Title: A Life Deserved
Chapter two: Help
Ch Summary: Sirius gets help from Albus Dumbledore. Remus doesn't want to let go of Sirius, they have their talk.
A/N: Thanks for the comments everyone. I was so nervous about what everyone would think... I'm glad you liked it. Thanks to: kat, Lady Geuna, KateMarie, and Niriko Inverse
Sirius appeared right outside the Hogwarts grounds. The castle hung in the distance. He took his dog form and ran as fast as he could. To anyone, he would have looked like a big black blur. He made his way to the back entrance.
The door was unlocked and unguarded. It was the Summer vacations for the students so it was very easy to get in. With a simple push, the door flung open.
He rushed up flights of stairs. He nearly missed being seen by several roaming teachers. Surely, seeing a dog roaming the empty halls would have caused some notice. He reached the place that he knew as the Headmaster's office. He looked around and barked loudly. At once the doors flicked open. Once he walked in, they snapped shut and locked magically.
Dumbledore was staring at him questioningly "Sirius, what is it?" Then noticing that he was talking to a dog he added "It's safe now."
Instantly the dog became a man. Once again he was asked "What's wrong?"
He breathed deeply and then started "Sir, I followed your orders. I alerted everyone... they're all coming soon. But then I went... and Remus ... he..."
Dumbledore sat calmly listening as Sirius caught his breath and started to continue. Sirius looked at him and boldly said "With all respect sir, the information on Voldemort that you released... it's caused a panic."
"That I expected" he replied "A general fear or panic produces quicker reaction. Reaction from crowds will help on the way to...."
"Reaction!" Sirius was getting angry "You expect a lot of good from people don't you? People and their reactions are the reason that... they're the reason that I think... that I think Remus could be dying."
Dumbledore looked up sharply. Sirius quickly explained the details. There was not much time to explain.
"From what you have explained to me, I would believe that one of the villagers may have used a weakening spell. I would think the "Artofal" curse. If that is true then... it could kill him. What we need to do is get him back here soon. I know our school's Charms teacher should know the counter curse. We have to though. He looked better after he transformed though?"
"Yes..." Sirius said "He had been really hurt... but on the outside... he looked better. Not inside though..."
His voice broke and Dumbledore looked at him sympathetically. Both men left the grounds of the school and appeared at the base of the cave again.
Upon arrival they knew that Remus was no better off. "It's the "artifal"...." Dumbledore whispered to Sirius and then he bent over to Remus and asked "Can you hear us now?"
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Remus looked up to see Sirius and Professor Dumbledore. "Yes I can." he said. He could hear them but he really didn't understand what was going on. His surroundings, the people around him, why he was there... it really wasn't making any sense.
"All right... that's good. Just listen all right? I'm going to get you to the Hogwarts castle. Someone there will know what to do. Keep your mind on Sirius. Sirius, I need you to talk to him all right? Keep his mind on something or else.... just do it."
Sirius was very glad that Dumbledore was in so much control. He'd have lost it under all the pressure. Of course Dumbledore had everything in order. The man knew a lot of good healing spells and Remus became healthy enough on the outside to be magically transported. He talked as often as he could, making sure that he got replies. Then Remus said "When I .... If I get out of this... I need to talk to you. I made a decision."
"We can talk about a lot later all right." he said "Let's just get through this now..."
Once the got to the school it was time for Sirius to leave them. "Go to my office." Dumbledore instructed. It will lock you in and no one will come in there. You'll be safe until we figure it out.
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Sirius heard the door lock behind him. He wanted to scream. They expected him to sit here and wait, not knowing what was happening. When you care that much about someone... and know that they are in so much trouble, yet you can do nothing, it kills you. 'He will be just fine' Sirius said to himself 'He's strong. He always was... '
He sat in that office for hours. It felt like those long hours in Azkaban. He knew he'd be out soon in this case though... yet the fear was just the same.
Finally Dumbledore arrived. He was smiling "Good news" he said "It's fine. Professor Flitwick was told the story, Not the whole story of course, but either way he figure out the counter curse. It will be all right."
Sirius sighed "Sir, you don't know how... how grateful I am... for all your help."
