Disclaimer: Do you see Yami and Seto beating Pegasus into a pulp and
hurling him down a deep pit? Then they're not mine.
Yami: Oh, how I wish I could hurl Pegasus down a deep pit.
Seto: Oh, how I wish I could help.
Me: If I had my way, you would.
Yami: sigh Hey, wishful thinking, right?
Me: You'll get your revenge. Trust me.
Author's Notes: I don't know what was running through my mind when I wrote this. It's what I think Seto would be thinking about while his soul was trapped in the card. This isn't the kind of thing I'd normally do, but I'm trying my hand at it. I hope you like it.
~*~
Darkness. The cold, unforgiving darkness. It swirls around me, unyielding, mocking my pain. Laughing at my suffering. I don't know how much longer I can bear it, how much longer I can stand up to the horror of being trapped forever in this place, this card.
I wish I could die. I wish I could just end it all and not have to live with this anymore. I wish he'd taken my mind along with my body, so I wouldn't have to wait here, always remembering the day I failed for the first time. The day I lost the thing I treasure the most. I lost the only chance to save my brother.
I hate him. I hate him for doing this to us. I hate that smirking, arrogant creature that calls itself a man. He did this to both of us, tearing out my mind, tearing out my little brother's soul, ever toying with us.
It's all a game to him.
I can't let him win. I can't let him be victorious in this game we're playing, even now. I won't let him drive me to insanity, even though the darkness is threatening to steal my rational thought. I may have failed before, but I won't this time. I have nothing left, nothing to lose; nothing matters anymore. If I die before the game ends, it won't matter. I'll just be another casualty in the war we've waged against Pegasus.
We. You're not alone, Seto, he's still out there, still fighting. He's going to rescue you from Pegasus; he'll save your little brother and you both. Cling to that image, don't lose hope. He'll come for you, he will win, he just has to.
Yugi.
Don't lose that picture, the likeness of your rescuer. Violet eyes, golden bangs mixed with red and black hair, and then, of course, the Millennium Puzzle. One of the seven Millennium Items, just like Pegasus's Millennium Eye. The Eye he used to cheat you of your victory. The Puzzle that let Yugi draw the final piece of Exodia. Your only two losses.
I've seen the truth. There's someone else behind the small, boyish exterior, someone who dares to take risks and put everything on the line, with enough courage and skill to know that things will work out or else he will make them work out. They're only subtle differences, but they're there. I can see them. I don't know if anyone else can.
Yugi is innocent, childlike; the other is cold and calculating. You can tell he's seen things no person should have to. You know he's done things no person would ever dream of. He's the all-powerful duelist, the force to be reckoned with. He's like.like the darkness to Yugi's light. The Yami to the other's Hikari.
Where Yugi is forgiving, Yami is uncompromising. He won't let anything stand in the way of his win, even if it means putting others at risk. I know. I've seen it firsthand. He was ready and willing to attack my Blue Eyes Ultimate Dragon, even knowing that the force may knock me off the ledge.
They're different, yet the same. At times, Yugi draws on his Yami for strength, while other times Yami needs some of Yugi's compassion. And it's that strange mix of light and dark, good and evil, right and wrong, that makes him so alluring. So mysterious. And that's why I know he'll rescue me from this card.
Yugi is the one who duels to save his grandfather. Yami is the one who duels to win. At this point, they have a common goal, but later.what will happen later? When their objectives diverge? When there's a clash between light and dark? Who can prevail in a duel of that magnitude?
There's still nothingness around me. I won't let Pegasus win, I can't! If anyone will come for me, it will be Yami. He's the only one who can win against Pegasus. He's the only one with the powers of the Millennium Puzzle.
Yugi can't do it alone, even with the faith he has, he'll crumble before Pegasus's tactics. His light would be snuffed out by Pegasus's evil. But Yami.Yami is different. He knows his boundaries; he knows where the line is between light and dark, even though it's blurred and unclear. He knows how far he can push the limit before falling prey to evil.
But the real question is, will he choose to stay on this side of the line?
Good, Seto, stay lost in the memories, don't give in, don't let anyone hurt you. Stay cold, stay unfeeling, just like you used to be. Like you were before Yami opened your eyes to the Heart of the Cards.
But maybe, maybe that's not the way to be.
Maybe the only way to survive is to feel compassion, to allow yourself to cry once in a while. Maybe the only way I can get out of this is to let someone hurt me, to feel the pain I've inflicted on others so many times. Maybe I need to have faith in Yami, trusting in him to set me free and then betray me, to shatter my hopes with one shot. I need him to pay me back for all the pain I caused him. Maybe then I can truly be free of this torture.
Or maybe that's me, going insane.
