Disclaimers : I own nothing at all.
Cry and You give me love belong to Faith Hill.
Genre : romance
Pairings : Harm/Mac
Summary : Mac is sick of always put her heart through and wants Harm to confront it.
A/N : Thanks a lot to Kirsten for the beta !!!
I know I have to write the sequel of "It's all coming back to me.", I'm really sorry for the delay but I'll do it soon. (a big problem with my pc and I have to write again the following).
CRY
Chapter 1
The young woman took a deep breath and knocked on his door, hoping to find him alone. Harm opened the door and flashed his flyboy grin that he kept only for her. She smiled softly and entered into his apartment.
He turned to look at her, as he closed the door. He was trying hard to remember if she'd said that she was coming over but he couldn't remember. As if she knew what every movement of his features and every expression in his eyes meant, Mac answered his silent question.
"I was just driving in the surroundings and I wanted to talk to you." He smiled, not sure what to say to that. Mac held back her sigh.
This wasn't going to be easy.
"Want something to drink?" Harm asked walking to the kitchen.
"No, thanks." she replied walking to the window.
She saw her reflection in the glass searching her own eyes to find the answer she sought. Would she have the strength to tell him what she had kept inside for so long, would she find the words to express her feelings without scaring him?
Looking away from her own reflection, she suddenly noticed he was looking at her, his expression reflected in the glass. She turned and smiled briefly before walking towards him playing nervously with her hands.
"Harm...I think it's time for us now." she began.
Seeing him rolling his eyes she added quickly "…time for us to talk."
"Maaac..." he started "Why do you still want to talk? I thought things were pretty good between us by now."
"That's the point Harm. There is no US here. You and I, but no US." She replied trying hard to keep the tears that were welling up in her brown eyes.
Harm took a step back and began to play with whatever he could find.
Mac's POV
I feel a sudden rush of anger pass through me. I'm sick of putting myself on the line.
I am always the one to suffer in our story or rather lack of story. I look at him and there are no more tears in my eyes.
"BUT…If you say so Harm." I say in a cold voice.
I turn on myself back to the door.
"Maaac.." he pleads. "BUT… what?"
I look at him and I know that I won't be able to keep my thoughts inside
"If I had just one tear rolling down your cheek, maybe I could cope, maybe I'd get some sleep. Could you cry just a little? Lie just a little. Pretend that you're feeling a little more pain! I gave now I'm wanting something in return!" I replied.
I realise that I'm almost shouting at him, my eyes filled with my unshed tears.
I finally calm myself down and close my eyes.
"Cry a little for me, Harm." I say under my breath.
Coming closer to me, he raises my chin and waits for me to open my eyes.
But I don't want to open them. I'm afraid of doing that. What if I don't find what I want? What I've been praying for since the very first day in the Rose garden...
Anyway, I slowly open my eyes.
He's looking at me, there's no beguiling flyboy grin, no rolling eyes to diffuse an awkward moment, he's just looking at me, and I can see the sincerity in his eyes.
He brushes away the tears that were in the corner of my eyes.
He places his chin on my forehead and sighs softly. I don't move, I don't even breath. He finally looks into my eyes again, and slowly lowers his lips to mine just as he's about to kiss me, I step back away from him.
I want to know what it means, how he feels about me.
Harm's POV :
You turn around then you ask me behind tears of doubt just what do I see in you.
"Please don't cry!" Whispered the young man.
I know sometimes it seems we barely get by but you don't see how much you do to get me through. He thought silently.
"When the world is cold, and I need a friend to hold, you give me love. And when my hope is gone, and I feel I can't go on, you give me love."
Harm looked at her tenderly. The threatening tears he had seen in her eyes were now rolling freely on her cheeks.
"I apologize if I've never told you what you are in my eyes. Let me tell you now. Every day looks sweeter knowing you'll be there in every way."
Coming a little closer, he wiped her tears away and kissed her softly.
"Everything my heart desires, morning sun and midnight fires, someone there to share my dream. With you I have everything." Harm whispered in her ear.
Mac smiled and placed her head against his chest while he was caressing her hair softly.
"Thank you." she whispered finally.
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