Dumbledore nodded "I understand Sirius." He looked meaningful when he said gently "I've understood since you were boys. All four of you showed it but you and Remus mostly. That love that's there... that's a big thing. A really big thing. Now I arranged it so you could get in without being seen now. He wants to talk to you. Especially about an offer I've made him."
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Sirius entered the room. Remus looked up and smiled. "How are you?" Sirius asked him, he was also smiling. How could he mot be? They were both so relieved.
"Good, thanks to you." he spoke happily but knowing someone for so long, you know when they are troubled.
"That's so good... you looked so terrible... it was just... too much."
"Calm down Sirius. I'm all right... this parts over."
"You used to do that all the time." Sirius said finding himself laughing.
"What?"
"You always were the one taking everything calmly. None of us could get out of the messes we caused... except you."
This caused them both to laugh at themselves "We were really odd then." Remus mused out aloud "I think we still are."
"Let's talk." Sirius said "About now, not then but now... so what did the headmaster offer you?"
Remus sighed. He didn't know how he was going to explain, even to Sirius, the horrible conflict he was feeling. "He offered me the job at Hogwarts again. He says that people need to accept differences now .... and he though it'd be a good idea."
"It is!" Sirius was supportive. He smiled but both he and Remus were thinking the same thing "I could tell you loved that job... don't you want it?"
"Of course I do." he replied smiling but looking suddenly tired "but when you saved me... I knew there's something more important."
Yes, he decided that was how to say it. For years he'd had so much gone wrong in his life. Suffering all those years, one thing in his life could help. This Hogwarts job meant a lot to him but not as much as Sirius. He wanted it but only on one condition. He had to be selfish this once, and get what he wanted.
"Do you mean..." Sirius asked in disbelief.
"Yes I do." he said "I'm not starting that job unless I have you. We can't let those horrible thirteen years ruin everything. Don't you want it... don't you want to... well be with me?"
"Of course I want it." he replied firmly "I love you. I did all those years in Azkaban. It was always you... but now I'm torn up cause... I can't have you now."
"You can have me,"Remus was smiling nervously, scared to tell Sirius what he planned. "I love you and the only way we can be together is if you are cleared... there is only one way to do that... you know what I mean."
When Sirius stayed silent for a few moments, Remus had to sigh "You do know... I want the man that destroyed all we had together locked away or killed. No one is going to try anything... no one except those he hurt most."
"You are not getting yourself killed. Let me do that! No way..."
"Yes..." he said "All my life I never stood up for myself... but now I'm going to. When Peter killed Lily and James, I lost them and you... I lost everything. I know Lily and James are gone. I can't change that but I can get you back. I will cause I'm not going on this way."
He paused and silently added "You want to help me or not?I've all ready talked to Dumbledore and he said that he'd give me the job at the school in the middle of the year and he'd ask you to work with me. "
Sirius looked at him. He'd never seen Remus acting so demanding or impulsive. It was very different. Not being on the run anymore, being with the one person he loved most, and teaching at the school his godson went to... it seemed like a dream. "All right." he said decisively. It was time to take action. "Let's go for it. What do we got to lose?"
"Nothing... maybe everything?"Remus said softly "This will be nothing.... compared to all we've been through."
Sirius nodded. It had been a lot, it still wasn't over... maybe they could make it be?
"Remember in our last year at school." Remus said suddenly "You told me nothing could make you stop loving me... well... terrible things happened and you did stop. So tell me Padfoot, now that the hell is almost gone, do you still feel the way you did?"
"Of course..." Sirius said softly "How could I not? I've been in love with you for years and years, that doesn't change."
"I was worried you didn't." he said slightly "I lived a year wondering where you were. The one owl you sent me was hardly nothing... I'm tired of worrying."
"Remus," he asked "Do they know where Peter is? Does anyone? How are we going to..."
"Calm down." he said "Please, it's so upsetting... I got some information after they cured me. I was told of a place Voldemort was expected to be and I have a horrible feeling that upon finding Voldemort we will find Peter."
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Lifehouse "Am I Ever Gonna Find Out?"
Patience can wait for now
I think I've waited for too long
you always gave a choice
all my life has been slippin through your hands
A/N: So? Any suggestions anyone? I am new to Sirius/Remus fic but I love them so much as a couple!!
