Title: Broken Promises and New Beginnings
Rating: I wish I knew. I am putting it at PG-13 just because I don't know any better and would rather err on the safe side.
Genre: Drama/Mild Angst
Disclaimer: I own none of the characters in this story. They are, were and will always belong to Mr. George Lucas creator of an amazing universe. Not only does this story contain elements of the universe that Mr. Lucas created but also the Alternate Universe (AU) found in a wonderful story called An Untimely Frost by CYNICAL21. I thank Cynical21 for allowing me to reference her work. If you haven't read her story you are really missing out on a wonderful story.
Just to a little guide as to what things mean:
/-/ Bond thought //-// Private thought "-" Speaking aloud
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The feeling in the Council Chambers was not what Qui-Gon had expected. Taking in the faces of the Council Members surrounding them it was obvious that their return had been debated at some length. He could tell that some members were regarding him with indifference while others seemed to hold him in contempt. He found his eyes falling onto the face of Adi Gallia. There was great distain in her expression. He had the sinking feeling that they had been the subject of her earlier outburst. He glanced away feeling embarrassed that someone he had considered a friend would oppose his return.
"Welcome back Qui-Gon." Yoda spoke. Qui-Gon bowed his head and smiled at this master.
"It is good to be back." Qui-Gon spoke regarding each member as he did so. He noticed the softening of a few expressions and hoped that perhaps he did still have a few friends left on the Council.
"Padawan Skywalker we welcome you as well. Master Windu has informed us that you are ready to join your age mates in their courses." Plo Koon stated more than asked but waited for a response.
"Yes Master I am ready to take my place among my fellow Padawan." Anakin's voice was steady and strong. Qui-Gon felt a surge of pride in all the boy had accomplished.
"Your courses tomorrow will start. Settle into your quarters and get familiar with the Temple today you will." Yoda replied. Adi sat with her gaze fixed on the man before her. He held himself with the familiar confidence he had always possessed. It was obvious that he had not received the welcome that he had expected.
"Your old quarters were no longer available Master Jinn." Mace began glancing first to Yoda and then back to Qui-Gon. "Your new quarter assignment, credit chip and com assignments await you at the registry. We will delay you no further. If you require any assistance please contact us. "Mace paused and Qui-Gon nodded once more.
"Padawan Skywalker, your courses have been selected for you." Qui-Gon's head shot up and moved to speak but Mace raised his hand stopping him. "You are arriving in mid-term of study so we were limited in which courses were available. Once the term is completed in a couple of months you and your Master will select your future course load. Your schedule is also at the registry along with your data pads."
Anakin mimicked Qui-Gon smiling politely.
Adi's mind reeled. It appeared that Mace was in the process of dismissing Qui-Gon without issuing any sort of formal reprimand. She couldn't let the man off so easily.
"Master Jinn." Her voice was louder than she had intended it to be. She watched as Qui-Gon and the Skywalker boy turned to face her. "Do you realize why you are being allowed back inside this Order and Temple?"
"Master Gallia." Mace began but Adi held up her hand. If they would not force him to face the music then she would. Mace fell silent.
Qui-Gon took this as his cue to talk. He bowed to the lovely Master and smiled warmly at her.
"Master Gallia it is wonderful to see you again. I have missed you. In regards to your question it is obvious that the Council sees the potential of my padawan and has reversed their decision to reject him. It was a mistake that we were forced to leave and now that mistake has been corrected." He explained it in a matter of fact tone, but Adi picked up on a bit of condescension as well.
"Actually Master Jinn no one on this Council shares your opinion concerning our first ruling on this matter. It was not a mistake. In addition let me remind you that NO ONE forced you to leave. You left, abandoning your padawan and your responsibility to him and to this Council, in order to follow your own selfish will." She paused hoping he would try to defend himself so that she could silence him. When Qui-Gon made no attempt to interrupt she continued. "The fact that you are being allowed to return to the Order is a rare opportunity and a generous gift on behalf of this Council. I suggest that you don't waste it. Your conduct last year was deplorable. We will expect better of you." She could see the color rising in his face. It was then that Adi realized that he had thought that the Council had readmitted him as a silent apology. His arrogance floored her.
"I will not debate the past with you Master Gallia except to say that one year ago I pleaded with this Council to recognize Anakin as the fulfillment of the prophesy. The Council refused. Master Windu traveled to Lustar and was witness to the talent this boy possesses. I don't have to defend my conduct. I did have a padawan at the time but could not turn my back on the Chosen One in order to complete the training of an apprentice with less ability. Anakin's abilities more than defend any DEPLORABLE actions I may have taken."
"Silent you will be!" Every eye in the Council fell on the little green master. Once Qui-Gon had turned a shocked gaze on his Master, Yoda continued his tone softer, " Judge the abilities of MY padawan you will not. Inexcusable your actions were. Nothing has the Council to apologize for."
He could not remember the last time his Master had raised his voice especially in front of the Council. Qui-Gon was speechless in the face of this revelation. He could never remember Yoda ever being as protective of him as he now was of Obi-Wan.
Anakin shifted uncomfortably under the scrutiny of so many eyes. He wanted out of the Chambers. They really hadn't wanted him back. So why was he there? Why had the high and mighty Mace Windu come out to Lustar? Looking around the room it suddenly hit him they were afraid of him. He almost laughed aloud. He struggled to keep his composure. He wasn't sure that the woman his Master called Adi was afraid of him yet or not, but he would make it his goal to make sure that she was.
