Ain't Talkin' 'Bout Love
*Year 3*
This is a little story about a force to be reckoned with. Something that every one should experience. The best thing in the world. And, no, I ain't talking about love. Love is rotten to the core. I mean real, true friendship.
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"WHAT is THAT?!"
That's never something you want to hear. But hear it I did. From my best friend. In his most repulsed voice. What he was looking at was the cover of my notebook. Or, more specifically, the hearts doodled on my notebook. The ones with "SM luvs RL" written in them.
I, Shelly McKernon, snatched the book away from him. "None of your business, Severus! Leave my stuff alone." He frowned. "Shelly, ya don't really like Lupin, do you?" I stuffed the notebook in my bag. "What if I do? He's pretty nice to me most of the time." He snorted. "Don't kid yerself, Shelly. He hates you as much as he does me." I looked long and hard at the boy I called my best friend, scrawny little Severus Snape. I had once been fooled by his looks, but I knew him better than that after two and a half years of friendship. He was smart and he was strong and oh was he clever. I should of believed him when he said Remus Lupin hated me. But I was thirteen and thought I was in love. "He doesn't hate me, Severus. You're just jealous." I was so immature then. So stupid. "Jealous of what? He doesn't like you. He won't like you. You will get hurt." I hated him. As soon as he said that, I hated him. "He won't like me? He won't?! You dunno that! Just because I'm a Slytherin, right? Or maybe you don't want me to be happy, just because you aren't!" I exploded. He made me so mad. Then I stormed away, leaving him standing there in the classroom, a puzzled look on his face. Had I waited a few minutes, I would've heard the most important thing he said. "I just don't want you getting hurt. I don't want you to cry. It'd hurt me." He muttered, "Because you're my friend."
I did a pretty good job ignoring Severus for a while. I was mad at him and it was nearly Valentine's Day. I wanted to send Remus a card. I was going to be his secret admirer before then (this was my stupid plan) and reveal myself on V-Day. I didn't need Severus. Remus had been unusually nice to me at the time. I thought he liked me too.
I penned my first note to him during lunch.
Dear Remus,
I think you are totally cool and the best looking guy in the school.
I hope we can be friends. I'd like to get to know you.
Luv,
Your Secret Admirer
That's all I wrote. Short and sweet. I sent it to him through use of one of the school owls. I had one of my own, a Pygmy Owl named Malachy, but I didn't want him guessing who I was. I did think he was cute. He had light hair and eyes and he was very sensative and serious...unlike his friends, who picked on me every chance they got. I hated the three of them, Peter Pettigrew, James Potter and (most of all) Sirius Black. But Remus...Remus was different. Or so I thought.
I sent him numerous notes over the course of the following two weeks. All of them elusive as to who I was but full of praise towards him. I didn't know, but he and his friends found them hillarious. Severus caught them bent over one in the library, snickering at what I had written. "Listen! Listen..." Sirius choked out, " 'I love the way you can transfigure things...You're so gentle when you do it...' " He read. "This is priceless!" James laughed "Who do you suppose it is?" Peter was practically rolling on the floor with laughter. "It's probably pathetic Shelly McKernon." Severus heard Sirius say. "She's got some little crush on Remus, doesn't she, Casanova?" He teased. "Stop it." Remus made a face, "Don't say things like that. Eww...Shelly. Bleh. She's so wierd." Severus looked at his feet. "I knew they'd be like this." He whispered to himself, "He'll hurt her. But I don't think she'll listen to me." He almost approached them; asked them not to be mean to me, but he turned back. That's when Sirius saw him. "What do you want, Snape?" He asked in a nasty voice. "Nothing." Severus said softly, "I...nothing. Never mind. I just want a book. That's all." He couldn't do it. He couldn't tell them not to bother me. He let me down.
