Title: Broken Promises and New Beginnings
Rating: I wish I knew. I am putting it at PG-13 just because I don't know any better and would rather err on the safe side.
Genre: Drama/Mild Angst
Disclaimer: I own none of the characters in this story. They are, were and will always belong to Mr. George Lucas creator of an amazing universe. Not only does this story contain elements of the universe that Mr. Lucas created but also the Alternate Universe (AU) found in a wonderful story called An Untimely Frost by CYNICAL21. I thank Cynical21 for allowing me to reference her work. If you haven't read her story you are really missing out on a wonderful story.
Just to a little guide as to what things mean:
/-/ Bond thought //-// Private thought "-" Speaking aloud
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Early the next morning Qui-Gon and Anakin were waiting for Mace at the ramp of his Republic transport. They had given him their decision the night before following dinner. Anakin still seemed a bit hesitant about returning, but Qui-Gon was excited about the possibilities that the Temple held for his Padawan.
Qui-Gon had wanted to speak to Mace concerning the Council's plans to integrate Anakin into Temple life, but had found himself instead spending his last night on Lustar with King Napal. He had felt that he owed it to the generous king and honored his request for a final night of talks concerning the future of his planet. He had hoped that their discussion would be brief to allow for his talk with Mace but also so that he could further investigated what was bothering his Padawan so deeply about returning to Coruscant.
Qui-Gon assumed it was adolescent insecurity mixed with a bit of lingering hurt over the Council's initial rejection of the boy. Qui-Gon understood the boy's hard feelings toward the Council. He could never admit to the boy that he too resented the way that they had been handled a year ago. He was looking forward to returning for mixed reasons.
In all honesty, Master Jinn was looking for a bit of redemption. After he had left the order and been declared dead by his Master he found himself lost for weeks. He had tried to find answers in meditation but had come up wanting. He had felt overwhelming feelings of rejection, isolation and unworthiness. Even knowing that he had acted in conjunction with the force had done little to console him. The Order had been his life and suddenly because he wouldn't bow to the wishes of the Council he could no longer be a part of it.
He had not wanted to admit how deeply it had hurt to know that his own Master had been the one to declare his death to the Order. He had understood why his Master had done so but that didn't make it hurt any less. The knowledge that there had been a few members of the Order who had not been either surprised or disappointed when he had left also added to his unease. He felt a new sense of pride and confidence knowing that in a matter of days he would be walking back into the Temple redeemed. Whether they like it or not he would be back.
He took no small amount of joy in the fact that he had been right concerning Anakin and that now the council realized that fact. He wasn't one though who needed to rub their noses in it though. He gained enough pleasure from his own awareness of the situation. He didn't need an apology. He realized that in fact by asking him to return that the apology had been offered and he had graciously accepted it.
Qui-Gon had been shocked by Mace's reaction to their announcement that they would return. Mace had seemed grim on hearing the news. He had expected him to have shown at least a marginal amount of happiness having secured a student of such exceptional potential. He had also hoped that the man would have shown some joy knowing that he was returning as well. They had been close friends in the past. He would never understand why the man put forth such a stoic persona now. He had been such a jovial knight. He wondered sometimes if being on the Council had gone to the man's head. Some beings just didn't bear up well under the weight of great responsibilities.
Anakin boarded the ship and settled himself in the commons area his data pad in hand. He had looked tired this morning. Qui-Gon had asked him if he had slept well. He had indicated that he had but upon closer examination his appearance told a different story. He had no doubt been laying awake full of curiosity about the Temple.
The sound of the ship jumping into hyperspace caused his heart to speed up a bit.
//Home// he thought //Home I am finally going home.//
Lost in the moment of joy he failed to notice the look on his Padawan's face. Anxious and concerned the young boy stared out into the blackness of the space that was zipping by their ship.
Mace had been studying the boy for some time. He was still worried about the training of this boy, but had been overruled by the Council. He had finally consented to allow the boy into the Temple after Yoda's revelation of his visions concerning the boy's future if they did not.
He and Yoda still believed that the Council was reacting in fear since that Sith attack. The time had come to be proactive not reactive. It was both Mace and Yoda's opinion that the boy should never be trained, but since Qui- Gon had thrust him upon them, they had little choice now.
Looking over at the miserable boy Mace wondered about Anakin's future. As always when he attempted to see it there was always darkness and chaos. A cold shudder raced down his spine. He had a very bad feeling about this.
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"Come in. Come in" Yoda's voice called to him from the kitchen. Walking into Yoda's quarters was a lot like walking into a tropical jungle. The ceilings hung heavy with flowering vines. Everywhere a being looked there was life. Obi-wan had always felt that the peace of the environment more than made up for the elevated levels of humidity in the apartment. He wondered why Yoda ever bothered with the Temple meditation gardens when he had such a lovely and tranquil place of his own.
"Seek out new surroundings we must to discover truths within. " His Master's voice pulled him from his thoughts.
He watched as Yoda brought in a tray with tea cups, a warming pot and seed pods which the Master knew were one of Obi-Wan's favorite foods. Obi-Wan smiled knowing that this was one of the many ways that Yoda had found to express his affection for him.
"Can I help you with that Master?" Obi-Wan rose in an attempt to help but was shooed back into his place.
"Got it I have. Capable I am." Yoda placed the tray between them then sat and regarded the man before him.
"Well you have done. Proud of you the council is. Trust you they do. Surprised I am not but proud of you am I as well."
Obi-Wan felt a blush come to his cheeks and a lump fill his throat. He didn't trust his voice so he opened up the bond that they had formed upon the Queen's ship while heading for Naboo.
/You were the first to believe in me, so yours is the opinion I cherish above all./
/ Missed you I have in my mind young one. Sunlight is addictive it seems./ He poured the tea and handed a cup to Obi-Wan who took it gratefully. He needed a chance to control his emotions. /What of this rumor of you and Master Gallia?/
Obi-Wan struggled not to spit out his tea in Yoda's face. He hadn't seen that one coming. That was just like the old master to sneak one in before he had a chance to come up with an adequate response.