Mace broke the uneasy silence that hung in the room. "This is not the time for this conversation. We will discuss all that has happened and what the future holds once you and your padawan have had the opportunity to settle in. You are dismissed." He motioned to the door and they exited.
Qui-Gon glanced about the room nodding gratefully to Mace. He led Anakin from the room.
Once outside the chamber Qui-Gon sighed. "Well that wasn't too bad." He didn't sound very convincing. He really felt like he had been run over by a Rancor.
"They really don't want us here." Anakin spoke softly beside him
"Don't let one Master's opinion fool you Anakin. They want us here. I know the Council. If they didn't want us here we would not be here. Trust the Force. All will be well." Qui-Gon gave the boy a reassuring smile.
Anakin remained silent as they made their way to the registry.
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"Was that really necessary?" Mace asked as soon as Qui-Gon and Anakin had exited.
"Necessary? Did you hear him? He thinks that this invitation comes in lieu of an apology. The nerve of him." Adi replied incredulously.
"Matters not what he thinks. Learn he will why allowed to return he was." Yoda's voice put a halt to any further argument on this point. Adi nodded.
"Has anyone discussed their arrival with Knight Kenobi?" Mace asked his concern for the young man evident in his tone.
"Spoke with him I did." Yoda replied.
"And how did he take the news of their arrival?" Adi asked.
"News he took as I had expected. Great Knight he is becoming. Much there is unresolved between he and Qui-Gon, but always conscience of the light he is. Seeking the Force's guidance in this he is. Doubt I do not that find it he will." Yoda's answer seemed to satisfy most of those present. No one seemed to notice the look of doubt on Adi's face.
Over the years she had learned a great deal about Obi-Wan. One of his greatest abilities was overcoming difficult circumstances. One of his greatest faults was the importance he placed on the approval of one arrogant master. Time would tell if he could use his greatest ability to overcome his greatest fault.
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Having spent the majority of the afternoon in the meditation gardens, he felt more centered, but still couldn't help but feel a sense of dread overshadowing the moment when he would find himself face to face with his ex-master. He did feel a peace about their returning to the Temple though. It was obvious that this had been the will of the Force. His difficulties were personal and he couldn't and wouldn't allow his personal feelings to interfere with his duty to the order.
He had lost track of time and had had to rush in order to reach Adi's quarters. As soon as he hit the chime the door swooshed open and there stood the lovely master, chrono in her hand and victorious smirk upon her face.
Obi-Wan playfully asked, "Am I early?"
She joined in his laughter as she stepped forward cupping his face and pulling him down towards her lips.
She softly whispered, "Pay up Knight."
He lost himself as her lips brushed against his. Her kiss was deeper than his but he welcomed it. He forgot all need to apologize for his boldness on the previous night as he felt her tongue push past his slightly parted lips and taste him. She pulled away only when they were both in desperate need of air.
He rested his forehead against hers for a moment and murmured, "Wanna bet who can get to the lifts first?"
She pushed him away playfully as she turned to dim her lights and palm her door closed. When she turned back to him her playful look had been replaced by one of concern. "Are you sure you are up for this today?" She asked.
He realized then that her place on the Council allowed her to be aware of Qui-Gon's return. He stared at her for a moment wondering if she had known before and had not been able to tell him. Had this all been arranged out of pity for him? Was she feeling sorry for him because he was having to face the return of the one who had rejected him? He had always known that Adi had a soft spot for him as a Padawan but never had he imagined that she would go to these lengths out of sympathy. His face was unreadable.
He suddenly felt even more in need of meditation. Qui-Gon had only been back on Coruscant for a day and already Obi-Wan seemed full of self doubt. He hadn't missed that at all over this year as he had slowly learned to accept his weaknesses as well as see his strength that compensated for them.
"Obi?" Adi questioned after such a long time.
"You know I probably am not up for this to be honest. I think I should go." His tone was hurt and abrupt.
This was a confusing change of events. Adi reeled a bit. She understood if he didn't want to go out for dinner but she had never meant to indicate that she didn't want to share his company. She cursed Jinn one more time silently.
"I wasn't suggesting we call the night off. I just thought perhaps we could stay in and order some food. We could talk about everything." She laid her hand carefully on his forearm trying to gauge what the man was thinking.
Obi-Wan stared at her for along moment. He was searching for something in her eyes. She tolerated it feeling certain that he would explain soon enough. After a long moment he pulled back and laid his hand upon hers. All of his old defenses were yelling at him to leave but somehow the strength he had gained over the last few months held him in place.
"I just don't want your pity." He said not meeting her eyes.
"Pity?" Adi gasped shaking her head in disbelief. "Why would I pity you?'
"Was last night" Obi-Wan hesitated "and---tonight some way of helping me deal with his return?" He looked down into her eyes once more the same searching intensity. She realized he was searching for pity or deceit hiding there. She met his gaze refusing to look away.
"No Obi. I only learned of his return today at the Council meeting. I'm surprised you didn't hear me yelling all over the Temple." She saw a ghost of a smile haunt his lips before he grew serious once more, " I was away when it was decided to dispatch Mace to investigate and offer the invitation for them to return. I will never know if my being at that meeting would have changed anything. After hearing the reasons I have to admit that I don't know how my vote would have gone had I been there. I am so sorry for the pain his return causes you." She rolled her eyes in frustration. "But of all that I have discovered that I feel for you none of it has anything to do with pity. Last night and hopefully tonight marks a new beginning in our relationship. Qui-Gon has nothing to do with it trust me. "
He nodded and looked down at his feet.
