Chapter 9: Where I belong
A/N: This is the last installment of belonging. I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it. Thank you for all those who reviewed and followed this story!!! *mwahugs* to all you guys!
GOKU's POV:
Sanzo's been asleep for quite a while now, and knowing that he'll be just fine, I have treated myself to some sleep. It wasn't anything wonderful though, just a long black dreamless sleep. It was okay because for the past few nights, all I have was nightmares and this was a welcome alternative.
After that refreshing sleep, I realized that I haven't told Sanzo about what happened to me and Homura. I'm so afraid that when he finds out, he'll see me as dirt, or worse he'll hate me again. I winced at the thought. Would Sanzo be capable of that? Probably. I sighed, gathered my clothes and went out.
Oh yeah. I have to do something about Gojyo and Hakkai, I thought as I remembered the night when we almost lost Sanzo. I saw Gojyo giving Hakkai the look I was giving Sanzo. Hehehehe...... Though I have to do it in a way that will embarrass Gojyo the most. I smiled mischievously; I think this is pay back time Gojyo.
But what to do? I grunted when I realized I can't think of any ideas. Maybe I could talk to Sanzo about this. He's good at making stuff up. Deciding quickly, I went to the direction of his room and stopped by the door. Wait, will I also tell him about me? For sure he's going to ask stuff about the time I was with Homura. I sighed and let my arms fall limply at my sides. I'm not ready for it yet, not when I'm enjoying Sanzo's attention, not when were making up.
I looked up when I felt someone press his hands on my head. It was Gojyo. "Zaru, what's the matter? Why don't' you come in? You and the corrupt monk had a fight again?" He asked me smirking. I stick my tongue out at him. "No you kappa! I was just checking if he's sleeping or not." "Well he's not and he's waiting for you to come in." Gojyo said raising his brows comically at me. I blushed stupidly for a while before regaining composure. "Baka!" I said and marched straight in Sanzo's room. For now, I just have to duck his questions about me and ask help about Gojyo and Hakkai.
"Sanzo you awake?" I asked him cautiously. No answer. I moved closer to his bed and peeked at him. "Sanzo? What the.." I gasped when I felt him pull me in the bed. "What are you doing Sanzo?" I asked him baffled at his actions, I didn't mind this at all, but it was quite surprising that Sanzo was being aggressive. "Bakazaru, I didn't forget what I told you yesterday." He said huskily in my ear hugging me close to him. I held my breath when he leaned in to kiss me. I liked it, but I can't help feeling a bit squirmish. I told myself that its okay, he's Sanzo and he's not going to hurt me, unlike that bastard Homura. Reluctantly, I pull myself out of his embrace. "What's the matter Goku?" He asked me concerned. "It's nothing, its just you need more rest." I told him smiling brightly. He knitted his brows together looking concerned. "Want to talk?" He asks me while sitting up. Uh-oh its coming. "No, I'm fine really." I looked at him and smiled. "Whatever you say." Sanzo said finally giving up. "Ne Sanzo? I need help?" "Help about what?" "About Gojyo and Hakkai." "Ahhhh.." Sanzo said smiling slightly. I looked at him suspiciously. "You know about them?" "But of course. Only an idiot won't see it." I smiled. "So I am not an idiot then?" He smirked. "Except in your case." "Sanzoooo..."
Sanzo cupped his ears, wincing. "Stop your whining zaru! Its making my head hurt." "Whatever! So you're going to help me?" "No, I'm doing this for my own purposes." He said looking vindictive. "What purpose?" I ask him confused. "That stupid kappa had crossed me while you were gone." "Really? What did he do?" I ask him interested. Sanzo just smirked. "Awww.. Such a spoilsport." WHACK. "Owww.. It hurts! What did you do that for?" I ask him indignantly. "I told you I'm getting headaches about your whining." He said fingering his paper fan lovingly. "You know, zaru I haven't used this for the longest time." "Why use it now?" I ask him looking cross. "Because you're back." "Hahaha.. Funny. So what's your plan?" "Oh, you'll see. You'll see." Sanzo said looking evil.
SANZO's POV:
The zaru's hiding something from me. I thought as I watched him close the door behind him softly. He's off to run some errands about our plans with Hakkai and Gojyo. I sighed. I knew what he's thinking about. I knew it from the moment he wouldn't let me touch him. I knew it.