Chapter two: Help
Ch Summary: Sirius gets help from Albus Dumbledore. Remus doesn't want to let go of Sirius, they have their talk.
A/N: Thanks for the comments everyone. I was so nervous about what everyone would think... I'm glad you liked it. Thanks to: kat, Lady Geuna, KateMarie, and Niriko Inverse
Sirius appeared right outside the Hogwarts grounds. The castle hung in the distance. He took his dog form and ran as fast as he could. To anyone, he would have looked like a big black blur. He made his way to the back entrance.
The door was unlocked and unguarded. It was the Summer vacations for the students so it was very easy to get in. With a simple push, the door flung open.
He rushed up flights of stairs. He nearly missed being seen by several roaming teachers. Surely, seeing a dog roaming the empty halls would have caused some notice. He reached the place that he knew as the Headmaster's office. He looked around and barked loudly. At once the doors flicked open. Once he walked in, they snapped shut and locked magically.
Dumbledore was staring at him questioningly "Sirius, what is it?" Then noticing that he was talking to a dog he added "It's safe now."
Instantly the dog became a man. Once again he was asked "What's wrong?"
He breathed deeply and then started "Sir, I followed your orders. I alerted everyone... they're all coming soon. But then I went... and Remus ... he..."
Dumbledore sat calmly listening as Sirius caught his breath and started to continue. Sirius looked at him and boldly said "With all respect sir, the information on Voldemort that you released... it's caused a panic."
"That I expected" he replied "A general fear or panic produces quicker reaction. Reaction from crowds will help on the way to...."
"Reaction!" Sirius was getting angry "You expect a lot of good from people don't you? People and their reactions are the reason that... they're the reason that I think... that I think Remus could be dying."
Dumbledore looked up sharply. Sirius quickly explained the details. There was not much time to explain.
"From what you have explained to me, I would believe that one of the villagers may have used a weakening spell. I would think the "Artofal" curse. If that is true then... it could kill him. What we need to do is get him back here soon. I know our school's Charms teacher should know the counter curse. We have to though. He looked better after he transformed though?"
"Yes..." Sirius said "He had been really hurt... but on the outside... he looked better. Not inside though..."
His voice broke and Dumbledore looked at him sympathetically. Both men left the grounds of the school and appeared at the base of the cave again.
Upon arrival they knew that Remus was no better off. "It's the "artifal"...." Dumbledore whispered to Sirius and then he bent over to Remus and asked "Can you hear us now?"
~~~
Remus looked up to see Sirius and Professor Dumbledore. "Yes I can." he said. He could hear them but he really didn't understand what was going on. His surroundings, the people around him, why he was there... it really wasn't making any sense.
"All right... that's good. Just listen all right? I'm going to get you to the Hogwarts castle. Someone there will know what to do. Keep your mind on Sirius. Sirius, I need you to talk to him all right? Keep his mind on something or else.... just do it."
Sirius was very glad that Dumbledore was in so much control. He'd have lost it under all the pressure. Of course Dumbledore had everything in order. The man knew a lot of good healing spells and Remus became healthy enough on the outside to be magically transported. He talked as often as he could, making sure that he got replies. Then Remus said "When I .... If I get out of this... I need to talk to you. I made a decision."
"We can talk about a lot later all right." he said "Let's just get through this now..."
Once the got to the school it was time for Sirius to leave them. "Go to my office." Dumbledore instructed. It will lock you in and no one will come in there. You'll be safe until we figure it out.
~~~
Sirius heard the door lock behind him. He wanted to scream. They expected him to sit here and wait, not knowing what was happening. When you care that much about someone... and know that they are in so much trouble, yet you can do nothing, it kills you. 'He will be just fine' Sirius said to himself 'He's strong. He always was... '
He sat in that office for hours. It felt like those long hours in Azkaban. He knew he'd be out soon in this case though... yet the fear was just the same.
Finally Dumbledore arrived. He was smiling "Good news" he said "It's fine. Professor Flitwick was told the story, Not the whole story of course, but either way he figure out the counter curse. It will be all right."
Sirius sighed "Sir, you don't know how... how grateful I am... for all your help."