She took her hands and lifted his chin until his eyes met hers. "Do you believe me?"
He saw warmth and admiration in those eyes. He smiled and nodded. He did believe her. She sensed his relief and embarrassment at having thought so little of her. Wanting to move on with the evening she palmed her door.
"Want to come inside for some dinner and gambling." She moved her eyebrows seductively. He laughed at that and pulled her close to him.
"As good as that sounds I think I would much rather encourage the Temple rumor mill by having you on my arm all night." She looked at him doubtfully. After her obvious concern for him displayed at the meeting earlier she had no doubt that the rumor mill was already encouraged to its max and bleeding off in every direction. She wondered why he would want to be out instead of here safe with her.
Noticing her confusion he added, "I won't hide away from him. I have nothing to be ashamed of and he only has the power that I allow him to have over me. To hide away tonight would be giving him too much power. I won't make that mistake again. It almost killed me the last time. I fear I would not survive such a blow the next time." He paused and offered her his arm. "Shall we go?"
She stared at him in awe. He truly had come so far in recovering from all the damage Jinn had inflicted. She felt a warm wave of affect pulse through her. She took it rubbing his forearm sending waves of warmth through him as she did so. "Lets."
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Qui-Gon had felt a little guilty leaving Anakin alone in their new quarters their first night back in the Temple. Anakin had assured him that he was fine and that he would actually enjoy having some time alone to get his few possessions settled as he wanted. He also needed some time to familiarize himself with his new data pads and the course work that he had to catch up on coming in at mid-term as he was.
Qui-Gon had relented. Mace and he definitely needed time to mend fences and he had truly missed so many of his fellow Masters. He had sensed some hostility in the Chambers but had been greeted warmly by several of his old friends in the hallways of the Temple. Still the invitation to have a night out had come as a much welcomed surprise. He should have known that Mace would do whatever he could to help his old friend find his way back into Temple life.
Taking in the faces at the table Qui-Gon felt hopeful that this night might go a long way to putting things back as they had been before he had left. He knew he had done the right thing by taking Anakin away and that leaving the order was the only way he could have done that, but now the Force wanted him back in the community so he trusted it would help him find his place once more. He knew that in time he would be accepted once more.
The bar was relaxed and dimly lit. There were several Sabbac tables going as well as a fairly good crowd on the dance floor. He settled back into his chair enjoying Master Eco's description of his latest diplomatic disaster. Qui-Gon chuckled wondering how many other such disasters had occurred with him gone and no one to fill his shoes. His thoughts were drawn back by Master Eco's last comment.
"Excuse me Eco but I didn't catch that last part." Qui-Gon raised his voice indicating that the music had overridden the Master's words.
"I said if Kenobi had been available none of it would have occurred but he had been busy on the Triad negotiations. He has basically covered the galaxy this year as Chief Negotiator for the Council." He took another sip from his glass.
Qui-Gon sat silently for a moment trying to align what he had just heard with what he had erroneously assumed.
//Obi-Wan.// He thought. Of course he would have filled Qui-Gon's shoes. //That is what I trained him to do. // His curiosity now peaked he couldn't help but continue.
"So how did Obi-Wan fair his first year out?" Qui-Gon found himself briefly remembering his first few disastrous missions as well as those of his Padawan while they had been together.
"Actually," Mace began taking a long draw on his drink before continuing, "He has done a remarkable job. He has had a couple of dangerously close calls and functioning alone has made that aspect of the job more hazardous but all in all the Council is extremely pleased. "
Qui-Gon felt a wave of pride wash over him. His smile must have conveyed this as he realized all the other Masters at the table had grown quiet joining in the moment with him. There was no greater feeling for a teacher than to see their student succeed. Even though he had walked away before knighting the young man, he had been there for the vast majority of his training. He was allowed a little credit in the young man's success.
"That is very good news. I suspect he doesn't have much time at the Temple." The question hadn't meant to sound hopeful but somehow it had. Qui-Gon had been dreading the moment he and Obi-Wan would face each other again. He had no idea how he felt about their relationship let alone how his ex-apprentice felt about it.
"He is here very little, but his last mission has earned him a bit of down time. He is here for the next few weeks. We wanted him to teach a bit of the Astronavigation course that is if we can pull him away from the Creche Masters. According to them he is very gifted working with the youngest initiates." Each master nodded as Mace indicated to the server that they would be needing another round soon.
"Speak of the devil." Master Eco said causing all eyes to turn in the direction that the master was looking. Qui-Gon's breath caught as his eyes found his ex-Padawan standing in the entrance speaking to a group of young Knights.
Qui-Gon glanced over at Mace then returned his gaze to Obi-Wan. He realized then that Adi Gallia was standing next to him. He could go a life time without confronting her again. Upon closer inspection it was clear that the two had arrived together. This explained a great deal to Qui-Gon. The woman was protecting the boy. Obi-Wan had his arm around Adi's waist. They seemed to be enjoying a casual intimacy as they both laughed at whatever comment the tallest knight had just made. It was hard to gear whether they were two friends out for a laugh or if there was more involved.
//Could they be lovers?// He wondered.
Qui-Gon couldn't help but feel a bit panicked at the prospect of running into Obi-Wan on his first night back in the Temple. He was also fighting a sense of shock seeing the young man out with the older woman. Searching his feelings he discovered that the protectiveness he was sensing was hiding a twinge of jealousy.
