Summary: A moment of passion changes everything for Max and Alec.
Disclaimer: I own them in my dreams.
Without You, I Am Nothing
Max's POV
I wake up in his arms, feeling his soft, hard flesh pressing against me. His arms enveloping me, wrapping me in his strength.
I watch him as he opens his eyes, his soulful green eyes connect with mine. For a brief moment I feel free, free and happy?. Because of him, and I smile up at him.
Then reality hit's me like an anvil. What the hell am I doing, this is wrong, this is…. Alec. The guy who'd been a thorn in my side, since he'd come into my cell at Manticore and announced he was my breeding partner.
The person responsible for me and Logan, the man I loved…. Love, not being able to touch. Confusion and shame overwhelm me.
I pull away from him, "oh God no, what the hell have I done", his eyes find mine, fear and confusion war within them, climbing from the bed, I dress quickly, not looking at him, wanting, no needing to be as far away from him as possible.
I can feel the tears slipping from my eyes, running down my face as I pull on my boots.
I turn and walk towards the door, praying to a God I don't believe in to let me get out of here before he can say anything. I almost make it, when he speaks, "don't go, not like this, last night", I don't wait to hear the rest, "last night was a mistake, it should never have happened, it meant…. Nothing".
Do I believe the words I speak, I don't know, all I know is that I'm scared, scared of what happened and scared of what could happen next.
I just wanted him to shut up, and he did. I leave slamming the door behind me, and then I am running, running away, like I always do.
It's what I do best.
I am feared
I am scared
I am mocked
Without you
I am nothing