His voice now recovered from the emotion before Obi-Wan sat his cup down and spoke, "It is bit early to call it anything. We had drinks last night and enjoyed each other's company but who's to say that it is anything or will be anything." He picked up a seed pod and popped it into his mouth. He smiled mischievously "You know as well as any Master that the future is difficult to see."
"Hm.wise you have become. Sound like your Master you do." Yoda played along but continued on persistently, "Seeing her again you are?" Yoda drank his tea peacefully enjoying the display of emotion before him.
"Well yes we are. I am having dinner with her this evening."
"Careful you both must be or undermine opinion of the council this could." Yoda poured himself another cup of tea settling back into his chair.
"You just said that they were proud of me and trusted me." Obi-Wan stated incredulously.
"This they do but once they learn of this relationship her voice will not hold the same weight when spoken in support of you concerning assignments and mission outcomes."
Obi-Wan sat for a long moment considering. He would have to give this over to meditation. As much as he resented the little green master's interference in his personal life he knew that his motives were always with the greater good in mind. Obi-Wan knew he could never allow his personal feelings to in anyway undermine the will of the force and his place within that will. He also realized that he could never allow his feelings for Adi to discredit her in any way. He smiled thinking about her.
Yoda sat quietly allowing his ex-Padawan to work through the problem on his own. He marveled at how quick and sure Obi-Wan's mind was and how it naturally always gravitated to the light side of the force.
Once Obi-Wan seemed to have made his peace Yoda spoke again. "More I have to tell you. Hard this will be for you to hear. But hear it you must." Yoda shook his head as if still uncertain of his own feelings concerning the information he was about to reveal.
Obi sat back slightly in his seat and took a breath assuring himself that he had a grasp on his center. Feeling the Force sing back to him he smiled slightly and nodded towards Yoda indicating he was ready for whatever news the Master needed to convey.
Yoda's voice grew lower and ominous in tone. "Dark times these are. Darkness growing and blind we are to it. One year and unable we have been to locate the master to the Sith we eliminated." Yoda paused considering how to continue. Obi-Wan suppress a shudder remembering the odd tattooed warrior. He was still amazed that they had defeated him. If it hadn't been for the strength of his Master he felt certain he would not have. Centering himself once more he turned his full attention back to his Master.
"Strong are our knights but our numbers are smaller. Fewer infants identified and brought to the Temple." Obi nodded. He had spent his morning in the crèche and had noticed the decrease in rooms that were required to house the youngest among their order.
"Afford we cannot to lose even one. Risk is too high that our loss would become the darkness's gain. " Yoda stopped and began drawing something on the floor with his walking stick. Obi recognized this gesture from his limited time with the old master as a nervous habit if he could call it that. He had seen the master do such a thing when he was avoiding having to think of something unpleasant.
"Master?" Obi began softly reaching out to lay his hand upon Yoda's arm in order to stop the motion. "Please trust me enough to know that I can handle what it is that you are so unwilling to tell me. I sense that you are concerned that I am going to be hurt by your words. They are only words. I will survive." Yoda regarded the man for a time before he continued.
/Words they may be young one, but more painful weapon there is not./ He sent through the bond causing Obi-Wan to furrow his brow in contemplation. What words could be spoken that could be as injurious as a weapon?
"A long year it has been my Obi-Wan. Full it has been of growth and missions. Much has changed. Always we must be open to the future changing. Serve the light we must. Always the greater good should guide us." There was something in the Master's tone.
Obi-Wan felt his breathing increase. He knew what was coming, but couldn't bring himself to stop his Master from speaking the words. A year, not being able to lose even one possible knight, words that would hurt him like a weapon, Obi-Wan felt his heart pace quicken.
Yoda saw it in Obi-Wan's eyes. The boy knew what was coming and he was helpless to protect his beloved padawan from the decision of the Council. He could only hope that the news would be easier to bear coming from him instead of the Temple rumor mill
" A year ago two with great talent the council allowed to leave the Temple. A great but necessary loss it was. Master Windu has traveled to Lustar in order to bring them back. Offer was made and accepted. "
So that was it. Obi-Wan nodded accepting the news with no outward display of emotion. Inside he felt his world suddenly spinning out of control Qui- Gon and Anakin were returning to the Temple. He mouth went dry making it hard for him to ask the questions that were rapidly forming in his mind.
"When do they arrive?" He asked determined to remain in control. He spoke in a tone of detached professionalism.
"Arriving today their shuttle is." Yoda picked his cup back up and sat staring into it. He knew from the shielding he felt in the boy that he was struggling. He admired his desire to not burden his Master but wished there was something he could do to help the boy deal with the onslaught of emotion. Realizing there really wasn't he remained silent allowing the boy the rouse.
//So much for having time to prepare.// Obi-Wan thought to himself. He sighed and shook his head lowering his gaze for a moment. He calmed himself and reached for the force pulling it around him. He felt it come to him instantly surrounding him and holding him in a loving and supportive embrace. He centered himself reaching out further searching his own feelings concerning the return of his ex-Master and the boy who had replaced him. Casting out he was amazed at the various emotions that rose up within him. He sorted through them quickly then looked up meeting Yoda's understanding eyes.
"I feel better knowing that they are under the protection of the Temple. I too have been concerned with the darkness. I have also never felt comfortable with my master's premature death for my benefit." His voice sounded slightly surprised at the admission.
"Difficult it was but equally necessary for your knighthood. Regret it I won't." Yoda took a long sip from his cup. He knew that Qui-Gon probably felt that his reinstatement was some sort of veiled apology on his behalf or that of the Council. He was sadly mistaken. What his padawn had done to the man sitting before him was unforgivable. Had the danger of the Skywalker boy not been so great he would never have agreed to allow Qui-Gon anywhere near the Temple again. Defiant he was and reckless in his behavior.
Yoda had seen visions of the Skywalker boy. It was the weight of these visions combined with the possible devastation that would come to the Republic if they came to pass that had brought about the decision to bring the two back under the supervision of the Temple.
"I felt that training the boy was dangerous. I believe the Council at the time agreed. Has so much changed?" Setting his personal issues aside, Obi- Wan was once again focused on the greater good.
