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This Chapter is dedicated to Maria White & Alison Johnson's namesake

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Chapter 8: Notebooks and Breakups

"Have any of you seen my notebook?" Lily asked Maria and Alison, while looking inside her bookbag in the morning.

"Which one, you have a lot." Maria asked.

"You know, the black one?" Lily said, continuing her search of the notebook.

"Ooh, the one you always write in?" Alison asked. Lily nodded. "Uh, no." 

" ****, where could it be?" Lily swore, looking up from her bag.





"James, stop reading, you're giving me a headache." Sirius joked.

The Marauders were in the Great Hall after lunch. They had just finished lunched and decided to stay there to finish homework.

James looked up from the book he was reading. "What?"

"I can't believe you're actually reading something besides the Wizard Boo comics, Quidditch books and those Play-Wizard magazines." Remus said, shaking his head.

"Yeah, well..." James trailed off. He continued on reading.

"What IS this book about, anyway?" Sirius asked curiously, trying to take a peak from the book.

"PADFOOT!" James exclaimed, pulling the book away. "It's poetry, you'd never understand it."

Sirius looked flabbergasted. "Poetry? Excuse me, I KNOW poetry. Poetry's my middle name."

"No, Orion is." Peter said.

Sirius looked at Peter dully. "It's a saying, Petie old boy."

Peter blushed, feeling yet again stupid.

"So, who's the writer?" Remus asked.

"Uuumm.. some muggle, you don't know her." James said really fast. He carefully clutched the book right at the sides, covering Lily's name.

"Well, Prongsy probably has a major crush on this person, no wonder because of her he's reading poetry." Sirius snickered.

"Yeah, the only muggle James' got hots for is Lily, but technically she's not muggle..." Remus said, laughing. Sirius joined in his laughter.

James' face turned into a very dark shade of red. He knew he was blushing, and tried to cover his face with the book.


 




In the greenhouse number 5 outside the castle, a group of 6th year Gryffindors and Hufflepuffs gathered around, listening intently to Professor Sprout.

"Now, when we 'water the plants' we don't use water.." Professor Sprout said. "For this plant, which is the Landrake, another kind of mandrake, we use a special potion..."

"I want each of you to grab a pot and start working!" Professor Sprout said brightly. "Hurry now, chop chop..."

Brian dragged his feet to where Prof. Sprout kept dozens of Landrake pots. He carried two heavy pots back.

"Here, Liv." Brian said, thrusting a pot to her. Olivia took the pot, while giving him a weird look. It was just one of those times when Brian did something he would never do. But she did say 'thank you' and Brian just nodded, placing his landrake pot next to her's.

On the other side of the greenhouse, a girl watched them intensely. She have been watching them for quite a while now. She decided to saunter her way towards them.

"Brian..." She cooed. Brian looked up, glaring at her.

"What Jade?"

"Those pots are way to heavy for me to pick up. Can you get me one?" Jade asked, putting on her 'Iam-too-cute-for-you-to-resist' act.

Brian, instead of falling for her act, continued on glaring at her. "You're a big girl now Jade, you should it them yourself."

"Yeah, but-" Jade hesitated. "I need a strong boy like you to do it for me."

From where she was sitting, Olivia snickered softly.

"Then why don't you go get that other boyfriend of your's to do so." Brian suggested, an evil grin pasted on his face.

"But he's not here-" Jade started, before realizing she had just gave away the truth.

"He's not here, huh? So thats what I've had always been for you. The other one, the one to fool around with when he's not here." Brian said, narrowing his eyes. "Well Jade, I don't want to be the other one anymore."

"Oh come on Brian, don't be like that." Jade cooed. "If you don't want to be the other one, then you'll be the one."  (AN: GOD this girl's so stupid! hehe)

'Is this girl STUPID or DUMB?' Olivia wondered.

"I don't want to be that either." Brian growled. "We're over, Jade."

Jade's already big eyes widen. She placed her hands on her hips, and her jaw dropped. "Brian Evans, you want to know WHY I did that?"

"Why?" Brian asked wearily, not looking up from his pot.

"Because," Jade hesitated. "You and Haddaway's always all over each other!"