I can feel the darkness, trying to take control, control of my conscious. There's absolutely nothing here, no light, no sound, no hope. Just the way Pegasus wants it. I know I can bear the torture, I know I can live through it, but what about Mokuba? What about my brother, forced into this agony and kept for longer than I was? What if he's already succumbed to the insanity-inducing darkness?
He never did anything to anyone; wouldn't harm a flea, couldn't bring himself to drive away a wild dog that somehow ended up on our doorstep. He was the smartest kid in his class, always with a joke or two waiting. All he needed was my protection. If I'd suddenly lost everything I had-the house, the cars, money, everything-he'd still be happy with being my brother. I was so proud of him, so happy because he was happy.
I would have given everything to protect him. If I'd known Pegasus would try to move in on my company, I never would have left. I thought I was doing the right thing. Turns out I was just being selfish. If I hadn't been so broken up over losing to Yami, I would have been there for Mokuba. I would have been able to keep him safe, to protect him from my enemies. If I hadn't lost that one duel, if I could have prevented Yami from drawing the last piece of Exodia.
And now, somehow, it all comes back to Yami.
He defeated me, but I couldn't live with that. I had to know why. Maybe he's just better than me. And now I have to pray that he is indeed better than me, so he can succeed where I failed. So he can nab victory from Pegasus when I gave in to defeat. All I can do is wait and hope.
He has to win, he just has to! I can't let Pegasus defeat me, I can't let him turn me into a weak, whimpering dog. I have to hold on, I have to trust Yami! Easy, Seto, Pegasus is taking his toll, he's winning the game! Don't let him!
If I were capable, if I had a body, I'm sure I'd feel the stains of tears on my cheeks. But I can't cry, no matter how much I want to, no matter how much I wish I could. It's strange.I always thought crying showed how weak you are. I trained myself not to do it. I'd grow sullen, angry, or strangely quiet, but never fear, never weakness. I wouldn't cry, even if you beat me, stabbed me, killed me.
Pegasus knows he's going to prevail against me. He knows I can't resist much longer. He knows that soon I'll have to give in to the pain, that soon my resolve will break down and I'll be totally at his mercy. I wouldn't be surprised if after that he puts my soul back in my body, just so he can watch me whimpering, cowering in fear. So he can laugh at me and mock me for being weak. I know he will. I know he's going to do it, for the pure satisfaction of seeing me that way.
But there is another way.
If Yami defeats him, if he comes to release me.I won't have to bear the agony any longer. I won't have to worry about being weak. I'll have relied on someone else to save me, true, but at least I won't have to bear the shame of seeing my enemies laugh at me. I won't have to suffer any longer.
Someone once told me that to care about someone's well-being is to love them. It doesn't mean you have to be in love with them, it just means you care. That you'd help them if they were ever in trouble. You'd defend them if someone tried to hurt them.
So, by those standards, does Yami love me? Maybe. He obviously cares what happens to me, unless I'm in the way of his goal. If I hadn't been preventing him from saving his grandpa, he wouldn't have attacked my Blue Eyes. He wouldn't have put my life on the line.
Do I love him back? Would I come to his rescue if our places were reversed? Could I find it in my heart to feel compassion for my enemy, to risk my life for him, even? I don't know. I may never know. But I do know I won't lose hope. I believe he will free me. I know I won't have to wait much longer.
He's coming, Pegasus. Are you frightened? This time you will be the one to feel the pain. Are you ready, you monster? You'd better be.
You're going down, Pegasus. You will lose, and we will win. No matter what.
~*~
Well? What did you think? Was it any good? Hope you'll tell me in a review!
Seto: That was.weird.
Yami: Wait.you LOVE me?!
Seto: I didn't write that! Macavity did!
Me: Admit it. You care about him, Seto.
Seto: I do not! I do not! I've been framed!
Yami: flutters eyelashes You sure?
Seto: YES!
Yami: Too bad.you're awfully cute when you're defensive.
Seto: Well.maybe I like you, just a little bitty smidgen.
Me: Aw, this is so sweet! snaps picture
Seto: What the heck?!
Me: Come on! It was a Kodak moment!
Yami: Hand over that picture!
Me: No!
Seto: WE'LL TAKE IT BY FORCE IF WE HAVE TO!
Yami: GET HER!
Me: Never! You'll never take me alive!
Seto: GIVE IT!
Me: NO!
Yami: jumps Macavity from behind and steals camera
Me: Dang it.
Yami: Hey.there's no film in this camera!
Seto: What?
Me: I lied. You're so cute when you flip out. glomp
Yami: Oof.
Seto: Oof.
Like I said, it's not my usual style. But was it any good? Tell me in a review! And by the way, if you didn't like it, don't flame me. They make Joey the Flame Swordsman cranky.
