Epiphany
Rachel dropped the phone and backed away. She began to hyperventilate. Now he knew she was here, now he would be running through the front door any minute. She hurried out of the apartment to Monica and Chandler's. Monica was cooking and Josh was playing with a truck. Phoebe, Joey and Sandi were in the living room with Josh, and Chandler was at the kitchen table sorting the checkbook. She looked at Monica who looked at her in bewilderment.
"He knows I'm here."
"What? How?" Monica asked calmly.
"He called, and he heard my voce, and he asked if it was me."
"What did you do?" Chandler asked.
"I dropped the phone and came over here." She said nervously. "I need to hide." She said quickly.
"I thought you wanted to see him?" Phoebe asked a little bit confused.
"I do, but you and Monica convinced me that it was a bad idea and now, I don't know what to do!" She said pacing. "I didn't want to see him like this." She heard footsteps outside of the apartment, and someone enter Phoebe and Joey's. Monica ran to the door and looked out of the peak hole.
"It's him," she whispered. Rachel ran into the bathroom. She listened to the noises outside. At first all she could hear was the sizzling of the stove, but then she heard the front door open.
"Oh Ross, what are you doing here?" Monica asked unusually loud.
"Nothing. So, have you uh, heard anything from Rachel?" He asked suspiciously.
"No." Monica said slowly. Ross looked at her and nodded.
"Right, why would she try and get into contact with us?" He said sadly. Rachel felt her heart sink. She never knew how much she had hurt him when she left, but he hurt her too.
"Nope, nothing about Rachel here." Chandler said pointing to the bathroom. Monica smiled and shrugged, then turned back to her cooking. His eyes widened and he pointed to the bathroom also to confirm it. Ross half smiled, and walked to the bathroom door. Rachel held her breath.
"Rachel?" He asked as he lightly rapped on the door. Rachel got off of the counter and walked to the door. She set her hand onto the knob, and gripped it. She heard it rattle because of the shaking of her hand. She bit her bottom lip and turned the handle slowly. She held her breath and pulled the door open.
She stepped out, their eyes locked and they both stared. Right there and then time just stood still. For a moment the whole world revolved around only them.
"Rach, I missed you so much." He said with tears in his eyes. She smiled a little bit, and they embraced. It was such a strong yet gentle hug. They had waited four years, and now they were in each other's arms. The laughter and tears soon ended, when there was a knock at the front door. Chandler went to open it. It was Mona. Ross looked at Mona, then back at Rachel who simply stared at Mona. Ross let go of Rachel and walked over to Mona.
"Uh, Mona, this is Rachel. You remember her? I told you about her." Ross asked nervously. Mona smiled.
"The famous Rachel, of course. It's so great to finally meet you." She neared Rachel and shook her hand. Rachel smiled politely and walked towards the living room, sitting next to Sandi.
"Mona, what are you doing here?" Ross asked.
"I just wanted to tell you that my work called and they need me to fly into Quebec for the week, so I need to leave tonight."
"Tonight? That's, uh, soon." Ross said sadly.
"I know, they had Barb who was going to do it, but she had a family crisis, AKA she blew us off, so they asked if I could go. I just said yes, I need the promotion, you know that." Ross looked back at Rachel who looked at him with sadness in her eyes, and then she looked back up at the TV.
"Okay, I'll, uh, I'll take you home, help you pack and call you a cab, okay?" He said helpfully.
"Will you? That would be great. Let's go then." She waved to everyone. "Bye Rachel, it was great meeting you." Ross and Mona left. Rachel stood.
"I need to go to bed." She said slowly.
"Rachel, it's 6:00." Monica informed her.
"I know." She said as she exited.
Rachel got back into Phoebe and Joey's. She walked into Sandi's room and laid down on the bed. She wasn't at all tired, but she was exhausted from seeing Ross again. She got into her bag and pulled out the picture. It was time to forget. But she couldn't. She was an idiot to think coming back here would solve anything. She set the picture on the nightstand and stared at it until she fell asleep.
Rachel looked at the Winnie the Pooh clock on the wall. 10:07. She had only slept for four hours, she wondered what woke her up. She heard noise coming from the living room, but shrugged it off because the thought it was only Phoebe and Joey. She laid back down and looked out the window. She saw tall skyscrapers and buildings. She closed her eyes as she heard the door open. She opened them just enough to see who it was, and she was surprised to see it was Ross. She rolled over to her side, facing him, her eyes still closed. She sat up slowly.
"What are you doing in here?" She asked groggily.
