Title: A Life Deserved
Chapter Three: Desperate Measures
Chapter summary: Plans are underway to capture Peter, but does Sirius want to risk Remus?
A/N: Thanks to those who commented. Great ideas. Thanks to Kat whose wonderful idea is used in this chapter.
"You really think that this is a good idea?" Sirius asked Professor Dumbledore for the third time "Sometimes, Remus, he acts like he can handle more than he can. He might not be ready for this... he's too weak."
"Are you asking me to forbid him to go?"
"No... I guess no." he frowned thinking of a better way to word it "I am just afraid... we know what Harry told us. If this story is true it will be a lot more then he can handle."
Dumbledore saw through everything he was trying to say "And you are fearful because he wants to do it for you?"
"Uh.... yes, I guess that is it." he said softly "I can't stop him can I?"
"Not likely you can..."
"Can we please review what we know?" Sirius asked suddenly "I want to know what we're up against."
"Sirius," he remained calm although Sirius and his constant worries were hard to deal with. "You are referring to Peter Pettigrew then, and his powers?"
"Yeah," Sirius admitted "The way Harry described it was... well it was scary. I can't imagine little Wormtail with all that power."
"Well..." the professor stated calmly "We know from your godson's accounts that he is now powered by a metal arm, given to him by Lord Voldemort."
"Is that increased strength going to hurt us? Will it be a lot more difficult now?"
"Indeed Sirius, but like you said, Remus Lupin will not be swayed by anything you say."
"I hate that." Sirius muttered "Stubborn little...."
But then he smiled "I think I need to talk to him before we go for this. Maybe he will get my points."
"I'll arrange it Sirius." Dumbledore replied.
"Thanks so much," Sirius followed Dumbledore out the room "What you've done for me is more than any man can just ask for."
"You never asked me." he replied leading him into the room "Now you two talk it over and then come to me with the decision. This needs to be done soon if it is done...."
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"Sirius!" Remus felt his eyes fling open as he saw Sirius standing there.
"Hello again," he said smiling a little worriedly " Can we talk for a few moments?"
"Of course."
Sirius moved to a chair and sat down "First, are you feeling better?"
"I all ready told you Sirius." Remus replied laughing "I'm fine, I will live." It felt so good to him to be smiling again. He used to love to smile and laugh with his friends but those days were so long ago.... it seemed like nothing could bring him down at the moment.
"Good, but Remus we really need to discuss Peter... we have to know that he's not the plain talentless boy we knew when we were kids."
His eyes flashed angrily. "That's obvious Sirius, Wormtail is a little murderous traitor."
"He also has power..." Sirius began "An increased strength given to him by Lord Voldemort. It's in his arm... the night Voldemort rose Peter cut off his own arm, tehn Lord Voldemort ....he gave him a powerful, metal arm. He's strong."
"Wow." Remus was speechless "That.... that can't be good."
"I don't think you should fight him Remus. You aren't strong enough and if Peter killed you... I'd never forgive myself for letting you do this."
"Sirius, you never let me do this, it's my own choice. I need you now, it's hopeless... I will fight Peter to get you back, if it's necessary. Even if it kills me."
"Why are you so brave?" Sirius asked angrily "Remus, I hate that! It is so annoying and I cannot stand it."
"What is the matter with me being brave?" he asked "You've done nothing but be brave for so many years."
"I'm used to it." Sirius said smiling but Remus knew he was joking. "I don't want to see you get killed all right?"
"Too bad. Don't say another word."
"This demanding act is going to drive me insane." Sirius teased.
Remus couldn't help the smile on his face "Instead of worrying about me, why don't you think about what will happen if we succeed."
"You mean us together?" He laughed and for a moment he felt pulled back to the old carefree days. These moments made up for the long years of suffering. He smiled and kissed his love, he did it impulsively and was shocked to find himself shaking and nervous.
"Yeah I think that's what I mean. Sirius, you're shaking. Are you .... uh...nervous?"
Sirius felt himself go hot and blush furiously "I'm not exactly used to this." he muttered softly and quickly "I haven't seen you for years and you know, Azkaban, years never felt anything... anything like this."
"I know..."