Yami: Oh, how I wish I could hurl Pegasus down a deep pit.
Seto: Oh, how I wish I could help.
Me: If I had my way, you would.
Yami: sigh Hey, wishful thinking, right?
Me: You'll get your revenge. Trust me.
Author's Notes: I don't know what was running through my mind when I wrote this. It's what I think Seto would be thinking about while his soul was trapped in the card. This isn't the kind of thing I'd normally do, but I'm trying my hand at it. I hope you like it.
~*~
Darkness. The cold, unforgiving darkness. It swirls around me, unyielding, mocking my pain. Laughing at my suffering. I don't know how much longer I can bear it, how much longer I can stand up to the horror of being trapped forever in this place, this card.
I wish I could die. I wish I could just end it all and not have to live with this anymore. I wish he'd taken my mind along with my body, so I wouldn't have to wait here, always remembering the day I failed for the first time. The day I lost the thing I treasure the most. I lost the only chance to save my brother.
I hate him. I hate him for doing this to us. I hate that smirking, arrogant creature that calls itself a man. He did this to both of us, tearing out my mind, tearing out my little brother's soul, ever toying with us.
It's all a game to him.
I can't let him win. I can't let him be victorious in this game we're playing, even now. I won't let him drive me to insanity, even though the darkness is threatening to steal my rational thought. I may have failed before, but I won't this time. I have nothing left, nothing to lose; nothing matters anymore. If I die before the game ends, it won't matter. I'll just be another casualty in the war we've waged against Pegasus.
We. You're not alone, Seto, he's still out there, still fighting. He's going to rescue you from Pegasus; he'll save your little brother and you both. Cling to that image, don't lose hope. He'll come for you, he will win, he just has to.
Yugi.
Don't lose that picture, the likeness of your rescuer. Violet eyes, golden bangs mixed with red and black hair, and then, of course, the Millennium Puzzle. One of the seven Millennium Items, just like Pegasus's Millennium Eye. The Eye he used to cheat you of your victory. The Puzzle that let Yugi draw the final piece of Exodia. Your only two losses.
I've seen the truth. There's someone else behind the small, boyish exterior, someone who dares to take risks and put everything on the line, with enough courage and skill to know that things will work out or else he will make them work out. They're only subtle differences, but they're there. I can see them. I don't know if anyone else can.
Yugi is innocent, childlike; the other is cold and calculating. You can tell he's seen things no person should have to. You know he's done things no person would ever dream of. He's the all-powerful duelist, the force to be reckoned with. He's like.like the darkness to Yugi's light. The Yami to the other's Hikari.
Where Yugi is forgiving, Yami is uncompromising. He won't let anything stand in the way of his win, even if it means putting others at risk. I know. I've seen it firsthand. He was ready and willing to attack my Blue Eyes Ultimate Dragon, even knowing that the force may knock me off the ledge.
They're different, yet the same. At times, Yugi draws on his Yami for strength, while other times Yami needs some of Yugi's compassion. And it's that strange mix of light and dark, good and evil, right and wrong, that makes him so alluring. So mysterious. And that's why I know he'll rescue me from this card.
Yugi is the one who duels to save his grandfather. Yami is the one who duels to win. At this point, they have a common goal, but later.what will happen later? When their objectives diverge? When there's a clash between light and dark? Who can prevail in a duel of that magnitude?
There's still nothingness around me. I won't let Pegasus win, I can't! If anyone will come for me, it will be Yami. He's the only one who can win against Pegasus. He's the only one with the powers of the Millennium Puzzle.
Yugi can't do it alone, even with the faith he has, he'll crumble before Pegasus's tactics. His light would be snuffed out by Pegasus's evil. But Yami.Yami is different. He knows his boundaries; he knows where the line is between light and dark, even though it's blurred and unclear. He knows how far he can push the limit before falling prey to evil.
But the real question is, will he choose to stay on this side of the line?
Good, Seto, stay lost in the memories, don't give in, don't let anyone hurt you. Stay cold, stay unfeeling, just like you used to be. Like you were before Yami opened your eyes to the Heart of the Cards.
But maybe, maybe that's not the way to be.
Maybe the only way to survive is to feel compassion, to allow yourself to cry once in a while. Maybe the only way I can get out of this is to let someone hurt me, to feel the pain I've inflicted on others so many times. Maybe I need to have faith in Yami, trusting in him to set me free and then betray me, to shatter my hopes with one shot. I need him to pay me back for all the pain I caused him. Maybe then I can truly be free of this torture.
Or maybe that's me, going insane.