"Excuse me??" Olivia screeched. Did she just hear right?

"Yeah!" Jade said, looking at Olivia. "We all know that You and Brian have a thing!"

"Jade, we're just friends." Brian informed. "But, since you and I are not together anymore, why should you even CARE if we're friends or not?"

Jade glared at Brian, then at Olivia, and huffed away back to where her fellow Hufflepuffs were working.

"Sorry 'bout that." Brian whispered to Olivia. "She had always been a bit jealous of you, not quite sure why..."

"Really," Olivia remarked. And all along Olivia thought that she was the one jealous of Jade.

"I think cause we're really close." Brian shrugged. "Nah, don't worry about her."

"Okay.."

The rest of the class was horrible for Brian and Olivia. The Hufflepuffs kept on shooting dirty glares at them...

 
 




"Alison, Maria, hurry up, we'll be late for Potions!" Lily shrieked, stomping into the dorm. It was a few days later, and Lily was looking for Alison and Maria, who, somehow disappeared. Lily figured they must be in the dorms.

"A.J...? Mars...?" Lily called out. Nobody answered.

"Hmph," Lily mumbled, opening the drapes of each bed in the dorm. Nobody was there, it was only Lily alone in the dorm.

"Oh, where are theyy...?" Lily muttered, approaching her own corner of the room. She pulled opened the drapes, hoping to find Alison and Maria hiding there, laughing. But they weren't there. Instead, there was something wrapped in shiny gold paper sitting on her bed.

Lily thought it could be Alison's, or Maria's, but there was a huge "LILY" written on it in a black pen. Wondering what it could be, Lily stripped the gift open, shocked to find what had dropped from it.

Writings by Lily Evans

"Oh, I've found it! I've found it!" Lily squealed happily. She then turned around, expecting Alison and Maria there, but they weren't.

"Wonder who sent it." Lily wondered, looking on the wrapping paper for names. But there was only the big "Lily" on it.

Shrugging, Lily grabbed her notebook and went down to the dungeons, afraid to be late for class.

 




 

"Miss Evans! Are you even paying attention?" The Potions master, as well as the Slytherin's head, barked.

"Uhh... yes sir." Lily said, shoving her notebook under the desk.

The Potions master began to pair the class into groups of 2, and Lily was paired with Alison. Lily gratefully walked over to Alison's desk, carrying her cauldron. Usually Lily had to work with Dennis Avery, and that wasn't very pleasant, because Lily swore that Avery kept on hitting on her.

Poor Maria had been paired with Snape, once again. Maria looked disgusted as she dragged her cauldron towards him. But Snape actually looked quite happy. Fact was that Snape has a BIG crush on Maria.

James and Dennis Avery were working in the back, Sirius was working with Remus, and Peter had skipped potions because he had to go to the Hospital wing.

"Hey Lil," Alison greeted. Lily smiled back.

"Guess what, I found my notebook." Lily said, showing Alison the black notebook.

"Thats great. Where did you find it?"

"Well, I was looking for you guys just then, and I found it wrapped on my bed." Lily said.

"Hmm, that sounds interesting. Maybe someone found it." Alison shrugged. "Are you ready to make the potion?" 

"Uh.. sure, yeah." Lily nodded. The fact was she haven't been listening to class, and she wasn't quite sure what potion they were suppose to brew.

"Okay, uhh... two strands of unicorn hair... 4 frog eyeballs... shredded dragon skin..." Alison said, ticking off the list of ingrediants.

"Uhh... Alison, what potion are we suppose to make again?" Lily asked cautiously.

Alison turned to her, shocked. "Don't tell me you haven't been listening to class."

Lily bit her lip. "Uh, I wasn't.." Lily said. "I'm sorry..."

"AH, Oh, Whatever, I think I know how to brew it." Alison said. "Don't worry. They have it in the textbook anyway."

Lily let out a sigh of relief and helped Alison brew the potion.

Two seats from where Lily and Alison were brewing, James and Dennis Avery were working quietly.

"Potter," Avery smirked.

"WHAT?"

"I heard you and Evans have a thing for each other."

"Huh?" James mumbled. "No we don't. We're not even friends."

