.
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