He remembered the fear and anger that had radiated from the boy. He had been shocked that Qui-Gon had not sensed it. Anakin had seemed volatile and manipulative. Obi-Wan felt sorrow when he considered where the young boy had picked up such necessary survival skills as a slave, but setting his sorrow aside he realized how dangerous these skills would be in the hands of a trained Jedi Knight.
"Share your concerns Mace and I do as well as the Council but greater is the risk that the boy fall to another." The words hung thick with implication between them. The thought ran cold through his veins.
Obi-Wan had had such visions of Anakin, but had just believed that they had merely been the result of his unresolved feelings concerning what had occurred between Qui-Gon and himself. He had never really allowed himself to believe that the vision could have been a warning from the Force. Obi- Wan wondered if he should mention the visions to his Master but decided to meditate on them first.
He was feeling a desperate need to meditate immediately. With each passing moment it was becoming more difficult for Obi-Wan to remain calm and focused. Knowing that Yoda was more than aware by now of the emotions warring within him, he gave up the battle.
"Master Yoda I thank you for this private revelation but I find now that I must meditate on the matter. I hope you will not be offended if I take my leave in order to center myself before I am confronted with our newest arrivals."
He had purposely refused to use their names. He couldn't say them for some reason. They felt heavy like failure in his mouth. He resented the encroachment of faint sorrow on his otherwise peaceful life. Yoda nodded and honored him with a whack with his stick.
"Only the power you allow him can he have over you. No longer his Padawan you are. Forever my Padawan you will be. "
Obi nodded as he rose understanding the truth of the green master's words but also realizing that life was never so simple as that. The door closed behind him. He was tempted to cast out through the bond he had once shared with Qui-Gon in order to see if the man and his Padawan had arrived yet, but then decided against it.
Thinking of Yoda's words once more he realized accessing the bond would give Qui-Gon power over him that he no longer had a right to. He would not reach out in such an intimate manner. He was a knight and Qui-Gon was a Master and other than being members of the Jedi Order there was nothing else left between them. Even as he entrenched this philosophy he knew it was a lie and one that would never survive his mediation.
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/Coruscant./ Qui-Gon sighed at the sight of the city planet beneath him. As much as he always adored the quiet and serenity of less inhabited planets this was his home. He watched as the Temple grew closer. Any feelings of dread had diminished in light of the excitement of seeing old friends and once again being a part of the Order once more.
He couldn't remember when I planet had looked so good to his eyes. He had loved the beauty of Lustar, but had always known that he and Anakin were their as guests. The King had been generous and welcoming but still there was no place like home. He wondered for a moment if Anakin missed Tatooine like this. He dismissed the thought. There wasn't anything he could do to help with that. He would focus on what he could do for the boy. He could train him to become the greatest Jedi ever in the history of the Order. He was after all the Chosen One.
As they drew nearer Qui-Gon became aware of various force signatures that were familiar to him emanating from the Temple. He could already feel his Master's signature. It was always strong and overpowering. There were several others. He fought the desire to reach out and check for Obi-Wan's presence. He wasn't sure if he wanted to the boy to be there or not.
He had learned from Mace during the flight that his ex-Padawan had survived and defeated the Sith. It had been his saber that had actually landed the killing blow. He found himself thinking back to all the numerous sparring matches that they had had against one another. Obi-Wan was a very talented warrior. Qui-Gon felt himself swell with pride.
He then turned his thoughts to his new apprentice. He delighted in the potential of his new student.
//If Obi-Wan could defeat a Sith there no telling what Anakin would have done to him.//
He tried to imagine Anakin fighting the tattooed warrior. It would have been quite a battle.
He knew that eventually his path would cross with Obi-Wans. The Temple was large but no so large that they could avoid each other indefinitely. He wondered if the boy would try to avoid him. The thought that he would filled Qui-Gon with regret.
Of course Obi-Wan wouldn't be at the Temple much anyway. Surely the Temple had him busy doing something in the galaxy. He had spent years training the boy; it would be a shame to allow all that good training to go to waste. Perhaps he was on a mission right now.
//That would be for the best.// Qui-Gon finally decided.
Obi-Wan being away would give Anakin a chance to adjust without being reminded of why they had had to leave.
He had wanted to ask Mace several questions concerning Obi-Wan and how he had faired without his oversight. In the end Qui-Gon had decided against talking to his old friend. Mace was far to close to Yoda and would no doubt alert the old master to Qui-Gon's curiosity. He was in no mood for a lecture from his old master.
Anakin stood beside him staring out the ship's port side window. He had grown physically and in his abilities over the past year. No longer the fidgety little boy he was starting to have the demeanor of one who had spent his life raised at the Temple. He would find fitting in much easier now than it would have been if they had been allowed to have remained there a year ago. The force did seem to always know best Qui-Gon mused as he heard the landing gear lower. He heard the soft russle of the cloak behind him and knew that Mace was now waiting for them before making his way to the ramp.
"How does it feel?" Mace asked in a kind tone that Qui-Gon had almost forgotten he was capable of.
"It feels like home." He said softly turning towards his old friend a smile playing both on his lips and in his eyes.
"And to you Padawan Skywalker?" Mace asked turning his gaze to the boy who was still staring out at the landing area.
"Strange. It feels strange." He replied as he pulled his cloak hood up covering his head and turning to regard the master.
//Home? Is that what you thought I would say? This will never be home.// He thought carefully measuring his shields.
"Hopefully in time it too will feel like home to you." Mace's words were kind but firm.
Anakin could sense how happy Qui-Gon was to be back on Coruscant. Qui-Gon looked so peaceful and happy. He was hardly the picture of Jedi serenity. He had never considered what the older man had given up in order to train him. He suddenly found himself considering his master's ex-Padawan in his mind. He wondered if Obi-Wan had a new Master at the Temple, would he still be a padawan? Surely they wouldn't be in any classes together. Though perhaps since he was so advanced he would be on the same level as the older man and have the chance to see him. It would feel good to show him up a bit. He didn't dislike Obi-Wan but he had sensed that he too had opposed the idea of his training. This would give him the chance to prove all of them wrong. Thinking back even the last time he had seen him Obi- Wan had been kind. It hadn't been his idea to take Anakin from his Mother. That had been all Qui-Gon's doing. Maybe he would have some news about how things had turned out for Padme. Anakin brightened at the thought.