"I was just seeing if you were asleep or if you were faking it like you used to." He smiled. She looked at him. He hadn't changed. His hair was still dark, his eyes still brown.
"How long have you been with Mona?" she asked in a whisper.
"Five months." He replied. He wished she had gotten here earlier, before Mona. He didn't know that seeing her again would set off so many feelings. "Why did you leave?" He asked sadly. She shook her head.
"I couldn't be here anymore."
"Because of me?" he asked in a low tone, he stared at the ground.
"There were other reasons." She said comforting him. She knew that there were none. She stood up. "I missed you too." She said with tears in her eyes. He began to cry. She didn't know exactly why, but he did. She wrapped her arms around him and held him close to her.
"I'm so sorry." He said. She wiped tears of her own.
"Ross, you don't need to be sorry. I came here to say I forgive you." She bit her lip. "I was so deeply hurt by the fact that you, well, you know. I couldn't find it in myself at the time to forgive you, but I have now. I want you to be happy. I need finality. And I know for you and Mona to have a long life together, you do too." She choked on the last part. She didn't want Mona to have Ross. She smiled. "I left because I was mad at you, and I came back because I never stopped loving you and never will, I want you to know that whenever you doubt it. And with love comes sacrifice, so I want you to take Mona and give her the same amount you gave to me. She'll be crazy if she lets you get away."
He looked down at the nightstand, and the picture caught his eye. He smiled at it.
"Do you ever think about how we used to be?"
"Is everyday specific enough for you?
You words; to me a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
The words just disappear
Ross looked into her eyes and nodded.
"Me too."
Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
"Rachel, what if we think we did all the wrong things, but were right all along?"
"I don't know, where would that leave us?"
So I speak you in riddles
Cause my words get in my way
I smoke the whole thing in my head
And feel it wash away
Cause I can't take any more of this
I want to come apart or
Dig myself into a hole
Inside your precious heart
Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
Ross smiled at Rachel and she kissed his cheek, and with that, he was gone. She laid back down on the bed and tried to fall asleep, but the song still echoed in her mind.
I am nothing more than a little girl inside
That cries out for attention
Thought I always try to hide
And I talk to you like children
But I don't know how I feel but I know
I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed
Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said..
Epiphany
Rachel fell asleep.
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Rachel dropped the phone and backed away. She began to hyperventilate. Now he knew she was here, now he would be running through the front door any minute. She hurried out of the apartment to Monica and Chandler's. Monica was cooking and Josh was playing with a truck. Phoebe, Joey and Sandi were in the living room with Josh, and Chandler was at the kitchen table sorting the checkbook. She looked at Monica who looked at her in bewilderment.
"He knows I'm here."
"What? How?" Monica asked calmly.
"He called, and he heard my voce, and he asked if it was me."
"What did you do?" Chandler asked.
"I dropped the phone and came over here." She said nervously. "I need to hide." She said quickly.
"I thought you wanted to see him?" Phoebe asked a little bit confused.
"I do, but you and Monica convinced me that it was a bad idea and now, I don't know what to do!" She said pacing. "I didn't want to see him like this." She heard footsteps outside of the apartment, and someone enter Phoebe and Joey's. Monica ran to the door and looked out of the peak hole.
"It's him," she whispered. Rachel ran into the bathroom. She listened to the noises outside. At first all she could hear was the sizzling of the stove, but then she heard the front door open.
"Oh Ross, what are you doing here?" Monica asked unusually loud.
"Nothing. So, have you uh, heard anything from Rachel?" He asked suspiciously.
"No." Monica said slowly. Ross looked at her and nodded.
"Right, why would she try and get into contact with us?" He said sadly. Rachel felt her heart sink. She never knew how much she had hurt him when she left, but he hurt her too.
"Nope, nothing about Rachel here." Chandler said pointing to the bathroom. Monica smiled and shrugged, then turned back to her cooking. His eyes widened and he pointed to the bathroom also to confirm it. Ross half smiled, and walked to the bathroom door. Rachel held her breath.
"Rachel?" He asked as he lightly rapped on the door. Rachel got off of the counter and walked to the door. She set her hand onto the knob, and gripped it. She heard it rattle because of the shaking of her hand. She bit her bottom lip and turned the handle slowly. She held her breath and pulled the door open.
She stepped out, their eyes locked and they both stared. Right there and then time just stood still. For a moment the whole world revolved around only them.