"Not going to stop you from coming to face Peter, am I?" Sirius asked one final time but he didn't even get an answer. He knew. It was too late... they decided to be together a long time ago and now they had to fulfill that.
Moments later Albus Dumbledore walked into the room. "So?" he asked Sirius.
"We're going for it..." Remus said softly "Unless, of course, we could be of more help other wise. In other ways."
"Nonsense... you are doing me an extreme favor... in fact you both will be the first to know my secret. Hold on while I sound proof the room, no one will hear this." Quickly he sound proofed the door and them turned to them grimly.
"I know," he said "Where Voldemort hides with many of his highest Death Eaters. I have not told anyone yet, in time I was going to get a group of trained and skilled witches and wizards, that is why you were to alert so many people Sirius, and go in there. This though is a perfect start."
"Really?" Sirius was very surprised "Are you certain... where is it?"
"I mapped out a location for you. It is miles to the North of us. I warn you... besides Death Eaters those swamp areas up there are home to many low evil creatures. Be careful."
"You have any idea where this is?" Sirius asked handing the map to Remus. He looked at it and went paler. He was all ready still pale from being hurt so badly.
"Yes Sirius ..." he whispered silently "I know where this place is... I went there before, it was seven years ago. I heard a lot of..."
His voice lowered slightly as he said "I heard a lot of werewolves hid out down there... I was having so much trouble at the time, but it's very terrible.... it's terrible there, everyone is so hopeless and evil because they are hopeless. I couldn't stay there. I still had hope. Oh, he's right Sirius ... it's horrid."
Quickly Sirius but an arm around Remus, "It's all right... don't worry... it's all right."
Professor Dumbledore had gone into a state of pretending he wasn't listening. It wasn't uncommon for him to do that in the old days. He knew well what matters were private. Remus broke the awkward sounds of silence by saying "Sirius, we should do it tomorrow when it gets dark."
"Are you sure we shouldn't wait until your stronger?" Sirius asked.
"No. It's happening tomorrow."
A/N: I know the chapter was very short and basically just Sirius and his doubts but next should be exciting. Please please please review. I want to see if this story is worth continuing. I'll look for some reviews then chapter 4 will go up.
Chapter Three: Desperate Measures
Chapter summary: Plans are underway to capture Peter, but does Sirius want to risk Remus?
A/N: Thanks to those who commented. Great ideas. Thanks to Kat whose wonderful idea is used in this chapter.
"You really think that this is a good idea?" Sirius asked Professor Dumbledore for the third time "Sometimes, Remus, he acts like he can handle more than he can. He might not be ready for this... he's too weak."
"Are you asking me to forbid him to go?"
"No... I guess no." he frowned thinking of a better way to word it "I am just afraid... we know what Harry told us. If this story is true it will be a lot more then he can handle."
Dumbledore saw through everything he was trying to say "And you are fearful because he wants to do it for you?"
"Uh.... yes, I guess that is it." he said softly "I can't stop him can I?"
"Not likely you can..."
"Can we please review what we know?" Sirius asked suddenly "I want to know what we're up against."
"Sirius," he remained calm although Sirius and his constant worries were hard to deal with. "You are referring to Peter Pettigrew then, and his powers?"
"Yeah," Sirius admitted "The way Harry described it was... well it was scary. I can't imagine little Wormtail with all that power."
"Well..." the professor stated calmly "We know from your godson's accounts that he is now powered by a metal arm, given to him by Lord Voldemort."
"Is that increased strength going to hurt us? Will it be a lot more difficult now?"
"Indeed Sirius, but like you said, Remus Lupin will not be swayed by anything you say."
"I hate that." Sirius muttered "Stubborn little...."
But then he smiled "I think I need to talk to him before we go for this. Maybe he will get my points."
"I'll arrange it Sirius." Dumbledore replied.
"Thanks so much," Sirius followed Dumbledore out the room "What you've done for me is more than any man can just ask for."
"You never asked me." he replied leading him into the room "Now you two talk it over and then come to me with the decision. This needs to be done soon if it is done...."
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"Sirius!" Remus felt his eyes fling open as he saw Sirius standing there.
"Hello again," he said smiling a little worriedly " Can we talk for a few moments?"
"Of course."
Sirius moved to a chair and sat down "First, are you feeling better?"
