Moving On
I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons,'
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame
Trapped in the past for too long
I'm moving on
I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm moving on
I'm moving on, at last I can see
Life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantee but I'm not alone
There comes a time in every ones life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I sold what I could,
Packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should,
But lived like I shouldn't
I had to loose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road.
I'm moving on
The last few days had been anything but easy for Rachel. Coming back to your best friends lives, confessing love to someone. But Rachel was ready to get her life back. Her job, her friends: to make up for lost times. She thought about everything on her way home from the museum. She still couldn't get over how close she had gotten to getting Ross back. She was pretty disappointed that she didn't get too far with it though. Maybe, she had to do what had worked in the past for them. Waiting it out. When she started liking him in the very beginning, she waited it out. When he made the list, they waited it out. Even with the break: waiting four years was still waiting it out.
She walked back up to the hallway leading to Phoebe and Joey's apartment, but suddenly she didn't feel like going inside. She wanted to walk more, to get her ideas together. She wanted to breath. She turned at walked down the stairs. Rachel was half way down the stairs when she stopped, staring down at the man who was going up them. She half smiled, but corrected herself, making a serious face. He looked up and stopped too.
"Hi." She said quietly.
"Hey." Ross said back. "I was just thinking about what you said at the museum and.." He began to talk quickly. Rachel walked down the stairs slowly, one step at a time, until she came face to face with him.
"Let's talk about this at your place." She said passing him. He quickly fell into step with her all the way to the exit of the building.
The walk to his apartment was silent. He seemed to be rehearsing what he needed to say over and over again inside of his head. Rachel, however, was deep in thought. She knew that this was it. She was almost there. Almost back into his heart, if she had ever left. She leaned her head on his shoulder as they continued down the sidewalk, untul they reached his apartment.
"Here, let me take your coat." He said as Rachel handed him her jacket. He smiled. "Do you want anything?" He asked. She shook her head.
"You were saying though?"
"I was? Yes. I was. I was thinking about what you said back at the uh, the uh, uhm."
"Museum?"
"Yes! Yes! Museum." She could tell he was nervous. "I wanted to tell you I think that, maybe we could work out, you know? I just think that we seriously need therapy first."
"Therapy? Ross, just listen to me: Do you ever just know? I mean, do you ever just have that feeling that things were meant to be? If you don't, I feel so bad for you because you have NO clue what you are missing. I know that you are the person I am meant to be with. And if you can't see that WITHOUT a doctor telling you, I don't think you agree with how I feel." She said backing away from him slowly.
"It's just a suggestion. I really, really want this. God, I want this. I just, I don't know if we can do it alone. We need help."
"Well, I don't think we do. I love you Ross. I do. There are no if ands or buts about it. I never stopped loving you." She paused and smiled. "Let's face it, we're stuck with each other." Ross smiled a little and stepped closer to her, putting his forehead to hers.
"I love you too. And,,,, maybe we don't need counseling. I just thought that we needed that little extra push."
"I already got pushed. The second I saw you again." There was a long pause, Ross just stared longingly into her eyes. Finally, in one swift move, he pulled her closer and pressed his lips to hers, wrapping his arms fully around her waist. Rachel slid her hands up his back, resting on his shoulders. The kiss seemed to last forever. Finally, they parted, giving each other a few shorter kisses here and there. Ross opened his eyes.
"So, what's going to happen with us?" He asked in a whisper. Rachel just sighed.
"We're going to wake up each morning. We are going to breathe in and out. We are going to go on with our lives..." She smiled. "And we'll make love every single night." Both laughed quietly.
"Promise?" He asked in a teasing tone.
Both just sat on the couch, smiling sweetly at each other. Rachel leaned her head on his shoulder like she had done outside.
"Oh..:" she sighed. "I promise. Do you promise?" She asked calmly. Ross looked down at her then back at his hands.
"Forever and ever."
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Epilogue:
Ross asked Rachel to marry him within the first two years they were reunited. (He was a little shocked when Rachel knew his speech he gave her that night.) The wedding was in Scarsdale, where they now live. Sandi was the flower girl, and Josh was the ring bearer. The wedding was outside, at night, under the stars. (Pretty cool, eh?) They bought a big house for the big family they long to have. So far, Rachel is only pregnant, with a girl.
Most people say, that there is no telling what happens in love. It's like a crooked game of poker. But once in a while, you just know....
"***True love cannot be found where it doesn't truly exist..
Nor can it be hidden where it truly does..****"
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The sun was setting over the hills. It was Rachel's favorite time of the day. The time when the stars where getting ready co come out and shine. She sat on her front porch, stroking her stomach lovingly. 7 months pregnant. She could hardly wait. She looked inside the house; Ross had just gotten home from work. He was looking through the mail, but set it down on the counter and walked out by Rachel instead.
"Hey." He smiled.
"Hey you." She smiled back. He leaned in and kissed her cheek.
"Any baby news?" He asked excitedly.
"She moved again today." She smiled looking down at her stomach.
He smiled and gave her a hug. He looked out towards the sunset as he sat down beside her.
"Did you ever think we'd make it this far?" He asked as he stared hypnotized by the sun setting.
"Hmmm.." She shrugged. She leaned against him. "But we did. And that's all that matters."
