I have never felt so alone
Since the time we left ourselves
Half past gone
We've been living here up against the red
I've been feeling I'm dead again
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As strange as it sounds, while I'm hunting for Warren to kill him, I'm thinking about everything but Warren and Tara. I'm thinking about hurting Anya at the Magic Box when I absorbed all that magic. No, I don't feel that way about Anya, I maybe Gay now, but not desperate, besides I just lost Tara. No, I was just remembering how we used to fight and she accused me of wanting Xander. Maybe at one time I wanted Xander, but that was before everything changed. My first memories are me and Xander playing together, but he never saw me as anything but a best friend. Our only indiscretion was that bad time during senior year; I'm still not sure how that happened. Then Oz left and I reached out to my witchcraft and that was right where I met Tara, as shy and as quiet as I had been before Buffy. She was me in so many ways. Now, I've lost her and that old me completely. I'm never going to be that shy little computer nerd, that girl who thought she was cool because she had a boyfriend in the band, or that lesbian Wicca who had powerful magic. I'm not sure what I am, but it's nothing I've ever been before.
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As strange as it sounds, while I'm hunting for Warren to kill him, I'm thinking about everything but Warren and Tara. I'm thinking about hurting Anya at the Magic Box when I absorbed all that magic. No, I don't feel that way about Anya, I maybe Gay now, but not desperate, besides I just lost Tara. No, I was just remembering how we used to fight and she accused me of wanting Xander. Maybe at one time I wanted Xander, but that was before everything changed. My first memories are me and Xander playing together, but he never saw me as anything but a best friend. Our only indiscretion was that bad time during senior year; I'm still not sure how that happened. Then Oz left and I reached out to my witchcraft and that was right where I met Tara, as shy and as quiet as I had been before Buffy. She was me in so many ways. Now, I've lost her and that old me completely. I'm never going to be that shy little computer nerd, that girl who thought she was cool because she had a boyfriend in the band, or that lesbian Wicca who had powerful magic. I'm not sure what I am, but it's nothing I've ever been before.