It was that dream. It had been fucking real. Judging from the zaru's reactions, it had been real. Damn that Homura! Making my Goku suffer like that. He'll pay for sure. I promised myself that I would find a way to kill him. I smiled, kami is so good making Homura alive, and in that way I can kill him in my own hands. I puffed some smoke and contemplated about the situation. I have to make Goku realize that I don't give a damn about what happened between them. I'll just have to show him. I smiled, anticipating it.
GOJYO's POV:
Fuck it! Since when have I become a coward? I tell myself sulking. The corrupt monk and the zaru's probably having a good time while me, yes me, is very miserable. I downed the sake in front of me with a big gulp and motioned the bartender to give me another one. Heck, I've been fooling around with women that much and I've been good at it. Now, I can't even flirt with one man. Am I losing my touch?
Of course not. I consoled myself. It's not very normal you fall for your own kind ne? I tell myself again for the umpteenth time since I've fallen for certain green-eyed brunette. I sighed and ordered for another round of sake. My head's starting to spin but I didn't really care. This vagueness and numbness makes me forget all about this for just a moment. I feel my head getting heavy and my eyelids starting to get droopy.
"Giving up already?" Someone asks while sitting beside me. Who the.. hell? I've no time to fool around, I tell myself getting grumpy, and I can feel my head starting to throb. "Who the hell are you?" I ask him rudely. "Just a friendly native of this town." He smiled rather smugly and I peered at his face. I can't see it. Everything's getting hazy, suddenly. "So?" I tell him. I really hope he stops bugging me, or else. "Hey, you see that guy? Isn't he just beautiful?" He suddenly tells me, his voice dripping honey. What is he talking about? So being attracted to your own kind is normal eh? Maybe I have.. "What beautiful green eyes he has..." He continued gushing. Green eyes? What the hell?
The man beside me continued his tirade. "And I got his name! It's Cho Hakkai." He sighed dreamily. Fuck it. All my patience was gone. I reach for my weapon and pointed it at him, my breathing in short, ragged huffs. "Now mister, I know he's beautiful but.." I wedged the sharp end at his throat and smiled guilessly. "Cho Hakkai's mine. You here that? Now get away." Then suddenly all went black.
SANZO's POV:
"You got that all Goku?" I tell him excited. He nodded eagerly. "Yes! Every single thing he said." He jumped up and down releasing some pent up energy. I smirked. "Give me that, you might break it." He obliged nodding up and down. "Good thing Hakkai lent you this." I said off handedly. "Of course. Hakkai trusts me." I smirked. "We can't all be reasonable." "What does that mean?" He pouted adorably. God, have to control hormones. Have to talk first to Goku.
"Goku. I want to talk." The zaru looked confused but he nodded. "What happened between you and Homura?" I asked straight to the point. I knew the answer of course, but I have to let it out in the open. "Nothing." He said in a small voice. "Yeah right. Please Goku, tell me. It would be all right." I reach out my arms to hug him but he scooted away. "You can't..." "What do you mean 'you can't'?" I ask him gently. Tears spilled out of his eyes. "You can't touch me." He looked at me wildly; my heart went out to him. He's trying his best to be brave, and I can't see it. That's what I like about him.
I reach out to him, and this time I held him in my arms. "Goku, hush. I know..." He looked up questioningly. It seems that I have to do it. At the rate he's going, he can't confess it. "What do you mean Sanzo?" I looked at him, "He raped you, didn't he?" With that simple question, he broke down completely. "I'm so sorry... I can't do anything to stop it. I'm so sorry.." He cried clutching my robes tightly. I patted his back trying to calm him down. "Stop it, Goku, you shouldn't be sorry." I released my hold on him, and tried to make him look at me. "It is I who should be sorry. I can't help you, even though I should be there to." I brushed away his tears and cupped his face.
"I don't care what that bastard Homura did to you." I kissed him full on the lips, my hands fingering the fabric of his shirt. "No matter what happened, you still look as beautiful as you did before that man disgraced you." I undid the top few buttons and nuzzled his neck. "You'll always be the same old Goku in my eyes." I looked at him and he smiled. "Thank you, Sanzo." He said as his clothes came cascading down the floor. "Aishteru, Sanzo."