Dumbledore nodded "I understand Sirius." He looked meaningful when he said gently "I've understood since you were boys. All four of you showed it but you and Remus mostly. That love that's there... that's a big thing. A really big thing. Now I arranged it so you could get in without being seen now. He wants to talk to you. Especially about an offer I've made him."
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Sirius entered the room. Remus looked up and smiled. "How are you?" Sirius asked him, he was also smiling. How could he mot be? They were both so relieved.
"Good, thanks to you." he spoke happily but knowing someone for so long, you know when they are troubled.
"That's so good... you looked so terrible... it was just... too much."
"Calm down Sirius. I'm all right... this parts over."
"You used to do that all the time." Sirius said finding himself laughing.
"What?"
"You always were the one taking everything calmly. None of us could get out of the messes we caused... except you."
This caused them both to laugh at themselves "We were really odd then." Remus mused out aloud "I think we still are."
"Let's talk." Sirius said "About now, not then but now... so what did the headmaster offer you?"
Remus sighed. He didn't know how he was going to explain, even to Sirius, the horrible conflict he was feeling. "He offered me the job at Hogwarts again. He says that people need to accept differences now .... and he though it'd be a good idea."
"It is!" Sirius was supportive. He smiled but both he and Remus were thinking the same thing "I could tell you loved that job... don't you want it?"
"Of course I do." he replied smiling but looking suddenly tired "but when you saved me... I knew there's something more important."
Yes, he decided that was how to say it. For years he'd had so much gone wrong in his life. Suffering all those years, one thing in his life could help. This Hogwarts job meant a lot to him but not as much as Sirius. He wanted it but only on one condition. He had to be selfish this once, and get what he wanted.
"Do you mean..." Sirius asked in disbelief.
"Yes I do." he said "I'm not starting that job unless I have you. We can't let those horrible thirteen years ruin everything. Don't you want it... don't you want to... well be with me?"
"Of course I want it." he replied firmly "I love you. I did all those years in Azkaban. It was always you... but now I'm torn up cause... I can't have you now."
"You can have me,"Remus was smiling nervously, scared to tell Sirius what he planned. "I love you and the only way we can be together is if you are cleared... there is only one way to do that... you know what I mean."
When Sirius stayed silent for a few moments, Remus had to sigh "You do know... I want the man that destroyed all we had together locked away or killed. No one is going to try anything... no one except those he hurt most."
"You are not getting yourself killed. Let me do that! No way..."
"Yes..." he said "All my life I never stood up for myself... but now I'm going to. When Peter killed Lily and James, I lost them and you... I lost everything. I know Lily and James are gone. I can't change that but I can get you back. I will cause I'm not going on this way."
He paused and silently added "You want to help me or not?I've all ready talked to Dumbledore and he said that he'd give me the job at the school in the middle of the year and he'd ask you to work with me. "
Sirius looked at him. He'd never seen Remus acting so demanding or impulsive. It was very different. Not being on the run anymore, being with the one person he loved most, and teaching at the school his godson went to... it seemed like a dream. "All right." he said decisively. It was time to take action. "Let's go for it. What do we got to lose?"
"Nothing... maybe everything?"Remus said softly "This will be nothing.... compared to all we've been through."
Sirius nodded. It had been a lot, it still wasn't over... maybe they could make it be?
"Remember in our last year at school." Remus said suddenly "You told me nothing could make you stop loving me... well... terrible things happened and you did stop. So tell me Padfoot, now that the hell is almost gone, do you still feel the way you did?"
"Of course..." Sirius said softly "How could I not? I've been in love with you for years and years, that doesn't change."
"I was worried you didn't." he said slightly "I lived a year wondering where you were. The one owl you sent me was hardly nothing... I'm tired of worrying."
"Remus," he asked "Do they know where Peter is? Does anyone? How are we going to..."
"Calm down." he said "Please, it's so upsetting... I got some information after they cured me. I was told of a place Voldemort was expected to be and I have a horrible feeling that upon finding Voldemort we will find Peter."
~~~~~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~~~
Lifehouse "Am I Ever Gonna Find Out?"
Patience can wait for now
I think I've waited for too long
you always gave a choice
all my life has been slippin through your hands
A/N: So? Any suggestions anyone? I am new to Sirius/Remus fic but I love them so much as a couple!!