Anakin shook himself out of his thoughts and was careful to fall into step exactly as a Padawan learner should. It was important that he make a good impression and remove any doubts or fears that the Council or any of the other Jedi might have concerning his ability and readiness for training. If training at the Temple would make him more powerful then he would do everything in his power to insure that that is where he trained. The darkness needed him to be strong. He had sensed it. He owed it to the darkness to be all that he could after all the darkness had never rejected him.
They made their way to the Council Chambers. It felt odd returning to a place that he had believed he would never see again. The happiness and relief coming from his Master was a bit overwhelming. Anakin doubted that Qui-Gon was aware that he was broadcasting these feelings so openly. Seeing the doors before them they were halted by two guards. Mace made a motion for Qui-Gon and Anakin to wait where they were. He then entered the Chambers without them. The moment the doors opened to admit him an angry female voice filled the waiting area. As soon as the door closed the area was once again silent.
Anakin glanced up at his Master. Qui-Gon seemed a bit paler. Master Jinn had not picked up on any of the woman's words but had recognized the voice of Master Adi Gallia. He wondered what had her so upset. They had always seemed to have gotten along, so he couldn't imagine that her feelings were connect to his and Anakin's return. Chalking it up to continued problems between the Council and Senate, Qui-Gon dismissed it. He would see her around the Temple soon enough and would hear all about it.
He motioned for Anakin to join him in taking a seat. The Council would not see them until the matter before them was settled and from the sound of Adi's voice that might be awhile. Qui-Gon smiled thinking about the feisty young Master. He had always admired her confidence, vitality and not to mention looks. He had felt attracted to her for years but had realized that she was far too young to be interested in an old master like himself. He sensed Anakin's apprehension and sent him soothing thoughts through their bond. It wouldn't be long now and all would be as it always should have been from the start.
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"What are you thinking!" Adi exclaimed again interrupting Ki Mundi.
"Mind your thoughts and your emotions Master Gallia." Mace's voice held a menacing tone.
Adi nodded to Mace and took a calming breath. She had just learned of the decision the Council had made to extend an invitation to Anakin Skywalker to be trained at the Temple and even more outrageous that Qui-Gon would be reinstated to the Jedi Order. She wondered why such a decision had been made without her input. She had been present during the Council's first consideration of Anakin. She had felt that it would have been a mistake to train him then and held to that same opinion now. She wondered how close the vote had been. She wished again that Chancellor Palpatine had not appointed her to the Ambassador's Committee. Had it not been for those meetings she would have been present and had the chance to express her opinion in this matter before the final decision had been made. Perhaps hers would have been the deciding vote. She glanced around the room meeting the eyes of her fellow Councilors. Gathering her thoughts and her center she leveled her voice and began again to convey her concern.
"I look around me and see the same faces that were present the day that Qui- Gon Jinn, of his own accord, defied the Council quitting the order, abandoning his padawan and taking it upon himself to train one that the Council emphatically denied a training opportunity.
I might also add that everyone here is aware that the padawan that he threw away, Obi-Wan Kenobi, has turned out to be an exceptional addition to the Order. We came dangerously close to losing him for the SECOND time." She paused allowing her words to sink in and awaken the dreadful memory of six years prior when Jinn had abandoned Obi-Wan for the first time. Once satisfied that all the Councilors had remembered she continued,
"One year ago, I believed that we were all unified in our shock, betrayal, sorrow and disbelief at this man's actions. His actions were an outrage and yet here we sit ready to embrace him. To take him back among us as if nothing has occurred.
I must ask each of you to consider the message that this action on our part will send to the Padawans, Masters, and Knights of our Order? What message does this send to the Senate, Chancellor, and Ambassadors?
I understand our need to remain open minded and flexible, but we must never be seen as tolerant of selfish defiance and that is what we are validating here." As she spoke she watched the expressions of each Council member. She could sense that there were several who were still undecided as to the wisdom of this offer.
"Your thoughts linger on Kenobi." Ki-Mundi's soft voice broke the silence.
Adi felt her face heat a bit. She glanced first to Yoda who immediately raised two curious brows. She then turned back to Ki.
"Yes Master Mundi my thoughts are of Knight Kenobi. He has suffered more at the hands of Master Jinn than I am sure any of us could imagine. He has served the Order above and beyond our expectations this past year. I wonder what message this decision will send to him as to his value to our Order. Did any of my fellow Councilor's consider his feelings in this matter when it was being decided?" Her voice was strong and confident. She wanted to convey clearly to all present that her relationship with Obi- Wan was not nor ever would be up for debate by the Council.
"Considered him we did." Yoda spoke. "Knew it would be hard for him we did. Order, Planet, Galaxy bigger than one man are these. Serve the light we must. Trust the Force we will. "She could sense Yoda's sadness. Hadn't Obi-Wan mentioned last night that he was having tea with Yoda earlier today? Adi wondered now if Yoda had wanted the opportunity to tell his padawan personally that Qui-Gon Jinn was coming back.
Adi forced herself not to allow her thoughts to linger on Obi-Wan. She would have time to speak with him about all of this soon enough.
//Just when things had started out so well. Now this.// She thought remembering how wonderful the previous night had been. She sighed hoping beyond hope that Jinn's return wouldn't mean the end of what had begun between she and Obi-Wan.
"So you believe that in order to serve the light we must open the Temple up to both Skywalker and Jinn?" She asked Yoda needing the clear admission in order to concede to the decision to bring them back.
The old master paused closing his eyes drawing the Force around him. After several long moments he opened his eyes once more. "Difficult the future is to see. Darkness is growing. Hungry it is for an apprentice. Skywalker must not fall or devastation will come to many. This I have seen." His words hung heavy in the Chambers. All eyes were on the little green master. He was drawing silently on the floor of the Chambers.
"Any further discussion?" Mace asked his fellow Council members allowing his gaze to linger on Adi. She shook her head slightly her lips forming a straight line indicating her disapproval but acceptance. "Then I shall call Master Jinn and his Padawan before us."