I can feel the darkness, trying to take control, control of my conscious. There's absolutely nothing here, no light, no sound, no hope. Just the way Pegasus wants it. I know I can bear the torture, I know I can live through it, but what about Mokuba? What about my brother, forced into this agony and kept for longer than I was? What if he's already succumbed to the insanity-inducing darkness?
He never did anything to anyone; wouldn't harm a flea, couldn't bring himself to drive away a wild dog that somehow ended up on our doorstep. He was the smartest kid in his class, always with a joke or two waiting. All he needed was my protection. If I'd suddenly lost everything I had-the house, the cars, money, everything-he'd still be happy with being my brother. I was so proud of him, so happy because he was happy.
I would have given everything to protect him. If I'd known Pegasus would try to move in on my company, I never would have left. I thought I was doing the right thing. Turns out I was just being selfish. If I hadn't been so broken up over losing to Yami, I would have been there for Mokuba. I would have been able to keep him safe, to protect him from my enemies. If I hadn't lost that one duel, if I could have prevented Yami from drawing the last piece of Exodia.
And now, somehow, it all comes back to Yami.
He defeated me, but I couldn't live with that. I had to know why. Maybe he's just better than me. And now I have to pray that he is indeed better than me, so he can succeed where I failed. So he can nab victory from Pegasus when I gave in to defeat. All I can do is wait and hope.
He has to win, he just has to! I can't let Pegasus defeat me, I can't let him turn me into a weak, whimpering dog. I have to hold on, I have to trust Yami! Easy, Seto, Pegasus is taking his toll, he's winning the game! Don't let him!
If I were capable, if I had a body, I'm sure I'd feel the stains of tears on my cheeks. But I can't cry, no matter how much I want to, no matter how much I wish I could. It's strange.I always thought crying showed how weak you are. I trained myself not to do it. I'd grow sullen, angry, or strangely quiet, but never fear, never weakness. I wouldn't cry, even if you beat me, stabbed me, killed me.
Pegasus knows he's going to prevail against me. He knows I can't resist much longer. He knows that soon I'll have to give in to the pain, that soon my resolve will break down and I'll be totally at his mercy. I wouldn't be surprised if after that he puts my soul back in my body, just so he can watch me whimpering, cowering in fear. So he can laugh at me and mock me for being weak. I know he will. I know he's going to do it, for the pure satisfaction of seeing me that way.
But there is another way.
If Yami defeats him, if he comes to release me.I won't have to bear the agony any longer. I won't have to worry about being weak. I'll have relied on someone else to save me, true, but at least I won't have to bear the shame of seeing my enemies laugh at me. I won't have to suffer any longer.
Someone once told me that to care about someone's well-being is to love them. It doesn't mean you have to be in love with them, it just means you care. That you'd help them if they were ever in trouble. You'd defend them if someone tried to hurt them.
So, by those standards, does Yami love me? Maybe. He obviously cares what happens to me, unless I'm in the way of his goal. If I hadn't been preventing him from saving his grandpa, he wouldn't have attacked my Blue Eyes. He wouldn't have put my life on the line.
Do I love him back? Would I come to his rescue if our places were reversed? Could I find it in my heart to feel compassion for my enemy, to risk my life for him, even? I don't know. I may never know. But I do know I won't lose hope. I believe he will free me. I know I won't have to wait much longer.
He's coming, Pegasus. Are you frightened? This time you will be the one to feel the pain. Are you ready, you monster? You'd better be.
You're going down, Pegasus. You will lose, and we will win. No matter what.
~*~
Well? What did you think? Was it any good? Hope you'll tell me in a review!
Seto: That was.weird.
Yami: Wait.you LOVE me?!
Seto: I didn't write that! Macavity did!
Me: Admit it. You care about him, Seto.
Seto: I do not! I do not! I've been framed!
Yami: flutters eyelashes You sure?
Seto: YES!
Yami: Too bad.you're awfully cute when you're defensive.
Seto: Well.maybe I like you, just a little bitty smidgen.
Me: Aw, this is so sweet! snaps picture
Seto: What the heck?!
Me: Come on! It was a Kodak moment!
Yami: Hand over that picture!
Me: No!
Seto: WE'LL TAKE IT BY FORCE IF WE HAVE TO!
Yami: GET HER!
Me: Never! You'll never take me alive!
Seto: GIVE IT!
Me: NO!
Yami: jumps Macavity from behind and steals camera
Me: Dang it.
Yami: Hey.there's no film in this camera!
Seto: What?
Me: I lied. You're so cute when you flip out. glomp
Yami: Oof.
Seto: Oof.
Like I said, it's not my usual style. But was it any good? Tell me in a review! And by the way, if you didn't like it, don't flame me. They make Joey the Flame Swordsman cranky.