"Rach, I missed you so much." He said with tears in his eyes. She smiled a little bit, and they embraced. It was such a strong yet gentle hug. They had waited four years, and now they were in each other's arms. The laughter and tears soon ended, when there was a knock at the front door. Chandler went to open it. It was Mona. Ross looked at Mona, then back at Rachel who simply stared at Mona. Ross let go of Rachel and walked over to Mona.
"Uh, Mona, this is Rachel. You remember her? I told you about her." Ross asked nervously. Mona smiled.
"The famous Rachel, of course. It's so great to finally meet you." She neared Rachel and shook her hand. Rachel smiled politely and walked towards the living room, sitting next to Sandi.
"Mona, what are you doing here?" Ross asked.
"I just wanted to tell you that my work called and they need me to fly into Quebec for the week, so I need to leave tonight."
"Tonight? That's, uh, soon." Ross said sadly.
"I know, they had Barb who was going to do it, but she had a family crisis, AKA she blew us off, so they asked if I could go. I just said yes, I need the promotion, you know that." Ross looked back at Rachel who looked at him with sadness in her eyes, and then she looked back up at the TV.
"Okay, I'll, uh, I'll take you home, help you pack and call you a cab, okay?" He said helpfully.
"Will you? That would be great. Let's go then." She waved to everyone. "Bye Rachel, it was great meeting you." Ross and Mona left. Rachel stood.
"I need to go to bed." She said slowly.
"Rachel, it's 6:00." Monica informed her.
"I know." She said as she exited.
Rachel got back into Phoebe and Joey's. She walked into Sandi's room and laid down on the bed. She wasn't at all tired, but she was exhausted from seeing Ross again. She got into her bag and pulled out the picture. It was time to forget. But she couldn't. She was an idiot to think coming back here would solve anything. She set the picture on the nightstand and stared at it until she fell asleep.
Rachel looked at the Winnie the Pooh clock on the wall. 10:07. She had only slept for four hours, she wondered what woke her up. She heard noise coming from the living room, but shrugged it off because the thought it was only Phoebe and Joey. She laid back down and looked out the window. She saw tall skyscrapers and buildings. She closed her eyes as she heard the door open. She opened them just enough to see who it was, and she was surprised to see it was Ross. She rolled over to her side, facing him, her eyes still closed. She sat up slowly.
"What are you doing in here?" She asked groggily.
"I was just seeing if you were asleep or if you were faking it like you used to." He smiled. She looked at him. He hadn't changed. His hair was still dark, his eyes still brown.
"How long have you been with Mona?" she asked in a whisper.
"Five months." He replied. He wished she had gotten here earlier, before Mona. He didn't know that seeing her again would set off so many feelings. "Why did you leave?" He asked sadly. She shook her head.
"I couldn't be here anymore."
"Because of me?" he asked in a low tone, he stared at the ground.
"There were other reasons." She said comforting him. She knew that there were none. She stood up. "I missed you too." She said with tears in her eyes. He began to cry. She didn't know exactly why, but he did. She wrapped her arms around him and held him close to her.
"I'm so sorry." He said. She wiped tears of her own.
"Ross, you don't need to be sorry. I came here to say I forgive you." She bit her lip. "I was so deeply hurt by the fact that you, well, you know. I couldn't find it in myself at the time to forgive you, but I have now. I want you to be happy. I need finality. And I know for you and Mona to have a long life together, you do too." She choked on the last part. She didn't want Mona to have Ross. She smiled. "I left because I was mad at you, and I came back because I never stopped loving you and never will, I want you to know that whenever you doubt it. And with love comes sacrifice, so I want you to take Mona and give her the same amount you gave to me. She'll be crazy if she lets you get away."
He looked down at the nightstand, and the picture caught his eye. He smiled at it.
"Do you ever think about how we used to be?"
"Is everyday specific enough for you?
You words; to me a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
The words just disappear
Ross looked into her eyes and nodded.
"Me too."
Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
"Rachel, what if we think we did all the wrong things, but were right all along?"
"I don't know, where would that leave us?"
So I speak you in riddles
Cause my words get in my way
I smoke the whole thing in my head
And feel it wash away
Cause I can't take any more of this
I want to come apart or
Dig myself into a hole
Inside your precious heart
Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
Ross smiled at Rachel and she kissed his cheek, and with that, he was gone. She laid back down on the bed and tried to fall asleep, but the song still echoed in her mind.
I am nothing more than a little girl inside
That cries out for attention
Thought I always try to hide
And I talk to you like children
But I don't know how I feel but I know
I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed
Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said..
Epiphany
Rachel fell asleep.
XOXOElizabethXOXO
Thank you all for your reviews! I love you all!