He tried to tell me what he'd over heard. He came up to me after Potions Class and tried to talk to me. "Shelly...I..I wanted to..." I cut him off. "What now? I don't want to hear it, Severus. Save it for some one who cares." I said snidely. "They're making fun of you!" He blurted out, "They read your notes and laugh at you!" I narrowed my eyes. "Jealous. Just like I said before, jealous. I don't believe you." He looked upset. "I'm not making it up! I wouldn't lie to you. You're my best friend." My turn to hurt him. "I was your best friend. Leave me alone." His mouth fell open. He almost looked like he'd cry. I felt bad, but I pretended I didn't care. I sauntered off like it didn't matter. And that was that.
Breakfast, Valentine's Day morning. The mail was delivered, as usual. I sent Remus a final note -a valentine- with a stupid little poem and my name on it.
Dear Remus,
Roses are red
Storm clouds are black
I like you a lot
Please like me back
Luv,
Your Secret Admirer,
Shelly McKernon
The card was quite lavish, all flowery and covered in hearts and stuff. I'd even put glitter on it and charmed it so it sparkled even when there was no light on the glitter.
I hoped he'd send me a valentine too. And when it came during dinner, if I were smarter, I would've been suspicious right away. This is what it said:
Shelly-
I'm madly in love with you
Meet me outside tonight
at nine o'clock
I have a surprise for you
Love,
Remus
But I wasn't smarter. I read it. Then I read it again and let out a little squeal. He liked me! He Liked Me! HE LIKED ME!!! I was in seventh heaven. I rushed back up to my dorm room without finishing my supper and combed my hair. I hummed to myself as I cleaned my glasses. He had a surprise for me!
I scampered down the steps and out of the Common Room at quarter of nine. Down the halls, through the door and down the wide stone steps. I stopped in the snow at the foot of the stairs and peered around through the moonlight. I didn't see anybody. So he was a little late. No big deal. This was Remus. It'd be worth the wait.
As I looked around again, a flurry of snowballs came hurtling towards me. They hit me all over; in the face, the back, the legs. "Surprise, Nasty Slytherin!" I heard a voice yelling, followed by peels of laughter. I knew that voice...Sirius Black...and I recognized James, Remus and Peter's laughter.
I stood there at the bottom of the steps, snow all over me, tears running down my face. Severus had been right. He hated me. They'd set me up; it was a big joke. I had no friends. I sniffled miserably. Remus was laughing at me when I though he'd been my friend, Severus was gone because I'd chased him away. I was alone again.
I trudged back to the Common Room and up the steps to my room. "What happened to you?" One of my roommates, Pandora, asked in an unconcerned sort of voice. I ignored her. "You've got an owl." My other roomie, Alexandra, informed me. "Malachy's been waiting for you." I flopped down on my bed and took the parchment from my owl. Unrolled it. Read it.
Shelly-
I wish you'd believed me about Remus.
I didn't mean to hurt you when I said it.
I didn't want you to get hurt; You mean a lot to me.
There's something there, something that draws me to you,
and I'm not talking about love. You know what it is.
And I will always be there.
I'll be your shoulder when you need some one to lean on.
Happy Valentine's Day.
Your Best Friend (I hope),
Severus
The paper dropped out of my hands. "What a fool I've been!" I groaned. He really was my best friend. He let me make my own mistakes but he was still there for me. I sat up. Wipped away my tears. Went back down to the Common Room.
Severus was sitting there, waiting for me, by the fire. He looked up at me. "I'm so sorry, Severus." I said quietly, "I was so stupid. I didn't want to believe you. But you were right." He shrugged. "I was your best friend. I had to try." I sat down next to him. "Severus," I looked him in the eye, "You are my best friend." He smiled shyly. "I thought as much."
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Fools fall in love. And fools fall out of love. I suppose I was pretty foolish to think I had a chance. But friendship isn't like that. You can be a fool and still have friends. There was indeed something there. Something we didn't understand. Something I'll probably never understand. And I am not talking about love.
