Title: Sometimes
Author: Isabella
Disclaimer: I own nothing. Please don't sue.
Summary: Irina lets Dr. Barnett in on a secret. (Irina's POV).
Sometimes I dream about my former life. I dream that we're a normal family, with normal problems, just like all the other normal families in the world. I am simply a wife and mother, nothing more.
Sometimes I dream that Jack, Sydney, and I are having a picnic in a beautiful park, with birds flying overhead, and a pond nearby. I watch Sydney sitting in her father's lap, eating the bits of a roast beef sandwich he's pulled apart for her. She could never eat a sandwich whole; she always had to pick at it first.
Sometimes I dream that Jack and I are sitting next to each other in a movie theater, listening to Sydney laughing in joy as one of her favorite cartoon characters falls down. I can never see which movie it is, but I always feel Jack's hand on mine as he laughs along with Sydney.
Sometimes I dream that we're all sitting down to dinner together. Jack's just returned from a trip, Sydney's almost finished with her second whole year of school, and I hadn't assassinated an enemy of the Russian government earlier that day. Jack discusses the possibility of getting a dog with Sydney. The radio plays a slow song in the background, but I can never make it out.
Sometimes I dream that Jack and I are sitting in the livingroom, meeting Sydney's first boyfriend.
Sometimes I'm standing at the sink wiping off a plate.
Sometimes I'm sitting in a hard foldout chair, watching my only daughter walk across a stage and accept her diploma.
Sometimes I hear Jack's voice in my dreams. Sometimes I see Sydney standing in front of me with big tears in her eyes and two skinned knees.
Sometimes my dreams overlap with my memories, and I get confused as to what really happened, and what I simply imagined.
Sometimes I wake up crying.