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Rating: I wish I knew. I am putting it at PG-13 just because I don't know any better and would rather err on the safe side.
Genre: Drama/Mild Angst
Disclaimer: I own none of the characters in this story. They are, were and will always belong to Mr. George Lucas creator of an amazing universe. Not only does this story contain elements of the universe that Mr. Lucas created but also the Alternate Universe (AU) found in a wonderful story called An Untimely Frost by CYNICAL21. I thank Cynical21 for allowing me to reference her work. If you haven't read her story you are really missing out on a wonderful story.
Just to a little guide as to what things mean:
/-/ Bond thought //-// Private thought "-" Speaking aloud
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Early the next morning Qui-Gon and Anakin were waiting for Mace at the ramp of his Republic transport. They had given him their decision the night before following dinner. Anakin still seemed a bit hesitant about returning, but Qui-Gon was excited about the possibilities that the Temple held for his Padawan.
Qui-Gon had wanted to speak to Mace concerning the Council's plans to integrate Anakin into Temple life, but had found himself instead spending his last night on Lustar with King Napal. He had felt that he owed it to the generous king and honored his request for a final night of talks concerning the future of his planet. He had hoped that their discussion would be brief to allow for his talk with Mace but also so that he could further investigated what was bothering his Padawan so deeply about returning to Coruscant.
Qui-Gon assumed it was adolescent insecurity mixed with a bit of lingering hurt over the Council's initial rejection of the boy. Qui-Gon understood the boy's hard feelings toward the Council. He could never admit to the boy that he too resented the way that they had been handled a year ago. He was looking forward to returning for mixed reasons.
In all honesty, Master Jinn was looking for a bit of redemption. After he had left the order and been declared dead by his Master he found himself lost for weeks. He had tried to find answers in meditation but had come up wanting. He had felt overwhelming feelings of rejection, isolation and unworthiness. Even knowing that he had acted in conjunction with the force had done little to console him. The Order had been his life and suddenly because he wouldn't bow to the wishes of the Council he could no longer be a part of it.
He had not wanted to admit how deeply it had hurt to know that his own Master had been the one to declare his death to the Order. He had understood why his Master had done so but that didn't make it hurt any less. The knowledge that there had been a few members of the Order who had not been either surprised or disappointed when he had left also added to his unease. He felt a new sense of pride and confidence knowing that in a matter of days he would be walking back into the Temple redeemed. Whether they like it or not he would be back.
He took no small amount of joy in the fact that he had been right concerning Anakin and that now the council realized that fact. He wasn't one though who needed to rub their noses in it though. He gained enough pleasure from his own awareness of the situation. He didn't need an apology. He realized that in fact by asking him to return that the apology had been offered and he had graciously accepted it.
Qui-Gon had been shocked by Mace's reaction to their announcement that they would return. Mace had seemed grim on hearing the news. He had expected him to have shown at least a marginal amount of happiness having secured a student of such exceptional potential. He had also hoped that the man would have shown some joy knowing that he was returning as well. They had been close friends in the past. He would never understand why the man put forth such a stoic persona now. He had been such a jovial knight. He wondered sometimes if being on the Council had gone to the man's head. Some beings just didn't bear up well under the weight of great responsibilities.
Anakin boarded the ship and settled himself in the commons area his data pad in hand. He had looked tired this morning. Qui-Gon had asked him if he had slept well. He had indicated that he had but upon closer examination his appearance told a different story. He had no doubt been laying awake full of curiosity about the Temple.
The sound of the ship jumping into hyperspace caused his heart to speed up a bit.
//Home// he thought //Home I am finally going home.//
Lost in the moment of joy he failed to notice the look on his Padawan's face. Anxious and concerned the young boy stared out into the blackness of the space that was zipping by their ship.
Mace had been studying the boy for some time. He was still worried about the training of this boy, but had been overruled by the Council. He had finally consented to allow the boy into the Temple after Yoda's revelation of his visions concerning the boy's future if they did not.
He and Yoda still believed that the Council was reacting in fear since that Sith attack. The time had come to be proactive not reactive. It was both Mace and Yoda's opinion that the boy should never be trained, but since Qui- Gon had thrust him upon them, they had little choice now.
Looking over at the miserable boy Mace wondered about Anakin's future. As always when he attempted to see it there was always darkness and chaos. A cold shudder raced down his spine. He had a very bad feeling about this.
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"Come in. Come in" Yoda's voice called to him from the kitchen. Walking into Yoda's quarters was a lot like walking into a tropical jungle. The ceilings hung heavy with flowering vines. Everywhere a being looked there was life. Obi-wan had always felt that the peace of the environment more than made up for the elevated levels of humidity in the apartment. He wondered why Yoda ever bothered with the Temple meditation gardens when he had such a lovely and tranquil place of his own.
"Seek out new surroundings we must to discover truths within. " His Master's voice pulled him from his thoughts.
He watched as Yoda brought in a tray with tea cups, a warming pot and seed pods which the Master knew were one of Obi-Wan's favorite foods. Obi-Wan smiled knowing that this was one of the many ways that Yoda had found to express his affection for him.
"Can I help you with that Master?" Obi-Wan rose in an attempt to help but was shooed back into his place.
"Got it I have. Capable I am." Yoda placed the tray between them then sat and regarded the man before him.
"Well you have done. Proud of you the council is. Trust you they do. Surprised I am not but proud of you am I as well."
Obi-Wan felt a blush come to his cheeks and a lump fill his throat. He didn't trust his voice so he opened up the bond that they had formed upon the Queen's ship while heading for Naboo.
/You were the first to believe in me, so yours is the opinion I cherish above all./
/ Missed you I have in my mind young one. Sunlight is addictive it seems./ He poured the tea and handed a cup to Obi-Wan who took it gratefully. He needed a chance to control his emotions. /What of this rumor of you and Master Gallia?/
Obi-Wan struggled not to spit out his tea in Yoda's face. He hadn't seen that one coming. That was just like the old master to sneak one in before he had a chance to come up with an adequate response.