*Year 3*
This is a little story about a force to be reckoned with. Something that every one should experience. The best thing in the world. And, no, I ain't talking about love. Love is rotten to the core. I mean real, true friendship.
@}--,--'---
"WHAT is THAT?!"
That's never something you want to hear. But hear it I did. From my best friend. In his most repulsed voice. What he was looking at was the cover of my notebook. Or, more specifically, the hearts doodled on my notebook. The ones with "SM luvs RL" written in them.
I, Shelly McKernon, snatched the book away from him. "None of your business, Severus! Leave my stuff alone." He frowned. "Shelly, ya don't really like Lupin, do you?" I stuffed the notebook in my bag. "What if I do? He's pretty nice to me most of the time." He snorted. "Don't kid yerself, Shelly. He hates you as much as he does me." I looked long and hard at the boy I called my best friend, scrawny little Severus Snape. I had once been fooled by his looks, but I knew him better than that after two and a half years of friendship. He was smart and he was strong and oh was he clever. I should of believed him when he said Remus Lupin hated me. But I was thirteen and thought I was in love. "He doesn't hate me, Severus. You're just jealous." I was so immature then. So stupid. "Jealous of what? He doesn't like you. He won't like you. You will get hurt." I hated him. As soon as he said that, I hated him. "He won't like me? He won't?! You dunno that! Just because I'm a Slytherin, right? Or maybe you don't want me to be happy, just because you aren't!" I exploded. He made me so mad. Then I stormed away, leaving him standing there in the classroom, a puzzled look on his face. Had I waited a few minutes, I would've heard the most important thing he said. "I just don't want you getting hurt. I don't want you to cry. It'd hurt me." He muttered, "Because you're my friend."
I did a pretty good job ignoring Severus for a while. I was mad at him and it was nearly Valentine's Day. I wanted to send Remus a card. I was going to be his secret admirer before then (this was my stupid plan) and reveal myself on V-Day. I didn't need Severus. Remus had been unusually nice to me at the time. I thought he liked me too.
I penned my first note to him during lunch.
Dear Remus,
I think you are totally cool and the best looking guy in the school.
I hope we can be friends. I'd like to get to know you.
Luv,
Your Secret Admirer
That's all I wrote. Short and sweet. I sent it to him through use of one of the school owls. I had one of my own, a Pygmy Owl named Malachy, but I didn't want him guessing who I was. I did think he was cute. He had light hair and eyes and he was very sensative and serious...unlike his friends, who picked on me every chance they got. I hated the three of them, Peter Pettigrew, James Potter and (most of all) Sirius Black. But Remus...Remus was different. Or so I thought.
I sent him numerous notes over the course of the following two weeks. All of them elusive as to who I was but full of praise towards him. I didn't know, but he and his friends found them hillarious. Severus caught them bent over one in the library, snickering at what I had written. "Listen! Listen..." Sirius choked out, " 'I love the way you can transfigure things...You're so gentle when you do it...' " He read. "This is priceless!" James laughed "Who do you suppose it is?" Peter was practically rolling on the floor with laughter. "It's probably pathetic Shelly McKernon." Severus heard Sirius say. "She's got some little crush on Remus, doesn't she, Casanova?" He teased. "Stop it." Remus made a face, "Don't say things like that. Eww...Shelly. Bleh. She's so wierd." Severus looked at his feet. "I knew they'd be like this." He whispered to himself, "He'll hurt her. But I don't think she'll listen to me." He almost approached them; asked them not to be mean to me, but he turned back. That's when Sirius saw him. "What do you want, Snape?" He asked in a nasty voice. "Nothing." Severus said softly, "I...nothing. Never mind. I just want a book. That's all." He couldn't do it. He couldn't tell them not to bother me. He let me down.