GOKU's POV:
"What a lovely day ne?" I said at breakfast. It was a typical Sanzo- ikkou day. Me, Sanzo, Hakkai and Gojyo sharing a breakfast. Come to think of it, I missed these days, now I'm having them again. Goody. "Man, now I'm running short on food again." Gojyo said teasingly. I looked daggers at him. "And why would that be?" "Because the black hole of food is back again." "What do you mean black hole? You kappa!" "Well, too put it on simple words, you're back, Oh bottomless pit." "What did you say? You horny water monster?" "Oh nothing chibi zaru." "I'm not a zaru." WHACK. WHACK. "Ow.. Sanzo must you include me?" "You're making my head hurt." "My, what a peaceful day ne?" Hakkai said interrupting the discussion.
I look at Sanzo excitedly. He fished out the recorder and put it at the table. Hakkai and Gojyo looked at it questioningly. Sanzo smirked. "I have this interesting piece of entertainment." Gojyo raised his brows. "Really?" Sanzo just smiled as he pushed some buttons on it. Gojyo's drunk voice floated from it. "Look mister, I know he's beautiful but..." I looked at Gojyo and relished it. He had his mouth hanging wide open and he's red as a tomato. Hakkai meanwhile was looking confused but at the same time interested. "Cho Hakkai's mine! You got that!" Gojyo looked like he's going to be sick and Hakkai blushed to the end of his hair. I have to hold up a laugh. This so much fun.
Sanzo smirked and stood up. "Well I guess we better leave you two love birds alone, ne Goku?" I smiled nodding up and down. "Yeah!" I said and followed Sanzo. He stopped by the door to tell them, we'll be waiting by the jeep. I frowned. I'm not sure anyone of them heard that. They are looking at each other calculatingly though the both of them are still blushing. I shrugged anyways and followed Sanzo outside.
"You think it will work out okay?" I ask Sanzo as we took our places at the jeep. "I think so." He said with little enthusiasm as he was reading his paper. "Why?" I ask him.
He put down his paper and exasperatedly looked at me. "They belong together." "You think so?" I ask him perking up. "Yes I do." I sighed. "What's the matter Zaru?" "Oh nothing." He smiled and reached out to kiss me. "Don't worry, we belong together too." Sanzo then kissed me again and again.
~OWARI
A/N: This is the last installment of belonging. I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it. Thank you for all those who reviewed and followed this story!!! *mwahugs* to all you guys!
GOKU's POV:
Sanzo's been asleep for quite a while now, and knowing that he'll be just fine, I have treated myself to some sleep. It wasn't anything wonderful though, just a long black dreamless sleep. It was okay because for the past few nights, all I have was nightmares and this was a welcome alternative.
After that refreshing sleep, I realized that I haven't told Sanzo about what happened to me and Homura. I'm so afraid that when he finds out, he'll see me as dirt, or worse he'll hate me again. I winced at the thought. Would Sanzo be capable of that? Probably. I sighed, gathered my clothes and went out.
Oh yeah. I have to do something about Gojyo and Hakkai, I thought as I remembered the night when we almost lost Sanzo. I saw Gojyo giving Hakkai the look I was giving Sanzo. Hehehehe...... Though I have to do it in a way that will embarrass Gojyo the most. I smiled mischievously; I think this is pay back time Gojyo.
But what to do? I grunted when I realized I can't think of any ideas. Maybe I could talk to Sanzo about this. He's good at making stuff up. Deciding quickly, I went to the direction of his room and stopped by the door. Wait, will I also tell him about me? For sure he's going to ask stuff about the time I was with Homura. I sighed and let my arms fall limply at my sides. I'm not ready for it yet, not when I'm enjoying Sanzo's attention, not when were making up.
I looked up when I felt someone press his hands on my head. It was Gojyo. "Zaru, what's the matter? Why don't' you come in? You and the corrupt monk had a fight again?" He asked me smirking. I stick my tongue out at him. "No you kappa! I was just checking if he's sleeping or not." "Well he's not and he's waiting for you to come in." Gojyo said raising his brows comically at me. I blushed stupidly for a while before regaining composure. "Baka!" I said and marched straight in Sanzo's room. For now, I just have to duck his questions about me and ask help about Gojyo and Hakkai.