"I all ready told you Sirius." Remus replied laughing "I'm fine, I will live." It felt so good to him to be smiling again. He used to love to smile and laugh with his friends but those days were so long ago.... it seemed like nothing could bring him down at the moment.
"Good, but Remus we really need to discuss Peter... we have to know that he's not the plain talentless boy we knew when we were kids."
His eyes flashed angrily. "That's obvious Sirius, Wormtail is a little murderous traitor."
"He also has power..." Sirius began "An increased strength given to him by Lord Voldemort. It's in his arm... the night Voldemort rose Peter cut off his own arm, tehn Lord Voldemort ....he gave him a powerful, metal arm. He's strong."
"Wow." Remus was speechless "That.... that can't be good."
"I don't think you should fight him Remus. You aren't strong enough and if Peter killed you... I'd never forgive myself for letting you do this."
"Sirius, you never let me do this, it's my own choice. I need you now, it's hopeless... I will fight Peter to get you back, if it's necessary. Even if it kills me."
"Why are you so brave?" Sirius asked angrily "Remus, I hate that! It is so annoying and I cannot stand it."
"What is the matter with me being brave?" he asked "You've done nothing but be brave for so many years."
"I'm used to it." Sirius said smiling but Remus knew he was joking. "I don't want to see you get killed all right?"
"Too bad. Don't say another word."
"This demanding act is going to drive me insane." Sirius teased.
Remus couldn't help the smile on his face "Instead of worrying about me, why don't you think about what will happen if we succeed."
"You mean us together?" He laughed and for a moment he felt pulled back to the old carefree days. These moments made up for the long years of suffering. He smiled and kissed his love, he did it impulsively and was shocked to find himself shaking and nervous.
"Yeah I think that's what I mean. Sirius, you're shaking. Are you .... uh...nervous?"
Sirius felt himself go hot and blush furiously "I'm not exactly used to this." he muttered softly and quickly "I haven't seen you for years and you know, Azkaban, years never felt anything... anything like this."
"I know..."
"Not going to stop you from coming to face Peter, am I?" Sirius asked one final time but he didn't even get an answer. He knew. It was too late... they decided to be together a long time ago and now they had to fulfill that.
Moments later Albus Dumbledore walked into the room. "So?" he asked Sirius.
"We're going for it..." Remus said softly "Unless, of course, we could be of more help other wise. In other ways."
"Nonsense... you are doing me an extreme favor... in fact you both will be the first to know my secret. Hold on while I sound proof the room, no one will hear this." Quickly he sound proofed the door and them turned to them grimly.
"I know," he said "Where Voldemort hides with many of his highest Death Eaters. I have not told anyone yet, in time I was going to get a group of trained and skilled witches and wizards, that is why you were to alert so many people Sirius, and go in there. This though is a perfect start."
"Really?" Sirius was very surprised "Are you certain... where is it?"
"I mapped out a location for you. It is miles to the North of us. I warn you... besides Death Eaters those swamp areas up there are home to many low evil creatures. Be careful."
"You have any idea where this is?" Sirius asked handing the map to Remus. He looked at it and went paler. He was all ready still pale from being hurt so badly.
"Yes Sirius ..." he whispered silently "I know where this place is... I went there before, it was seven years ago. I heard a lot of..."
His voice lowered slightly as he said "I heard a lot of werewolves hid out down there... I was having so much trouble at the time, but it's very terrible.... it's terrible there, everyone is so hopeless and evil because they are hopeless. I couldn't stay there. I still had hope. Oh, he's right Sirius ... it's horrid."
Quickly Sirius but an arm around Remus, "It's all right... don't worry... it's all right."
Professor Dumbledore had gone into a state of pretending he wasn't listening. It wasn't uncommon for him to do that in the old days. He knew well what matters were private. Remus broke the awkward sounds of silence by saying "Sirius, we should do it tomorrow when it gets dark."
"Are you sure we shouldn't wait until your stronger?" Sirius asked.
"No. It's happening tomorrow."
A/N: I know the chapter was very short and basically just Sirius and his doubts but next should be exciting. Please please please review. I want to see if this story is worth continuing. I'll look for some reviews then chapter 4 will go up.