"Right, Potter." Avery said, laughing. "And you're a true slytheirn."

"Wow, that must be the first joke I've ever heard from you," James muttered.

"Heard that, Potter." Avery said smugly. "Well, since you're 'not even friends' with Evans, I guess I'll take her out."

James, who had been holding a small bottle of pheonix tears, dropped it in surprise, making the bottle crash onto the floor into small bits of glass.

"POTTER!!" Professor Durst barked. "DETENTION!"

"Uh... y-yes sir." James said tiredly, cleaning up the mess with his wand. Prof. Durst gave him another bottle of pheonix tears.

"Was that too much for you, Potter?" Avery asked haughtily.







"Lily! Don't put that-" Alison started, but it was too late, Lily had already poured in the ginseng juice. "In.." Alison sighed, as their supposed-to-be green potion turned out more muddy blue.

"I'm sorry!" Lily squealed. "Oh no, I think there's a reverse ingrediant.." Lily mumbled, flipping through the textbook. Fact was she was distracted by James, who had dropped the bottle and smashed it into pieces.

"There's no reverse ingrediant..." Alison sighed. "The Potion will explode any moment."

Lily stared in horror at the muddy blue potion that was bubbling excitedly in her cauldron.

"Stand back!" Alison ordered. True to her words, the cauldron exploded, the blue potion covering Lily, Alison and the floor.

"EVANS! YOU PUT GINSENG ROOTS IN, DIDN'T YOU?" Professor Durst barked.

"Uh- yeah, but-"

"FIRST POTTER NOW YOU! DETENTION!" He hollered, making everyone jump, especially Lily.

"Er- yes sir..." Lily stuttered.

"JOHNSON! You help Evans clean this mess up! Why didn't you even warn her? 20 points from Gryffindor!" Professor Durst said, tossing two old ragged towels to them.

Alison mumbled something about stupid potions, fortunately Prof. Durst was off examining Maria's and Snape's potion, which turned out very well.

"I'm sorry Allie," Lily whispered, using her wand to clean the puddle of potions, and wiping the remainings with the towel.

"It's okay, it happens every lesson." ALison shrugged, wiping the floor. "Why were you so distracted anyway?"

"Oh, no, it's just Potter dropped that bottle and it startled me, I guess." Lily muttered.

"Evans, Potter, you'll be serving detention together," Professor Durst said. "We'll talk about it after class."

Lily cursed softly, while still wiping the floor. Alison gave her a look of sympathy, while still wiping the floor.

The fact was ever since that faithful night, Lily had been *trying* to avoid him- but everytime she looked, he was there, and he was looking at her. She hadn't said a word to him, not even an insult, and she hadn't expected to any time soon.

"SO you've got detention with my girl," Avery remarked, a few tables away from where Lily and Alison were wiping the floor.

"Who said she's your girl?" James scoffed. He was obviously very ticked by Avery's remark.

"Well, you said so yourself she's not yours." Avery smirked.

James chose this moment to shut up.






As Prof. Durst dismissed their potions lesson, Lily grabbed her bookbag, and notebook, and trooped to Prof. Durst's desk.

"Evans," Avery said, approaching her. Lily groaned inside, she was happy she had at least one Avery-free potions lesson, but that changed.

"Yes, Avery?"

"When you want a better f*** then Potter, you know where to find me," He said, winking at her in a very disturbing way. Lily's jaw dropped in surprise, and her eyes widen in horror, as Avery *happily* walked away.

"Evans! Potter! 7pm at the Astronomy Tower. The walls need some cleaning." Prof. Durst smirked. Lily's insides began to scream.

'Astronomy Tower?' James thought. The Astronomy Tower was known for the popular making-out spot in school. 'Detention. Alone. With Lily. In the Astronomy Tower. Hmm....'

James couldn't help but grin.



'No, no no no no no noNo no NO no NO nO!' Lily thought. 'Oh GOD, I'm going to serve detention with JAMES alone in the ASTRONOMY TOWER!'

It was History of Magic, while the ghost of Professor Binns drone on about the Medieval times, Lily was doodling in her notebook, while, stealing quite a few glances at James.