He tried to tell me what he'd over heard. He came up to me after Potions Class and tried to talk to me. "Shelly...I..I wanted to..." I cut him off. "What now? I don't want to hear it, Severus. Save it for some one who cares." I said snidely. "They're making fun of you!" He blurted out, "They read your notes and laugh at you!" I narrowed my eyes. "Jealous. Just like I said before, jealous. I don't believe you." He looked upset. "I'm not making it up! I wouldn't lie to you. You're my best friend." My turn to hurt him. "I was your best friend. Leave me alone." His mouth fell open. He almost looked like he'd cry. I felt bad, but I pretended I didn't care. I sauntered off like it didn't matter. And that was that.
Breakfast, Valentine's Day morning. The mail was delivered, as usual. I sent Remus a final note -a valentine- with a stupid little poem and my name on it.
Dear Remus,
Roses are red
Storm clouds are black
I like you a lot
Please like me back
Luv,
Your Secret Admirer,
Shelly McKernon
The card was quite lavish, all flowery and covered in hearts and stuff. I'd even put glitter on it and charmed it so it sparkled even when there was no light on the glitter.
I hoped he'd send me a valentine too. And when it came during dinner, if I were smarter, I would've been suspicious right away. This is what it said:
Shelly-
I'm madly in love with you
Meet me outside tonight
at nine o'clock
I have a surprise for you
Love,
Remus
But I wasn't smarter. I read it. Then I read it again and let out a little squeal. He liked me! He Liked Me! HE LIKED ME!!! I was in seventh heaven. I rushed back up to my dorm room without finishing my supper and combed my hair. I hummed to myself as I cleaned my glasses. He had a surprise for me!
I scampered down the steps and out of the Common Room at quarter of nine. Down the halls, through the door and down the wide stone steps. I stopped in the snow at the foot of the stairs and peered around through the moonlight. I didn't see anybody. So he was a little late. No big deal. This was Remus. It'd be worth the wait.
As I looked around again, a flurry of snowballs came hurtling towards me. They hit me all over; in the face, the back, the legs. "Surprise, Nasty Slytherin!" I heard a voice yelling, followed by peels of laughter. I knew that voice...Sirius Black...and I recognized James, Remus and Peter's laughter.
I stood there at the bottom of the steps, snow all over me, tears running down my face. Severus had been right. He hated me. They'd set me up; it was a big joke. I had no friends. I sniffled miserably. Remus was laughing at me when I though he'd been my friend, Severus was gone because I'd chased him away. I was alone again.
I trudged back to the Common Room and up the steps to my room. "What happened to you?" One of my roommates, Pandora, asked in an unconcerned sort of voice. I ignored her. "You've got an owl." My other roomie, Alexandra, informed me. "Malachy's been waiting for you." I flopped down on my bed and took the parchment from my owl. Unrolled it. Read it.
Shelly-
I wish you'd believed me about Remus.
I didn't mean to hurt you when I said it.
I didn't want you to get hurt; You mean a lot to me.
There's something there, something that draws me to you,
and I'm not talking about love. You know what it is.
And I will always be there.
I'll be your shoulder when you need some one to lean on.
Happy Valentine's Day.
Your Best Friend (I hope),
Severus
The paper dropped out of my hands. "What a fool I've been!" I groaned. He really was my best friend. He let me make my own mistakes but he was still there for me. I sat up. Wipped away my tears. Went back down to the Common Room.
Severus was sitting there, waiting for me, by the fire. He looked up at me. "I'm so sorry, Severus." I said quietly, "I was so stupid. I didn't want to believe you. But you were right." He shrugged. "I was your best friend. I had to try." I sat down next to him. "Severus," I looked him in the eye, "You are my best friend." He smiled shyly. "I thought as much."
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Fools fall in love. And fools fall out of love. I suppose I was pretty foolish to think I had a chance. But friendship isn't like that. You can be a fool and still have friends. There was indeed something there. Something we didn't understand. Something I'll probably never understand. And I am not talking about love.