He had had more than his own share of fantasies concerning Adi over the years. Adi had to be at least ten years older than Obi-Wan. He'd realized when Obi-Wan had been younger that he had had a bit of a crush on the female master, but it had passed as all crushes do.
He couldn't take his eyes off of them now. He looked good Qui-Gon realized. His hair had grown out some but even in the dim light of the club the soft ginger color lined with golded highlights branded him distinctly as Kenobi. He looked to be the same tight muscular build that Qui-Gon remembered but yet there was something different. It was in how he held himself. He stood with a self assurance that Qui-Gon didn't remember. He looked the epitome of a Jedi Knight. He felt a lump form in his throat. How could he have missed so much over the years? How many times had he looked upon his apprentice and missed what a honorable and good man he was?
Lost in his thoughts he didn't realize that Mace had exchanged his old drink for a new one. Picking up the glass he was surprised by its new weight. He glanced back at Mace who had obviously been watching him as he spied his ex-apprentice.
"What?" Qui-Gon asked hoping Mace wouldn't answer.
"Nothing." Mace replied turning back to the table.
"Should we ask them over?" Plo asked.
It was obvious that he was asking Qui-Gon more than anyone else at the table. Qui-Gon shrugged indifferently hoping his trepidation wasn't as obvious as it felt.
Master Eco was on his feet calling and waving before anyone could have interceded. Adi spotted him and waved back indicating that they would be over in a moment. She then turned to Obi-Wan who had his back to the table still talking with the other knights.
She whispered something to him and then was pulling him playfully over to the table. He was still trying to find out what the hurry was when they arrived at the table. Turning to their destination his eyes locked onto Qui-Gon's. He froze as did Adi. His mind was racing as was his heart. He felt his mouth go dry. He could sense that Adi was as surprised as he was to find his ex-master seated before them. He reached out to the Force and it steadied him.
There was a brief moment of awkward silence before Obi-Wan bowed slightly to his ex-master "Master Jinn I was told you were returning. I trust your journey was a good one." His tone was perfunctory. Qui-Gon's heart sank a bit. Such formality from one he knew so well.
"Yes thank you. Is it KNIGHT Kenobi now isn't it? " Qui-Gon ventured hesitantly. Obi-Wan nodded once.
Not wanting the conversation to end Qui-Gon picked up where he had left off "Yes it was a good journey. Thank you for asking." Obi-Wan nodded once more in polite acknowledgement.
"Mace, Plo, Eco, I see you are all staying out of trouble." Adi broke in trying to relieve the tension. She had not noticed Qui-Gon at the table and could feel the battle of emotions Obi-Wan was struggling to win next to her.
"We are doing our best to get into trouble actually, "Mace kidded," But trouble knows better than to mess with us." Obi-Wan joined the others in their laughter though he hadn't a clue what Mace had said. He had been too busy trying to think of a gracious way to excuse himself from their presence.
"Pull up a chair you two. " Plo made a gesture to some chairs at the next table that were not in use.
"We'd love to Plo," Adi began quickly pulling Obi-Wan closer as she did so, "But we made a bet at dinner and this knight has to pay up. It was really good to see you all."
She glanced around the table once more her expression unreadable when she reached Qui-Gon. Obi-Wan gave a tight smile and turned with her as they made their way out onto the dance floor.
"Are they seeing each other now?' Eco's voice was muffled as he continued to stare at the couple now dissolving into each other's arms on the dance floor.
"I didn't know about it." Plo replied also watching how well they moved together.
"Well that could have been much worse." Mace interrupted their thoughts his gaze back on Qui-Gon.
Qui-Gon had yet to lift his eyes from the table. He hadn't been able to sense Obi-Wan. It was as if he were any other knight or master in the room. He had felt nothing. It filled him such sadness he struggled to swallow it before looking back up. It was only in that moment that he truly realized how much he missed the quick silver presence in his mind.
"He was very polite." Eco offered not knowing what else to say. He had always cared for both Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan. He had never agreed with how Qui-Gon had treated the young man but had decided long ago not to take sides but instead to do his best to support them both.
"Yes he was. Wasn't he?" Qui-Gon's voice sounded tired. "The perfect little diplomat he was. But then again that was what I trained him to be." Qui-Gon tried to joke but it fell terribly flat. He could see now the conflict in the masters around him. They felt a loyalty to him out of their past history, but they also felt a loyalty to Obi-Wan out of respect. Judging from the look in their eyes, they felt pity for Qui-Gon. He could hardly stand to meet their gazes.
He took another long drink. He glanced back up just in time to see Obi-Wan and Adi slip out the exit. He had hoped to catch the young man's eye once more. Obi-Wan had been so cool before. Surely the chill he had felt would thaw.
He thought back to the eyes that had locked with his earlier. He had seen such weariness in those eyes and something else. Qui-Gon had seen that certain something in those striking blue-green eyes before. It took him a moment to remember where he had seen it. Once he realized he felt his spirit buoy within him. It had been on Haven when he had been trying to convince Obi-Wan to return with him to Coruscant. He had returned with Qui- Gon then just as now the Master felt the faint whisper of hope within him that Obi-Wan would be his again. All because of that certain something he had seen in the boys' eyes. That certain something was love. That love gave Qui-Gon hope.
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Ok so it wasn't high noon at the Ok Corral but it isn't their last meeting merely their first. Hang in there with me. I promise the best is yet to come. Love all the reviews. Thanks it really helps to keep me motivated.