"Sanzo you awake?" I asked him cautiously. No answer. I moved closer to his bed and peeked at him. "Sanzo? What the.." I gasped when I felt him pull me in the bed. "What are you doing Sanzo?" I asked him baffled at his actions, I didn't mind this at all, but it was quite surprising that Sanzo was being aggressive. "Bakazaru, I didn't forget what I told you yesterday." He said huskily in my ear hugging me close to him. I held my breath when he leaned in to kiss me. I liked it, but I can't help feeling a bit squirmish. I told myself that its okay, he's Sanzo and he's not going to hurt me, unlike that bastard Homura. Reluctantly, I pull myself out of his embrace. "What's the matter Goku?" He asked me concerned. "It's nothing, its just you need more rest." I told him smiling brightly. He knitted his brows together looking concerned. "Want to talk?" He asks me while sitting up. Uh-oh its coming. "No, I'm fine really." I looked at him and smiled. "Whatever you say." Sanzo said finally giving up. "Ne Sanzo? I need help?" "Help about what?" "About Gojyo and Hakkai." "Ahhhh.." Sanzo said smiling slightly. I looked at him suspiciously. "You know about them?" "But of course. Only an idiot won't see it." I smiled. "So I am not an idiot then?" He smirked. "Except in your case." "Sanzoooo..."
Sanzo cupped his ears, wincing. "Stop your whining zaru! Its making my head hurt." "Whatever! So you're going to help me?" "No, I'm doing this for my own purposes." He said looking vindictive. "What purpose?" I ask him confused. "That stupid kappa had crossed me while you were gone." "Really? What did he do?" I ask him interested. Sanzo just smirked. "Awww.. Such a spoilsport." WHACK. "Owww.. It hurts! What did you do that for?" I ask him indignantly. "I told you I'm getting headaches about your whining." He said fingering his paper fan lovingly. "You know, zaru I haven't used this for the longest time." "Why use it now?" I ask him looking cross. "Because you're back." "Hahaha.. Funny. So what's your plan?" "Oh, you'll see. You'll see." Sanzo said looking evil.
SANZO's POV:
The zaru's hiding something from me. I thought as I watched him close the door behind him softly. He's off to run some errands about our plans with Hakkai and Gojyo. I sighed. I knew what he's thinking about. I knew it from the moment he wouldn't let me touch him. I knew it.
It was that dream. It had been fucking real. Judging from the zaru's reactions, it had been real. Damn that Homura! Making my Goku suffer like that. He'll pay for sure. I promised myself that I would find a way to kill him. I smiled, kami is so good making Homura alive, and in that way I can kill him in my own hands. I puffed some smoke and contemplated about the situation. I have to make Goku realize that I don't give a damn about what happened between them. I'll just have to show him. I smiled, anticipating it.
GOJYO's POV:
Fuck it! Since when have I become a coward? I tell myself sulking. The corrupt monk and the zaru's probably having a good time while me, yes me, is very miserable. I downed the sake in front of me with a big gulp and motioned the bartender to give me another one. Heck, I've been fooling around with women that much and I've been good at it. Now, I can't even flirt with one man. Am I losing my touch?
Of course not. I consoled myself. It's not very normal you fall for your own kind ne? I tell myself again for the umpteenth time since I've fallen for certain green-eyed brunette. I sighed and ordered for another round of sake. My head's starting to spin but I didn't really care. This vagueness and numbness makes me forget all about this for just a moment. I feel my head getting heavy and my eyelids starting to get droopy.
"Giving up already?" Someone asks while sitting beside me. Who the.. hell? I've no time to fool around, I tell myself getting grumpy, and I can feel my head starting to throb. "Who the hell are you?" I ask him rudely. "Just a friendly native of this town." He smiled rather smugly and I peered at his face. I can't see it. Everything's getting hazy, suddenly. "So?" I tell him. I really hope he stops bugging me, or else. "Hey, you see that guy? Isn't he just beautiful?" He suddenly tells me, his voice dripping honey. What is he talking about? So being attracted to your own kind is normal eh? Maybe I have.. "What beautiful green eyes he has..." He continued gushing. Green eyes? What the hell?
The man beside me continued his tirade. "And I got his name! It's Cho Hakkai." He sighed dreamily. Fuck it. All my patience was gone. I reach for my weapon and pointed it at him, my breathing in short, ragged huffs. "Now mister, I know he's beautiful but.." I wedged the sharp end at his throat and smiled guilessly. "Cho Hakkai's mine. You here that? Now get away." Then suddenly all went black.