His voice now recovered from the emotion before Obi-Wan sat his cup down and spoke, "It is bit early to call it anything. We had drinks last night and enjoyed each other's company but who's to say that it is anything or will be anything." He picked up a seed pod and popped it into his mouth. He smiled mischievously "You know as well as any Master that the future is difficult to see."
"Hm.wise you have become. Sound like your Master you do." Yoda played along but continued on persistently, "Seeing her again you are?" Yoda drank his tea peacefully enjoying the display of emotion before him.
"Well yes we are. I am having dinner with her this evening."
"Careful you both must be or undermine opinion of the council this could." Yoda poured himself another cup of tea settling back into his chair.
"You just said that they were proud of me and trusted me." Obi-Wan stated incredulously.
"This they do but once they learn of this relationship her voice will not hold the same weight when spoken in support of you concerning assignments and mission outcomes."
Obi-Wan sat for a long moment considering. He would have to give this over to meditation. As much as he resented the little green master's interference in his personal life he knew that his motives were always with the greater good in mind. Obi-Wan knew he could never allow his personal feelings to in anyway undermine the will of the force and his place within that will. He also realized that he could never allow his feelings for Adi to discredit her in any way. He smiled thinking about her.
Yoda sat quietly allowing his ex-Padawan to work through the problem on his own. He marveled at how quick and sure Obi-Wan's mind was and how it naturally always gravitated to the light side of the force.
Once Obi-Wan seemed to have made his peace Yoda spoke again. "More I have to tell you. Hard this will be for you to hear. But hear it you must." Yoda shook his head as if still uncertain of his own feelings concerning the information he was about to reveal.
Obi sat back slightly in his seat and took a breath assuring himself that he had a grasp on his center. Feeling the Force sing back to him he smiled slightly and nodded towards Yoda indicating he was ready for whatever news the Master needed to convey.
Yoda's voice grew lower and ominous in tone. "Dark times these are. Darkness growing and blind we are to it. One year and unable we have been to locate the master to the Sith we eliminated." Yoda paused considering how to continue. Obi-Wan suppress a shudder remembering the odd tattooed warrior. He was still amazed that they had defeated him. If it hadn't been for the strength of his Master he felt certain he would not have. Centering himself once more he turned his full attention back to his Master.
"Strong are our knights but our numbers are smaller. Fewer infants identified and brought to the Temple." Obi nodded. He had spent his morning in the crèche and had noticed the decrease in rooms that were required to house the youngest among their order.
"Afford we cannot to lose even one. Risk is too high that our loss would become the darkness's gain. " Yoda stopped and began drawing something on the floor with his walking stick. Obi recognized this gesture from his limited time with the old master as a nervous habit if he could call it that. He had seen the master do such a thing when he was avoiding having to think of something unpleasant.
"Master?" Obi began softly reaching out to lay his hand upon Yoda's arm in order to stop the motion. "Please trust me enough to know that I can handle what it is that you are so unwilling to tell me. I sense that you are concerned that I am going to be hurt by your words. They are only words. I will survive." Yoda regarded the man for a time before he continued.
/Words they may be young one, but more painful weapon there is not./ He sent through the bond causing Obi-Wan to furrow his brow in contemplation. What words could be spoken that could be as injurious as a weapon?
"A long year it has been my Obi-Wan. Full it has been of growth and missions. Much has changed. Always we must be open to the future changing. Serve the light we must. Always the greater good should guide us." There was something in the Master's tone.
Obi-Wan felt his breathing increase. He knew what was coming, but couldn't bring himself to stop his Master from speaking the words. A year, not being able to lose even one possible knight, words that would hurt him like a weapon, Obi-Wan felt his heart pace quicken.
Yoda saw it in Obi-Wan's eyes. The boy knew what was coming and he was helpless to protect his beloved padawan from the decision of the Council. He could only hope that the news would be easier to bear coming from him instead of the Temple rumor mill
" A year ago two with great talent the council allowed to leave the Temple. A great but necessary loss it was. Master Windu has traveled to Lustar in order to bring them back. Offer was made and accepted. "
So that was it. Obi-Wan nodded accepting the news with no outward display of emotion. Inside he felt his world suddenly spinning out of control Qui- Gon and Anakin were returning to the Temple. He mouth went dry making it hard for him to ask the questions that were rapidly forming in his mind.
"When do they arrive?" He asked determined to remain in control. He spoke in a tone of detached professionalism.
"Arriving today their shuttle is." Yoda picked his cup back up and sat staring into it. He knew from the shielding he felt in the boy that he was struggling. He admired his desire to not burden his Master but wished there was something he could do to help the boy deal with the onslaught of emotion. Realizing there really wasn't he remained silent allowing the boy the rouse.
//So much for having time to prepare.// Obi-Wan thought to himself. He sighed and shook his head lowering his gaze for a moment. He calmed himself and reached for the force pulling it around him. He felt it come to him instantly surrounding him and holding him in a loving and supportive embrace. He centered himself reaching out further searching his own feelings concerning the return of his ex-Master and the boy who had replaced him. Casting out he was amazed at the various emotions that rose up within him. He sorted through them quickly then looked up meeting Yoda's understanding eyes.
"I feel better knowing that they are under the protection of the Temple. I too have been concerned with the darkness. I have also never felt comfortable with my master's premature death for my benefit." His voice sounded slightly surprised at the admission.
"Difficult it was but equally necessary for your knighthood. Regret it I won't." Yoda took a long sip from his cup. He knew that Qui-Gon probably felt that his reinstatement was some sort of veiled apology on his behalf or that of the Council. He was sadly mistaken. What his padawn had done to the man sitting before him was unforgivable. Had the danger of the Skywalker boy not been so great he would never have agreed to allow Qui-Gon anywhere near the Temple again. Defiant he was and reckless in his behavior.
Yoda had seen visions of the Skywalker boy. It was the weight of these visions combined with the possible devastation that would come to the Republic if they came to pass that had brought about the decision to bring the two back under the supervision of the Temple.
"I felt that training the boy was dangerous. I believe the Council at the time agreed. Has so much changed?" Setting his personal issues aside, Obi- Wan was once again focused on the greater good.