Rating: I wish I knew. I am putting it at PG-13 just because I don't know any better and would rather err on the safe side.
Genre: Drama/Mild Angst
Disclaimer: I own none of the characters in this story. They are, were and will always belong to Mr. George Lucas creator of an amazing universe. Not only does this story contain elements of the universe that Mr. Lucas created but also the Alternate Universe (AU) found in a wonderful story called An Untimely Frost by CYNICAL21. I thank Cynical21 for allowing me to reference her work. If you haven't read her story you are really missing out on a wonderful story.
Just to a little guide as to what things mean:
/-/ Bond thought //-// Private thought "-" Speaking aloud
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The feeling in the Council Chambers was not what Qui-Gon had expected. Taking in the faces of the Council Members surrounding them it was obvious that their return had been debated at some length. He could tell that some members were regarding him with indifference while others seemed to hold him in contempt. He found his eyes falling onto the face of Adi Gallia. There was great distain in her expression. He had the sinking feeling that they had been the subject of her earlier outburst. He glanced away feeling embarrassed that someone he had considered a friend would oppose his return.
"Welcome back Qui-Gon." Yoda spoke. Qui-Gon bowed his head and smiled at this master.
"It is good to be back." Qui-Gon spoke regarding each member as he did so. He noticed the softening of a few expressions and hoped that perhaps he did still have a few friends left on the Council.
"Padawan Skywalker we welcome you as well. Master Windu has informed us that you are ready to join your age mates in their courses." Plo Koon stated more than asked but waited for a response.
"Yes Master I am ready to take my place among my fellow Padawan." Anakin's voice was steady and strong. Qui-Gon felt a surge of pride in all the boy had accomplished.
"Your courses tomorrow will start. Settle into your quarters and get familiar with the Temple today you will." Yoda replied. Adi sat with her gaze fixed on the man before her. He held himself with the familiar confidence he had always possessed. It was obvious that he had not received the welcome that he had expected.
"Your old quarters were no longer available Master Jinn." Mace began glancing first to Yoda and then back to Qui-Gon. "Your new quarter assignment, credit chip and com assignments await you at the registry. We will delay you no further. If you require any assistance please contact us. "Mace paused and Qui-Gon nodded once more.
"Padawan Skywalker, your courses have been selected for you." Qui-Gon's head shot up and moved to speak but Mace raised his hand stopping him. "You are arriving in mid-term of study so we were limited in which courses were available. Once the term is completed in a couple of months you and your Master will select your future course load. Your schedule is also at the registry along with your data pads."
Anakin mimicked Qui-Gon smiling politely.
Adi's mind reeled. It appeared that Mace was in the process of dismissing Qui-Gon without issuing any sort of formal reprimand. She couldn't let the man off so easily.
"Master Jinn." Her voice was louder than she had intended it to be. She watched as Qui-Gon and the Skywalker boy turned to face her. "Do you realize why you are being allowed back inside this Order and Temple?"
"Master Gallia." Mace began but Adi held up her hand. If they would not force him to face the music then she would. Mace fell silent.
Qui-Gon took this as his cue to talk. He bowed to the lovely Master and smiled warmly at her.
"Master Gallia it is wonderful to see you again. I have missed you. In regards to your question it is obvious that the Council sees the potential of my padawan and has reversed their decision to reject him. It was a mistake that we were forced to leave and now that mistake has been corrected." He explained it in a matter of fact tone, but Adi picked up on a bit of condescension as well.
"Actually Master Jinn no one on this Council shares your opinion concerning our first ruling on this matter. It was not a mistake. In addition let me remind you that NO ONE forced you to leave. You left, abandoning your padawan and your responsibility to him and to this Council, in order to follow your own selfish will." She paused hoping he would try to defend himself so that she could silence him. When Qui-Gon made no attempt to interrupt she continued. "The fact that you are being allowed to return to the Order is a rare opportunity and a generous gift on behalf of this Council. I suggest that you don't waste it. Your conduct last year was deplorable. We will expect better of you." She could see the color rising in his face. It was then that Adi realized that he had thought that the Council had readmitted him as a silent apology. His arrogance floored her.
"I will not debate the past with you Master Gallia except to say that one year ago I pleaded with this Council to recognize Anakin as the fulfillment of the prophesy. The Council refused. Master Windu traveled to Lustar and was witness to the talent this boy possesses. I don't have to defend my conduct. I did have a padawan at the time but could not turn my back on the Chosen One in order to complete the training of an apprentice with less ability. Anakin's abilities more than defend any DEPLORABLE actions I may have taken."
"Silent you will be!" Every eye in the Council fell on the little green master. Once Qui-Gon had turned a shocked gaze on his Master, Yoda continued his tone softer, " Judge the abilities of MY padawan you will not. Inexcusable your actions were. Nothing has the Council to apologize for."
He could not remember the last time his Master had raised his voice especially in front of the Council. Qui-Gon was speechless in the face of this revelation. He could never remember Yoda ever being as protective of him as he now was of Obi-Wan.
Anakin shifted uncomfortably under the scrutiny of so many eyes. He wanted out of the Chambers. They really hadn't wanted him back. So why was he there? Why had the high and mighty Mace Windu come out to Lustar? Looking around the room it suddenly hit him they were afraid of him. He almost laughed aloud. He struggled to keep his composure. He wasn't sure that the woman his Master called Adi was afraid of him yet or not, but he would make it his goal to make sure that she was.