The End
XOXOElizabethXOXO
I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons,'
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame
Trapped in the past for too long
I'm moving on
I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm moving on
I'm moving on, at last I can see
Life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantee but I'm not alone
There comes a time in every ones life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I sold what I could,
Packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should,
But lived like I shouldn't
I had to loose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road.
I'm moving on
The last few days had been anything but easy for Rachel. Coming back to your best friends lives, confessing love to someone. But Rachel was ready to get her life back. Her job, her friends: to make up for lost times. She thought about everything on her way home from the museum. She still couldn't get over how close she had gotten to getting Ross back. She was pretty disappointed that she didn't get too far with it though. Maybe, she had to do what had worked in the past for them. Waiting it out. When she started liking him in the very beginning, she waited it out. When he made the list, they waited it out. Even with the break: waiting four years was still waiting it out.
She walked back up to the hallway leading to Phoebe and Joey's apartment, but suddenly she didn't feel like going inside. She wanted to walk more, to get her ideas together. She wanted to breath. She turned at walked down the stairs. Rachel was half way down the stairs when she stopped, staring down at the man who was going up them. She half smiled, but corrected herself, making a serious face. He looked up and stopped too.
"Hi." She said quietly.
"Hey." Ross said back. "I was just thinking about what you said at the museum and.." He began to talk quickly. Rachel walked down the stairs slowly, one step at a time, until she came face to face with him.
"Let's talk about this at your place." She said passing him. He quickly fell into step with her all the way to the exit of the building.
The walk to his apartment was silent. He seemed to be rehearsing what he needed to say over and over again inside of his head. Rachel, however, was deep in thought. She knew that this was it. She was almost there. Almost back into his heart, if she had ever left. She leaned her head on his shoulder as they continued down the sidewalk, untul they reached his apartment.
"Here, let me take your coat." He said as Rachel handed him her jacket. He smiled. "Do you want anything?" He asked. She shook her head.
"You were saying though?"
"I was? Yes. I was. I was thinking about what you said back at the uh, the uh, uhm."
"Museum?"
"Yes! Yes! Museum." She could tell he was nervous. "I wanted to tell you I think that, maybe we could work out, you know? I just think that we seriously need therapy first."
"Therapy? Ross, just listen to me: Do you ever just know? I mean, do you ever just have that feeling that things were meant to be? If you don't, I feel so bad for you because you have NO clue what you are missing. I know that you are the person I am meant to be with. And if you can't see that WITHOUT a doctor telling you, I don't think you agree with how I feel." She said backing away from him slowly.
"It's just a suggestion. I really, really want this. God, I want this. I just, I don't know if we can do it alone. We need help."
"Well, I don't think we do. I love you Ross. I do. There are no if ands or buts about it. I never stopped loving you." She paused and smiled. "Let's face it, we're stuck with each other." Ross smiled a little and stepped closer to her, putting his forehead to hers.
"I love you too. And,,,, maybe we don't need counseling. I just thought that we needed that little extra push."
"I already got pushed. The second I saw you again." There was a long pause, Ross just stared longingly into her eyes. Finally, in one swift move, he pulled her closer and pressed his lips to hers, wrapping his arms fully around her waist. Rachel slid her hands up his back, resting on his shoulders. The kiss seemed to last forever. Finally, they parted, giving each other a few shorter kisses here and there. Ross opened his eyes.
"So, what's going to happen with us?" He asked in a whisper. Rachel just sighed.
"We're going to wake up each morning. We are going to breathe in and out. We are going to go on with our lives..." She smiled. "And we'll make love every single night." Both laughed quietly.
"Promise?" He asked in a teasing tone.
Both just sat on the couch, smiling sweetly at each other. Rachel leaned her head on his shoulder like she had done outside.
"Oh..:" she sighed. "I promise. Do you promise?" She asked calmly. Ross looked down at her then back at his hands.
"Forever and ever."
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Epilogue:
Ross asked Rachel to marry him within the first two years they were reunited. (He was a little shocked when Rachel knew his speech he gave her that night.) The wedding was in Scarsdale, where they now live. Sandi was the flower girl, and Josh was the ring bearer. The wedding was outside, at night, under the stars. (Pretty cool, eh?) They bought a big house for the big family they long to have. So far, Rachel is only pregnant, with a girl.
Most people say, that there is no telling what happens in love. It's like a crooked game of poker. But once in a while, you just know....
"***True love cannot be found where it doesn't truly exist..
Nor can it be hidden where it truly does..****"
000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000
The sun was setting over the hills. It was Rachel's favorite time of the day. The time when the stars where getting ready co come out and shine. She sat on her front porch, stroking her stomach lovingly. 7 months pregnant. She could hardly wait. She looked inside the house; Ross had just gotten home from work. He was looking through the mail, but set it down on the counter and walked out by Rachel instead.
"Hey." He smiled.
"Hey you." She smiled back. He leaned in and kissed her cheek.
"Any baby news?" He asked excitedly.
"She moved again today." She smiled looking down at her stomach.
He smiled and gave her a hug. He looked out towards the sunset as he sat down beside her.
"Did you ever think we'd make it this far?" He asked as he stared hypnotized by the sun setting.
"Hmmm.." She shrugged. She leaned against him. "But we did. And that's all that matters."
The End
XOXOElizabethXOXO