SANZO's POV:
"You got that all Goku?" I tell him excited. He nodded eagerly. "Yes! Every single thing he said." He jumped up and down releasing some pent up energy. I smirked. "Give me that, you might break it." He obliged nodding up and down. "Good thing Hakkai lent you this." I said off handedly. "Of course. Hakkai trusts me." I smirked. "We can't all be reasonable." "What does that mean?" He pouted adorably. God, have to control hormones. Have to talk first to Goku.
"Goku. I want to talk." The zaru looked confused but he nodded. "What happened between you and Homura?" I asked straight to the point. I knew the answer of course, but I have to let it out in the open. "Nothing." He said in a small voice. "Yeah right. Please Goku, tell me. It would be all right." I reach out my arms to hug him but he scooted away. "You can't..." "What do you mean 'you can't'?" I ask him gently. Tears spilled out of his eyes. "You can't touch me." He looked at me wildly; my heart went out to him. He's trying his best to be brave, and I can't see it. That's what I like about him.
I reach out to him, and this time I held him in my arms. "Goku, hush. I know..." He looked up questioningly. It seems that I have to do it. At the rate he's going, he can't confess it. "What do you mean Sanzo?" I looked at him, "He raped you, didn't he?" With that simple question, he broke down completely. "I'm so sorry... I can't do anything to stop it. I'm so sorry.." He cried clutching my robes tightly. I patted his back trying to calm him down. "Stop it, Goku, you shouldn't be sorry." I released my hold on him, and tried to make him look at me. "It is I who should be sorry. I can't help you, even though I should be there to." I brushed away his tears and cupped his face.
"I don't care what that bastard Homura did to you." I kissed him full on the lips, my hands fingering the fabric of his shirt. "No matter what happened, you still look as beautiful as you did before that man disgraced you." I undid the top few buttons and nuzzled his neck. "You'll always be the same old Goku in my eyes." I looked at him and he smiled. "Thank you, Sanzo." He said as his clothes came cascading down the floor. "Aishteru, Sanzo."
GOKU's POV:
"What a lovely day ne?" I said at breakfast. It was a typical Sanzo- ikkou day. Me, Sanzo, Hakkai and Gojyo sharing a breakfast. Come to think of it, I missed these days, now I'm having them again. Goody. "Man, now I'm running short on food again." Gojyo said teasingly. I looked daggers at him. "And why would that be?" "Because the black hole of food is back again." "What do you mean black hole? You kappa!" "Well, too put it on simple words, you're back, Oh bottomless pit." "What did you say? You horny water monster?" "Oh nothing chibi zaru." "I'm not a zaru." WHACK. WHACK. "Ow.. Sanzo must you include me?" "You're making my head hurt." "My, what a peaceful day ne?" Hakkai said interrupting the discussion.
I look at Sanzo excitedly. He fished out the recorder and put it at the table. Hakkai and Gojyo looked at it questioningly. Sanzo smirked. "I have this interesting piece of entertainment." Gojyo raised his brows. "Really?" Sanzo just smiled as he pushed some buttons on it. Gojyo's drunk voice floated from it. "Look mister, I know he's beautiful but..." I looked at Gojyo and relished it. He had his mouth hanging wide open and he's red as a tomato. Hakkai meanwhile was looking confused but at the same time interested. "Cho Hakkai's mine! You got that!" Gojyo looked like he's going to be sick and Hakkai blushed to the end of his hair. I have to hold up a laugh. This so much fun.
Sanzo smirked and stood up. "Well I guess we better leave you two love birds alone, ne Goku?" I smiled nodding up and down. "Yeah!" I said and followed Sanzo. He stopped by the door to tell them, we'll be waiting by the jeep. I frowned. I'm not sure anyone of them heard that. They are looking at each other calculatingly though the both of them are still blushing. I shrugged anyways and followed Sanzo outside.
"You think it will work out okay?" I ask Sanzo as we took our places at the jeep. "I think so." He said with little enthusiasm as he was reading his paper. "Why?" I ask him.
He put down his paper and exasperatedly looked at me. "They belong together." "You think so?" I ask him perking up. "Yes I do." I sighed. "What's the matter Zaru?" "Oh nothing." He smiled and reached out to kiss me. "Don't worry, we belong together too." Sanzo then kissed me again and again.
~OWARI