Mace broke the uneasy silence that hung in the room. "This is not the time for this conversation. We will discuss all that has happened and what the future holds once you and your padawan have had the opportunity to settle in. You are dismissed." He motioned to the door and they exited.
Qui-Gon glanced about the room nodding gratefully to Mace. He led Anakin from the room.
Once outside the chamber Qui-Gon sighed. "Well that wasn't too bad." He didn't sound very convincing. He really felt like he had been run over by a Rancor.
"They really don't want us here." Anakin spoke softly beside him
"Don't let one Master's opinion fool you Anakin. They want us here. I know the Council. If they didn't want us here we would not be here. Trust the Force. All will be well." Qui-Gon gave the boy a reassuring smile.
Anakin remained silent as they made their way to the registry.
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"Was that really necessary?" Mace asked as soon as Qui-Gon and Anakin had exited.
"Necessary? Did you hear him? He thinks that this invitation comes in lieu of an apology. The nerve of him." Adi replied incredulously.
"Matters not what he thinks. Learn he will why allowed to return he was." Yoda's voice put a halt to any further argument on this point. Adi nodded.
"Has anyone discussed their arrival with Knight Kenobi?" Mace asked his concern for the young man evident in his tone.
"Spoke with him I did." Yoda replied.
"And how did he take the news of their arrival?" Adi asked.
"News he took as I had expected. Great Knight he is becoming. Much there is unresolved between he and Qui-Gon, but always conscience of the light he is. Seeking the Force's guidance in this he is. Doubt I do not that find it he will." Yoda's answer seemed to satisfy most of those present. No one seemed to notice the look of doubt on Adi's face.
Over the years she had learned a great deal about Obi-Wan. One of his greatest abilities was overcoming difficult circumstances. One of his greatest faults was the importance he placed on the approval of one arrogant master. Time would tell if he could use his greatest ability to overcome his greatest fault.
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Having spent the majority of the afternoon in the meditation gardens, he felt more centered, but still couldn't help but feel a sense of dread overshadowing the moment when he would find himself face to face with his ex-master. He did feel a peace about their returning to the Temple though. It was obvious that this had been the will of the Force. His difficulties were personal and he couldn't and wouldn't allow his personal feelings to interfere with his duty to the order.
He had lost track of time and had had to rush in order to reach Adi's quarters. As soon as he hit the chime the door swooshed open and there stood the lovely master, chrono in her hand and victorious smirk upon her face.
Obi-Wan playfully asked, "Am I early?"
She joined in his laughter as she stepped forward cupping his face and pulling him down towards her lips.
She softly whispered, "Pay up Knight."
He lost himself as her lips brushed against his. Her kiss was deeper than his but he welcomed it. He forgot all need to apologize for his boldness on the previous night as he felt her tongue push past his slightly parted lips and taste him. She pulled away only when they were both in desperate need of air.
He rested his forehead against hers for a moment and murmured, "Wanna bet who can get to the lifts first?"
She pushed him away playfully as she turned to dim her lights and palm her door closed. When she turned back to him her playful look had been replaced by one of concern. "Are you sure you are up for this today?" She asked.
He realized then that her place on the Council allowed her to be aware of Qui-Gon's return. He stared at her for a moment wondering if she had known before and had not been able to tell him. Had this all been arranged out of pity for him? Was she feeling sorry for him because he was having to face the return of the one who had rejected him? He had always known that Adi had a soft spot for him as a Padawan but never had he imagined that she would go to these lengths out of sympathy. His face was unreadable.
He suddenly felt even more in need of meditation. Qui-Gon had only been back on Coruscant for a day and already Obi-Wan seemed full of self doubt. He hadn't missed that at all over this year as he had slowly learned to accept his weaknesses as well as see his strength that compensated for them.
"Obi?" Adi questioned after such a long time.
"You know I probably am not up for this to be honest. I think I should go." His tone was hurt and abrupt.
This was a confusing change of events. Adi reeled a bit. She understood if he didn't want to go out for dinner but she had never meant to indicate that she didn't want to share his company. She cursed Jinn one more time silently.
"I wasn't suggesting we call the night off. I just thought perhaps we could stay in and order some food. We could talk about everything." She laid her hand carefully on his forearm trying to gauge what the man was thinking.
Obi-Wan stared at her for along moment. He was searching for something in her eyes. She tolerated it feeling certain that he would explain soon enough. After a long moment he pulled back and laid his hand upon hers. All of his old defenses were yelling at him to leave but somehow the strength he had gained over the last few months held him in place.
"I just don't want your pity." He said not meeting her eyes.
"Pity?" Adi gasped shaking her head in disbelief. "Why would I pity you?'
"Was last night" Obi-Wan hesitated "and---tonight some way of helping me deal with his return?" He looked down into her eyes once more the same searching intensity. She realized he was searching for pity or deceit hiding there. She met his gaze refusing to look away.
"No Obi. I only learned of his return today at the Council meeting. I'm surprised you didn't hear me yelling all over the Temple." She saw a ghost of a smile haunt his lips before he grew serious once more, " I was away when it was decided to dispatch Mace to investigate and offer the invitation for them to return. I will never know if my being at that meeting would have changed anything. After hearing the reasons I have to admit that I don't know how my vote would have gone had I been there. I am so sorry for the pain his return causes you." She rolled her eyes in frustration. "But of all that I have discovered that I feel for you none of it has anything to do with pity. Last night and hopefully tonight marks a new beginning in our relationship. Qui-Gon has nothing to do with it trust me. "
He nodded and looked down at his feet.