He remembered the fear and anger that had radiated from the boy. He had been shocked that Qui-Gon had not sensed it. Anakin had seemed volatile and manipulative. Obi-Wan felt sorrow when he considered where the young boy had picked up such necessary survival skills as a slave, but setting his sorrow aside he realized how dangerous these skills would be in the hands of a trained Jedi Knight.
"Share your concerns Mace and I do as well as the Council but greater is the risk that the boy fall to another." The words hung thick with implication between them. The thought ran cold through his veins.
Obi-Wan had had such visions of Anakin, but had just believed that they had merely been the result of his unresolved feelings concerning what had occurred between Qui-Gon and himself. He had never really allowed himself to believe that the vision could have been a warning from the Force. Obi- Wan wondered if he should mention the visions to his Master but decided to meditate on them first.
He was feeling a desperate need to meditate immediately. With each passing moment it was becoming more difficult for Obi-Wan to remain calm and focused. Knowing that Yoda was more than aware by now of the emotions warring within him, he gave up the battle.
"Master Yoda I thank you for this private revelation but I find now that I must meditate on the matter. I hope you will not be offended if I take my leave in order to center myself before I am confronted with our newest arrivals."
He had purposely refused to use their names. He couldn't say them for some reason. They felt heavy like failure in his mouth. He resented the encroachment of faint sorrow on his otherwise peaceful life. Yoda nodded and honored him with a whack with his stick.
"Only the power you allow him can he have over you. No longer his Padawan you are. Forever my Padawan you will be. "
Obi nodded as he rose understanding the truth of the green master's words but also realizing that life was never so simple as that. The door closed behind him. He was tempted to cast out through the bond he had once shared with Qui-Gon in order to see if the man and his Padawan had arrived yet, but then decided against it.
Thinking of Yoda's words once more he realized accessing the bond would give Qui-Gon power over him that he no longer had a right to. He would not reach out in such an intimate manner. He was a knight and Qui-Gon was a Master and other than being members of the Jedi Order there was nothing else left between them. Even as he entrenched this philosophy he knew it was a lie and one that would never survive his mediation.
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/Coruscant./ Qui-Gon sighed at the sight of the city planet beneath him. As much as he always adored the quiet and serenity of less inhabited planets this was his home. He watched as the Temple grew closer. Any feelings of dread had diminished in light of the excitement of seeing old friends and once again being a part of the Order once more.
He couldn't remember when I planet had looked so good to his eyes. He had loved the beauty of Lustar, but had always known that he and Anakin were their as guests. The King had been generous and welcoming but still there was no place like home. He wondered for a moment if Anakin missed Tatooine like this. He dismissed the thought. There wasn't anything he could do to help with that. He would focus on what he could do for the boy. He could train him to become the greatest Jedi ever in the history of the Order. He was after all the Chosen One.
As they drew nearer Qui-Gon became aware of various force signatures that were familiar to him emanating from the Temple. He could already feel his Master's signature. It was always strong and overpowering. There were several others. He fought the desire to reach out and check for Obi-Wan's presence. He wasn't sure if he wanted to the boy to be there or not.
He had learned from Mace during the flight that his ex-Padawan had survived and defeated the Sith. It had been his saber that had actually landed the killing blow. He found himself thinking back to all the numerous sparring matches that they had had against one another. Obi-Wan was a very talented warrior. Qui-Gon felt himself swell with pride.
He then turned his thoughts to his new apprentice. He delighted in the potential of his new student.
//If Obi-Wan could defeat a Sith there no telling what Anakin would have done to him.//
He tried to imagine Anakin fighting the tattooed warrior. It would have been quite a battle.
He knew that eventually his path would cross with Obi-Wans. The Temple was large but no so large that they could avoid each other indefinitely. He wondered if the boy would try to avoid him. The thought that he would filled Qui-Gon with regret.
Of course Obi-Wan wouldn't be at the Temple much anyway. Surely the Temple had him busy doing something in the galaxy. He had spent years training the boy; it would be a shame to allow all that good training to go to waste. Perhaps he was on a mission right now.
//That would be for the best.// Qui-Gon finally decided.
Obi-Wan being away would give Anakin a chance to adjust without being reminded of why they had had to leave.
He had wanted to ask Mace several questions concerning Obi-Wan and how he had faired without his oversight. In the end Qui-Gon had decided against talking to his old friend. Mace was far to close to Yoda and would no doubt alert the old master to Qui-Gon's curiosity. He was in no mood for a lecture from his old master.
Anakin stood beside him staring out the ship's port side window. He had grown physically and in his abilities over the past year. No longer the fidgety little boy he was starting to have the demeanor of one who had spent his life raised at the Temple. He would find fitting in much easier now than it would have been if they had been allowed to have remained there a year ago. The force did seem to always know best Qui-Gon mused as he heard the landing gear lower. He heard the soft russle of the cloak behind him and knew that Mace was now waiting for them before making his way to the ramp.
"How does it feel?" Mace asked in a kind tone that Qui-Gon had almost forgotten he was capable of.
"It feels like home." He said softly turning towards his old friend a smile playing both on his lips and in his eyes.
"And to you Padawan Skywalker?" Mace asked turning his gaze to the boy who was still staring out at the landing area.
"Strange. It feels strange." He replied as he pulled his cloak hood up covering his head and turning to regard the master.
//Home? Is that what you thought I would say? This will never be home.// He thought carefully measuring his shields.
"Hopefully in time it too will feel like home to you." Mace's words were kind but firm.
Anakin could sense how happy Qui-Gon was to be back on Coruscant. Qui-Gon looked so peaceful and happy. He was hardly the picture of Jedi serenity. He had never considered what the older man had given up in order to train him. He suddenly found himself considering his master's ex-Padawan in his mind. He wondered if Obi-Wan had a new Master at the Temple, would he still be a padawan? Surely they wouldn't be in any classes together. Though perhaps since he was so advanced he would be on the same level as the older man and have the chance to see him. It would feel good to show him up a bit. He didn't dislike Obi-Wan but he had sensed that he too had opposed the idea of his training. This would give him the chance to prove all of them wrong. Thinking back even the last time he had seen him Obi- Wan had been kind. It hadn't been his idea to take Anakin from his Mother. That had been all Qui-Gon's doing. Maybe he would have some news about how things had turned out for Padme. Anakin brightened at the thought.