He wasn't listening to the teacher, that was for sure. Heck, no one was. But James' eyes had that glassy look, as if he was thinking about something important.

'Get real Evans, he's not thinking about you,' Lily thought, drawing a heart on the first page of her notebook. Sighing softly, Lily turned the pages to the last page she wrote.

But to her surprise, it wasn't she who wrote the last page.

I've looked to you so many times
To see your happy smile
To see your green eyes sparkling
with all the joys inside
But of course all those
weren't made for me,


When you come to insult me
my world collapse into pears
The words we exchange, words of hate
or is it words of love?
All I know is that I can't stop thinking
about you, my love
 
I wish I could gather the courage to tell you how I feel
But I know you don't feel the same way
So why should I fear?
Here I am spending my days
By watching you from afar
Wondering when this sudden change of heart
Could clear it up at all?

~J.P  1975


Lily felt her heart flutter. 'J.P'? The only person with the intials 'JP' that she knew was James Potter.

'Did he write this?' Lily thought, scanning the poem. The handwriting slightly looked like his, but Lily wasn't quite sure.

"Hey Allie." Lily whispered sweetly. Alison who was one of the few who were still awake, turned to face her with a sleepy grin.

"Hey Lil," Alison greeted back, yawning.

"Hey, who in this school has the initials 'J.P'?"

"J.P?" Alison asked, creasing her forehead. "Uhh.. lemme see... well, there's Jake Peterson, Jefferson Pent, Jackie Pinaout, Jessica Park, Jemina Pilnart, oh and of course James Potter."

Lily nodded, her mind thinking fast. Alison had only named 3 guys, and Jake was a 5th year Hufflepuff, Jefferson was a 7th year Slytherin. "Is that all?"

Alison bit her lip, thinking hard. "Well, that's the only ones I know, from 4th year up."

"Right," Lily said. That leaves it to two candidates, James Potter and Jake Peterson.

"Why do you want to know anyway?" Alison asked curiously. Lily simply gave her a sweet smile. "Just wondering."

Alison pursed her lips. "Well," Alison said, resting her elbow on the table. "You seem distracted today, is something wrong?"

For a moment Lily wanted to pour out all her thoughts and feelings, but she quickly resist the idea to do so.

"No, nothing's wrong." Lily said assuringly. "Hey, look, Maria's sleeping on Sirius's shoulder,"
Lily said, changing the subject quickly.

"Oh yeah," Alison said, grinning. "Isn't that cute..." Sirius wasn't sleeping, but was playing with one of Maria's curls dreamily.

"Do you think they like each other?" Lily asked.

"Maria likes him, doesn't she?" Alison said softly.

"Yeah, but she doesn't think she has a chance with him." Lily whispered.

"Hm, she shouldn't worry, he really likes her." Alison said, rubbing her eyes.

"But Maria doesn't really like Sirius's 'lifestyle' remember? I think that's the only thing holding her back."

"Oh, you mean how Sirius is such a womanizer?" Alison nodded, "Yeah, too bad."






The 5th year Gryffindor girls' dorm was empty and rather dim lit, most girls had went off to dinner, but Lily Evans, who claimed to be not hungry, was sitting on her bed, thinking hard. 

'Jake or James, Jake or James...?' Lily thought, staring at her notebook. Jake Peterson was fairly nice to her, sometimes too nice, some people had said he was interested in her, but Lily just couldn't see herself with him. Ever.

How much her heart wanted to think it was James who had wrote this sweet poem for her, Lily knew better than to think that. James Potter and Lily Evans were mortal enemies, remember? Yes, but what about all the sweet things he had done? What about that quick kiss they had shared? Lily kept on remembering those various events, knowing that her feelings towards James Potter had changed.

She slowly read the poem again, emphasizing each sentence, word by word. Then it got to her. She quickly put the notebook in her secret stash of personal items and went to detention.

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A/N: Phew! Well, hope you all enjoyed this chapter. You know the drill, R/R... I asked too much for the last chapter, didn't I? haha! Well, Whatever, just review! REVIEW! REVIEW! Your reviews are as important to me as AIR TO BREATH! heh, so just review.

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