She took her hands and lifted his chin until his eyes met hers. "Do you believe me?"
He saw warmth and admiration in those eyes. He smiled and nodded. He did believe her. She sensed his relief and embarrassment at having thought so little of her. Wanting to move on with the evening she palmed her door.
"Want to come inside for some dinner and gambling." She moved her eyebrows seductively. He laughed at that and pulled her close to him.
"As good as that sounds I think I would much rather encourage the Temple rumor mill by having you on my arm all night." She looked at him doubtfully. After her obvious concern for him displayed at the meeting earlier she had no doubt that the rumor mill was already encouraged to its max and bleeding off in every direction. She wondered why he would want to be out instead of here safe with her.
Noticing her confusion he added, "I won't hide away from him. I have nothing to be ashamed of and he only has the power that I allow him to have over me. To hide away tonight would be giving him too much power. I won't make that mistake again. It almost killed me the last time. I fear I would not survive such a blow the next time." He paused and offered her his arm. "Shall we go?"
She stared at him in awe. He truly had come so far in recovering from all the damage Jinn had inflicted. She felt a warm wave of affect pulse through her. She took it rubbing his forearm sending waves of warmth through him as she did so. "Lets."
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Qui-Gon had felt a little guilty leaving Anakin alone in their new quarters their first night back in the Temple. Anakin had assured him that he was fine and that he would actually enjoy having some time alone to get his few possessions settled as he wanted. He also needed some time to familiarize himself with his new data pads and the course work that he had to catch up on coming in at mid-term as he was.
Qui-Gon had relented. Mace and he definitely needed time to mend fences and he had truly missed so many of his fellow Masters. He had sensed some hostility in the Chambers but had been greeted warmly by several of his old friends in the hallways of the Temple. Still the invitation to have a night out had come as a much welcomed surprise. He should have known that Mace would do whatever he could to help his old friend find his way back into Temple life.
Taking in the faces at the table Qui-Gon felt hopeful that this night might go a long way to putting things back as they had been before he had left. He knew he had done the right thing by taking Anakin away and that leaving the order was the only way he could have done that, but now the Force wanted him back in the community so he trusted it would help him find his place once more. He knew that in time he would be accepted once more.
The bar was relaxed and dimly lit. There were several Sabbac tables going as well as a fairly good crowd on the dance floor. He settled back into his chair enjoying Master Eco's description of his latest diplomatic disaster. Qui-Gon chuckled wondering how many other such disasters had occurred with him gone and no one to fill his shoes. His thoughts were drawn back by Master Eco's last comment.
"Excuse me Eco but I didn't catch that last part." Qui-Gon raised his voice indicating that the music had overridden the Master's words.
"I said if Kenobi had been available none of it would have occurred but he had been busy on the Triad negotiations. He has basically covered the galaxy this year as Chief Negotiator for the Council." He took another sip from his glass.
Qui-Gon sat silently for a moment trying to align what he had just heard with what he had erroneously assumed.
//Obi-Wan.// He thought. Of course he would have filled Qui-Gon's shoes. //That is what I trained him to do. // His curiosity now peaked he couldn't help but continue.
"So how did Obi-Wan fair his first year out?" Qui-Gon found himself briefly remembering his first few disastrous missions as well as those of his Padawan while they had been together.
"Actually," Mace began taking a long draw on his drink before continuing, "He has done a remarkable job. He has had a couple of dangerously close calls and functioning alone has made that aspect of the job more hazardous but all in all the Council is extremely pleased. "
Qui-Gon felt a wave of pride wash over him. His smile must have conveyed this as he realized all the other Masters at the table had grown quiet joining in the moment with him. There was no greater feeling for a teacher than to see their student succeed. Even though he had walked away before knighting the young man, he had been there for the vast majority of his training. He was allowed a little credit in the young man's success.
"That is very good news. I suspect he doesn't have much time at the Temple." The question hadn't meant to sound hopeful but somehow it had. Qui-Gon had been dreading the moment he and Obi-Wan would face each other again. He had no idea how he felt about their relationship let alone how his ex-apprentice felt about it.
"He is here very little, but his last mission has earned him a bit of down time. He is here for the next few weeks. We wanted him to teach a bit of the Astronavigation course that is if we can pull him away from the Creche Masters. According to them he is very gifted working with the youngest initiates." Each master nodded as Mace indicated to the server that they would be needing another round soon.
"Speak of the devil." Master Eco said causing all eyes to turn in the direction that the master was looking. Qui-Gon's breath caught as his eyes found his ex-Padawan standing in the entrance speaking to a group of young Knights.
Qui-Gon glanced over at Mace then returned his gaze to Obi-Wan. He realized then that Adi Gallia was standing next to him. He could go a life time without confronting her again. Upon closer inspection it was clear that the two had arrived together. This explained a great deal to Qui-Gon. The woman was protecting the boy. Obi-Wan had his arm around Adi's waist. They seemed to be enjoying a casual intimacy as they both laughed at whatever comment the tallest knight had just made. It was hard to gear whether they were two friends out for a laugh or if there was more involved.
//Could they be lovers?// He wondered.
Qui-Gon couldn't help but feel a bit panicked at the prospect of running into Obi-Wan on his first night back in the Temple. He was also fighting a sense of shock seeing the young man out with the older woman. Searching his feelings he discovered that the protectiveness he was sensing was hiding a twinge of jealousy.