Anakin shook himself out of his thoughts and was careful to fall into step exactly as a Padawan learner should. It was important that he make a good impression and remove any doubts or fears that the Council or any of the other Jedi might have concerning his ability and readiness for training. If training at the Temple would make him more powerful then he would do everything in his power to insure that that is where he trained. The darkness needed him to be strong. He had sensed it. He owed it to the darkness to be all that he could after all the darkness had never rejected him.
They made their way to the Council Chambers. It felt odd returning to a place that he had believed he would never see again. The happiness and relief coming from his Master was a bit overwhelming. Anakin doubted that Qui-Gon was aware that he was broadcasting these feelings so openly. Seeing the doors before them they were halted by two guards. Mace made a motion for Qui-Gon and Anakin to wait where they were. He then entered the Chambers without them. The moment the doors opened to admit him an angry female voice filled the waiting area. As soon as the door closed the area was once again silent.
Anakin glanced up at his Master. Qui-Gon seemed a bit paler. Master Jinn had not picked up on any of the woman's words but had recognized the voice of Master Adi Gallia. He wondered what had her so upset. They had always seemed to have gotten along, so he couldn't imagine that her feelings were connect to his and Anakin's return. Chalking it up to continued problems between the Council and Senate, Qui-Gon dismissed it. He would see her around the Temple soon enough and would hear all about it.
He motioned for Anakin to join him in taking a seat. The Council would not see them until the matter before them was settled and from the sound of Adi's voice that might be awhile. Qui-Gon smiled thinking about the feisty young Master. He had always admired her confidence, vitality and not to mention looks. He had felt attracted to her for years but had realized that she was far too young to be interested in an old master like himself. He sensed Anakin's apprehension and sent him soothing thoughts through their bond. It wouldn't be long now and all would be as it always should have been from the start.
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"What are you thinking!" Adi exclaimed again interrupting Ki Mundi.
"Mind your thoughts and your emotions Master Gallia." Mace's voice held a menacing tone.
Adi nodded to Mace and took a calming breath. She had just learned of the decision the Council had made to extend an invitation to Anakin Skywalker to be trained at the Temple and even more outrageous that Qui-Gon would be reinstated to the Jedi Order. She wondered why such a decision had been made without her input. She had been present during the Council's first consideration of Anakin. She had felt that it would have been a mistake to train him then and held to that same opinion now. She wondered how close the vote had been. She wished again that Chancellor Palpatine had not appointed her to the Ambassador's Committee. Had it not been for those meetings she would have been present and had the chance to express her opinion in this matter before the final decision had been made. Perhaps hers would have been the deciding vote. She glanced around the room meeting the eyes of her fellow Councilors. Gathering her thoughts and her center she leveled her voice and began again to convey her concern.
"I look around me and see the same faces that were present the day that Qui- Gon Jinn, of his own accord, defied the Council quitting the order, abandoning his padawan and taking it upon himself to train one that the Council emphatically denied a training opportunity.
I might also add that everyone here is aware that the padawan that he threw away, Obi-Wan Kenobi, has turned out to be an exceptional addition to the Order. We came dangerously close to losing him for the SECOND time." She paused allowing her words to sink in and awaken the dreadful memory of six years prior when Jinn had abandoned Obi-Wan for the first time. Once satisfied that all the Councilors had remembered she continued,
"One year ago, I believed that we were all unified in our shock, betrayal, sorrow and disbelief at this man's actions. His actions were an outrage and yet here we sit ready to embrace him. To take him back among us as if nothing has occurred.
I must ask each of you to consider the message that this action on our part will send to the Padawans, Masters, and Knights of our Order? What message does this send to the Senate, Chancellor, and Ambassadors?
I understand our need to remain open minded and flexible, but we must never be seen as tolerant of selfish defiance and that is what we are validating here." As she spoke she watched the expressions of each Council member. She could sense that there were several who were still undecided as to the wisdom of this offer.
"Your thoughts linger on Kenobi." Ki-Mundi's soft voice broke the silence.
Adi felt her face heat a bit. She glanced first to Yoda who immediately raised two curious brows. She then turned back to Ki.
"Yes Master Mundi my thoughts are of Knight Kenobi. He has suffered more at the hands of Master Jinn than I am sure any of us could imagine. He has served the Order above and beyond our expectations this past year. I wonder what message this decision will send to him as to his value to our Order. Did any of my fellow Councilor's consider his feelings in this matter when it was being decided?" Her voice was strong and confident. She wanted to convey clearly to all present that her relationship with Obi- Wan was not nor ever would be up for debate by the Council.
"Considered him we did." Yoda spoke. "Knew it would be hard for him we did. Order, Planet, Galaxy bigger than one man are these. Serve the light we must. Trust the Force we will. "She could sense Yoda's sadness. Hadn't Obi-Wan mentioned last night that he was having tea with Yoda earlier today? Adi wondered now if Yoda had wanted the opportunity to tell his padawan personally that Qui-Gon Jinn was coming back.
Adi forced herself not to allow her thoughts to linger on Obi-Wan. She would have time to speak with him about all of this soon enough.
//Just when things had started out so well. Now this.// She thought remembering how wonderful the previous night had been. She sighed hoping beyond hope that Jinn's return wouldn't mean the end of what had begun between she and Obi-Wan.
"So you believe that in order to serve the light we must open the Temple up to both Skywalker and Jinn?" She asked Yoda needing the clear admission in order to concede to the decision to bring them back.
The old master paused closing his eyes drawing the Force around him. After several long moments he opened his eyes once more. "Difficult the future is to see. Darkness is growing. Hungry it is for an apprentice. Skywalker must not fall or devastation will come to many. This I have seen." His words hung heavy in the Chambers. All eyes were on the little green master. He was drawing silently on the floor of the Chambers.
"Any further discussion?" Mace asked his fellow Council members allowing his gaze to linger on Adi. She shook her head slightly her lips forming a straight line indicating her disapproval but acceptance. "Then I shall call Master Jinn and his Padawan before us."
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