He had had more than his own share of fantasies concerning Adi over the years. Adi had to be at least ten years older than Obi-Wan. He'd realized when Obi-Wan had been younger that he had had a bit of a crush on the female master, but it had passed as all crushes do.
He couldn't take his eyes off of them now. He looked good Qui-Gon realized. His hair had grown out some but even in the dim light of the club the soft ginger color lined with golded highlights branded him distinctly as Kenobi. He looked to be the same tight muscular build that Qui-Gon remembered but yet there was something different. It was in how he held himself. He stood with a self assurance that Qui-Gon didn't remember. He looked the epitome of a Jedi Knight. He felt a lump form in his throat. How could he have missed so much over the years? How many times had he looked upon his apprentice and missed what a honorable and good man he was?
Lost in his thoughts he didn't realize that Mace had exchanged his old drink for a new one. Picking up the glass he was surprised by its new weight. He glanced back at Mace who had obviously been watching him as he spied his ex-apprentice.
"What?" Qui-Gon asked hoping Mace wouldn't answer.
"Nothing." Mace replied turning back to the table.
"Should we ask them over?" Plo asked.
It was obvious that he was asking Qui-Gon more than anyone else at the table. Qui-Gon shrugged indifferently hoping his trepidation wasn't as obvious as it felt.
Master Eco was on his feet calling and waving before anyone could have interceded. Adi spotted him and waved back indicating that they would be over in a moment. She then turned to Obi-Wan who had his back to the table still talking with the other knights.
She whispered something to him and then was pulling him playfully over to the table. He was still trying to find out what the hurry was when they arrived at the table. Turning to their destination his eyes locked onto Qui-Gon's. He froze as did Adi. His mind was racing as was his heart. He felt his mouth go dry. He could sense that Adi was as surprised as he was to find his ex-master seated before them. He reached out to the Force and it steadied him.
There was a brief moment of awkward silence before Obi-Wan bowed slightly to his ex-master "Master Jinn I was told you were returning. I trust your journey was a good one." His tone was perfunctory. Qui-Gon's heart sank a bit. Such formality from one he knew so well.
"Yes thank you. Is it KNIGHT Kenobi now isn't it? " Qui-Gon ventured hesitantly. Obi-Wan nodded once.
Not wanting the conversation to end Qui-Gon picked up where he had left off "Yes it was a good journey. Thank you for asking." Obi-Wan nodded once more in polite acknowledgement.
"Mace, Plo, Eco, I see you are all staying out of trouble." Adi broke in trying to relieve the tension. She had not noticed Qui-Gon at the table and could feel the battle of emotions Obi-Wan was struggling to win next to her.
"We are doing our best to get into trouble actually, "Mace kidded," But trouble knows better than to mess with us." Obi-Wan joined the others in their laughter though he hadn't a clue what Mace had said. He had been too busy trying to think of a gracious way to excuse himself from their presence.
"Pull up a chair you two. " Plo made a gesture to some chairs at the next table that were not in use.
"We'd love to Plo," Adi began quickly pulling Obi-Wan closer as she did so, "But we made a bet at dinner and this knight has to pay up. It was really good to see you all."
She glanced around the table once more her expression unreadable when she reached Qui-Gon. Obi-Wan gave a tight smile and turned with her as they made their way out onto the dance floor.
"Are they seeing each other now?' Eco's voice was muffled as he continued to stare at the couple now dissolving into each other's arms on the dance floor.
"I didn't know about it." Plo replied also watching how well they moved together.
"Well that could have been much worse." Mace interrupted their thoughts his gaze back on Qui-Gon.
Qui-Gon had yet to lift his eyes from the table. He hadn't been able to sense Obi-Wan. It was as if he were any other knight or master in the room. He had felt nothing. It filled him such sadness he struggled to swallow it before looking back up. It was only in that moment that he truly realized how much he missed the quick silver presence in his mind.
"He was very polite." Eco offered not knowing what else to say. He had always cared for both Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan. He had never agreed with how Qui-Gon had treated the young man but had decided long ago not to take sides but instead to do his best to support them both.
"Yes he was. Wasn't he?" Qui-Gon's voice sounded tired. "The perfect little diplomat he was. But then again that was what I trained him to be." Qui-Gon tried to joke but it fell terribly flat. He could see now the conflict in the masters around him. They felt a loyalty to him out of their past history, but they also felt a loyalty to Obi-Wan out of respect. Judging from the look in their eyes, they felt pity for Qui-Gon. He could hardly stand to meet their gazes.
He took another long drink. He glanced back up just in time to see Obi-Wan and Adi slip out the exit. He had hoped to catch the young man's eye once more. Obi-Wan had been so cool before. Surely the chill he had felt would thaw.
He thought back to the eyes that had locked with his earlier. He had seen such weariness in those eyes and something else. Qui-Gon had seen that certain something in those striking blue-green eyes before. It took him a moment to remember where he had seen it. Once he realized he felt his spirit buoy within him. It had been on Haven when he had been trying to convince Obi-Wan to return with him to Coruscant. He had returned with Qui- Gon then just as now the Master felt the faint whisper of hope within him that Obi-Wan would be his again. All because of that certain something he had seen in the boys' eyes. That certain something was love. That love gave Qui-Gon hope.
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Ok so it wasn't high noon at the Ok Corral but it isn't their last meeting merely their first. Hang in there with me. I promise the best is yet to come. Love all the reviews. Thanks it really helps to keep me motivated.